Opinion? You are very full of yourself. I won't deny that your graphics and icons are pretty, and you are a talented writer, but you are very clearly on your high horse. I remember you once said people were lucky if you followed them because "you only follow x amount of people" which, by the way, is not something you had to share. Again, you are talented. But you come off, at least to outsiders, as rude, unapproachable, and again, full of yourself.
SO. I know I was supposed to publish these without replying, but I’m going to answer this one. Because I think it’s an important criticism, and not answering it would be an injustice.
What makes us human is being able to review & adjust our behavior. And you’re right, nonnie.
I came to tumblr for the first time in January. I didn’t know how formatting worked or what the ticks and quirks of this website were. I hadn’t actually roleplayed in almost 2 years. I was coming to this big, vast place with lots of talented people who had been here for years. And in response to that floundering feeling, I acted like I was better than I am because I thought people wouldn’t like me. That was the wrong approach. I definitely tried to make myself less approachable so that people couldn’t get to me. It was meant to protect me, and ended up alienating people instead.
I’m not making excuses. I HAVE been exclusive, unapproachable, and at times, rude. It wasn’t the intention to seem full of myself, but I understand how that’s the impression it gave off. My friends and followers deserve better. There’s nothing to say other than you’re right and I’m sorry.
You can message me if you want to write. Or chat, or vent, or say you hate me or whatever. I’m not too good for anyone or anything. I’m sorry for coming across that way. If I personally offended you, please know that it wasn’t on purpose, and you’re welcome to come to my IMs to express yourself. I’m still floundering on this website. But I can handle it better than this.
For now, I’m going to be a little less active on this blog. Not because of this anon ask, but because I’ve been feeling the weight of what this anon expresses for a while now. I get it, I do.
I just, like everyone, wanted people to like me. I went about it poorly. I’m sorry.