be selfconfident

  • Me: having a structured life is exhausting!
  • Therapist: I understand. Let's say just get up in the morning, get some breakfast, go for a walk...and that's it for a start.
  • Me: *internally: sounds reasonable, but that means first fighting against my will to just stay in bed and act as if I'm not existing. Getting up either way and facing my face and body in the mirror. There's an 80% chance that it's one of those days and I hate myself just so fucking much I could scream. But there's also a chance I look in the mirror and find a person that does not seem to be familiar to me looking back at me. Still, now you want me to shower and wash this body I find really disgusting. I have to see every single scar I have and maybe feel the burn of fresh cuts. Then I have to put on cloth, brush my teeth and my hair and do my makeup, as I can't go outside without hiding my ugly face under layers of primers and foundations and powders and highlighters and fake lashes and a perfect contour and a big nude fake smile. I spend money I don't have to make myself look good enough for myself to endure my own appearance. I remember to take my meds. Now I'm dressed (in clothes that hopefully say 'i don't care' when really I care a lot) and can go to the kitchen to prepare food that I know I won't be able to eat in 50% of the cases. There's also a good chance that I eat it and then find myself throwing up and ruining my makeup feeling every single disgusting cell of fat on my body vibrate while trying to breathe. Well either way let's say I might redo my make-up, brush my teeth again and step outside. I maybe take my horse with me and walk through the neighbourhood. I have to see people. I feel anxious. I would love to just turn around and go back home. But I keep on walking, trying to seem selfconfident so my horse and neighbours can't see or feel my insecurity. I'll try to be friendly and act normal even though I'm sure they hate me and laugh about me. Still if the communication between my horse and me isn't perfect today I'll probably cry and if a neighbour just looks at me in a way that i interpret to be unfriendly or cold or annoyed I'll probably cry too. Let's say I'm back home. Now it's like 11 in the morning. What do I do? By now I'm an emotional wreck, tired as hell, probably planing on how to harm myself with one half of my brain while the other half bundles it's last energy to prevent exactly this from happening. How do I survive the rest?*
  • Me: I'll try.

anonymous asked:

Ultimate list of Sakura's achievements ?

  • Sakura is the one with the best  Accademy knoweldge. Her intelligence and her wide knoweldge makes her a great shinobi. (part one)
  • Sakura is one of the most capable when it comes to chakra control, urpassing even an uchiha and the jinchuriki of the strongest bijuu.
  • And this is highlighted in part two with her fight with sasori. How is it that the most sexist character in Naruto was deeply affected by her and yet this shitty fandom still rfuse to see it?
  • As seen also at the start of the second part
  • Sakura  is also  well-suited for genjutsu. While never actually seen using genjutsu, she is frequently able to quickly identify when genjutsu is being used and then release herself and others from it.

Part one

Part two

  • Sakura is able to concentrate her whole chakra in one point causing her “inhuman strength”. She can break bones, rupture organs, or even kill with a single strike. Furthermore, she can send chakra throughout her entire body and improve her ability to withstand crushing blows.
  • Sakura is the only one beside a senju that was able to complete and own the the Hyakugou 白豪の印 seal. .Something that even a veteran like shizune couldn’t do after years of experience and training
  • Sakura Haruno  can also transfer this chakra to other
  • Sakura is the only one able beside Tsuande to summon  katsuyu-sama , the queen of slugs
  • Sakura haruno by summoning katsuyu sama can make her split appart and attach itself to others, Sakura could also monitor many allies at once, healing them and replenishing their chakra as needed.
  •   Sakura can make incisions in her patients with the Chakra Scalpels to try and directly treat her patients’ vital organs
  • Sakura can make fast-acting sleeping gas,and was taught by Shizune on how to concoct poisons that, when coated on weapons, could debilitate or paralyse a person with a single scratch
  • By the time of Boruto: Naruto Next Generations, she had also learned the 癒力変生の術, Yuryoku Hensei no Jutsu

Sakura haruno started as a bullied child with no selfconfidence, powers or status.

Thanks to her determination,selfless love and dedication she was able to change herself. Both as a women and shinobi, until the point when she was able to surpass the greatest kunoichi , called princess tsuande.

And no need to say her sensei was the proudest one about her beloved student.

Interview with Yuzuru Hanyu

This (x) was my original post, here is the translation!

Yuzuru Hanyu was interviewed by Tatjana Flade for the German magazine pirouette in the issue May/June 2017 No.5 (Yuzuru Hanyu = YH)

Question: How do you review your season? There were a lot of highlights, but also some disappointments.

YH: When I think about the 4Lo (Rittberger), It was very suscessful. I tried it (4Lo) for the first time in competition and I think I landed it seven times in the LP and only popped it once at Skate Canada. I am pleased with the Loop, but the (quad) Salchow was a problem this season. After the two month break due to the injury at the beginning of  I feared the quad Toeloop. But in the end I did two 4Ts in the LP and I gained a lot of selfconfidence. At Worlds I could accomplish everything I wanted in my LP and this was a complete success.

Q: What is the most important experience that you will take to the next olympic season?

YH: I don’t plan to change my jump content for the next season. I tried different jumps this season and now I have the selfconfidence that I can execute them well and that I can get a lot of points for the execution. My experience was what I was expecting from this season and this is what i got in the end.

Q: How do you deal with disappointments such as the SP from the WTT, where you placed only 7th after two mistakes?

YH: I talk about it with different people, but in the end I mostly think about it myself. After the SP I could barely sleep, I woke up a lot of times at 4 or 5 o’clock in the morning. I had to think about how I looked on the ice and what the audience in the television must have seen there. Then I thought about putting 5 quads in my LP. At Worlds I was 10 points behind (the leader) after the SP and here 20 points. When you skate the feeling is important and I am the olnly one who knows that feeling and in t he end I need to make the decisions on my own. I decided right before the LP that I really want to go for 5 quads. Not because I failed at the SP but because I wanted to do it.

Q: What did you gain from the World Team Trophy?

YH: After Worlds I prepared myself well and trained hard for this team competition. I felt good in the training and I had a lot of selfconfidence before the SP. But I think it was too much pressure  and I expected too much from myself. I thought I can deal with the pressure but I could not show a good performance in the SP. I need to take some time and analyze what the problem with the SP is because I slowly get a negative impression of the SP in general. Before the LP the expectation was high, that I could repeat what I have done at the World Championships. I tried the 4T-1Lo-3S for the first time, it was not perfect but I am satisfied with it. I showed 3 quads in the second half of the program for the first time and maybe I am the first skater to ever do this. This is positive especially in regard at the upcoming Olympic season. I had energy left for this, but I still need to work  on becoming stronger ,physically and mentally. To be honest overall I had a lot of fun at this competition and it was the first time in along while that I was able to enjoy a competition. 

Q: What kind of programs do you want to show in the Olympic Season?

YH: I haven’t decided yet about the music for the next season. In this season I wanted to challenge myself and in this sense the season was very successful for me. The experiences that I gained this season will hopefully have a positive effect on the next season. The good thing about that is that I can show two different skating styles in the SP and in the LP. This is something I want to repeat in the next season. I am not yure yet if I will have 5 quads in my program from the beginning of the season but this would be a possible challenge. I want to have different options for difficult combinations. Yes, maybe I need to jump a lot of different types of quads, but I don’t want to change a lot in the composition of the programs. I think about the grades of execution (GOEs) for the elements, but I especially want to succeed in expressing in my programs what I want to express. Especially because of the (technical)challenges I set for myself this season, I think that I can improve my programs even more. 

Q: What do you think about the rising level of the other skaters? In the past you said that you wanted to retire after 2018, what do you think about this now? 

YH: Just because the competition is now on such a high level, training is  a lot of fun and the motivation increased. Without a comment on retirement, I can say that I am very happy to skate now.

Q: When you step on the ice the arena turns upside down, you see an ocean of Japanese flags, you hear the cheer from the fans. What do you feel in this moment?

YH: Happiness (laughter). People from all around the world not only look at me, they watch all the skaters and I am happy that I can be one of these skaters. I am happy if somebody saw me and then becomes a figure skating fan and when new fans join. It makes me happy when children start skating, after they watched us. Even a few adults start figure skating.  

Q: Thank you for the interview and good luck for next season!


Big thank you @seobiiiiieluv​ for correcting my translation!

Anime sakura vs canon

sakura only abuses naruto and never believed in him

canon

Selfish bitch

Canon

Selfless bullied child with no selfconfidence who grew out as the most powerful kunoichi in the naruto universe.  Living for saving people lifes. (and later with her own  children healths mental care hospital )

so yeah guess how they messed her character

I am more and more appreciative of my body everyday. I realize i am getting older everyday and I have to realize I can’t have the same body I once had at age 15. I am going to be 22 and if this the body shape I am given then I guess that’s what I’ll have to work with. Please girls, don’t spend everyday of your life hating your body because honey there is nothing wrong with you. You are absolutely perfect the way you are.