because i love all of these people

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The Big Gay Sketch Show - Season 3

I like being a lady among men… I’m not sick of lesbian jokes, I think they’re all true, and I love them. I love that if I wanted to walk around and not shave my legs and have a bad attitude, wear a belt buckle the size of a burrito, I could. I could, and that would be okay because people expect that of me, and I like that people expect that of me. - Kate McKinnon

ahh a couple weeks back I sent you a message asking you what I should do when the people around me weren’t supportive of my art. You were super kind and inspiring about it and recently you’ve been a huge inspiration and because of you I decided to make this work ! Thank you so much for being a great person and so influential to all of your followers, I hope you continue posting and inspiring us all !!

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GREG WEISMAN IS MY HERO

Can we take 5 minutes to read it? I Love how Greg support LGBTQ people and how he don’t care about Twitter Hate. Ok dearies, all of us know about Marie Logan aka Garfield Logan’s Mother (Beast Boy). But what do you think about it? who can be the others LGBTQ CHARACTERS!?!? I hope Bluepulse! Obviously because is my favorite ship, as a Bisexual Mexican Boy, I Love Jaime Reyes and his relationship with Bart Allen, even if only are Best Friends. We saw Poison Ivy on Season One and she’s officially Bisexual, hope se more about her and Harley on Season 3. In the animated movies we have 2 LGBTQ CHARACTERS and I need them on Young Justice, John Constantine (Bi) and Batwoman (Lesby). And also Aqualad and Jericho are Bisexuals on the comics. In my opinion, Kaldur don’t need a girlfriend or boyfriend, he need time to forget Tula. Hope see Jericho and Slade on S3, even if he’s not Bi, love him since Teen Titans. Love you all!
i want to remember the good things, like the first time i saw you in your grandfather’s suit. i want to remember you turning the radio down on the 401 so you could concentrate on the steering wheel because there was a snowstorm and you’d promised my mother you’d get me home safe. i want to remember speed walking through the crowd after the fireworks, when you knew there were too many people and how badly i needed to leave that place. and i know i’m awful at keeping it this way, my head just ain’t what it used to be lately. it’s hard to stay focused on anything good for more than five minutes. but i want to remember the good things, the bad wasn’t all that bad. i’m trying to keep it at bay. please believe me when i say that.
—  a.m

CONFESSION: 

Dagna has always been one of my favorite characters because she reminds me of myself. I’m a science major who gets so into talking about stuff and gets so excited. I always feel like I have to apologize for getting excited and going on tangents, but the love for Dagna this fandom has makes me feel like people might enjoy my tangents too. It just means so much to me when someone loves something so much that they get through all opposition and hardship to do what they want to.

 what.  the.  heck.  the  facts  alone  are  enough  to  floor  me.  i  started  writing  on  this  blog  on  march  15.  i’ve  done  more  than  my  fair  share  of  fangirling  over  this  live  action  beauty  and  the  beast  movie.  i  actually  made  this  blog  ON  A  WHIM,  thinking  that  there  would  be  sparse  to  no  support  or  interest  in  this  hairy  beast  man,  thinking  that  i  would  be  discouraged  after  everyone  wrote  off  the  movie  as  some  sort  of  bust.  i  was  so  very  nervous  making  this  blog  because  i  know  how  live-action  remakes  often  are.  but  …  everyone  loved  it.  and  somewhere  in  that  time,  i  fell  in  love  with  him  and  everything  surrounding  him.  this  is  one  of  the  places  i  look  forward  to,  and  i  need  to  thank  all  of  you  for  being  so  welcoming  and  supportive  in  my  portrayal  !!!
  …  this  list  is  going  to  be  primarily  a  batb  rp  community  love  list,  to  expose  all  the  cute  people  in  this  fandom.  here  we  go.


 first  off  :  THE  BEASTIE  BABES.  thank  you  for  following  me  and  making  me  smile.  please,  to  everyone  following  me,  consider  following  these  beautiful  babes  in  addition.  all  very  good  portrayals,  all  fresh.  REALLY  !

🌹  @a-melancholy-heart  🌹  @bcastmade  🌹  @beastfated  🌹  @debete  🌹  @monstrcs  🌹  @petalbound  🌹  @shesstillhere  🌹  @themelancholyhearted  🌹  

 THE  WIVES  (  AND  ONE  HUSBAND  ).  all  of  you.  every  single  one.  sorry,  we’re  married  now.  all  of  you  are  so  unique,  so  precious,  and  so  wonderful  at  everything  you  do.  you’re  all  damn  good,  you’re  all  unique,  and  you’re  all  beautiful.


@finalpetal  is  the  fandom  wife.    🌹   even  if  she  makes  adam  sleep  on  the  couch.

@bcautymade  🌹  @bcllerose  🌹  @beyondappearance  🌹  @bookbraved  🌹  @coeurseveille  🌹  @fearlessrcse  🌹  @fragilcminds  🌹  @inopinato  🌹  @jeveuxaventure  🌹  @laventuriere  🌹  @laxbeautex  🌹  @lcbeau  🌹  @meansbeauty  🌹  @nothinglasts  🌹  @oddbeautied  🌹  @peculiarbcauty  🌹  @petalwritten  🌹  @plutotbizarre  🌹  @prxvincialife  🌹  @rcveuse  🌹  @rosepicked  🌹  @sebriser  🌹  @thebeauty  🌹  @theirguest  🌹  @yearnsadventure  🌹 

 THE  SERVANTS  IN  THIS  CASTLE  !!!  your  portrayals  of  this  talking  furniture  make  my  world  go  round.  thank  you  for  staying  with  me  and  letting  adam  know  that  he’ll  never  be  alone.

@candlstk  🌹  @cgsworth  🌹  @chippcd  🌹  @chippercup  🌹  @dcntalpain  🌹  @depoussiiere  🌹  @elledeplume  🌹  @frenchcandle  🌹  @luminctte  🌹  @mrspotts  🌹  @plumettc  🌹  @ruffledfeathcrs  🌹  @soisnotreinvite  🌹  @thechippedcxp  🌹 @timefey  🌹​  @traversina  🌹  @unnervingservants  🌹

 THE  PARENTS.  must  i  say  any  more  ??  love  you.  xox

@reinemalheureuse  /  @fcarlessbeauty   🌹  @rosedesang  🌹

 THOSE  WHO  FILL  OUR  WORLD  !!!  you  batb  writers  outside  this  fandom.  wow,  all  of  you  are  actually  super  hilarious  and  you  all  light  up  provincial  life  a  little  more.


@antlerdecor  🌹  @bargesized  🌹  @burlybrute  🌹  @decoratedhunter  🌹  @gasttcn  🌹  @gcston  🌹  @jcligarcon  🌹  @lcfou  🌹  @lefoc  🌹  @mywhataguy  🌹  @lesenchantes  🌹  @tuerlabete  🌹  @vraiebete  🌹  

 and  this  ‘little’  list  of  people  who  write  with  me,  who  have  liked  my  stuff  (  i  see  you  there  ),  who  have  complimented  me  worth  a  thousand  people.  wow.  i’m  more  scared  of  you  than  you  of  me.  THANK  YOU  !

@adroitic  🌹  @aftcrshocks  🌹  @alleyspat  🌹  @alphadcll  🌹  @arcusignis  🌹  @asundrop  🌹  @beastologist  🌹  @blggr  🌹  @booiisms  🌹  @cavetigrim  🌹  @cerseilionesslannister  🌹  @cinephiliac  🌹  @cluefound  🌹  @crownedwinter  🌹  @diealive  🌹  @dxdger  🌹  @emeraldoutlaw  🌹  @expelledwitch  🌹  @flattcringchild  🌹  @forgedusk  🌹  @fractiliis  🌹  @geniusfuturist  🌹  @goodliest  🌹  @gunkanjiima  🌹  @handofhonor  🌹  @hcntsman  🌹  @hiddensteel  🌹  @honnleathrose  🌹  @honoreflected  🌹  @honourofwesterling  🌹  @horcruxmade  🌹  @icaryian  🌹  @ignatiius  /  @vicemirrored  🌹  @illegitimatesnow  🌹  @inusitus  /  @blasterforce  🌹  @invictusmanet  🌹  @ismiracle  🌹  @kingsleigh  🌹  @kingwhocared  🌹  @lagaudiiere  🌹  @lastorgana  🌹  @leomatrem  🌹  @libertinedeath  🌹  @lietold  🌹  @lionwept  🌹  @littlclctte  🌹  @mademonstrosity  🌹  @meddlingheels  🌹  @moonsworn  🌹  @motherwolf  🌹  @nchntrss  🌹  @needlcd  🌹  @oceancalled  🌹  @ofbrcvery  🌹  @ofvaliancy  🌹  @outlawerofbeets  🌹  @podstye  /  @wclfinthenorth  /  @lostahand  🌹  @predative  🌹  @prettyfoole  🌹  @princelycharmed  🌹  @qceenmother  🌹  @ragexfilled  🌹  @rainbowguard  🌹  @rosecrime  🌹  @sangrantc  🌹  @sanguris  🌹  @sansavis  🌹  @sapphircknight  /  @stcnequeen  🌹  @scarredhound  🌹  @searedrebirth  🌹  @selfsouled  🌹  @showmaxter  🌹  @sleepcursed  🌹  @snaremaker  🌹  @snowinabottle  🌹  @soulrisen  🌹  @southerncomfortoutlaw  🌹  @spacehated  🌹  @stillcominback  /  @andalasiian   🌹  @stormland  🌹  @suaverogue  🌹  @subsolanus  🌹  @sunshinemade  🌹  @tegeros  🌹  @tethereddivine  🌹  @tetramother  🌹  @thickcrskiin  🌹  @thornedbloom  🌹  @thysusan  🌹  @timefather  🌹  @truekindness  🌹  @undomae  🌹  @unfckablc  🌹  @unseenmockingjay  🌹  @vainstruck  🌹  @veniials  🌹  @vviridis  🌹  @wentquick  🌹  @whitehawlc  🌹  @wildwclf  🌹  @wintercrowned  🌹  @wolfsouled  🌹  @woodlandking  🌹  @woreglasses  🌹  @xaedificare  🌹  @xhermyx  🌹

 AND  BIG,  BIG  LOVE  TO  ALL  OF  MY  FOLLOWERS  ;  even  the  ones  not  on  this  list.  honestly,  you  are  all  …  a  delight  to  have  here  !!!  i  have  so  many  kisses  and  hugs  to  offer  you.  please  come  talk  to  me.  xox


I believe Jesus calls us to love the unlovable. However, all to often Christians believe if sin isn’t tucked away hidden deep and out of sight than we are not “true Christians.“ But the truth is that person struggling openly with alcoholism is loved by God just as much as the house wife struggling with anger. The heroine addict is loved just as much by God as the Pastor who neglects his family. The young girl selling lap dances is loved just as much by God as the teacher who has a hidden porn addiction. Evangelism is messy because people are messy. We all need Grace and time to grow. And truly if you are confused, sin is sin regardless if it’s all wrapped up in a pretty little box or all out in the open for the world to see.
—  Andrea Barrett Cuyler
WHO DO THE SIGNS PARTNER WITH DURING A PROJECT?
  • Aries: Tries to partner up with the smartest kid in the class, but they get rejected so they end up partnering up with a friend.
  • Taurus: The smartest person in class.
  • Gemini: I hate to be THAT person, but they're going to partner with their other personality. PLEASE DON'T FIGHT ME, I CAN'T HANDLE TWO PEOPLE AT ONCE. (I LOVE GEMS, I'M TRASH)
  • Cancer: Their parents
  • Leo: Friends! Friends! And more friends!
  • Virgo: Death because they would literally rather die than work on a group project.
  • Libra: Their phone, their plan is to just wing everything and use the internet for suggestions and to pass time.
  • Scorpio: No one, we hate our peers and could do a better job on a project alone.
  • Sagittarius: Wants to partner with a friend, but will probably end up partnering with a random without a partner.
  • Capricorn: Whoever asks to be their partner first, unless they hate the first person who asks.
  • Aquarius: A friend and either completely fails the assignment or does an awesome job.
  • Pisces: With a close friend, but probably ends up hating them by the time the project is over.

It happens in the early days, when Dan is still trying to find his footing on the show. Jon has just left and it feels like the entirety of the internet is angry at Dan for taking his place, which Arin warned him might happen. But Arin keeps saying ‘just be yourself’ and ‘they’ll love you, I promise’ and- it helps. A little. Arin has been so encouraging, so consistently positive. He’s always finding ways to make Dan smile.

Dan only brings it up on the show because Arin makes him laugh and he feels all warm and he wants to sing Arin’s praises. But he starts off with, “So, as you know, people haven’t exactly been, uh, super welcoming-“

And Arin is quick to interrupt. “Dude, fuck ‘em. They just need to get to know you. Like I do.”

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There are so many great fics out there that need to be recognized! If you find something you like on this list, be sure to show it the appreciation it deserves with likes, reblogs, and messages to the author! I hope you can find something to enjoy, and remember that if you’d like me to see your work, be sure to tag me in it!

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Dear People Who Run Anti Blogs,

Do you ever get tired of being negative all the time?

I mean, it must be so exhausting living your life so full of hatred.

Like, are you okay? I can’t imagine the kind of shit life you lead that you can only be happy by putting other people down.

I hope that you find some peace Anti Bloggers. Because negativity gets you nowhere.

You should focus on promoting the things you love instead of wasting your time and energy bashing the things you hate.

anonymous asked:

*sighs* tony looks so good in the new spiderman trailer

concurred, that all black suit is a #look

i.
“but you don’t look autistic”
i know, it’s shocking
i’m sure you were expecting scaly green skin
or another pair of eyes hidden beneath my bangs
but take a look
two legs, two arms, on pair of eyes
i look just like you
i look like a human
because that’s what i am
autism does not have a costume
our wardrobe isn’t embroidered with puzzle pieces and the color blue
funnily enough
like everyone else on this earth
people with autism are all different
our experiences are not stagnate across the globe 
and just because i can disguise my stims
doesn’t mean i am more or less autistic than someone who cannot
and believe it or not
saying that is not a compliment

ii.
yes
autistic people can have jobs
we can be loved by someone other than our family members
we can drive
and go shopping
not all of us are nonverbal
and while most of us cannot handle the horrors of eye contact
and certain stimuli
  once again
we’re all different
try not to act so surprised when we’re able to appear just as neurotypical as you

iii.
“oh, so you’re like Rain Man?”
if this is your way of implying that you can drop a bunch of toothpicks on the ground and then ask me how many there are
kindly fuck off

iv.
“autism is a disease and i’m sure they’ll find a cure for you”
we are not sick
we are not suffering
illnesses are contagious
you can’t catch autism
it isn’t going to spread if you get too close to me
this isn’t rocket science
it isn’t that hard to understand
you either have autism
or you never will
and more importantly
there is nothing about us that needs to be cured

v.
instead of listening to a fear mongering
hate spreading
poor representation
unsupportive
harmful group that markets itself on our existence and feels the need to “fix” autistic people
why not just listen to autistic people instead?
—  Five Myths / Things You Should Know About People with Autism
(cc, 2017)

anonymous asked:

Could you possibly name these mutuals? I'm looking for more people to follow 😁

Hehe sure! Prepare for a super long list though because I’m just gonna list all my mutuals <3 (I’m sorry if I miss anyone, I promise I still love you!)

@astro-child @berry-happy-tokki @btsfeelz @bulletproofbookworm @busan-skyline @cup-of-stars @daesungisbaesung @dark-jewel-mist @dyegu @heypon @ilovewonu @echoofalongforgottenflame @ineffableboyfriends @insearchofanexit @jihyped @jikoo-k @jikook-love @drpuffles @jikookiejar @jikookjikook @kooksgf @krushed @mintsugakookies @montrealae90 @rivertoforever @saltyauntsuga @sassyjun @sevensoulmates @shiningjin @shycutebts @shyjimins @smolhotchocolate @snapchattingyoonkook @somethingddakjoah @springjeon @strawberry-laudanum @sugakookie @sugakookie-jar @sugakookiesworld @sugaspun @sugastruck @sugodemic @supermanscrib @taehyungssmiles @taesmin @taetaetown @tanktoptiger @the-orgasmic-cypher @useoyaji @warriorrbunny @wortmalerei @yahjiminie @yoohkook @yoonvkook @yoonxkooks @yourpinkpill @yumebaah

They’re all amazing blogs and people! Most are either jikook or sugakookie blogs, but also writers, giffers, informants, theorists, just a lot of great people! Go check some out if you’d like ^-^

Forgiveness and Love.

Just wanted to reiterate how beautiful some of the themes are in our show.

Maggie made a rather big mistake in her past, saying ‘it was a long time ago’, but the shame and fear of not being accepted by the person she loves caused her to lie about her past. (Sound familiar?)

Alex fully embraced Maggie with forgiveness, (even after landing herself in hot water with Sawyers ex girlfriend getting all accusing and thinking Maggie was the good guy in the situation). Because she understood Maggie’s reasons, her fear, her heart, and was entirely THERE for her girlfriend. It was a beautiful moment.

‘I thought you were perfect, but its nice to know you have problems too.’ – By goodness I loved that line, because often the people we adore disappoint us when they don’t meet our high and mighty expectations. But its such a relief to know that people are normal, and make mistakes, and are still loveable, are still beautiful, and are still worthy of acceptance and to be in relationships with other people. People make mistakes. People let fear cloud judgement and drive decisions. But forgiveness, and love. My word those things are beautiful.

im so sorry for this lmao

i saw beauty and the beast tonight so fuckin humor me and my disney loving ass here alright 

a philkas batb au because im trash for any and all au’s this isnt new

okay so basically

  • philip is the beast.
  • but he isnt the beast because hes selfish or unkind or a horrible person. philip is the beast because of what has been done to him.
  • all of the horrible things he experienced in his life turned him into this angry person who didnt believe people were capable of goodness
  • he didnt think he deserved goodness
  • this is what he was taught growing up, and he didnt know any better.
  • on the night his mother was killed, the last shred of belief that people could be good died with her. and so he became a represenation of what he saw people as: monsters
  • the castle was once just a house for orphans. it was huge and beautiful and it was a good place to live
  • but philip couldnt see that. 
  • when philip changes, the house and everyone inside changes, too. the children become the clocks and the candelabras and the settees and the dishes.
  • there isnt an outright curse, but there is a cure for whatever made philip change
  • he has to love and be loved; he has to see that people are capable of doing good things; he has to see that he too is capable and deserving of them
  • years pass, and philip is alone, cuz thats how the story goes (this may be a really stupid au but im sticking to the story a lil bit cmon yall)
  • then one day a woman stumbles onto the castle, thirsty and lost
  • she finds the door, and thinking no one is there, goes inside. and when she finds water and food, she eats, and she drinks, because shes dying, and the castle appears empty
  • and thats how lukas, the farmboy, ends up at the castle. searching for his mother.
  • he takes his mothers place
  • we all know how the story goes from here
  • philip is cold and has completely forgotten how to be kind (he was kind as a child, but it died away as he grew older)
  • but one day lukas ends up outside and he finds this old bicycle and he fixes it up and starts riding it around and philip just watches him
    • he watches him laugh and fall on his ass and smile and it wakes something inside him
  • he starts to open up to lukas, and lukas starts to open up to him
  • lukas is hesitant because where he comes from, boys arent with boys, and they definitely arent with beast boys
  • but he starts to care for him anyway
  • and then lukas gets word that his mother is sick
  • philip lets him go, knowing that this will be the end, that lukas wont come back.
  • and when the village comes for lukas’ mother, to escort her out of the village rather than treat her, for fear of her spreading the plague, philip goes
  • he brings lukas’ mother to the castle and they do everything they can
  • it isnt enough
  • she dies and lukas loses it
  • hes trashing things and yelling and philip doesnt know what to do
    • this boy with the smile and the laugh is breaking apart and he doesnt know what to do or how to help him
  • so he starts to tell him a story about a boy just like lukas, who lost his mother
  • who saw so much darkness in the world, who was fed so much darkness, that he ended up becoming it
  • and he tells him about a boy who showed up on that monsters doorstep and showed him that maybe he was wrong
  • maybe the world wasnt all bad
  • and lukas just wraps his arms around him and cries, and philip is so focused on trying to comfort lukas that he doesnt realize hes changing
  • he doesnt realize until lukas pulls away, and looks at him, and brings a hand up to his face
  • and philip looks down at his own hands, steadying lukas’ shoulders, and he sees flesh
  • and then theyre hugging and theyre kissing and both of them are crying, over their mothers, over the bad and the dark things, over each other
  • and when theyre done, the children come downstairs, children once again
  • and they live happily ever after
  • because is there any other way, really?

i juST WANNA LOOK IN THE SHEITH TAG WITHOUT ANTIS POPPING UP IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?!?!?!
I ship mostly Shieth and Klance and nothing else, but I love seeing art of all the ships people ship from the show, bc PEOPLE R SO TALENTED UGH, bUT you DON’T SEE ME COMPLAINING ABOUT HOW MUCH I HATE A CERTAIN SHIP AND SEE ME TRASH TALK PEOPLE FOR IT! GOOD LORD! I’ve never told a Kallura shipper “kill yourself” or “stop making art of this ship I HATE IT” because, for one, that’s cyber bulling, and two, they’ve probably put a lot of time into their work and me saying rude things will probably make them self conscious about ever posting their art again. I’ve never seen a shipping war as bad as this in any fandom besides this one, like it turns people away from the Voltron fandom and the show in general. The voice actors and everyone else with the show would be so disappointed if they saw this much hate going back and forth over their shows characters. Smh.

Since we’re at the end and I’ve never really been a part of a fandom before I wanted to take a moment because I have too many feelings.

Shoutout to each and every one of my followers first and foremost. Thank you all for taking an interest in my blog; I never dreamed I’d have so many of you :) 

I tried to say a little something for everyone I tagged but for those of you I didn’t, just fill it in that your blog is awesome, you’re awesome, and people should follow you.

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@anationofthieves  ​I know you’re not active rn but I loved all your posts and your gorgeous gifsets   that I’ll probably never be able to do haha 

@candlewindsI live to read your anon replies and your tags and your gifsets

@captain-flintThe very first Sails blog I followed and the Queen of Gifsets. <3 

@crucifythenburn​ (Trinity) I heart your shining personality on tumblr and your incredible Silverflint fic I Will Try To Fix You which everyone and their mother’s sister should be reading

@char7​ (Charley) <3  A gal after my own heart. I swear our brains are wired together; I agree with most everything she says about Sails and politics RPJ and everything else we’ve ever chatted about. And your sense of humor is fantastic

@dimplesflint​ (Mer) We are relatively new mutuals but I’ve followed you since your pianka days. Your Flint gifsets are positively scrumptous and thank you so much for commenting on a couple of my fics on AO3!! It meant a lot.

@ellelan(Elle) BS CATS FOREVER! You inspired me to make the Flint/Ginger Cat post, the first of several. So much fun. You’re such a great personality and the fandom wouldn’t be the same without your beautiful edits and words of wisdom (and your naughty thoughts for fics >:)  

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…I’ll just be over here sobbing quietly now.

Letters to Bucky (Part 11)

What?! Two updates in one day! Yes! If you’re missing any updates, catch up HERE!
Hang on lovelies, because this one was rough. Thank you for the love/comments/ likes/reblogs/ comments, you all are the best!
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“Move.” Tony wove his way through the group of people in the lobby of the medical center. “Move!” he snapped louder, and the crowd started parting to make way.

“What can I do for you, sir?” the bored looking receptionist asked.

“Just directions to the elevator.” he said quickly. “I need to be up on the eighth floor right now.”

“I’m sorry sir, no one is allowed past the third floor without an appointment. Do you have an appointment, sir?” she didn’t look up once as she recited what she had doubtless said hundreds of times before.

“Are you serious? Do you know who I am?” Tony whipped off his sunglasses, and she glanced up then.

“Handsome and stressed?’ she shrugged. “Do you have an appointment?”

“I don’t need a fucking appointment!” he yelled. “You call Dr Persson and tell him that Tony fucking Stark is standing downstairs NOW!”

“Shouting isn’t going to get you anywhere, sir, now if you would please repeat your name-”

“Oh my god, what in the actual–”

“Tony!” he stopped talking when someone called his name across the lobby. “Tony Stark!”

“Wow, someone in this backwards country actually–”

“Maybe you don’t insult the Germans, huh?” Steve silenced him with a firm handshake and a quick comment. “Captain Steven Rogers.”

“Steve. Wow.” Tony looked away for a second to collect himself, to swallow back the emotion suddenly clogging throat, then met his gaze again. “Good to meet you, Captain. Wish it was under better circumstances.”

“You and me both.” Steve led him across the room to the elevators, pushing the button for the eighth floor. “I had kind of assumed I’d meet you at the wedding or something but–”

“Are you getting married?’ Tony asked, hardly caring, but trying for polite.

“I meant yours and Bucky’s wedding.” Steve said, and Tony snapped his head around so fast his neck audibly popped. “And I was completely joking.” Steve added, holding his hands up.

“It’s fine.” Tony took a deep breath. “It’s..fine. So he is…”

“Not doing great.” Steve finished. “But you will understand more when you see him.”

“Alright.”
Silence fell in the elevator, until it slid to a smooth stop and the doors opened. Steve went first, and Tony followed quickly, down a long hallway, several medical personnel and down another short corridor until they stood in front of large observation windows, staring at the form on the bed.

“Bucky.” Tony’s voice cracked, and he covered his mouth with his hand. “What the fuck. What in the actual fuck is going on? Why is he strapped down? He’s not a fucking animal, he needs medical attention! Where the hell is–”

“Tony.” Steve said quietly, and pointed, as two doctors carefully uncovered his left arm.

“Oh Jesus. No no no.” Tony shook his head, staring at the absolute mess that was Bucky’s left arm. “What-what–” he stopped talking since he couldn’t do much more than swear, and crossed his arms, waiting for an explanation from the big blond soldier.

“I found him in an abandoned hospital, about a hundred and ten miles west of the farthest place the unit and I Had searched. Not more than a four hour drive as the crow flies, but we just never made it that far. Not in that terrain. It would have taken us weeks to cover all that ground, searching the way we were.”

“Not blaming you.” Tony said, barely audible. “Not even close.”

“Thank you. Because I’ve been beating myself up for days. Ever since I found him. Kicking myself for not pushing the unit harder to find him.” Steve cleared his throat. “He was sedated, handcuffed and strapped to a medical table. He was unconscious the entire time, until the plane arrived to get him out of there. Then he woke up and went to move and his arm- that, that piece of metal.” Steve was breathing harder. “He went to move his left arm, and it’s not all the way, um attached?- so he went to move, and I saw all those cords and wires jerk like..like nerves. And he just…screamed.” Steve rested his forehead against the glass. “Tony, I’ve never heard a man scream like that. His head was all bandaged up, there’s so many stitches under his hair, I don’t understand what they were–

“The metal arm is wired into his brain.” Tony explained dully, not able to take his eyes off the still-as-death soldier lying in the other room.” “His mind thinks it’s his real arm. Thinks the wires are nerves. And it’s nearly severed from his body. But it’s not, so all those  wire nerves are just open and exposed and telling his mind how badly it hurts.”

“Good Christ.” Steve ran a hand over his face. “What the hell were they doing?”

“Exactly what we’re doing, just not as well.” he answered. “The super serum you injected yourself with has a robotic counterpart, which I have been working on. There were rumours that the Russians were working on the same thing and obviously–” he motioned to where Bucky lay so still. “They haven’t perfected it. Looks like they abandoned him half way through, just gave up and left him.”

“So what, they performed brain surgery on him? In some dirty hospital? And then just didn’t attach the arm all the way? I can’t imagine how much pain he’s in.”

“No.” Tony said quietly. “Neither one of us can.”

“I had to knock him out.” Steve confessed. “He was screaming, and I just…clocked him. Took him out with one punch. Wrapped the arm as close as I could to his chest and strapped him into the plane to get him home. They are pumping him full of sedatives all day to keep him still until they figure out how to help him. They seem to think they can’t just disconnect the arm, and they certainly can’t leave it there.”

“One punch?” Tony asked, eyebrows raised and Steve flexed his right hand.

“Before the super serum it might have taken two or three, but not anymore.”

“Side effects?”

“I don’t sleep a whole lot.” Steve said, still not taking his eyes off Bucky. “Ive become a lot more cautious, a lot more aware of my strength I suppose. I put a fifty pound punching bag through a wall when I was just warming up. Ran ten miles on the treadmill at the research facility in about thirty minutes. Maybe a little less, I’m not actually sure. Oh, and I’m actually two inches taller now. I used to be a flat six foot, now I’m six foot two and a little more.”

“Impressive.” Tony looked him over quickly. “So what, you juiced off and took off running across the desert?”

“Basically. I had to stay at the facility for a week, then they flew me back to base and I went looking for him. Not needing to stop to sleep a lot or even really rest made a difference.” he finally turned to look at Tony. “So you’re designing the robotics on our end? Is that why you are here? To try and fix this?”

“I’m here because it’s Bucky lying in that bed. I didn’t have any idea about the arm. But now that I’m here you can damn well count on it that I will be fixing that shit.”

They fell silent again, watching Bucky lying between all those machines.

“Do you love him?” Steve suddenly asked, but Tony didn’t answer, striding away down the hall, yelling for someone to find him Dr. Persson.
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“Mr. Stark, I understand you were–”

“So, a soldier gets rescued and has a metal arm grafted onto his body like some sort of Frankenstein experiment  and you didn’t think to call me?” Tony asked, pushing everything on the Doctors desk to the floor with a long sweep of his arms. He hefted a large suitcase onto the desk and opened it with a flourish.

“Well, we didn’t think–”

“That what? I wouldn’t want to see exactly how far along our Russian friends were with the same technology I’ve been working on?” Tony’s voice rose and the Doctor flinched.

“We were just going to–”

“Try to fix it yourselves? Leave that soldier sedated to the point of comatose and strapped down to a bed until he–he–” Tony took a deep breath, not even able to say the word. “You should have called me. You should be glad Captain Rogers called me. Kudos on the super serum by the way. Captain Rogers is the very definition of a successful super soldier and you should be proud of yourselves. Doesn’t mean I’m not still furious, but I will admit to being impressed.”

“Um, thank you?” the doctor said hesitantly, eyeing the pieces Tony was laying out on his desk. “Is that– did you bring an arm with you? Is this your prototype?’ his voice rose in excitement.

“I didn’t bring it with me, I had no reason to, considering you and your team had left me in the dark about this situation. However I had it sent over from New York, and you should be damn glad it got here so soon, because now we can fix this. Now we can fix him.”

“What do you need from me?”

“I need this desk, your lab, and for you to stay the absolute living fuck out of my way.”

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To Bucky
–I’m going to hurt you today and I’m so sorry for that. I have to remove the piece of shit they tried to graft onto you. Each wire I snip is going to hurt you, and when it’s all done I’m going to sit in my room and cry into my whiskey because I can’t handle this. But I am going to save you Bucky. I will. I promise.

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To: Bucky
– the arm is off, but the ends of the wires are still exposed. Short of cutting your skull open again and tracing each wire, I can’t just rip them out.
–your whole body spasmed every time I touched the wires, and it almost killed me. It nearly killed Steve. He’s a good guy, you were right. Do you know he volunteered for the super soldier program just so he could go out and find you?
-he’s my hero. You both are.
–I’m so sorry for hurting you soldier
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To: Bucky
–I had to watch today as they opened your head up. They could pinpoint where the nerves are spliced with the wires, or something. I don’t really understand it all to be honest. I’m not really paying attention to be honest. All I can think about is seeing you open your eyes. My favorite shade of blue. I can’t wait to see them again.
– the doctors are scared to death of me. I think they think I will pay to have them killed if they mess this up. Little do they know all I’d have to do is look at Steve and he would rip them apart.
–we are rooting for you soldier. Please wake up.
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To: Bucky
–I attached your new arm today, the one I designed. They pumped you full of that serum they gave Steve to speed the healing, and I grafted the arm right into your shoulder. It’s a clean fit, a good fit. The serum will pump your strength so you hardly even notice the difference in arms.
–this sounds awful to say, but when we tested it, but probing at the impulse switches implanted in your mind, it worked beautifully. Fingers twitched, arm flexed. It worked, Bucky. But I know underneath all that sedation you are still feeling some of this. When you wake up, you will be sore for weeks.
–I am so sorry for that. Sorry for my part in hurting you.
–please wake up from this.
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To: Bucky
–I cut your hair today. Gave you a shave. You will need a shower when you wake up, but at least I can see that sexy jaw line again. The scars on your shoulder and collarbone are brutal, but I like them. Because you will survive this. And the scars will remind us of all you made it through. And I’ll try some mouth to scar therapy when you wake up. It worked so well on me, it’s bound to work on you as well.
–wake up soldier. I’m tired of never getting a reply to these letters. I haven’t left your bedside yet, and I’m not going to.
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To: Bucky
–Okay, I might have lied in my last letter. I have to be gone for a few hours, dealing with the research team and doctors and trying to figure out what to do with this program from here. But I will be right back.
–i’m leaving a notepad by your bed so if you decide to be an asshole and wake up while i’m gone, you can leave me a note.
–it’s been a long three weeks, soldier, but I’m ready to talk to you again. It’s time to wake up. Please wake up.
–please write me back

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…..Tony
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The word was shaky, barely legible, barely more than chicken scratch on the notepad.

But when Tony had come back to the room, late that night, the notepad had been lying in Bucky’s lap, a pen dangling from limp fingers, and Tony dropped his head into his hands and finally let himself cry.

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