because he loves peeta too

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Because I know this now. Because there will never be a way for me to not know this again. Because, beyond the military disadvantage losing a Mockingjay entails, I am broken. Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. I reach out for him and say something like his name and he‟s there, holding me and patting my back. “It‟s okay. It‟ll be okay, sweetheart.”

2

It’s  impossible to be the Mockingjay. Impossible to complete even this one sentence. Because now I know that everything I say will be directly taken out on Peeta. Result in his torture. But not his death, no, nothing so merciful as that. Snow will ensure that his life is much more worse than death.
“Cut,” I hear Cressida say quietly.
“What’s wrong with her?” Plutarch says under his breath.
“She’s figured out how Snow’s using Peeta,” says Finnick.
There’s something like a collective sigh of regret from that semicircle of people spread out before me. Because I know this now. Because there will never be a way for me to not know this again. Because, beyond the military disadvantage losing a  entails, I am broken.
Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. I reach out for him and say something like his name and he’s there, holding me and patting my back. “It’s okay. It’ll be okay, sweetheart.” He sits me on a length of broken marble pillar and keeps an arm around me while I sob.
“I can’t do this anymore,” I say.
“I know,” he says.

2

Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. I reach out for him and say something like his name and he’s there, holding me and patting my back. “It’s okay. It’ll be okay, sweetheart." 

2

Until this point Katniss, from where Snow sits, is out of control.  He can’t contain her and he can’t contain the Rebels, nothing he’s said or done thus far has put the thought of rebellion out of the minds of those in the Districts, but this moment when he sees Peeta die and Katniss frantic and then overjoyed that Finnick brought Peeta back to life… “it seems, under that hot pink sky with Peeta’s life in limbo I finally did.  And in doing so, I gave him the weapon he needed to break me.” (MJ 156)

Before this it was an endless battle of, Snow > discredit Katniss > weaken Rebels > win the war BUT now….now it’s so much easier to him.  He knows a much better way to weaken the Rebels would be to get Peeta…because then it would look a little more like this…

Snow > gets Peeta > weakens and incapacitates Katniss > hinders the Rebels from gaining any real ground because of the Mockingjay being too preoccupied with getting Peeta back

Snow did more than weaken and emotionally defeat Katniss, he weakened the Rebellion, and that’s what he wanted.  Because he saw just how much Katniss loved Peeta – in this one moment – he knew the best way to get at the Rebels, was to get Peeta.

Peeta had become her source of strength and protection, once that was taken away she had nothing.  She was weakened and inconsolable, and subjective.  She scrutinized everything the Rebels did and the more and more time that went by without them even considering rescuing Peeta, the less helpful she became.  She finally realized that she wasn’t helping Peeta or the Rebellion by doing nothing, so she stood up, she became the Mockingjay…and yet…

What snapped for her was them beating Peeta…

“Katniss, just this one line and you’re done today.  I promise,” says Cressida.  "‘Thirteen’s alive and well and so am I.“

I swing my arms to loosen myself up.  Place my fists on my hips.  Then drop them to my sides.  Saliva’s filling my mouth at a ridiculous rate and I feel vomit at the back of my throat.  I swallow hard and open my lips so I can get the stupid line out and go hide in the woods and – that’s when I start crying.

It’s impossible to be the Mockingjay.  Impossible to complete even this one sentence.  Because now I know that everything I say will directly be taken out on Peeta.  Result in his torture.  But not his death, no, nothing so merciful as that.  Snow will ensure that his life is much worse than death.

"Cut,” I hear Cressida say quietly.

“What’s wrong with her?” Plutarch says under his breath.

“She’s figured out how Snow’s using Peeta,” says Finnick.

There’s something like a collective sigh of regret from the semicircle of people spread out before me.  Because I know this now.  Because there will never be a way for me to not know this again.  Because, beyond the military disadvantage losing a Mockingjay entails, I am broken.

Several sets of arms would embrace me.  But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too.  I reach out for him and say something like his name and he’s there, holding me and patting my back.  "It’s okay.  It’ll be okay, sweetheart.“  He sits me on a length of broken marble pillar and keeps an arm around me while I sob.

"I can’t do this anymore,” I say.

“I know,” he says.

“All I can think of is – what he’s going to do to Peeta – because I’m the Mockingjay!” I get out.

“I know.”  Haymitch’s arm tightens around me.

“Did you see?  How weird he acted?  What are they – doing to him?” I’m gasping for air between sobs, but I manage one last phrase.  "It’s my fault!“ And then I cross some line into hysteria and there’s a needle in my arm and the world slips away. – Mockingjay, pgs. 162-163

Here is where she grasps whats going on, and this is the point that Snow has won.  But his victory does not last long.  And in the end she gets Peeta back – mostly – but Snow knew that the best way to get to her was through Peeta…and through Peeta he got.

So according to some people Katniss and Peeta isn't a love story?

“To this day, I can never shake the connection between this boy, Peeta Mellark, and the bread that gave me hope, and the dandelion that reminded me that I was not doomed.” - Hunger Games

“I just…I just miss him. And I hate being so alone.” - Hunger Games

“Well, I don’t have much competition here,” he says. I want to draw away, to close those shutters again, but I know I can’t. It’s as if I can hear Haymitch whispering in my ear, “Say it! Say it!”
I swallow hard and get the words out. “You don’t have much competition anywhere.” And this time, it’s me who leans in.” - Hunger Games

“One more time? For the audience?“ he says. His voice isn’t angry. It’s hollow, which is worse. Already the boy with the bread is slipping away from me.
I take his hand, holding on tightly, preparing for the cameras, and dreading the moment when I will finally have to let go.” - Hunger Games

“Stay with me.” As the tendrils of sleep syrup pull me down, I hear him whisper a word back, but I don’t quite catch it.” - Catching Fire

“Peeta, how come I never know when you’re having a nightmare?” I say.
“I don’t know. I don’t think I cry out or thrash around or anything. I just come to, paralyzed with terror,” he says.
“You should wake me,” I say, thinking about how I can interrupt his sleep two or three times on a bad night. About how long it can take to calm me down.
“It’s not necessary. My nightmares are usually about losing you,” he says. “I’m okay once I realize you’re here.” - Catching Fire

“I just want to spend every possible minute of the rest of my life with you.”- Catching Fire

“I wish I could freeze this moment, right here, right now and live in it forever.” - Catching Fire

“I realize only one person will be damaged beyond repair if Peeta dies.
“I do,” I say. “I need you.” - Catching Fire

“Instead of satisfying me, the kisses have the opposite effect, of make my need greater. I thought I was something of an expert on hunger, but this is an entirely new kind.” - Catching Fire

“They can pump whatever they want into my arm but it takes more than that to keep a person going once she’s lost the will to live.” - Catching Fire

“You’re alive,” I whisper, pressing my palms against my cheeks, feeling the smile that’s so wide it must look like a grimace. Peeta’s alive.”- Mockingjay


“Sometimes when I’m alone, I take the pearl from where it lives in my pocket and try to remember the boy with the bread, the strong arms that warded off nightmares on the train, the kisses in the arena.” - Mockingjay

“I want him back” - Mockingjay

“In the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too.” - Mockingjay

“At a few minutes before four, Peeta turns to me again. “Your favorite colour … it’s green?”
“That’s right.” Then I think of something to add. “And yours is orange.”
“Orange?” He seems unconvinced.
“Not bright orange. But soft. Like the sunset,” I say. “At least, that’s what you told me once.”
“Oh.” He closes his eyes briefly, maybe trying to conjure up that sunset, then nods his head. “Thank you." But more words tumble out. "You’re a painter. You’re a baker. You like to sleep with the windows open. You never take sugar in your tea. And you always double-knot your shoelaces.”
Then I dive into my tent before I do something stupid like cry.” - Mockingjay

“I know what blood poisoning is, Katniss,“ says Peeta. "Even if my mother isn’t a healer.”
I’m jolted back in time, to another wound, another set of bandages. “You said that same thing to me in the first Hunger Games. Real or not real?”
“Real,” he says. “And you risked your life getting the medicine that saved me?”
“Real.” I shrug. “You were the reason I was alive to do it.” - Mockingjay

“You’re still trying to protect me. Real or not real,” he whispers.
“Real,” I answer. “Because that’s what you and I do, protect each other.” - Mockingjay

“Let me go!” I snarl at him, trying to wrest my arm from his grasp.
“I can’t,” he says.” - Mockingjay

“Peeta and I grow back together. There are still moments when he clutches the back of a chair and hangs on until the flashbacks are over. I wake screaming from nightmares of mutts and lost children. But his arms are there to comfort me. And eventually his lips. On the night I feel that thing again, the hunger that overtook me on the beach, I know this would have happened anyway. That what I need to survive is not Gale’s fire, kindled with rage and hatred. I have plenty of fire myself. What I need is the dandelion in the spring. The bright yellow that means rebirth instead of destruction. The promise that life can go on, no matter how bad our losses. That it can be good again. And only Peeta can give me that. So after, when he whispers, "You love me. Real or not real?” I tell him, “Real.” - Mockingjay

“Stay with me.

Always.”

But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta too.
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Katniss Mockingjay Chapter 11

Because he loves Peeta too!  No past tense, this is current.  She loves Peeta and the only one who can comfort her is the only other person who loves Peeta as much as she does.  

Originally posted by hypehope

…even after all the time she has spent trying to hate Haymitch.  Peeta’s pain brings them back together.

10

What I love about these two kisses is they are Katniss’ choice.  Peeta does not ask her to kiss him.  She’s not doing it for the cameras.  With these kisses Katniss is kissing him because she wants to, because she needs him.

In the second and third images you can see what her immediate thoughts are after that kiss.  She’s fully prepared to die for Peeta, but it’s not till that moment.  That moment when she realizes that she had loved him all along, but she’s terrified of that so she shoves it away, but for a split second when Peeta’s looking away she cracks a little.  If there had been any doubt in Snow’s mind earlier when Peeta died about whether Katniss loved him or not, it is completely eradicated now.

The fourth through seventh images of the “see you at midnight” kiss, Katniss is trying to reassure Peeta that she’ll be back, that she’s still going to protect him…but she’s also terrified that someone will kill him before she can get back to him…that someone will take him from her.  Katniss is a very selfish person in these stories sometimes, but for once, she’s not concerned about herself, her family, or Gale…she’s concerned about Peeta.  She can’t imagine her life without him, and that’s why it is so hard for her to walk away.

But…she does walk away, though not before looking back.  Several times.  She’s leaving him behind, and alone, that’s how she views them without one another, a l o n e.

I firmly believe that she never would have left Peeta’s side if she knew what the rebels were planning, if she knew their goal all along had been to get her out, and not Peeta.  She’s spent their entire relationship protecting him, and now that the Capitol has Peeta, her resolve is gone.  In her eyes she’s a failure.  Sure she blames Haymitch, and it is partially his fault…but when it comes down to it, the only person who understands how she feels is Haymitch.

Because [he] loves Peeta, too.

I seriously can’t with these two.  Peeta is worried, scared, terrified that Johanna might kill her if they’re split up, and Katniss is the one thing he’s admitted (to the whole of Panem) that he cannot live without.  That there is no life for him where she is not a part of it.  So he’s watching his past, his present, his future…the love of his life walk away, and he can’t do anything about it.

My nightmares are usually about losing you, I’m okay once I realize you’re here.

And there she goes…into the jungle…without him…

Not so friendly, friendly reminder: this is the last time that this Peeta and this Katniss will be together.  They will never be this way again.  They will never be this close again.  Because neither of them will ever be the same again.  And without one another to fend off the nightmares, they truly are lost in their own little worlds…because no one else understands, and because no one cares as much about them as they do.

Poor tragic us.

I’m crying…wow…look what I did to myself…

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Everlark vs. Everthorne

I don’t understand why some people “ship” Gale and Katniss, when the author, Suzanne Collins clearly chose Peeta for Katniss from the beginning.
Right from the start, Katniss laments the reaping of Peeta because she looks at him as the “Boy with Bread.”
    •    Gale could have volunteered to go in with her but he chose not too. Also, he could have voiced his feelings to her at any point up to and including the day of the reaping but he was too busy taking other girls to the slag heap.
    •    Gale only became interested in Katniss when first Darius and then Peeta showed interest in her.
    •    Katniss never felt the “hunger” associated with kissing anyone other than Peeta.
    •    Katniss never detailed Gale’s looks in the same way she did Peeta. She mentioned Peeta’s eyelashes, the way his tongue slipped out when he was working. She noticed the blueness of his eyes.
    •    Katniss never mentions Gale’s favorite color or habits like sleeping with the window open, double-knotting his shoelaces or not taking sugar in his tea.
    •    Katniss never seeks Gale for comfort when Peeta is nearby.
    •    Katniss plans her own death to spare Peeta’s life in the arena.
    •    Katniss seeks out Haymitch because “he loves Peeta too.”
    •    Katniss never kisses Gale after their last kiss in District 2 but she willingly kisses Peeta to bring him back from the edge.
    •    Katniss laments the loss of Peeta’s love but can’t find it in herself to lament the loss of Gale when he moves to District 2.
    •    Katniss reaches out to hug Peeta and remembers all the times they hugged before.
    •    Gale’s only claim on Katniss was that he protected Prim but ultimately did not.
    •    Gale could have returned to District 12 but obviously never did.
Finally, there are Katniss’s own words:
On the night I feel that thing again, the hunger that overtook me on the beach, I know this would have happened anyway. That what I need to survive is not Gale’s fire, kindled with rage and hatred. I have plenty of fire myself. What I need is the dandelion in the spring. The bright yellow that means rebirth instead of destruction. The promise that life can go on, no matter how bad our losses. That it can be good again. And only Peeta can give me that.
So after, when he whispers, “You love me. Real or not real?”
I tell him, “Real.”