Dragon Age is so important to me because I found it at a time in my life when I was terribly depressed and convinced I would never write again. Circumstances had led me to lose all interest in the world around me, and all confidence in my writing abilities. I told myself that everyone who had ever encouraged me along the way had been lying to me because they didn’t want to hurt my feelings, and it was embarrassing for me to even keep trying. It was time to give up on fantasies and live in the real world.
And then I played Inquisition and it impacted me greatly. Inspired for the first time in years, I plunged ahead and - and DA2 was even a more powerful experience for me. I can’t even begin to describe what the Kirkwall gang did for me on a personal level, but on a more obvious one - I wrote Friendly Concern, and then The Other Inquisitor. I turned this into a writing blog, and spent the first November of this new life writing every day for the first time in years.
I don’t know if I’ll ever finish another original novel, or if I do, if I’ll ever write one that gets published. But I get to write every day - I want to write every day - and when people write to me and tell me that it made them happy, it made their day better, it helped them through something, then I’m reminded that it doesn’t matter if I’m making a living off writing: I’m helping people. That’s important. Even on my worst days, when the anxiety and depression strikes hard, and things go bad at work, I’m still more content than I’ve ever been in my adult life, and I owe that to Dragon Age.
Is Daishou creepy in the Orphan!AU? Define 'fake dating' ? I'm excited!
creepy and a jerk. basically his whole rivalry with kuro is very dumb but they’re both stubborn assholes so what was first annoyance turned to dislike which turned into hate and tbh after years neither of them can remember why they hate each other so much, they just do.
after kuro rejects kenma, kenma is understandably upset and hurt and he goes to daishou with the idea of pissing off kuro by pretending to date. daishou jumps at the chance to irritate kuro. it starts off with them just hanging out together and holding hands or kissing whenever kuro is around. they pretend to go on dates, and eventually they start “screwing around” by locking themselves in kenma’s room when kuro is around and making suspicious noises.
after a while tho daishou starts to want something real, but kenma has absolutely no interest in him, so he starts to see other people. kuro catches him with a girl one day and thinks he’s cheating on kenma and that’s when the truth comes out …
omg i didn’t even realise i hit 300?? wow, okay, thats actually a lot of people jeez.
just a short thank you, to all you guys. i wouldn’t be writing these stories without you and your comments and messages are endlessly sweet. even when im dealing with stuff or too busy to get things done, your support has been incredible and really really helpful.
i hope my works continue to make you guys happy and bring a bit of enjoyment to your days, hopefully soon my updates will become more regular and scheduled and i might offer for requests? if you guys really want me to get something done im happy to try it but it always depends on how busy i am.
cute [ vii ] should be out soon, i’ve got my writing trade with @deadlyplushie coming soon too, and i’ve had a double request for something angsty so look forward to all that!
please dont be afraid to talk to me, whether it be pms of asks, i’m always happy to chat, i adore all of you and im not at all scary, i promise. i’m probably more afraid to answering asks than y’all are of sending them, so please dont ever feel intimidated if you have questions or anything.
so i cleaned out my closet a few weeks ago and pulled out some old clothes, and when i was sorting thru them i found this old dress my uncle made for me in like third grade and i was like “awh man too bad this probably doesnt fit anymore..” and my mom said “it might, try it on” and i did a ND LO AND BEHOLD IT ACTUALLY FIT
I WAS SO HAPPY
so have lil acid n current acid side by side to show off the dress
Maybe it’s because I’ve been listening to Everybody by Logic on repeat all day and it’s hitting an emotional string but I just need to rant on here because I just… have so many emotions right now. I️’m nearing the one year anniversary of an incredibly traumatic couple of months in my life and I can’t help but sit here and be amazed by how far I’ve come.
I started going to therapy in March of this year. It was a weekly ordeal where I sat in, dumped my emotional load for the week, and tried to figure out what that meant for me mentally. I’d ask for tips to help me cope with my severe depression and anxiety, and try to apply them to things that triggered me each week. As time passed, I became shocked to find that these things actually WORKED. I was getting better. Not only that, I found that going to therapy wasn’t always necessary for me every week anymore. As much as I loved seeing my therapist, I knew that conversations were becoming less focused on my mental health and more focused on every day life in its beauty and mundaneness. This was because the ways I️ coped were helping me live life functionally, and overcome the setbacks my mental health used to present.
Now here I️ sit, still mentally ill but 10000% in a better place then I️ was in March of last year. This journey has not been pretty. I️ still find myself facing setbacks quite often. Not even a month ago, I️ had a panic attack so severe that I️ almost blacked out. But I️ knew what to do to make myself better. I️ knew how to build myself up again and not let one low moment degrade the rest of the progress I’d made.
This has been a huge milestone in my life. I’ve had mental health problems since I️ was a kid. To be able to say these past few months have been some of the happiest of my life brings tears to my eyes. I️ have so much gratitude towards my friends, family, and therapist for walking with me on this journey. Most of all, I️ have pride in myself for getting myself to this point. No matter what lies ahead, I️ know that I️ can get myself through it. I’m ready.