because his only desire was to achieve what he wanted

anonymous asked:

Your review for chapter 143 please. No Hide in this chapter but I suppose it's not a big deal. It means he's still safe and sound.

@nitsuki-baka said:
I think this abrupt ending is pretty good and strong, even if everyone seems to hate it. There is Kaneki who worked so hard for this moment but has still has to realise that everything can be gone within a second. And the desperation that he still had to make him crawl, I cried my eyes out. Hyped for the next bit we’ll get.

anonymous said:
do you think the “GAME OVER” could have meant that there is going to be a new start/new beginning for kaneki? the caterpillar thing also makes me think he’ll change again into smth else and have a new beginning. And that that’s what we’ll see in part 3? maybe one where hide shows up and instigates a reform in kaneki’s group and leadership into something better yk?

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Reading the spoilers of chapter 143 makes me feel like we’re going to have a trilogy. Especially the way Furuta is acting.

Alright, so I read both the MS and JB translations twice to try and understand the chapter as well as I could and hopefully catch on to anything I might have missed and I think I have a bit to say on the direction I think the series is going to take now.

This chapter has been the big turning point that I think Kaneki really needs to push him in the right direction. He took up the role of the One Eyed King, and that means that he has a whole lot of responsibility on his shoulders whether he likes it or not, and I’ve mentioned before how most of his decisions as King have mostly just been influenced by his emotions. (I’ve given these examples before, but for those who haven’t seen, a couple examples would be when Kaneki wanted to endanger their mission by talking with Amon and another would be his refusal to kill Hajime which essentially lead to the twenty fourth being attacked. Both times Kaneki’s actions have been criticised by Ayato and Tsukiyama respectively. To me, this shows an awareness by the series that this is a major flaw of Kaneki’s which he’s chosen to ignore.)

Kaneki made yet another decision based on his emotions to return to the twenty fourth ward (because he has a “bad feeling”) and that decision went abysmally wrong. To me, this is actually a good thing for Kaneki’s character. This devastation has now been a direct result of his original emotionally driven decision not to kill Hajime, and now, his second emotionally driven decision to return to the twenty fourth ward has resulted in Furuta’s supposed victory.

He’s now not only having to face the fact that he has these flaws as a result of the situation, but it’s also blatantly laid out for him by Furuta himself.

Kaneki is finally being forced to face these flaws that he has in his leadership and the way that he approaches and tackles situations. Even as King, knowing that he’s responsible for the lives of hundreds, even thousands, he still too often thinks of himself and does things for selfish reasons, even if he doesn’t know it.

He only takes the side of ghouls because he wants to protect those who are close to him. He doesn’t really care for the unification of species in and of itself, he only cares about it because it would put the people he cares for in a better position and make them safe.

And this always reminds me of the scene in chapter 120 of Tokyo Ghoul where Touka confronts Kaneki about this exact motive and indicates exactly how it is driven by Kaneki’s own selfishness.

Kaneki still hasn’t moved on from this mindset, and even he himself acknowledges that this makes him a terrible leader, yet he appears to have no desire to change this, presumably because he doesn’t realise that it’s the exact reason why he could be putting the people he cares about in trouble.

In fact, I think it still isn’t clear to him what his role as leader should be. He still isn’t looking at the big picture, and seems to only focus on his own role within all of this, which is ironically inhibiting him from being able to take up the position that he wants to and become the leader that he has to in order to achieve his goals.

He touches his chin when he tells Hinami that he’ll be right behind her; at least a part of him knows that he isn’t going to make it out of this, but I think he’s made himself content with that. This is the moment he claims to have been living for; this is the moment he finally gets to protect everyone he loves. This is the moment that he shows himself as a true leader, by becoming a martyr to protect the ones he loves.

It may have appeared that he had chosen to live alongside Touka, but the reality is that he never really moved on from that mindset he had back in cochlea; wanting to die “in style” for the sake of someone else.

This much is clear in his dialogue in this chapter.

He says he’s been living for this day, this day that he seems to apparently realise he won’t be able to survive, but he’s content with that. All this time, he never really moved on from wanting to protect others with his life; that’s been his motivation since the beginning of the series, and it still is, and although this isn’t exactly a negative thing, it is preventing him from seeing the bigger picture. His desire is still the same, just he’s shifted his focus from death to life.

He’s so concerned with himself in this situation; he wants to defeat Furuta, and in his death, he’ll be able to protect all those who are close to him, but he isn’t considering what his role as King really means beyond this. Killing Furuta isn’t just going to magically bring about the unification of humans and ghouls; it isn’t going to guarantee the safety of those close to him. As King, as a leader, there is so much more work to be done, but Kaneki fails to really see his role in this in perspective as a result of his bias.

That’s why I think this whole chapter’s themes have been a pivotal point for Kaneki’s character. Not only is he forced to come face to face with the fact that his methods are inefficient, but we also get more subtle symbolism.

Firstly, as some have pointed out, Furuta’s referral to Kaneki as a caterpillar could be foreshadowing of a coming transformation he may make, a metamorphosis, which links to Franz Kafka’s story of the same name which Kaneki’s story has been compared to before.

Not only that, but the butterfly has been a symbol of positive change in the series before, and assuming we are currently in the Judgement arc, this points to significant development and flourishing in Kaneki’s character to come, which brings me onto why I think there will be a third part and how this will line up with the Fool’s journey.

Judgement is a card which calls for a period of self-reflection and self-evaluation. Kaneki is now being forced reflect and evaluate his approach, and this is the key to his fulfilment. The Judgement card calls for a moment in someone’s life in which they “come to a point of deep understanding about the common themes throughout [their] life and what [they] can do or change to avoid these situations in the future.”

“The Judgement card suggests that you have had a recent epiphany or an ‘awakening’ where you have come to a realisation that you need to live your life in a different way and you need to be true to yourself and your needs. You have opened yourself up to a new possibility – to lead a fulfilling life that serves your higher needs and that offers inspiration and hope to others. You feel as though you have had a ‘calling’ in life, and you are getting much closer to the point where you need to take action. Something that was lying dormant within you, some unconscious knowledge or truth is finally being awakened and brought into the light.”

“The Fool has been reborn.

His false, ego-self has been shed, allowing his radiant, true self to manifest. He has discovered that joy, not fear, is at life’s centre.

The Fool feels absolved. He forgives himself and others, knowing that his real self is pure and good. He may regret past mistakes, but he knows they were due to his ignorance of his true nature. He feels cleansed and refreshed, ready to start anew.

It is time for the Fool to make a deeper Judgement (20) about his life. His own personal day of reckoning has arrived. Since he now sees himself truly, he can make the necessary decisions about the future. He can choose wisely which values to cherish, and which to discard.”

To me, this is reminiscent of this piece of art which foreshadows this awakening with the caption “I stand here with my past self,” indicating that Kaneki has moved on from his past self and his old mindset, ready to start anew.

Tokyo Ghoul and Tokyo Ghoul:re are the stories of the Fool’s journey on his path to personal development and self-fulfilment. Judgement is the second to last stage of the Fool’s journey, so that may leave you asking, what could come after this to warrant a third part?

I believe a third part to the series would serve as “the World” stage of the Fool’s journey. Though Kaneki’s journey of self-development and fulfilment comes to an end in Tokyo Ghoul:re, the third instalment should be about how he uses this fulfilment and flourishing to make his influence on the World and finally pursue the goal he’s established as the One Eyed King. The Fool’s own personal journey ends with Tokyo Ghoul:re, but that just means that he’s now ready to begin his influence on the world.

“The Fool reenters the World (21), but this time with a more complete understanding. He has integrated all the disparate parts of himself and achieved wholeness. He has reached a new level of happiness and fulfilment

The Fool experiences life as full and meaningful. The future is filled with infinite promise. In line with his personal calling, he becomes actively involved in the world. He renders service by sharing his unique gifts and talents and finds that he prospers at whatever he attempts. Because he acts from inner certainty, the whole world conspires to see that his efforts are rewarded. His accomplishments are many.

So the Fool’s Journey was not so foolish after all. Through perseverance and honesty, he reestablished the spontaneous courage that first impelled him on his search for Self, but now he is fully aware of his place in the world. This cycle is over, but, the Fool will never stop growing. Soon he will be ready to begin a new journey that will lead him to ever greater levels of understanding.

Fear of Loss Leads to the Dark Side

Touken? I don’t know her, let’s talk about Ui Koori more. 

What I noticed right away from this chapter was Ui’s outfit change, he’s gone from wearing white primarily in the middle of missions to all black. It could be simply to match Furuta’s change, he is after all on the chessboard a black king where previously Ui fought as an ally of the white king Arima.

My mind however, jumped immediately to a different conclusion. Ui’s decision to dress in all black, and stand at Furuta’s side means he has decided to join the dark side of the force.

Yes, let’s talk star wars. 

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God I just…I love Kaworu Nagisa. I wrote out my ideas discussing a lot of the ideas around his character and Shinji I had while reading the manga and watching the anime - so huge spoilers for both below. This is just me trying to explain the crazy nonsense that is Kaworu Nagisa to myself, trying to answer my own questions about the intricacies of what in the world is happening here, and it got longer the more I tried to figure it out.

Kaworu Nagisa is complex.

It’s incredibly easy to love anime!Kaworu - he’s kind and self-sacrificing if a little mysterious, and comes to Shinji in the time when he needs someone the most, and Shinji takes to him like a duck to water. But manga!Kaworu is a very different character, but I love him all the same, for the different perspective he brings to the story, and what he teaches Shinji because of it.

The river that runs through the story is, essentially, the society’s problems are based on the fact that everyone is so conscious of their relationships and expectations that they can no longer be honest about what they need for fear of hurting one another. The direct symbol I see of this is the use of the AT Field, which is described as “the light of the soul” and “a sacred province inviolatable to anyone”. The AT Field is used to deflect physical attacks from the pilots - which I believe is also a metaphor used to represent the way we defend our fragile hearts against others’ expectations and desires of us that we may not agree with, to keep ourselves from getting hurt.

But enter Kaworu - the immortal in a mortal’s body, with none of the fears that are conditioned into a mortal. His self is not finite, at least, not permanently so, and while he is destructible, he’s not limited to the same plane of existence we are. Because of this, he does not experience fear the way we do.

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Axolotl’s Poem: Full Analysis

Well, this post took a long time to make. Going by the general theme of my blog, you would’ve thought that this would be one of the first posts I made. But better late than never.

Sixty degrees that come in threes

This is one of the more straightforward lines. It simply confirms that Bill is actually an equilateral triangle, not an isosceles as he was called a couple times in-show. This actually does have some significance, as when Bill was asked where he came from in his AMA, he replied “EDWIN ABBOTT ABBOTT HAD THE RIGHT IDEA!” Edwin Abbott Abbott was the author of Flatland, a book about a 2D world, with a shape hierarchy. The more sides you have, the higher up in society you are, so Isosceles triangles were lower class, while Equilaterals were middle class. 

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"pay attention to the decision Viktor makes regarding his career"

Kubo made this request, so I did. But I didn’t get it. Viktor made a choice that–to me–seemed confusing and incongruent with his true desires. Because even if he is allowed to simultaneously coach and skate competitively, it didn’t seem like his interior thoughts supported his desire for such an outcome. 

 “When I get away from skating, two “L words” come to mind: life and love. I’ve been neglecting both for over twenty years.” 

“When I approached every program like a new beginning, I could always surprise everyone. But that also held me back…” (or as others have corrected, his career was “a shackle closed around his neck”)

So yeah, doesn’t really paint a picture of a guy who wants to return to his skating career. Especially when you consider these two scenes come from episode 10 and episode 11, respectively. Is watching the skaters perform suddenly enough to change his mind completely? After all, he’s been watching them all season.

At first I didn’t get it. Why have him make such a confusing, flaky choice (to be both skater and coach), especially when the narrative surrounding Viktor has leaned towards him wishing to stay retired, rather than return to the fray. Even his expressions in episode 12 support this interpretation:

announcing his return to competitive skating

vs.

being asked to stay on as Yuuri’s coach

It’s night and day. It’s obvious which he prefers.

So I didn’t get it, what does Kubo want me to pay attention to? I chalked it up to a writing change to leave plot points for the second season, but why would she specifically mention it as important?

And then it clicked with me. It’s not which choice Viktor made that matters, but what that choice signifies. Viktor’s feelings about skating haven’t changed. If he were solely making the decision for himself, he’d likely continue on just as a coach. That is enough for him, that gives him his “life” and his “love,” it satisfies him and gives him the room to enjoy a previously unexplored realm of living. 

But this isn’t just about him. There is a ring on his finger, a ring that signifies his willingness to live not only for his best interest, but for the interest of his partner. And in Viktor’s eyes, Yuuri needs him to return to skating to stay motivated to keep competing. Viktor is prioritizing desires, and what he really wants now more than anything is for Yuuri to continue skating so he can continue coaching him. If he has to return to skating to achieve that end, he will do it. 

Essentially, he is making a choice for the future with Yuuri in mind because Yuuri is his future. 

I feel like what Tyrion wants isn’t even so much about Sansa, or Shae, or even Tysha, but a kind of vague desire for something he is explicitly denied because of his dwarfism and knows he can never achieve.

He keeps this to himself and never says it out loud, never really tries to communicate with Sansa for fear of imposing himself on her, never reveals the depths of his emotional pain to Shae or even Jaime (the only person he tells about Tywin making him participate in Tysha’s assault is Bronn), and lies when he is asked about what he misses in ADwD:

“What do you miss, Halfman?”

Jaime, thought Tyrion. Shae. Tysha. My wife, I miss my wife, the wife I hardly knew. "Wine, whores, and wealth,” he answered.

What’s sad about this is that these are all relationships that are, at this point in the text, broken. He’s sworn murderous revenge against Jaime and feels like he can’t go back on that because he thinks Jaime has betrayed him completely. Shae was murdered by Tyrion himself. Tysha is probably gone forever. The last one is ambiguous enough that it could be Sansa but Sansa was never really his wife in truth nor was she in a position to be, but it’s true and significant that he “hardly knew” her, and you could say the same thing about Tysha as the two only knew each other for a fortnight as adolescents. Everything that Tyrion desires is either completely out of reach or so vague that it might be nonexistent. And of course he gives a fake answer when asked, one that plays up his role as performative dwarf.

Hux & Kylo: Children of War

I recommend the Visual Dictionary to anyone with even the slightest interest in furthering their knowledge of The Force Awakens - it’s filled with marvellous photos, bizarre names and amusingly petty labels (one points at Hux’s pasty face and says “pallor from time spent indoors").

It’s also very helpful for illuminating backstories and character motivations, and the particular detail I want to consider here is that both Hux and Kylo have the same ultimate goal - they both want to rule. Hux, we’re told in the VD, “feels it is a matter of destiny that he be given a chance to sit on the throne that rules the galaxy”. Kylo, meanwhile, “sees it as his birthright to rule the weaker beings in the galaxy”. In light of their eerily similar ambitions, the fierce competitiveness that exists between them becomes clearer - they’re not just arbitrarily vying to outdo each other. They’re competitive because they have the same goal, and the nature of that goal means only one of them is going to achieve it.

While ‘rule everything’ is pretty standard as far as villain goals go, it’s worth considering why it’s the particular desire of Hux and Kylo. And while we only have a few details, they give us some idea of the psychology underpinning their behaviours and obsessions. 

Hux was the toddler son of an Imperial Commandant when the Empire fell, and he will have grown up with the remnants of the once-mighty Imperial faction. In the VD we’re told that he was raised on stories of the heroism and justness of the Empire and the people who served it. Alongside this, he also understood the Rebellion to be little more than a terrorist organisation. However, despite the many stories of Imperial glory he was told as a child, Hux will have known that his parents and their glorious Empire failed. Ashamed and embittered, on his own behalf and on the behalf of his parents, he longs for a return to the order and prestige of the vanished Empire. Naturally, he sees himself at the head of any restored system of governance.

Kylo was born around a year after the Battle of Endor, and while the details of his early life are even slimmer than they are for Hux we know that he’s the only son of Han and Leia. He will have been told what his parents achieved, and he will have (presumably) been expected to follow in their footsteps by helping to consolidate the new democracy they had fought for. It’s reasonable to speculate that he felt enormous, crushing pressure because of this, which would perhaps explain his susceptibility to Snoke’s temptation and the allure of his grandfather’s monolithic image. As Kylo sees it, Vader represents an uncomplicated and reassuring model of power and authority - a mask betrays no emotion, no humanity and no weakness. By following Vader’s model and finishing what he started, Kylo’s goal is to become the ultimate authority in the galaxy.

Both men suffer from an acute sense of inadequacy that they’re endlessly compensating for with everything from their clothes to their speech. Hux presents an image of absolute control and self-discipline, which is manifest in every aspect of him, from his immaculately polished boots to the pristine, shining halls of the Finalizer. Kylo, meanwhile, wears a mask just as his grandfather did - but unlike his grandfather, there is no necessity or function to it. Kylo’s mask serves two purposes - it hides Kylo’s poignantly vulnerable human face, and gives him an unyielding shield to hide behind.

Both men have found and latched onto entirely different models of power and control. For Hux, that system is military order - there are rules, uniforms, systems and a clear chain of command. Kylo, meanwhile, relies on the Dark side of the Force for his meaning - and the Dark side simply doesn’t play very well with the things that Hux likes. The Dark side is fundamentally selfish, and has no time for bureaucrats and pen pushers who spend their free moments writing the imaginary legal code of their dream dictatorship (no one can tell me that isn’t what Hux does at weekends, okay?) One of the central sources of Hux’s loathing of Kylo - a wild card, a Force user and the son of Han Solo and Leia Organa - is that he effectively undermines everything he has striven to achieve. Kylo’s mere presence on the Finalizer is a sticking point for Hux - Kylo is an irritant Hux only endures because a.) Snoke wants it and b.) he knows Kylo could snap his neck on a whim if he so desired.

If Hux is order and control, Kylo is chaos and passion. Whereas Hux demands conformity, efficiency and protocol, Kylo is primarily concerned with his feelings and what they dictate in any given moment. While Hux will only betray his pent-up emotions by letting spit fly while delivering his Hitler First Order Youth Revival speech, Kylo will variously hack at equipment with his lightsaber, strangle junior officers with the Force, make angsty confessions to his dead grandfather’s charred mask, and bring back young women he finds in the woods for mysterious reasons. In short, they both represent opposite extremes and entirely different paths - this is why they hate each other’s guts and are incessantly bitching about the other man’s incompetence (especially with Snoke).

In short, Hux and Kylo do whatever the opposite of ‘play nicely’ is and I love it. They’re just so fun to watch. I’m sorry Poe, but I want Hux and Kylo to have the spin-off comic book series.

Behold the most beautiful love scene

‘Stop. Don’t think about it and don’t talk about it. Instead…’ 

‘What, Yen?’ 

‘Make love to me.’ 

He embraced her. Touched. Found. Yennefer, in an incredible way was hard and soft at the same time, she sighed loudly. The words they said were broken, sighs and aspirations which disappeared in a hurry, ceased to have meaning and dispersed. So silent, focused on finding themselves on the search for truth. They were looking a long time, carefully and lovingly, fearing the sacrilege of haste, the lightness and neglect. They looked hard, intense and passionate. They looked carefully, fearing the sacrilege of the absence of finesse. They found each other, they overcame fear and a moment later, they found the truth, which exploded under their eyelids, awesome, blindingly obvious, a groan tore at his mouth which was clenched in determination. He then shuddered and time froze, everything disappeared, and only became a functioning sense of touch. 

An eternity passed, reality returned, and for the second time he shuddered and began to move slowly, awkwardly, like a big loaded wagon. Geralt looked out the window. The moon was in the sky but what happened a moment ago should have thrown it to the ground. 

‘Wow,’ said Yennefer after a time, wiping tears from her cheeks with a slow movement. They lay motionless between the disordered sheets, among tremors, between the warmth and the expiring happiness, among the silence that swirled around the indistinct darkness pregnant with the smell of the night and the voices of the cicadas. Geralt knew that in such moments as these sorceress telepathic abilities were heightened and very strong, he thought so intensely about issues and beautiful things. The brightness of the rising sun. In the dawn mist hanging over a mountain lake. In crystalline waterfalls filled with jumping salmon, as bright as if made of molten silver. The warm drops of rain hitting the leaves of a rose bush in full bloom. He thought of her. Yennefer smiled, listening to his thoughts. The smile trembled on her cheeks with the silver by the moon shadow on her eyelashes. 

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‘A house?’ Yennefer asked suddenly. ‘What house? Do you have a house? Do you wish to build a house? Ah… sorry. I should not…’ He was silent. He was angry with himself. Thinking about her had inadvertently allowed her to read the thoughts he harboured about it. ‘A beautiful dream.’ Yennefer lightly stroked his arm. ‘A house. A house built with your own hands and in the house you and me. You would raise horses and sheep, I would take care of the garden, food and Cardaria would weigh the wool that we would take to the market. From the orens that we would be given from the sale of the wool and various fruits of the earth we would by everything we need, say a little copper kettle and an iron rake. Every so often we would visit Ciri with her husband and their three children, sometimes Triss Merigold would come and to be with us for a few days. We could grow old with dignity. And if I get bored at night you would play the bagpipes made with your own hands. Playing the bagpipes, as everyone knows is the best remedy for the blues.’ The witcher was silent. The sorceress coughed softly. ‘Sorry,’ he said at last. He raised himself on his elbow, leaned over and kissed her. She moved to rapidly embrace him. In silence. ‘Say something.’

 ‘I do not want to lose you, Yen’ 

‘After all I have.’ 

‘This night is over.’ ‘Everything ends.’ No, he thought. I do not want it to be so. I’m tired. Too tired to accept the prospect of principals, after which you have to start all over again. I wish… ‘Do not talk.’ With a quick movement Yennefer laid a finger on his lips. ‘Do not tell me what you want or what you crave. Because I might not be able to fulfil your wishes and that would cause me pain.’ ‘And what do you want, Yen? What do you dream? ‘Only about things that can be achieved.’ 

‘What about me?’

 ‘I already have you.’ He was silent for a long time. And waited for the moment she broke the silence.

 ‘Geralt?’ 

‘Mmm?’ 

‘Make love to me, please.’ At first, they filled each other, both were full of fantasy and imagination, ideas, discoveries and new desires. As usual, it soon proved that it was both too much and too little. They understood at once and again proved their love.-Time of contempt by Andrzej Saposwiski

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anonymous asked:

do you have any... theories, or just thoughts about urie that you wouldn't mind sharing? like as regards his teammates, esp mutsuki, or maybe about his family?? idk

Oh, I do alright. I’ll try to go through most of his more important relationships and add some notes on his behaviour as I view it.

I’d like to highlight the topic of Urie and paternity, because most of his problems and shape of character come from his fixation on his father, Mr. Kuki’s death and the lack of a father figure in Urie’s life. Even in the calendar, for Urie’s birthday we get a picture of him and most likely his father:

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honestly like, all aou problems aside, there’s a lot of Legit tony stuff going on there, especially re: that weird way ultron’s mind echoes tony’s

i was rewatching that evil speech bit while natasha is in the cell – and i don’t usually watch this part exactly because the premise is such bullshit, so i never really paid attention to what ultron was saying, but now that i have… Holy Shit man he starts off by wanting natasha to look at what he’s doing because he “doesn’t have anyone else” – ding ding ding tony was saying this in IM1. then he mentions how he always thinks about the “purity” of meteors, “boom, the end. start again” – you can see tony and his phoenix metaphors. then ultron talks about how he was “meant” to be – aka what tony’s original design was – it was all meant to be “beautiful,” people were supposed to look up and see “hope” and “mercy.” hope and mercy are the ideals tony needs and looks for, he has his redemption and guilt thing going on (and the movie itself attempted to have him face his past), so much that hope and mercy are what he was ultimately trying to create via ultron

but then ultron continues, “instead people will look up in horror, because of you” – and ultron’s beef against the avengers is also interesting, because yes, it DOES stem from tony’s simmering resentment and fear that the avengers are inviting a type of trouble that they’re not strong enough to face (remember that when the avengers are confronting tony re: ultron, he’s particularly defensive against thor because it’s a “hoot” that HE wouldn’t get why the earth needs defense against other-worldly threats. in addition, tony’s obviously been having trouble accepting the fact that all of his friends will probably die while avenging; he’s worked on veronica but he wants bruce to be able to go get tanned in a beach without having to worry about turning green, he’s designed an automated task force, his nightmare vision is everyone dead except for him because he didn’t try harder to save them – he doesn’t want the avengers to be walking into the jaws of death, he wants all of them to be able to COME HOME, and he’s trying to make that happen WITHOUT compromising the safety of a world that needs protection)

the thing is, ultron clearly exacerbates tony’s vision of disaster and brings it to its destructive breaking point (the typical thing where you push the desire of peace to the extreme where you have to exterminate humanity to achieve it, because humanity is flawed, etc). whereas tony, for all of his vision of disaster, he has what ultron was only “meant” to have – hope. he asks bruce, “what about the best case scenario?” “what if the world was safe?” he talks about the “end of the fight” he talks about getting to “come home.” he has a lot of fears, yes, but one of his defining characteristics is that he has a lot of dreams as well. “peace in our time,” he says. “imagine that.” and he DOES imagine it, so much that he ambitiously attempts to accomplish it, and at its core (ie, ultron side-effects aside) this is something i really enjoy about his character development, because he’s gone from settling with his world-weary skepticism (“it’s an imperfect world, but it’s the only one we’ve got, i guarantee you the day weapons are no longer needed to keep the peace, i’ll start making bricks and beans for baby hospitals”) to actually working towards the ideal – WITHOUT it meaning that all his fears just went away and he’s wrapped up in boundless unrealistic optimism. in the end, he’s still scared. he’s still making weapons, and the world is still imperfect. but he has a lot of hope

and this is what fucks me up the most, ultron talks about how he was designed to be this beacon of hope and mercy for humanity, but instead he’s their horror, and it’s all because of the avengers – and he singles out tony stark in particular, tony’s a “sickness,” he’s the one ultron “hates the most.” clearly there’s a projection of tony’s self-hatred going on here. and how terrible is it that tony thinks HE is the mistake that turns hope into horror, that his demonstrated worst fear is that the possibility of HOPE for his friends, and humanity, will end because HE will fail to deliver something

cue civil war, “i’m doing what has to be done to stop something worse.” he HAS to do it. because if he doesn’t, “something worse” will happen and it will be on him. he could have saved them. why didn’t he do more?

like holy shiT GUYS i wish aou had been a good enough movie for fandom in general to accept and discuss as legit canon (as in NOT the sort of movie people will use as canon evidence against tony and then cast aside because so much about it sucks). because Holy Fuck. in the end. this all uses some Fucking Good tony concepts

Lysa is not just a ‘crazy bitch’, okay? 

Yes, she is mentally unstable but fuck read the books and you’ll understand why. Hint hint: she’s never felt as if she could compare to Cat, her father forces her to drink moon tea (and whilst he’s sorry about that later on his deathbed he never fucking bothers to apologise to Lysa jeez) and marry a man waaaaaaaaaay older than her, plus a billion other things. She dotes on Sweetrobin because he is literally her only reason for existence (she’s lost like six kids beside him), and she feels threatened by Sansa because hello it’s like Cat all over again. All she wants is to be loved by Petyr because she loves him so fucking much and he knows that and uses that desire to achieve what he wants, to her downfall. 

You shouldn’t hate Lysa, you should feel sorry for her (SHE’S LITERALLY BEEN USED HER WHOLE LIFE BY MEN - her father, Jon Arryn and Petyr) and I have to commend the actress that plays her for being so amazing at portraying her - four for you Kate Dickie you go Kate Dickie!

I love Sansa and I would kill anyone who hurt her/abused her (Baelish cough cough BAELISH) but fuck it if I don’t love Lysa too. 

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It’s amazing how this scene is so subtly intimate and between Jane and Lisbon only, and also how it involves the people around. It’s so moving to hear Jane proudly say his “I sure do”, so emphatically, looking into Teresa’s eyes and holding her hands, letting her know once again how committed he is to her and how prepared he is to share his life with her, and how he wants it. It’s something he has been longing for a long time. I think he has mixed feelings of excitement, happiness and anticipation as well as desire to be seen as Teresa’s husband because he’s so proud of her and of their love, of what they have achieved together, and he wanted that since day one of their relationship. He doesn’t even have to allow himself to rejoice because it flows naturally now, it’s seen in his eyes that he can never take off his beautiful bride, because this is what makes him truly happy.