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Destiel Thoughts for s7

I really wanted to talk about this season in particular, because I think with Cas’ latest death, it’s a prime time to compare Dean’s character growth since then. So with that said, I’ll get right to it. 

 In s7, Dean was pretty torn up over Cas’ death, enough for Bobby and Sam to notice and for him to have a nightmare(s?) about it. But he could live with it, after downing a couple beers. This is already a vast contrast to 13x01, as he displayed a desperation on a scale that we haven’t really seen from him since Sam’s first death. Dean was demanding Chuck to bring Cas back, just as he was dead set on saving Sam. 

 S7 is when I believe Dean begins to question his feelings for Cas, and during the car ride with amnesia Cas in 7x17, he seems to say as much. While answering Cas’ questions, he goes on to say, “y’know I used to be able to shake this stuff off, whatever it was. Might take me some time, but I always could. What… Cas did, I just can’t. I don’t know why.” He clearly doesn’t understand the depths of his own emotions, (having probably never loved anyone on this scale before) and it bothers him. Cas goes on to say that it doesn’t matter, but Dean disagrees and vehemently says that it does. To some degree, this means that during Cas’ death, he’s probably asked himself why he didn’t toss out Cas’ bloody old trench coat, and why it matters to him so much. 

We know that once Dean is done with someone’s bs, he shows them the door and with no remorse. His relationship with Mary in s12 is a great example of that, and only 14 eps in, Mary’s lies, abandonment, betrayal, and nearly getting Cas killed was enough for Dean to shut her out for a while. In s6, Cas lied about who he was working with like Mary. He lied about his whereabouts, plans, betrayed him, and kept Dean at arms length just like Mary, and yet Dean never told him, “there’s the door.” 

 Dean forgave Cas because he loves him, and if that’s not enough, here’s more. 

Back in s5 when Death revived Karen, Bobby’s wife, her and Dean shared a moment together alone. Karen reveals to Dean that she remembers her death and that she sees the guilt in Bobby’s eyes every time she looks at him, and Dean asks why doesn’t she just tell Bobby that instead of lying to him saying that she doesn’t remember. Karen then vehemently says that Dean has never been in love, and goes on to explain to him that her job is to bring Bobby peace, and not pain. And when Cas returns from the dead in 7x17, what does he do? He doesn’t tell Cas that he knows him, that he remembers the pain and his betrayal. It’s the exact opposite of what Meg does, as she is more than happy to make the already tense relationship between Dean and Cas that much rockier by hinting that the three of them have history. Meg is more concerned with Cas’ powers and what he can do for her own selfish ambitions. Dean, on the other hand, is concerned with getting to Sam, Cas’ welfare, and keeping the fragile peace between them. 

And when Cas does get his memories back, they’re mostly centered around Dean, which I find both odd and heartwarming. Castiel has been alive since the dawn of time. He’s seen creation born, humanity evolve, literally everything, and yet the things he remembers most is Dean? The time he’s spent with Dean is literally a fragment in the whole of his very, very long life. It’s not even worth putting into the whole script. It’s a mere second in a sense, and yet, it’s impacted Cas so deeply that it’s the things he remembers first. And even when Cas remembers everything, Dean still doesn’t seem to care about what he had done. He doesn’t argue with him, or agree with him when Cas says he deserves to die like he would with anyone else who’s pissed him off. Instead, he insists that Cas did the best he could at the time, that he came back to fix things as he gives Cas his trench coat back. He’s extending an olive branch to Cas, expressing in his own way that he wants to fix their friendship, and that he’s willing to forgive him. 

 Sam throughout all of s7 never shared the same concern Dean did for Cas, granted he had his own things to deal with. He was more concerned with finding a solution to the leviathans, Dean’s welfare, his own mental state, and Bobby’s death. Now, that’s not to say that he doesn’t care about Cas, of course he does, but the difference between platonic love and romantic is clear between the brothers. 

Honestly, I admire Sam’s ability to take just about everything in stride. He has an uncanny ability to let logic rule him over emotions, unlike Dean, as he never strays off course of their mission. 7x21 is yet one of many examples of Sam choosing logic over emotion, because while he’s busy learning that Kevin is the answer to their leviathan dilemma, Dean is busy talking to Cas and easily getting off track and distracted with his own wounded feelings with him. Sam also is better at communicating to Cas as well, as the two easily have a heart to heart about Cas taking on Sam’s crazy, while Dean ends up just pushing Cas away half the time. Dean never outright says what he’s feeling like Sam, and his ‘feelings are for the weak’, facade only gets himself hurt more. 

It’s something I think he’s going to have to overcome in s13, but that’s for another post. So for me, s7 represents Dean realizing his feelings, and now that he has realized them, I’m very interested in how s13 will play out. ~

I Feel it Coming
Robbie Daymond (Prompto's VA)

I’ve been listening to Robbie Daymond’s cover from one of the old L.A.V.A streams on repeat and I wanted to draw Prompto with an acoustic guitar. 

Supernatural: The Movie

1. Crowley comes back.

2. Chuck & Amara come back from Vacation

3. Bobby comes back.

5. Gabriel comes back.

6. Kevin comes back.

7. Benny comes back.

8. Charlie comes back.

9. Ellen comes back.

10. Adam is let out of the cage.

11. Castiel: I love you.

12. Dean: I know.

13. Sam finds his shoes.

14. There is pie.

The end. 

(Post Credit Scene: Jo comes back and Lucifer is an Olympic Figure Skater)