because do I have to explain why

This is kinda weird, but I drew Anti and Dark as teenagers, and used Ernest and Lucien as references…
I can’t really explain why…? I guess Lucien has Mark/Dark’s hairstyle and I liked the thought of Anti wearing a big hoodie and looking kinda grumpy. Also, them being teens has to do with an AU I’m doing where they’re basically punk kids and delinquents.

Anti has an eyebrow piercing because Jack mentioned in this video that he used to have one, and Dark is sporting a choker because of this thing Mark did with Matthias and Team Edge last year.

woke up at like 3am burning with the question that since humans are considered fairly unique amongst animals for our concept of a future, esp one without us in it, does that mean that other creatures with seemingly advanced understandings of death (such as elephants, who mourn & know the bones of their deceased as we do) might be able to imagine things we can’t? can elephants conceptualise nothingness? but that’s a silly thing to think overall because it’s a vast overestimation of human understanding to think we know what death is - it must be learned behaviour to know that someone whose stopped breathing won’t wake up again. that’s why children have trouble understanding it & why so many varied explanations of what’s happened exist as parts of cultures, because humans can’t understand it instinctually they must explain it through shared knowledge, & sometimes i forget that all of human knowledge is a conversation between those who are able to make their ideas heard (or who take credit for the thoughts of others)

anonymous asked:

Hey idk if you know this but lads defenders seem to think you targeted her because she prefers bottom louis?? Someone told me this and I was like "uh no this is about her inaccurate portrayal of bdsm and then blocking people who asked her about it" and after seeing a post from her friend group they seem to really be pushing the "im being targeted because of b!louis and phoenix seems to think she knows their sex lives!!!" while I have seen so many posts from them explaining why louis is a b....

Yeah, I’m aware this is their stance. I’m not engaging with it because it belies how little they understand my grievances in the first place. Like…I never said anywhere, first off, that I know anything about H and L’s sex life or that I truly think that’s their dynamic. Someone just asked me why I characterized them the way I do and I listed the reasons. 

Like, I obviously have no idea what they do IRL and that wasn’t ever what I was talking about. They’re putting words in my mouth, likely to evade my actual and original criticism, which is as follows: 

I addressed that blogger NOT because of her preferences, but because of the way she enforces her preferences by shaming people who disagree with her. I have NO ISSUE what so ever with people who prefer bottom Louis (this is literally absurd, as long as I’ve been in this fandom I’ve recced and raved about Eleadore, who writes primarily BL??? She’s like one of my fave authors?) but I DO take issue with  a straight blogger with an enormous platform shaming or guilt tripping people (often LGBTQ people) who prefer BH. I take issue with the way she  has suggested, on multiple occasions, that preferring BH is “heteronormative” and that characterizing Louis as a dom is “buying into the official narrative” and upholding tenants of his closet. She’s a straight woman and it’s absolutely not her place to decide what is heteronormative or not, especially at the expense of shutting down LGBTQ voices in the fandom. 

If she was doing the same thing but preferred BH, I would have all the same issues with her. If you want to read the whole saga and everything I’ve said about it, check out my tag hetshettyhets.  It’s  all documented there. 

Bottom Louies, keep doing you! <3 

tartts  asked:

I'm not sure if you've answered this but in The Secret History, when Richard overheard Henry Winter and Julian talking, Henry asking "should I do what is necessary?" and Julian replying "you should only ever do what is necessary" .... what do you think they were talking about? I'm doing another read through the book and I've always wondered

I don’t know if the book actually clarifies this, but it must be hinted at somewhere because I am convinced, as if having read it clearly, that they were talking about the bacchanalia. Henry explained to Julian what they wanted to achieve, and Julian irresponsibly encouraged them to “do what’s necessary” to achieve the state of saintly trance required; which is also why Henry feels so betrayed by Julian’s cowardice by the end of the book: Julian had enough information to understand the situation and he had supported Henry’s extreme experiments, up until the moment when he could have suffered himself from the backlash (which he should have.) 

Operation Kuron

Alright, so this guy-

-isn’t Shiro.

For one thing, there’s just too many shady circumstances surrounding his escape from the Galra ship: it was too easy, the Galra scientist seemed to treat him escaping as a part of his evil plan, and we get no explanation as to how he got there in the first place. I really, sincerely don’t think that Black would have teleported him straight into the hands of the Galra– despite Keith’s theory, Shiro had freed Black by the end of the fight, so Zarkon wouldn’t have been able to force Black to send Shiro into captivity again. Also, no one else in the Galra empire seems to know that they have the Black Paladin in captivity. Lotor spends the whole season guessing at why Voltron is sucking so hard, and if the Galra really had Shiro, he would have known why immediately.

Another problem is this weirdo’s hair was too long at the beginning of his episode– much too long give the amount of time that passed between the fight with Zarkon and his waking up on the ship (which was likely like. two weeks at most). The timeline doesn’t match up. And where’s the Black Paladin suit Shiro had been wearing when he disappeared? This new guy is in the exact same outfit Shiro was in when he escaped the Galra for the first time.

There’s just something… off about this guy’s behavior. He looks like Shiro and talks like Shiro, but he doesn’t feel like Shiro.

So, Real Shiro’s probably off somewhere else (my money’s on somewhere close to the resistance / Matt). But, then, who the hell is Mr. Fashion Disaster?

A few smart people have managed to work out that “kuron” translates to “clone” in Japanese. So, what this is getting at is that it’s very likely that the Galra had a plan to make Shiro clones. Which definitely explains:

Was the plan to make an army? Was it to make a team of elite Shiro fighters (maybe… a bunch of Shiros to fly the Voltron lions……?)? I have no idea lmao. But what I’m thinking is that whatever the original plan was, it fell through, because Ulaz managed to get Real Shiro out before the cloning technique could be perfected. So, the Galra were left with a bunch of clones that were either too weak to survive or just wouldn’t wake up or were otherwise “unusable.” 

But then, Subject Y0XT39 passes their tests.

So, they change the objective of the project (either to ‘infiltrate Voltron’ or something else equally as evil) and get to work on this clone. And then, they release him out into the world. That ‘escape’? Was a test to see if he thought and fought like the real Shiro. They wanted to make sure their experiment was successful.

The main question, then, is: how does Clone Shiro have all of Real Shiro’s recent memories, including the very recent fight against Zarkon?

Well:

Okay so I don’t know about you guys but I made so much fun of Shiro’s hair in the first season. Why did the Galra give him an undercut? Do their prisoners have to be pretty? Was Haggar like “I can’t look at this dude every day unless his hair is properly trimmed”? But… uh……

You shave people’s heads when you’re going to do brain surgery on them.

What caught Haggar’s attention when it came to Shiro wasn’t just his fighting prowess– it was his mind. His ability to strategize and bring others together and inspire loyalty. The clones have to have Shiro’s memories, his experience, to be effective.

So, Real Shiro’s brain transplant has been broadcasting Shiro’s memories to Clone Shiro. Clone Shiro has been asleep for a while until he’s ‘caught up’ on everything (which takes a while, hence the long hair), and wakes up on the Galra ship he was made in with all of Real Shiro’s memories, hence the “weird headache.” His brain was just packed with tons of information.

Meanwhile, the fight against Zarkon likely shorted out Real Shiro’s brain transplant, which means that the latest memory Clone Shiro has access to is that fight. This explains why Clone Shiro doesn’t have memories from whatever Real Shiro’s off doing right now (again, I figure he’s probably going to run into the resistance and/or Matt soon). Clone Shiro thinks he just… ended up on a Galra ship somehow after the fight with Zarkon and that he has to get back to his team. So, he does. The Black Lion saves him because he feels like Shiro and, as he’s dying, connects with her through Real Shiro’s memories. But, once they get to him, something’s slightly off about him. Black is able to recognize this and rejects him as a pilot.

Clone Shiro, for his part, doesn’t even seem to know he’s a clone. Because he hasn’t been fully “activated” yet. 

Because the new Stage 3 of Operation Kuron is probably to get him close to Voltron before destroying it from the inside.

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did some facial ref practice with the vento aureo gang also @ davidpro part 5 when????

Episode 10 from Yuuri’s POV

We see episode 10 almost all through Viktor’s perspective, note how Yuuri is shown sleeping at both the beginning and the end,

because this is Victor’s episode and not Yuuri’s and Victor has a wildly different perspectives on things, emphasized by the banquet reveal.

But lets think about ep 10 if we assume that Yuuri was going to follow through on his thoughts in ep 9.

I’ve seen some complaint that ep 11 feels weak or lacks foreshadowing, and I think it may have too subtle, but it was built up if you stop and think about it.

In particular if we accept the idea that Yuuri is doing everything in episode 10 as his last day to spend with Victor:

1) explains why he asks for Victor to take him sight seeing and shopping because he knows Victor loves this sort of stuff even if as Victor notes that this isn’t something Yuuri is into, which once again suggests he was doing it for Victor.

This then doubles as a sort of character development moment for Yuuri because look at him be sensitive to the wants of another person. The fact that the blu-ray changed it to Yuuri winking at Victor, something associated with Victor not Yuuri, emphasizes the fact that this wasn’t about Yuuri’s personal desire to sight see. It was his personal desire to spend time with Victor and see Victor enjoy himself.

Also note how Yuuri is looking in the opposite direction from Victor as Victor is theorizing about why Yuuri decided on sightseeing and the answer he comes up with is that Yuuri is just so stressed that he’s reacting strangely. This isn’t the case, thus Yuuri looking in another direction.

2) Also this might partly explain why Yuuri freaks out about the nuts as much as he does, on one hand he is an anxious person, but his insistence on replacing the bag makes a lot of sense if you consider its really about Yuuri freaking out over there being an unpleasant flaw in what’s supposed to be his perfect last day with Victor.

In the scene right after Yuri and Otabek agree to be friends Victor narrates “Back to my story” which is funny, but also emphasizes the fact that this is really being told from Victor’s POV who because he was absent at the Rostelcom doesn’t really have a clue about what Yuuri has decided.

This is also why when they exchange rings Yuuri does it with all the significant and romantic subtext there is, but he doesn’t explicitly say anything because on one hand Yuuri speaks with his actions not his words sort of guy, but also he knows this is the end but gold with its symbolism of eternity (a whole other post tbh) it embodies his desire to be tied to Victor even though he knows they’re going to be separated soon.

Thus his complicated reaction to the engagement where he gets a weird determined face at Victor for calling it that, but he doesn’t vocally confirm because he can’t make that sort of promise at this point in time.

Tldr: if you read episode 10 from Yuuri’s POV it’s actually really sad.

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If I were you, I would turn around, and do as if I have seen nothing.

So, this is part of that whole GF and DP crossover I am definitely not doing, definitely, me? crossovers? please as if, ahahahaha.

Ok no but being serious, I like the idea of Danny and Wulf as friends, if Danny calls Wulf comes, I do not really want to say more because if I do end doing something for the crossover I want to explain it on it, anyway take this because I just wanted to practice drawing Danny and somehow this got out of control.

Dang it Tumblr, why do you make it look so bad??

I made a post about the whole live action Aladdin movie and my girl Naomi as Jasmine but I’m gonna make another one now that it’s official because Twitter is a mess rn and I’m really conflicted about it all.

Here we go:

1) I really love Naomi and if you follow me you know this, and I’ve been waiting of her to get some recognition like this for so long because she’s a really talented actress and she deserves success. I’m proud that she landed the role, she can definitely pull it off and I understand that she took the role because she’s not a big actress and this will definitely change her life but-

2) The cast for Aladdin should’ve been Middle Eastern. The animated film was based off of a Middle Eastern story and the movie itself starts with a song called ‘Arabian Nights.’ But apparently this wasn’t clear enough for Disney when they were casting for this movie. Disney sent out casting descriptions looking for actors and actresses of Middle Eastern and Indian descent. Apparently Disney doesn’t understand that poc aren’t interchangeable.

3) Honestly I blame Disney for all this. They should’ve known better.

4) Don’t come at my girl Naomi with bullshit like saying she isn’t pretty enough to be Jasmine or saying she isn’t a good actress because she is. I’ve been seeing a lot of backlash on all this and while I agree that Disney should’ve cast a Middle Eastern actress for Jasmine, I will not tolerate any slander for Naomi on any irrelevant shit like her looks or her acting. Naomi deserves better than that. 

5) While there is definitely a colourism problem when it comes to casting in Hollywood, don’t erase the fact that Naomi is a woc and don’t call her white just because she’s biracial.

6) This isn’t like the whole ScarJo thing with GITS and it isn’t whitewashing. It’s a whole different thing. Disney was the one looking for actors of Indian descent instead of just actors of Middle Eastern descent like they should have, and it’s really their fault that a Middle Eastern actress wasn’t cast. Naomi auditioned for a role that was asking for people of Indian descent like her, but Disney should’ve just held auditions for Middle Eastern actresses to be faithful to the source material instead of making it seem that poc are interchangeable.

7) Disney and the director (who is white) are mainly at fault here. Disney has done a lot of stuff like this I’m not surprised. Also, the director should’ve been Middle Eastern too.

8) I’m disappointed that my girl Naomi is gonna get a lot of hate for this role because I love her and she doesn’t deserve this mess. Again, Disney should’ve looked for a Middle Eastern actress. (WB and DC can y'all cast Naomi and save her from all this pls?)

9) On the other hand (no I’m not defending Disney, just adding some more facts on why Disney made this casting decision) the animated film took place in a fictional place called Agrabah and there were some Indian culture influences in the film (Jasmine’s palace being based off of the Taj Mahal) and although it took place in a Middle Eastern area, the film kinda blended stuff from other cultures and that lead to Disney being unclear about it all and looking Indian actors for these roles instead of just Middle Eastern actors.

10) We’ll have to see if they change the location of where the story takes place to explain why Jasmine is Indian while Aladdin is Middle Eastern. They could do that to justify the whole thing, but for the millionth time, Disney should’ve had the entire cast be Middle Eastern (I don’t know if Genie counts because that’ll just be voice work and he’s not human).

So yeah, I’m happy Naomi is finally getting big roles but I don’t want it to happen like this and it makes me sad. She deserves better, and there’s a Middle Eastern actress out there who could’ve had the opportunity for this role who also deserves better.

Please don’t send Naomi any hate tho. This is mainly Disney’s mistake.

BTS Highlight Reel Theory “Love Yourself”

First of all let me say that the girls in the highlight reel are really cute and I love them. A lot of people are saying that they are bts’ love interest or that the “Love Yourself” is based on romance but if it is ,how is it connected to HYYH? So, this is my theory and I am just trying to make sense out of this as everyone else.



THE GIRLS MAY NOT BE LOVE INTEREST BUT A REFLECTION OF THEMSELVES OR THEIR GUIDANCE ANGELS. When I watched over the teaser I saw a lot of similar features that the girls have boys.
Jin’s girl have a grace to her beautiful and eternal also physically she has the boardest shoulders out of all the girls. Jungkook’s girl seem tomboyish and very young by the her style is messy and carefree. Yoongi’s girl is very obvious she’s short but also have a fierce attitude, as shown she took away his lighter. Namjoon’s girl showed a bit of clumsiness when she through down the papers and shyly thank him. Taehyung’s girl was also very obvious her badgirl attitude reflect on Taehyung in the past when he used to get into trouble. Finally, Jimin and Hoseok’s girl she had a very bright arua like Hobi but for some reason I think she is there for both of them. Not in a love triangle but to guide Jimin to help Hoseok (that’s for the next explanation)

If this is really part of HYYH how is it connected, since HYYH was about their youth and friendship? Well, love plays a big role in growing up, rejection, heartbeark, the whole concept of “Love Yourself” is you have to find yourself first and appreciate yourself. The girls are there to help through the hard time their are facing (the friendship that the boys lost with each other) to help them through and reconnect, maybe with each other and heal them from their past.

The scenes have similar concept to all of them. When Jin’s girl drop her book why didn’t he didn’t run after her or did he see something in the book from his past (his note or pictures he though of the memebers by the sea). I think she is there to help him go back by the sea(as seen in his poster)


Jk’s girl is helping him heal maybe from being alone and hopeless because he can’t walk. She guide him through a better hope and one day he can walk again.In his poster he’s shown to be very happy.


Yoongi’s is very obvious, from the past his lighter was always connected to him. He was shown smoking a cigarette which can be portrait as self-destructive even his concept quoted that “ Don’t come near me, you’ll be unhappy”. But you see she stopped him and give him an alternative meaning so he can live longer. She give him a lollipop which is also connected to Namjoon. Even at that scene he looked at the lollipop as if it reminded him for something… or someone.

Namjoon’s I’m kinda unsure about but his quote “ I only will watch you from behind, cause now is not the time”. He was watching the girl from behind but as she drop her fliers he went and help her. By that incident she make him come forward, I think she is there to help him realize that the time is now and to stop looking from behind.

Taehyung’s is obvious as Yoongi’s, the girl was shoplifting but he stopped him from doing a crime which can get her in trouble. Taehyung is well known for a lot of crimes in his past and I think she is there for to redeem himself from his sins such as paying the item for her.

Jimin and Hoseok are very connected in HYYH, they have similar personalities and problems. Like in a their solo song Lie and Mama the setting is very similar. I don’t know how to explain it but the reason why there is one girl because Hoseok has a personality disorder as he suffer from when he was child when his mother left him.


In his solo short film the doctor diagnosed him with munchausan’s symptoms

Because of this he’s mentally unstable and can’t get thing straight. Jimin is also suffering from something as his quote said “ I lied because I thought there was no way that you would love someone like me” I think this means he’s behind in something from Hoseok but don’t want to tell him because he think it will hurt him. I think she is there to help Jimin reveal his lie to Hoseok and help Hoseok with his disorder.

I have more theories on this but my main thing is I don’t think this is a romance concept BH is trying to show. Let’s be real it’s them when is anything this simple there is definitely more to theses girls than love. They have a lot of connection with the boys from HYYH and I think they are really there for to help them heal individually and slowly guide them to each other.

Tbh I believe them to be feminine reflection of themselves (don’t get me wrong I love the love concept) but it’s too simple to be just that.

Also thank @jungshookah on twitter for the munchausan’s symdrome info. 

Repost and share the knowledge

anonymous asked:

1) welcome back! You were missed! 2) Do you think certain MBTI types are prone to certain problematic behaviors and 3) if so which ones really bother you or you dislike?

Thanks. Yes, certain MBTI types show trends when it comes to problematic behaviors. My top one for each cognitive function:

High Te (ENTJ, ESTJ, INTJ, ISTJ): The Sledgehammer

Summary: Uses a one-size-fits-all solution for different sized problems.

Example:

  • Using brute force to power through situations that might require more patience, finesse, and reflection.
  • “This worked great for me, you’re dumb not to do the same.”
  • “Don’t pursue a career in art, you’re going to be poor. Go into business, law, or medicine.”

Impact: The problem with being a hammer is that you’ll start to see everything and everyone as a nail. It also makes people feel like their opinions and points of view are less valuable than yours. It also falsely presumes that the choice which yields the best output objectively (example: the job that yields the most money) is the best. It negates the reality that people have different indicators for success because there isn’t only one correct answer to every question.

Solution: Incorporate subjective variables into your objective logical frameworks.

High Ti (INTP, ISTP, ENTP, ESTP): The Hamster Wheel

Summary: Invalidates everything in a perpetual logic loop.

Example:

  • “Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?” x1,000,000

Impact: You succeed at winning debates but fail at solving problems. Whether or not you can rationalize the validity of money doesn’t take away from the fact you still have bills to pay at the end of the day. Whether or not you can rationalize the value of grades and traditional education doesn’t take away from the fact you’ll be denied entry into many careers without the right qualifications. Whether or not you can rationalize that having children is a logical idea or not doesn’t take away from the fact that many people aspire to be parents. The validity of other people’s goals, dreams, concerns, and issues are not contingent on whether or not they can explain them to your satisfaction.

Solution: Create solutions, answers, and actions for every hole you poke in other people’s logic– not more problems.

High Fe (ENFJ, ESFJ, INFJ, ISFJ): The Guilt Trip

Summary: Guilt trip. verb. to make (someone) feel guilty, especially in order to induce them to do something.

Example: Self-explanatory.

Impact: This is manipulation. You’ll get on people’s nerves and make them miserable because you’ve forced them into situations they didn’t willingly want to enter or participate in of their own accord. Secondly, you haven’t provided solid concrete reasons and logic for why someone should do something, it’s an argument made without taking into consideration the other person’s comfort or needs. 

Solution: Explain clearly and transparently why you want someone to do something (yes, it’s really that simple).

High Fi (INFP, ISFP, ESFP, ISFP): The Cloudy Mirror

Summary: Judges people for things they don’t want to be judged for.

Example:

  • “I wish society wouldn’t judge me for not wanting to have children and not wanting to be a housewife.” [Proceeds to judge people who want to have children and want to be a housewife]
  • “Not everyone wants to be rich in life, we all have different definitions of success that should be respected.” [Doesn’t respect people who want to be rich in life, automatically think these people are greedy sell-outs]

Impact: This is hypocrisy. It also comes off as illogical and presumptuous when people’s intents and motivations are automatically filled in by you. Some people buy sports cars because they actually have a passion for driving– they’re not necessarily materialistic. Some people seek high-paying careers at the expense of personal passions because they have obligations and goals they’d like to reach– they’re not necessarily greedy. Some people like traditional gender roles in relationships because that’s their personal choice– they’re not necessarily oppressed and/or close-minded. 

Solution: Accept that “conformity” in behavior, goals, aspirations, appearance, etc. doesn’t equate to misery and/or lack of authenticity.

High Ne (ENTP, ENFP, INTP, INFP): The Whiplash*

Summary: Chronic quitting and the inability to commit due to impatience and lack of discipline.

  • *Whiplash: noun. a neck injury due to forceful, rapid back-and-forth movement of the neck, like the cracking of a whip.

Example:

  • “I’m going to do A, B, C, D, E, F, G, H, I, J … Z!” [Does none of it]
  • “Let’s do this. Let’s do that. Let’s go back to doing this. Let’s go back to doing that.”
  • “I want to have six-pack abs! I’m going to be SHREDDED.” [Exercises and eats well for one day then goes back to bad habits the next day]

Impact: People stop taking you seriously because you can’t execute on your promises, it dilutes the weight of your words and it corrodes respect (ex: “Yeah, uh-huh, sure you will, buddy.”). No one is immediately an expert at something the first try– seeds take time to grow and you’re no exception to this rule. Developing expertise and skills require time, commitment, and consistency. Results don’t happen overnight.

Solution: Underpromise and overdeliver– don’t overpromise and underdeliver.

High Ni (INTJ, INFJ, ENTJ, ENFJ): The Nutcracker

Summary: Hits people below the belt using knowledge those people shared against them.

Example:

  • Someone is insecure about their weight, you insult their weight.
  • Someone is insecure about their skin color, you make a comment about their skin color.
  • Someone tells you a secret, you expose it.

Impact: People won’t confide in you for fear you’ll use what they told you against them. This creates barriers to having close and meaningful friendships because people will view and treat you like a ticking time bomb they can’t let their guard down around. Understand that certain topics and comebacks are off-limits no matter how you feel about the person at the moment; certain words and actions have a lasting impact on your relationships. Memories fade but scars last.

Solution: The nuclear option should be your last resort, never your first.

High Se (ESTP, ESFP, ISTP, ISFP): The Blindfire*

Summary: Leaps before they look.

  • *Blindfire: noun. The term referring to the act of operating a firearm without looking at what one is shooting at.

Example:

Impact: Your lack of foresight and lack of planning will set you back even further from your goals because immediate rewards and instant gratification often only provide short-term benefits that rarely last. There’s a proverb that’s applicable here: “measure twice, cut once” which means that investing time and energy up front to do it correctly the first time will save a ton of time, money, energy, and grief later down the line.

Solution: Stop, drop, and roll think if the path you’re on actually leads to where you want to go.

High Si (ISTJ, ISFJ, ESTJ, ESFJ): The Helicopter

Summary: Micromanaging, nitpicking people to death.

Example:

  • “Write the email but let me review and edit before you send it.”
  • “What are you doing right now? Where are you going? When are you coming back?”
  • “I noticed when you loaded the dishwasher you put the spoons and forks in before the pots and pans, you should put the pots and pans in before the spoons and forks.”

Impact: Half the internet is writing posts complaining about you, the other half is writing posts complaining about having to read all the posts complaining about you. Micromanagement saps people of confidence and motivation, it also increases the chance that the bad thing you’re trying to prevent will actually happen. Additionally, you’ll feel paranoid and anxious that something will go disastrously wrong if you’re gone which results in burnout because you’ll always need to be there to keep an eye on things. This is counterproductive for everyone involved.

Solution: Choose your battles wisely– focus on the “what” (the goal) and not the “how” (the method).

Warm

Time for some more whump! It’s Day Two- Hypothermia!

Lance and Keith (read: klance) go to an ice planet.

why do i only ever hurt lance


“Figures,” Lance grumbled. “Stereotypical ice planet. Why couldn’t the rebels have lived on, I don’t know, a tropical island? The entire known universe and we can’t stumble across some beach residents in need of rescue?”

“Lance,” Shiro’s disapproving voice sounded over the coms. “The two of them gave me their only ship. Which means we’re helping them. They’re part of a freedom fighter organization, maybe they can help us.”

“Yeah, okay, but why do I have to be the one that gets sent down here? I’m from Cuba! This is way, way below comfortable temperatures for me.”

“Quit whining,” Keith snapped, glaring at Lance over his shoulder. “Our armor’s designed to keep us warm, and this is below comfortable for anyone. And pick up the pace.”

Lance rolled his eyes, but jogged to catch up to him.

“Sorry, Lance, but the red lion is the best at withstanding extreme temperatures. And it’s smaller, and faster than the other lions, so it can better navigate the terrain,” Shiro explained.

“Wish I had help navigating the terrain now,” Lance muttered under his breath. The two of them were currently struggling through over a foot of snow. “And that doesn’t explain why I had to bring Keith with me.”

“Because going on solo missions to unknown locations is how you get killed,” Pidge pointed out. “Star Wars? Hoth? Luke almost getting annihilated by the abominable snowman? Any of that ring a bell?”

“Quiznaking ice planets. Why are we out of the lion anyway, Shiro? Red’s warm. Do you want us to freeze to death and then have to hide inside the body of a space camel?” Lance’s voice was dripping with sarcasm.

“What the hell are you talking about?”

“Star Wars, Keith. Remind me to marathon it with you when we get back to Earth. My niece loves those movies, and she’ll eat all the popcorn, but it’s worth it. Trust me.”

“Would you two take this mission seriously?” Shiro asked. Lance could practically see him rubbing his temples exhaustedly. “I know it’s not exactly high-stakes adventure, but these guys saved my life. You’re not going to go prancing around the planet in your lion and accidentally destroy their hideout.”

Prancing? Shiro, I don’t prance, I'm—”

“Lance, look,” Keith interrupted him and pointed out towards a large stretch of ice before them. It would’ve been a lake, had the planet not had such low temperatures. “Pidge, is that the direction we need to go?”

“Yep,” she told them. “The hideout’s not far from the opposite side.”

Keith sighed. “We’ll have to go around.”

“Woah, what? Keith, that lake is huge! It’d be so much easier to walk straight across,” Lance protested. “I’m not about to freeze to death while we take the scenic route.”

“In case you hadn’t noticed, that’s ice, dumbass. If it can’t support our weight and breaks then we really could freeze to death! That water’s gotta be a lot worse than this.”

“I’m not an idiot, Keith, I know that. Pidge, if I send you a scan can you see if it’ll support us?” Lance asked. Pidge made a noise of affirmation, and Lance used his armor’s scanner to send an analysis of the ice to her.

“It looks pretty thick,” she mused. “I wouldn’t jump up and down or start hacking at it with your bayards if I were you, but you’ll be able to walk across.”

See?” Lance smirked at him. “What’d I tell you? It’s fine.”

“Shouldn’t we, I don’t know, check the lake? What if there’s a… space octopus in there, or something? Or a shark? I mean, they wouldn’t normally live in lakes, but this isn’t Earth so who knows? Are space alligators a thing?” Hunk spoke so fast it was almost difficult to understand.

“Hunk, you’re rambling,” Lance observed with a fond smile. “But don’t worry. The top of the lake is frozen, so they wouldn’t be able to breathe, right? Let alone get to us. If it makes you feel better, I’ll do a full scan of the lake.”

“Nope. No animals down there,” Pidge confirmed a few moments later. “Now would you two hurry up and cross?”

“I still have a really bad feeling about this,” Keith mumbled.

Lance turned towards him with a grin. “We are so watching Star Wars together. In fact, we should see if they have it at the space mall. But sorry, Keith, if you want to go the long way, be my guest. I’m not going to wait any longer than I have to.”

“He really is the true pilot of Red,” Pidge sounded as if she was trying to repress a laugh. “Impatient as all hell.”

Hey!” Keith and Lance exclaimed at the same time.

Pidge snorted. “Just get going already.”

Lance wasted no time in starting out across the lake. He was several paces ahead of Keith, who still hesitated to step out onto it. As he was about to continue forward, Keith stopped in his tracks. He could swear he saw something dark moving below the ice, but Pidge had scanned the lake for life, hadn’t she? It must just be his imagination. He started forward again, but just then the ground shook, and the ice in front of Lance exploded.

He let out a strangled yelp, stumbling away from whatever had just burst out of the lake. Keith could hear the frantic voices of the others in his ears, but it all descended into white noise as he saw the vine that had broken through the ice wrap around Lance’s legs.

He rushed forward, but it was already too late. Keith watched as Lance was dragged into the hole made by the creature, and plunged into the freezing lake.


The water was murky, and dark. Lance could barely see, all he knew was that something was dragging him further and further down into the depths. He didn’t have time to activate his helmet properly before water was rushing into his lungs.

He felt the grip of whatever held him tightening on his legs, and though he tried to kick he couldn’t break free.

Lance forced himself not to panic. Panicking wouldn’t help him. So he collected his thoughts, summoned his bayard, and pointed it down. He still couldn’t see anything, but with luck he’d hit the monster, not himself. He moved his finger to the trigger, aimed for what he hoped wasn’t his leg, and fired.

Judging by the shriek of pain and how the hold on him loosened, Lance guessed the laser met its mark. He kicked upwards immediately, swimming quickly to the surface. However, with limited eyesight and dwindling oxygen, his hands met nothing but ice. Panic started to overtake him again as he desperately scrambled to find the hole which he’d fallen into.

Lance was just starting to give up hope completely when suddenly a hand snagged around his wrist and yanked him to the side, and up to the surface.

Lance sucked in a breath, coughing the water out of his lungs as he collapsed onto the ice. His vision was foggy around the edges, but he could see well enough to notice Keith kneeling over him, breathing heavily.

“Are you okay?” he demanded, hands hovering over Lance’s form. “Are you hurt?”

“What—” Lance coughed again. “What was that… that thing?”

“I… I didn’t scan for plants,” Pidge told him apologetically. “In my defense, I had no idea there would be some crazy strong… Venus flytrap-ish monster living here.”

Now will you listen to me when I tell you something’s a bad idea?” Keith asked, sounding way to relieved to actually come off as angry.

Lance gave him a shaky smile. “I c-could ask you the… the same, S-samurai.”. Keith tensed immediately.

“Why’s he talking like that?” he asked. “He’s… breathing weird, too. And shivering. Pidge, what—”

“Keith. Scan. Now.” Pidge’s voice was suddenly alert, and when Keith complied, she cursed. “Hypothermia. I should’ve guessed. Keith, get him back to the castle. He should be fine, but he needs a pod. Allura and I will come back to the planet in Blue later.”

Keith nodded, picking Lance up in his arms as if he weighed nothing at all, before rushing towards Red. “Hang on, Lance. You’re gonna be fine.”

“You.. you were r-right,” Lance admitted around chattering teeth. “That was a… very b-bad idea.” His eyes started to slide shut.

“Wh— no, Lance, you have to stay awake. C'mon, keep your eyes open. We’re almost there.”

“’M sorry, Keith, b-but it’s… it’s freezing, and you’re r-r-really w-warm,” Lance mumbled, closing his eyes and leaning his head on Keith’s shoulder. “I think… I’ll just take a little n-nap.”

“Lance, no, you’ve got to—” Keith started insistently, but Lance had already passed out in his arms.


Lance fell unceremoniously out of the healing pod, but was luckily caught before he collapsed onto the floor. He looked up to meet Keith’s dark eyes, and promptly groaned. “So, I guess we had another bonding moment.”

Keith bristled. “That’s all you have to say? Not ‘thank you for saving my life?’ After your stupid decision-making skills got you put in a pod for the… how many times has it been now?”

Lance ignored him. “Where are the others?”

“None of them wanted to stay overnight, because, again, you’ve been in this pod way too many times,” Keith told him, unsure if he should point out that Lance had made no move to step back, so Keith was still supporting the entirety of his weight.

“And yet you stayed,” Lance grinned. “Guess I should probably start listening to you, huh?”

“Guess so.”

Lance’s smile turned quickly into a smirk. “Well, that’s too bad, since we both know that’s never going to happen.”

Keith scowled, prepared to drop Lance onto the floor. He would have to, if Lance hadn’t leaned forward at that exact moment and kissed him.

It didn’t last long, but Keith was blushing furiously, anyway. It was nice to see that Lance looked a little flustered, too, though.

“Thanks,” Lance said softly. “For saving my life.”

“Um,” Keith started, brain still trying to understand what was going on. “Did you just— you and I— is this— what?”

Lance laughed, finally stepping back from Keith and turning to walk out the door. “I’m going to go get some food goo, if you’d care to join me.”

Keith watched him go, and stammered out a few more incoherent sentences before rushing after him.

Over the last week or so I have had a bunch of conversations with neurotypical people who want me to ‘challenge myself’ and ‘get out of my comfort zone’ but actually what they mean is ‘do things that require 10 times as much effort for your ADHD ass to get half the return’ and I am getting a little bit frustrated. Some of the stuff they want me to do is stuff I should do! Most of it is stuff I would very much like to do! None of it is stuff I have the executive function to actually do consistently or well!

When I try to explain why this is not going to be as easy as they are making it sound, I end up using language that is not clear in the ways I need it to be clear. Because when you say ‘that is going to be difficult for me because I do not have a normal person’s brain’ what they hear is ‘I need a pep talk about how there’s Nothing Wrong With Me and I Just Need To Try!’ which. thank you. but no.

So the metaphor I think I will be trying to use, going forward, is this: 

Imagine that people’s brains are vehicles. 

Most brains are cars. 

My brain is a Vespa. 

There is nothing wrong with having a Vespa! It is a perfectly nice vehicle to have! It is not inherently inferior or superior to other kinds of vehicles! In fact, it can get you to some places that cars can’t go, via routes that cars can’t take!

But. The world is mostly built with the assumption that people are going to be getting places by car. Some parts of it are designed for cars in ways that make it pretty hard to ride a Vespa down the same route. Most of the time, when we are taught to drive, we are given the car-driving instructions. So if you don’t have a car, there is a whole lot of trial and error involved in learning to operate your vehicle safely. 

And if you try to drive your Vespa like a car, you are going to get wrecked.

So You Think You’re Not Racist

Alternate title: “Levels of Racism: Why White Fans and Creators Have a Responsibility to Confront Our Biases”

So here’s a thing I’ve been thinking about for a while. I’m pretty sure it’s nothing new and if anyone knows of resources written by Black people that address this, please send me the info because I definitely want to read them. 

(Also if I’ve misstepped or misspoken in any way, please let me know. Criticism is welcome.)

Part of the difficulty of discussing racism, particularly with other white people, is that we don’t actually think about the same thing when we talk about racism. The way I see it, there are three levels:

  1. Individual beliefs and actions that are rooted in racial prejudice
  2. Subconscious racial bias that comes from socialization
  3. Systemic racism enshrined in institutions of power

There are probably more in between, and obviously these aren’t strict black and white categories; there’s a lot of overlap and blurred lines involved. I don’t know if any particular level is worse than the others, and I don’t think I’m qualified to speak on that. But I think these work well as large bucket categories.

The problem is that often people are talking about different levels without actually realizing it. When I try to get my parents to understand why level 2 might lead them to judge Colin Kaepernick’s method of protest unfairly, they respond as if I’ve accused them of level 1 racism. When I tell my coworker that I don’t like the Bruins because the crowd booed PK Subban every time he had the puck, I can tell he’s desperately trying to come up with a reason other than race because he doesn’t want to accuse an entire stadium of people of being level 1 racists, when really the problem is probably a mix of 1 & 2.

And obviously, they’re all bad. They’re all racism and we should fight against all of them. But I think we have to fight against the different levels in different ways, which is why people get frustrated with these conversations.

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Older brother Namjoon+ rest of BTS scolds you PT.10

BTS x Reader

Genre: Angst

Namjoon’s Sister AU

[PT.1] [PT.2] [PT.3][PT.4] [PT.5] [PT.6] [PT.7] [PT.8] [PT.9] [PT.10] [PT.11] [PT.12] [PT.13] [PT.14:END] [PT.14 Alternative]


Originally posted by pjkook


Y/N’s p.o.v

“Joonie?” I say completely confused, what was he even doing here?

“Oh uh hi baby sis, you’re up?” 

“Well yeah you were crashing and banging, I’m pretty sure it could have woken up the entire building.” I say quite frankly. “What are you doing here?” I wasn’t completely mad that he was standing in my kitchen, hammering at my counter top. But at the same time I feel sort of resentful. 

“I was waiting for you outside of your door -”

“Yeah I saw you, but what are you doing in here?” 

“You fainted, I had to bring you inside.” He explained. 

“But why do you care?” I was bitter and I knew that but I couldn’t help myself, because what they said, tore me up inside. 

“Come on small, don’t be like that.” Small, he used to call me that all the time. 

“Don’t be like what? How else do you want me to act? What more do you want to control?” I started to raise my voice. It was always ‘don’t do this’ ‘don’t do that’. 

“I know it was wrong of me and I’m sorry, can’t you just accept my apology and move on?” He was raising his voice at me now too. A few years ago, he would cherish me, made sure nobody hurt me and would never raise his voice at me. But now all he has done is hurt me. 

“How am I supposed to just accept your apology and move on oppa? When you’ve always been someone that I looked up to, you were always the one who taught me well, but you neglected me. You used to protect me, but now? You’re the one who hurt me the most.” I was on the verge of tears, it’s been so long that it’s just the two of us talking, just brother and sister time. When I used to have nightmares as a kid, Namjoon would be the one to read me a story whilst crouching by the side of my bed and made sure I fell asleep okay. But right now, he was my biggest nightmare. “You used to care about me so much, what happened?” My voice lowered and tears fell, quickly wiping them away I looked up at him.”You used to be my saviour oppa, but now it’s like I don’t even know who you are anymore.”

“I still love and care about you Y/N, why are you being so difficult? I’m trying to make amends but you’re acting so childish!” He raised his voice and I couldn’t help but flinch. I can’t lie and say that it didn’t scare me when he was like this, because he was rarely ever like this. My head was spinning and I felt like complete shit, but what does that matter right?

“I’m being childish? My older brother and his best friends, including my very own best friend, spoke badly of me behind my back. The same older brother who just 4 years ago would not let anyone say a single bad thing about me, not even mum and dad. You’d always hide me behind your back when I was in trouble. You’d tell the kids who were mean to me off. You did so much for me back then. Maybe I’m just expecting too much, maybe I grew up relying on you too much. Or maybe you just don’t love your lil small anymore, because I’m useless and only ever cause you trouble.” I was trying so hard to remain calm, so hard to not allow my tears to fall but it was working. They just kept falling. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry I’m a pain in the ass to you. I’m sorry I’m not good enough. I’m sorry I’m not the same small you used to love and care about.” I swallowed back my flowing tears and smiled slightly up towards him. “I won’t cause you anymore trouble, you don’t have to worry about me. I’ll stay away so you don’t have to see me anymore. I’m sorry for being dramatic. I really am. So, oppa. Could you please leave?” 

“This is a little too much don’t you think? Over something so little?” I chuckled, is that really what he thought?

“It may have been little to you because you don’t look up and respect me like I do, you. Ever since I could walk and talk, I’ve learned so much from you, you were that older brother to me that became my shield. The older brother that I had endless respect for. So to me it’s like my whole world was crashing down on me. You had know idea that the last four years have been hell, you wouldn’t know because you never really asked how I was. But I get that, you’re busy. I understood. But when I needed you the most and told you some things, you don’t even remember and you always pushed me aside telling me that you’d ‘message me later’ because you’re occupied doing something. But no matter how long I waited for my older brother to get back to me, he never did. I was always the one starting up a conversation. Because I missed my big bro, but he didn’t miss me. I felt as though I was just a complete burden so I stopped. Life got harder, but it’s okay now. I’m a big girl and I can handle it.” I smiled one last time at him. “Because I don’t need you anymore.” 


PT.11?

Just…have you considered the ending?

Like, when I saw Tony offer Peter the world at the new Headquarters, all I could think is this is a product of Tony’s fucked up childhood and I was floored.

Consider this: Tony, his whole childhood, pushes for greater and greater successes, building circuit boards and engines and robots, until, at an incredibly young age, he is accepted into one of the best universities for his craft in the world. Age was not an obstacle; skill was, although age was undoubtedly an obstacle once Tony achieved that level, I doubt he sees it that way.

And for Tony, that was perfectly normal. He was smart so his parents skipped him up grades, sent him to fancy boarding schools, and, finally, sent him to college at an incredibly young age. No one said boo.

Now, going to college that young is a perilous task, although nowhere near as perilous as, you know, actually fighting evil. But Peter has achieved the skill level required, and bam, age aside, he’s in. That would be the logic in this situation; it’s not about age, it’s about achievement. There’s an achievement-based goal and the idea is to meet that goal as soon as possible.

Peter wants to drop out of high school to fight crime because he’s beyond the life of a high schooler, in his mind. Ned is the voice of “what the fuck Peter” reason on this (everyone else would have been too, of course, if they had known). Tony is in the same boat as Peter, though. Why do the normal thing if you have achieved beyond that? I doubt the non-explicit benefits of high school would register to Tony. He’d be like, this kid is smart, he’s skilled, he does not need what that place sells, he’s ready for this.

(Of course, why Pepper and Happy were not explaining this to Tony, I don’t know. Maybe Pepper doesn’t know how young Peter actually is, and Happy just kind of…always indulges Tony).

And then Peter, as the culmination of a coming of age journey, decides that, actually, he is a kid, and he’s an amazing kid, but a kid nonetheless. High school and friends and opportunities are important, so thanks, but he’ll stick to Queens and Midtown Science and Engineering for now.

And I’d also like to give credit for Tony who probably doesn’t fully understand this, does realize it’s a mature choice in that Peter is taking care of himself, good on him. And when Peter turns back and is like “this was a test, right? I learned the right lesson here, right?” Tony immediately says “Yup, right kid, you are absolutely right no problem good job” and doesn’t taint Peter’s decision in any way.

Anyways there’s a million places in this movie where it’s explicit and implicit that Tony does, in many ways, see Peter as a younger version of himself, and him as, in some ways, being in Howard’s position. Howard sent Tony to the sharks without a thought. Tony, in all fairness, was totally ready to do the same, but when Peter said “actually no,” Tony totally respected that.

Breaking the cycle of shame, indeed.

On the Social Dimension of Disability: “I don’t think of you that way.”

I can’t count the amount of people who have said some variation of “I don’t think of you that way” when it comes up that I’m disabled.

Disability (n.):  a physical or mental condition that limits a person’s movements, senses, or activities.

I have permanent paralysis in my shoulder, arm, and hand from an injury to my brachial plexus. My range of motion in that arm is about 40% of what a typical, uninjured arm would be, not to mention my underdeveloped strength, dislocated shoulder, and the resulting scoliosis. I could go on. Based on the simplest, literal definition, I am definitely disabled, because at the very least, compared with a typical body, my movements are limited.*

So, why am I always hearing “I don’t think of you that way”? 

Often a person says it to relieve their own social discomfort or cognitive dissonance, either because I’ve self-identified as disabled or because they’ve said something disparaging about disabled people. Examples:

  • My boyfriend’s mom says she has “crippling self-doubt.” My boyfriend says, “bad word choice,” gesturing to me. She does a double take, looks my way, and says “Oh, I’m sorry, it didn’t occur to me because I don’t see you that way.”
  • My college roommate and I are chatting and I mention, in a neutral tone, that I am disabled. In the voice of someone finally expressing something that’s been bothering her, she says “I don’t know why you think of yourself that way. I don’t think of you that way.”

In the first example, my boyfriend’s mom uses “crippling,” (cripple (n.): a person who is partially or totally unable to use one or more limbs) as shorthand to say that her self-doubt prevents her from normal activities, or at least from the activities she’d prefer to take part in. When my boyfriend points out that this metaphor implies physical disability (such as mine) necessarily means abnormal, negative, or useless, she experiences discomfort. She relieves it by saying, “I don’t think of you that way,” preserving the abnormal, negative, or useless associations in her head with physical disability. Because she sees me as normal, useful, productive, I must not be disabled. The definition of disability shifts from a value-neutral description of physical or mental difference to a negative social role, in order to exclude me.

In the second example, my roommate does something similar. Although I don’t express sadness or anger when calling myself disabled, it makes her upset, and she pushes back. That’s because, rather than seeing disability as a value-neutral physical or mental difference, she sees it as a negative social role. In her mind, by self-identifying this way, I’m insulting myself.

The problem with both these lines of logic is twofold:

  • The definition of disability shifts at will in order to protect the nondisabled person’s perception of disability as a negative attribute.
  • Inclusion and exclusion into this social role shifts at will in order to protect the nondisabled person’s perception of disability as a negative attribute and attitude toward disabled people that they do “think of that way.”

If I’m not disabled, then I have no way to explain why I was told not to become a lifeguard, or why men routinely refuse to date me because my “arm is just too weird,” or why strangers approach me to tell me how great it is that I’m out living life. I lose out on putting a name to these negative experiences (which is a necessary part of healing from them and fighting back) in order to protect nondisabled people’s shifting definition of disability.

Worse still, if I’m not disabled, then disabled people are just the faceless, abnormal, negative, useless Other. If, as soon as a person because a valued figure in your life, they’re excluded from that group, it is far too easy to dehumanize, objectify, and disenfranchise that group. 


*I wouldn’t trade that limitation of movement for the world, as it’s caused me to develop an interesting set of physical skills that nondisabled people lack along with character traits that are integral to my personality. But that’s for a different post.