because i didn't want to leave anyone

1. i don’t know how to say this so i’m just going to say it - don’t text me anymore. don’t call me. don’t ask me how i am when you feel lonely. don’t check up on me. don’t tell me you’re doing well. i don’t want to hear it. i don’t want to hear it because you fucking broke me. GOODBYE.

2. hey, okay, sooo i thought i could be friends with you but it hurts too much. not that you hurt me that much. no, i’m okay. i don’t cry in the shower anymore. some nights i actually fall asleep before 4 a.m. but then there’s some nights where i think about you and her kissing and it’s all that’s on my mind for days. no, no, it’s not like that. it’s not that i love you anymore or that i’m jealous. i just hate you for what you did to me. so yeah, anyways, just thought you should know i don’t want to be friends. hope you’re doing well though. maybe our paths will cross again.

3. i told myself many, many months ago that if i wanted this to work, if i wanted us to be friends, i couldn’t talk to you about my feelings ever again. i couldn’t turn every conversation into our failed relationship. so for many, many months, i’ve been letting it eat at me instead. i don’t want it to eat at me anymore and you don’t want to listen to me whine so i think this has to end. sorry.

4. hey, listen: some days i’m fine, but the smallest things get to me. like i’m pretty sure i saw you on her snapchat story. it’s none of my business, but i’m really mad at you for it. i’m really mad that you still talk to that girl you chose over me and you still like all of these girls’ facebook photos but you never like mine. and it’s not fair for me to be mad at you for having friends or being happy, i have no right to be, you didn’t do anything wrong. but it still gets to me, still eats away at me, still makes me want to knock down your door and ask you why the fuck you had to leave, why you had to do anything you did, why i poured all of my love into you that i didn’t have any left for myself and you took it and gave it to somebody else. god, this hurts. i don’t want you to know how badly this hurts but it does. i’m leaving you and taking this hurt with me.

5. hey, hope you’re doing well, but this still feels like a nightmare i’ll never wake up from. and i’m sorry, i’m so fucking sorry, it’s not fair to you to have to listen to this shit because it’s been two whole years and i’m still not over it. and that’s my problem, not yours. it will never be your fault that i’m so goddamn sensitive. i’ve never been able to get over anything and i hate myself for it. please let me heal. please leave.

6. hey, remember the summer where i hooked up with the first guy who wasn’t you, when you had me blocked on everything and i couldn’t see what you were up to? well, i still read my posts from that summer and i was actually HAPPY. can you believe that? i was actually going about my life without you and i wasn’t thinking about what you did to me. but here i am again, thinking about it and the only thing that’s changed is that you speak to me. and i would love to be friends with you, i would, i’ve been trying so hard to be for months, but it’s making me so damn miserable. and i’m so jealous that she gets to be friends with you and i don’t. i’m sorry i’m not her. i’m sorry i never will be.

7. i’ve been ignoring your messages on purpose and you keep texting me again and it’s exhausting to have to ignore you all of the time and feel so guilty about it. i just don’t understand how you just don’t get the hint. so here’s a bigger one: LEAVE ME ALONE.

8. hey, okay, i know this is sudden but i don’t want to hear from you anymore. i don’t want to think about this anymore. i want to move on with my life and there’s no room for you in it. it was stupid of me to think that just because you’ve always been a good friend to me that we can be friends. we can’t.

9. hey. first off, i want to say i’m sorry, i just need to do what’s best for me. secondly, thank you for always being there when i needed you, but i don’t need you anymore. for now, it has to be just me. it feels like i’m breaking up with you and we’re not even dating, but this is it - this is goodbye. forever. don’t contact me.

10. all you ever did was hurt me. fuck you. i don’t want to see your stupid fucking name on my phone anymore. fucking get out. leave.

—  10 text messages i’m afraid to send because i don’t want to say goodbye to you, not again

anonymous asked:

Has anyone ever thought that maybe Sarah knows her books are problematic in some ways but keeps them that way bc it shows that the world isn't how we want it to be and even though the book could be written to make life equal and perfect but it isn't because it's not that kind of story and that's not how the world is and Sarah knows that so she leaves it problematic and frustrating to show that this is what life is like face world or not?

Listen. You seem nice, but I’m getting ready to go off. I’m sorry if this seems aggressive, but it’s going to get serious and no fucks given (ok I do give fucks bc I do love all of you). My short answer is no.

I don’t care why Sarah wrote her books the way she did. It doesn’t make it any less racist or homophobic. That’s also a short answer. Her intention doesn’t matter because at the end of the day it’s racist and homophobic. And why write it when you can just… not?

And who is she educating? Who is she telling racism and homophobia exists? Let’s for a second just think her fandom is 100% white and 100% straight… which it’s not, but let’s imagine for a second.

Sarah J Maas, a white woman, is writing about racism and homophobia, to teach her white and straight readers? What is she teaching? What does she know about it? She obviously doesn’t even know it’s bad if she sits down and thinks “yo let me write this”. And she obviously doesn’t know it’s racist or homophobic if she decides to keep it.

When I open a book I don’t want another white author to give me their take on racism (or homophobia, but I’m questioning so I don’t want to speak for the lgbt community) Honey. I live with racism every day. I wake up in a racist world and I go to sleep in one and it’s exhausting. Do you think I want to read about one? I know racism exists. You don’t need to prove it.

But imagine being able to write your own world and it doesn’t have to relate to the “””real””” world, but then you say to yourself ‘Mhm, yes, let me make this world racist and homophobic’ ???

Maybe she should show a world WITHOUT racism and homophobia if she wants to “””””teach””””” someone. News flash - I know, it’s hard to grasp and honestly it’s not your fault or mine but - a world without racism and homophobia wouldn’t cause us all to go up in flames. Just… write everyone as equal? 

We were born in a racist and homophobic world and we’ll die in one. One day I hope that changes. Why would we write about a racist and homophobic world when we can give someone as escape route to get away from the struggles they face every day if only just for a few hundred pages? 

I think I know. You don’t care. Here’s where it gets harsh: SJM doesn’t care about her readers of color or the lgbt+ community. If she did she wouldnt write the way she does. Tokenism /=/ rep. Short answer: they get killed off and/or are mostly stereotypes and they’re only there for the “diversity” stamp.

It’s hard to grasp that, but as I said before: SJM is white and straight. What in the world is she going to teach me about racism? What views does she have? It doesn’t affect her at all?? There’s no reason for her to even address the topic and I can assure you I’m not asking her to.

Writing characters of color or lgbt characters does not mean you have to include racism and homophobia. WE ARE NOT OUR PREJUDICES.

I’m asking her not to kill off her women of color. Why? Because I see it enough. Every show, every book, every movie there’s a token woman of color. I get attached because finally, finally I have representation and then… bam. Dead. Boom. Deceased. Totally for the plot, of course. If you need a woman (or man) of color to die to further your plot that honestly says a lot about your plot. But whose fault is that? It’s not the character’s fault they’re dead. That’s all on the writer.

I’m asking her not to use the slutty bisexual trope. It really is NOT THAT HARD to write a bisexual character and not make them sex-crazed. She did it twice. Aedion and Helion. And I’ve seen the argument “if I lived in a world full of beautiful males and females I would sleep with them all too” ?? That doesn’t excuse anything?? Also… why write a world were f/f and m/m relationships aren’t accepted when you can… easily not have homophobia exist?? Why??

These are just the big things. But don’t you think we want to read about characters who haven’t struggled like us? Who are black, latinx, asian, biracial, gay, bisexual, pansexual, demisexual, asexual, non-binary, but havent struggled? Haven’t suffered from racism and homophobia? I’m not asking to read about their struggle. I’m asking for them to be treated just like every other (white and straight) character but still be a character of color and part of the lgbt community.

Guys. Remember when I said you can help so much by just listening and giving us a voice? Give us the microphone. Sit in the crowd and listen. Yes, you can ask questions, but no you can not make excuses for racism and homophobia. Just as I said before, if you’re white or straight (and I’m not attacking anyone, just stating a point), you don’t experience racism or homophobia and you can’t tell us or teach us anything we don’t know.

You also don’t see things. You MAY not see the racism. You MAY not see the homophobia. Ask questions but also be ready to receive the answers. And be an ally instead of pushing us down. 

I’m so sorry to the anon if thought this was aggressive. But at the end of the day racism and homophobia is not a “””opinion””” it’s a fact. 

anonymous asked:

Fuck coworkers. I have a coworker that's always complaining. He's lazy and tries to avoid working and whines when anyone makes him do his job, and always wants to leave. The other day he asked our manager to be the first one cut, but we were busy so no one got cut, and my shift ended an hour before his. He threw such a fit because he thought I was cut first, and I was just like, "actually, I was scheduled to get off at 4. :)" He didn't even apologize for being an ass over it. He just said "oh."

Utena did bring a world revolution

Just not THE world revolution. She revolutionized one world, Anthy’s.

Originally posted by ame-mangeur

(I just want to clarify that Utena revolutionized Anthy’s world by planting the revolutionary thought that Anthy could actually leave Ohtori and her suffering behind. It was Anthy’s decision to act on that revolutionary idea, but without Utena’s influence it would have been unlikely that Anthy would have finally freed herself.)

greater boston characters as @wolfpupy tweets
  • the narrator: looks like things are always happening once again
  • leon stamatis: how to predict the future; think of the worst possible thing that could happen
  • nica stamatis: once again I am not included in the list of the world's most successful people because of my complete lack of success, bias at its finest
  • dimitri stamatis: if anyone needs me i will be laying face down on the ocean floor
  • charlotte linzer-coolidge: i did the best with the resources i was given, which was nothing
  • gemma linzer-coolidge: it may have been a controversial decision but I dare any one who disagrees with me to go away and not talk to me about it
  • michael tate: things are going really well for me now that ive changed the meaning of really well to the opposite of what it means in my head
  • louisa alvarez: sometimes the only real friend you have is your countless enemies
  • professor chelmsworth: if anyone can do it then someone who isn't me can do it
  • [insert name here] poletti: my lights aren't all on upstairs because i am saving energy, just doing my bit to help the planet, not that you'd know anything about that
  • tyrell fredericks: i'm sure i'm going to ruffle some feathers with this but given the choice between good times and bad times i would like to have the good times
  • mallory: the world continues to spiral out of control and i am just sitting here like a bad bitch
  • chuck octagon: popcorn, or as cerebral smart minds such as myself refer to it 'popped corn', is the number #1 food of watching things
  • isabelle powell: you have to be cruel to be kind, no wait the other thing, you have to do nice things. phew, could have caused a lot of problems
  • monty linzer-coolidge: i wasnt born yesterday, i was born 5 weeks ago.
  • melissa weatherby: some say love is a river, me i say things that make sense
  • emily bespin: when you think things couldnt get any worse look to the sky, its me floating in on a stupid blimp to ruin everything and cause many problems
  • oliver west: if I've learned anything from this, and I've been trying not to learn anything, it's that I can do everything I want forever
  • phil: you know the old saying, boys will be trash
we fell out of love 
those are just 5 words 
we say when we dont want
to explain what really happened
how can i explain to someone 
in a couple of seconds 
that when we went our separate ways 
it felt like i fell off a cliff you were my gravity
the same way it holds me down you held me down
so fucking close to you i swear i thought we could never be apart
i fell down i couldn't control the fall i was just waiting to land 
and be dead
the same way i felt while we were in love every single fucking day
i was on top of the cliff looking down waiting for the day you leave
and thats when i would fall over and land so fucking hard at the bottom, it happened so fast 
i dont even remember falling off but fuck i remember the land 
i remember not being able to move or think or sometimes id forget to breathe
i dont know if its because of the fall that shortened my breathing or maybe i didn't want to anymore
you told me maybe we’d work out one day but right now we intoxicate each other, and poison our cells  
your parents fell out of love it took them 10 years to realize it, it was through missed dinners 
and secret phone calls 
and coming home later than they said they would 
you dont realize they’re leaving but in reality they were gone all along you just refused to believe it
how am i supposed to explain to anyone that you were the blood that ran through my viens and the reason why i ever fucking smiled in pictures
i saw you in the sun every sunday morning and i felt you in my covers wrapped around me every single fucking night i was trying to sleep but you made your way into my skin and all the way up into my brain and into my dreams id wake up every fucking morning screaming begging for you to just go away but you were always there
and i cant tell if i loved having you on my mind all the time or if you just fucking stressed me out 
but now i see you in the pills i swallow to fucking try and forget you 
and i saw your tongue between her teeth and i understood maybe we were never meant to be.

we fell out of love


  • What she says: I'm fine
  • What she means: On page 195 of "The Magician," it says that Sophie "knew just who - and what - " Marethyu was. If this is true, then for the rest of the series, does she know that Marethyu is actually Josh??? She saw the twins battling on top of the Pyramid of the Sun, so the Witch's memories obviously don't have any filter that prevents her from accessing memories about herself and Josh. Why didn't Sophie tell Josh about this? Why didn't she ask anyone? Is this why she didn't want to leave Josh alone on top of the Pyramid of the Sun? Because she knew what he would become? Is this why Sophie tried to keep Josh from using the swords of power in the first place? Was that a vain attempt to stop the inevitable? I nEED. ANSWERS.
  • Why I'm not voting for Hillary: Because I can't trust someone who responds to Americans being killed in Benghazi with "What difference does it make?"
  • Why I'm not voting for Hillary: Her inability of following proper email disclosure protocol, leaving potentially sensitive communications vulnerable on an unsecure server, and being unable to manage two email accounts.
  • Why I'm not voting for Hillary: She uses convenience as her reasoning for not abiding by the law, then covers her mistakes.
  • Why I'm not voting for Hillary: I want no one named Bush or Clinton anywhere near our national politics for at least 2 generations.
  • Why I'm not voting for Hillary: The USA is NOT a Monarchy. She nor anyone else is entitled just because of their name.
  • Why I'm not voting for Hillary: How in touch is she? She's been driven around by the secret service and has been a product of the government for 18 years.
  • Why I'm not voting for Hillary: Didn't we have enough drama from the Clintons in the 90's?
  • Why I'm not voting for Hillary: Women are not a special interest group or a pre-existing condition, we are the majority of the US population. It is insulting that you refer to a select number of issues as women’s issues. ALL issues are women issues.
  • Why I'm not voting for Hillary: Competence trumps gender.
  • Why I'm not voting for Hillary: She claimed that she and Bill were "broke" after leaving the White House in 2001 and had trouble sending Chelsea to college. Hillary and her husband have earned more than $100 million over the past 14 years. She has been charging $200,000 a pop (or more) per speaking engagement. Also, in 2000, she signed an $8 million advance for her first memoir. Lastly, her husband, Bill Clinton, also earned millions delivering paid speeches and is reported to have received $15 million for his memoir. Do you need a Merriam-Webster dictionary to look up the proper definition of “broke?” If that's how she views the word "broke" then how can she help real Americans who actually are broke?
  • Why I'm not voting for Hillary: I'm being told that I'm misogynist for using #whyimnotvotingforhillary even though I'm a woman who is looking at Hillary as an equal candidate rather than just as a woman.
  • Why I'm not voting for Hillary: After announcing, she put on twitter that everyday Americans need a champion, and that she wants to be that champion. I am an everyday American and I do not need a champion. I am my own champion. I do not need a large government to be my champion.
I Know People Think Hades will be Offended by Disney's Hercules but...
  • Nico and Will: *getting ready for watching Netflix in their PJ's
  • *knock on the door*
  • Nico: *looks at Will and raises eyebrow*
  • Will: I'm not expecting anyone, and I made sure someone's there to cover my shift.
  • Nico: Well who the fuck is this, then?
  • Nico: *grumpily answers the door*
  • Nico: Oh, Megaera, to what do I owe the displeasure?
  • Megaera: *smiles because Nico didn't say it was a pleasure*
  • Megaera: Your father wanted me to chaperone this netflix date of yours. Whatever netflix is.
  • Nico: ...Oh? Uh. We've been married for five years.
  • Megaera: Orders are orders.
  • Nico: Where's Alecto?
  • Megaera: *hisses* Paid leave.
  • Nico: Tisiphone?
  • Megaera: Tracking down Cerberus
  • Nico: What happened to Cerberus?
  • Megaera: Long story. Are you going to let me in or do I have to knock you out to come in?
  • Nico: *grumbles* Fine. Come on. Just... Pretend you're not there.
  • Nico: *walks back into the room and flops on the bed with Will*
  • Nico: We have a chaperone from dad
  • Will: *as he's slinging his hand over Nico's shoulders*
  • Will: WHAT?!
  • Nico and Will: *scramble apart as the movie starts and Hades comes on screen*
  • Megaera: *looks at the TV*
  • Megaera: *starts laughing maniacally*
  • Megaera: IS THAT HADES?!
  • Megaera: *jumps on the bed*
  • Megaera: Pass the popcorn. This is going to be fun.
  • *Partway into the movie*
  • Megaera: *as offended as physically possible*
  • Megaera: THAT'S ME?
  • Nico: ...That's Megara, not Megaera, Megaera.
  • Megaera: ...Oh. Oh! Okay, then.
  • Will: ...but Nico, the Furies are giant birds that live in the underworld in the animated series
  • Megaera: WHAT?!
  • -- meanwhile --
  • Hades: *cackling as he watches from the Underworld*
Help for the Blind

A/N: Here you go! This was very different than what I normally write so I am pretty happy with how this turned out. Feedback is greatly accepted. <3 

Request: Can you do an imagine where the readers daughter (13yrs) goes to help Sam hunt and gets hit with a spell that makes her blind for 3 days please?

Warnings: Blindness, cursing, witches, angst, a teensy little fluff, switches between P.O.V.’s, witchcraft.

Pairings: No Pairing.

Word Count: 2,734

Originally posted by sam-and-dean-winchesters

Originally posted by green-circles




“Check, freshly sharpened.”


“Mom, I have everything, don’t worry, besides Sam will be there, its not like I’m going by myself.” Your daughter explained.

“I know, it’s just I don’t want you to get hurt, or worse.” You said, shuttering at the thought of what horrible things could happen.

“I’ll be fine, I love you, mom.” Your daughter, Marissa hugged you walking off to put her bags in the car.

Keep reading

*clears throat*

Please don’t ever feel as though you share too much personal shit on your blog. idc what kind of blog you run - nature, booklr, studyblr, fandom, shitposting, whatever - it is YOUR blog. When asked by individuals not entirely familiar with blogging what a blog is, I always describe it as an online, public journal. I know I am not speaking for myself when I say that if people are following you its because they appreciate all of your content including your personal posts and that they want to hear from you.

Please, don’t feel you have to post only pretty pictures, helpful text posts, and only occasional, always positive personal posts. If people don’t like it they’ll leave and that isn’t a reflection of you, but that their interests and your interests have diverged and that’s okay. You still have so many people following you that love you.

                               staring at the sea and everything between
                                                      as you watch the world fall.

anonymous asked:

how is planning his departure disheartening? he'd have to be an idiot if he didn't plan ahead, you can't just pack your bags and leave when you're under contract with sm (or any company for that matter) i can only imagine what sm would've done to him if they'd found out about what he wanted to do, it's obvious he had to keep it as secret as possible... and yet we don't know, will never know if he talked about it with anyone in the group, so...

It’s not disheartening because he planned ahead. It’s disheartening knowing he chose to wait until 8 days before the first concert when he was ready to go even before the comeback, when it wouldn’t have hurt them as much. It’s disheartening to know that he behaved like there was nothing wrong around fans and around members for an entire month. It’s disheartening to know that he easily recorded interviews telling fans to come see him at the concert knowing he will not be there. As for whether the members knew about this beforehand, I think their reactions when the news broke out speak for themselves.

I understand he has his reasons. Like I said, when big decisions are made, people are hurt along the way. But I have feelings for the people involved, and I’m sorry but I can’t just say “well, whatever, it had to be done.”

Ron & Hermione finding out about Harry and Draco
  • Harry: Draco, we realy shouldn't be doing this here..
  • draco: harry, it's only kissing
  • Harry: yes, i know but what if someone catches us?! i mean we are literally in the busiest corridor of the school and we are making out
  • draco: ok. fine, but one last kiss
  • *Ron and Hermione turn the corner to see Harry kissing draco*
  • harry: *startled* er..I..
  • Hermione: YES MY OTP
  • d&H: what?
  • Hermione: OTP? one true pairing
  • hermione: shut up ron! you know perfectly well what's going on
  • harry: look, we didn't want to tell anyone because-
  • hermione: its fine my Drarry heart is complete
  • draco: ermm..i'd best be off to the common room...
  • Harry: bye draco *quickly pecks lips*
  • draco: *walks off*
  • hermione: so how long has this been going on for?
  • harry: ermm, about 5 months...*starts walking away to the Gryffindor common room with hermione leaving ron, fuming*
Get To Know Me meme // Current Celebrity Crushes [2/10] 
• Tom Hiddleston

“I don’t think anyone, until their soul leaves their body, is passed the point of no return.“

Losing My Best Friend a Calum Hood Imagine Part 5

You held the plane ticket in your hands, tapping it against your shaking leg. Thinking and rethinking over the late night decision you had made just an hour ago. You couldn’t figure out a reason to regret what you were doing.
You hurt the person you loved the most and now he hated you for it. He said you’d be able to be friends, but not best friends, but he lied. You two couldn’t even talk to each other and that’s exactly what led you to sitting in the airport at two in the morning, ready to go back home and stay away from Calum and Ashton for that matter.
You didn’t want to be near Ashton anymore, it hurt you too much to know that because of what you did with him, took your friendship with your best friend away. So, you had to stay away from the both of them.
“Flight 219 is now boarding.”
Heaving your luggage behind you, you strolled along to the terminal and walked through. This would be the perfect time for all those movies and tv shows to come real and Calum would come bursting through the airport and sweep you off your feet. He’d tell you he was sorry, and that he was stupid and you two would go back to the way things were, you’d be best friends again, maybe even more after, but it was clear now that that was not going to happen.
One last look behind you and still no Calum, you boarded your plane. Sitting in your seat, you looked out the window and soon saw everything disappearing away from your sight. Your worries and problems staying on the ground below you. You were going to make a new start for yourself. No Calum, no worries. That was the motto you were going to live with now.
*Calum’s POV*
When i woke up, the bus felt different. I wasn’t sure what it was, but i needed to figure it out.
The other boys were already eating breakfast when i finally joined them. “Look who finally woke up.” Luke started and i groaned in response. “Shut it, Hemmings.”
“Snappy.” Ashton retorted and i couldn’t even look at him, i still wasn’t very happy with him after what happened with him and (YN). Speaking of (YN), i couldn’t see her anywhere.
“Any of you seen (YN)?”
They shook their heads and i went back to go and wake her up, it wasn’t like her to sleep in this late. She was always up early running or whatever it was she did to wake herself up for the day.
I pulled back the curtain to her bunk and froze when i saw the sight in front of me. An empty bunk. The pillow and blankets rested on the mattress as if they’d never been slept on.
“(YN)?” i couldn’t help but ask sadly at not seeing her there. There was a letter in her place, how movie like.
‘Went back home, didn’t want to hurt anyone else. Felt like i did enough damage while i was with you guys. I’m sorry for leaving the way i did, but i had no other choice. I need a new start, and i’m afraid i can’t do that with you guys. Especially Calum and Ashton. I’m sorry to both of you, i hurt you both. I lost my best friend because of this. I lost what i thought was love only to learn that it wasn’t love at all, it was just a fling. Both of you deserve a girl who doesn’t play games like i did. I’m sorry again, i’ll forever be sorry. I’m afraid i won’t see you guys again,ever, i can’t bare to see you after this. I’ve done enough damage for now. Have fun on tour, be safe, don’t be idiots.’
-(YN) (YLN), *once a friend, now an enemy*
I wanted to crumple the letter in my hands, but i couldn’t bring myself to do it. I went back to the other guys who waited for an explanation, but i couldn’t give it to them. I only managed to say one thing anyways.
“I’m an idiot.”

m-amarone  asked:

Despite the horrible way he went about it, I think Hannibal has made Will stronger. In the latest episode he doesn't even ask anyone to leave before he lets the pendulum swing, didn't even give them a thought, as if they are beneath him and he doesn't need to worry about them. I wonder how this will change his outcome, how he ends disfigured, alone, depressed and medicating with alcohol. I'm excited!

It’s like Bryan said before this season started, Will hits rock bottom and then comes out swinging – “damaged people are dangerous because they know they can survive”.

With Bryan wanting to keep Will very much involved in the story, past the point he has in the books, it will be interesting to see how they go about this, if they cover it at all. (If Chilton makes it back, he’ll be the one with a face that’s hard to look at anyway…)

I think Thomas Harris probably took Will to that place because he knew he wasn’t going to come back to him, and I suppose it’s easier to justify leaving a character if they’ve met that kind of an end. If he had been fine, readers may have questioned why he wasn’t seen again, or at least contacted. But the show has more options to give him a more workable story going forward past Red Dragon, I would think.

anonymous asked:

I started rewatching Season 1 to help with the angst and was just thinking, do you think Carmilla just gave in and let them take her hostage because she didn't want to actually hurt or kill anyone? Bc she's ancient and strong. She easily could've won

You know I had a headcanon about that. (Though I was told it’s basically canon.)

Carmilla was quite enamored with Laura for her own reasons. And Laura didn’t really like her at all due to Carmilla being a dick roommate in her attempts to get Laura to leave Silas at the beginning. So when her crush asked her, basically, on a date. Here is Carmilla thinking, “Hey, maybe I have a chance.”

No, instead. It was a trap. But fight Carmilla did. Danny has a black-eye, she pushed Lafontaine back against some object, Will got his hit in his collarbone. But I think when Carmilla looked at Laura and saw the accusatory look in her face. The distrust the girl she liked really held for her. In that moment, she just gave up.