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Keith + the prospect of being the leader.

/  i just want to talk about keith + leadership in terms of his own perception and how he may progress in s3. this is a passing discussion, there’s a whole lot i want to go more extensively into at some point. let me just preface by saying this is a discussion focusing mostly on keith’s own mindset, and i am assessing things as critically and objectively as i can here from the information we’ve been presented with and what we know about this guy so far. 

okAY let’s go!! the thing is that arguably and from what we’ve seen thus far and how keith behaves the only person keith will listen to about shiro is shiro himself. that has a lot of implications for the future. but anyway yea. throughout s2e1 especially we can see just how much keith respects shiro. it’s not putting shiro on a pedestal or idolising him. he cares deeply for this person, will follow them anywhere, do whatever it takes for this person. which also coincidentally does include piloting the black lion, admission he’s not shiro - keith is his own person and that’s okay - but when it comes down to Crunch Time there’s no messing about this is it and there’s no space to hesitate. 

keith sees shiro as a person that he admires and respects, a person who has been this unsuspecting anchor in his life. someone who has literally changed his life. shiro has so much gravity, is integral to his focus and a balancing out the chaotic turbulence in many senses. i mean tbh for me one of the most important canon lines keith ever says - honestly it’s right up there - is THIS.

firstly you can see the unguarded smile and appreciation for this. but also something else important is happening, keith is indulging the conditional + the past simultaneously - something he doesn’t often tend to do tbh. and he’s doing that willingly and so openly with a smile (if it wasn’t for you). he’s allowing himself to think about what’s come and what may be coming. in this moment keith is talking about something extremely personal, alongside showing his gratitude. i’m pretty sure the sheer significance of what keith is saying, how monumental a statement like that is doesn’t go amiss to shiro, which may be why it’s brushed over a little in favour of an easier conversation.

in general, like i’ve said before in many places, keith is a creature of the present and endurance - survival. shiro has helped him reach just a little further for horizons that were never even really seen before. not worth chasing, there’s no big aspirations or dreams. 

shiro offers him the opportunity to be a person and take a path he hadn’t even considered could even be there. to start something with new foundations. not to dream, or hope. to be

not to mention, the second time shiro brings up the subject of keith and leadership in s2e8, once shiro makes it clear if keith is to grow into this role he needs to focus and demonstrate his capabilities. keith backs down.

he doesn’t fight the words or dispute it. that’s what he has to do. there’s just too much to say to go into keith + the blade at this stage so i’m just going to forgo it. i do have a keith + BOM meta coming up. i’ll make sure i do a preface to it on this and a few other scenes i’ve been thinking about. 

back to the actual point: when it comes to taking on leading the team, there is absolutely no way keith is going to let it go and not step up to that task. i mean, we’re talking about someone who literally gets back up pretty much instantly whenever he’s knocked down [s1e10, s2e3, s2e8], someone who doesn’t quit. and it’s not bc he’s being selfish or wants the limelight of being the leader. it’s not anything like that. in his eyes, surrendering the position of leader would be an act of ultimate disrespect to shiro entirely. and to his own self - the person he is CAPABLE of being, that SHIRO thinks he is capable of being.  

that doesn’t mean he won’t have doubts. it doesn’t mean he won’t be feeling overwhelmed at times and lost in some respects. i mean he’s lost the most important person in his life, again. but he endures, he survives. and he endured. he survived out there in the desert. he knows he can work his way through it - given the situation and the fact shiro is gone he doesn’t have much of a choice. people are counting on him, they’re counting on each other. the longer he spends accepting that, the more time they waste, the more they stand to lose. including shiro. 

one thing keith does know better than anything is who he is, and what he’s about. confidence in his actions and self often can be misinterpreted, and his ability to be objective can be seen as detached and cold. both are far from the case. the way keith is perceived by others, set against how he can perceive people [1, 2] is so damn interesting and honestly i think i might save that for a whole new discussion. 

anyway, again: we’ve seen how keith operates in high pressure situations, and we see what he is prepared to do for the mission and shiro AND the team in general time and time again. he says it himself, and this is another line of keith’s i think is just so encompassing and important:

keith is all in. 

we know this, we’ve seen this. as aforementioned we see time and time again just how far keith is compelled to go for a cause. this is one hell of a cause. the universe and shiro. more than this, shiro’s words. and we also see how keith holds onto the words shiro gives him. he’s shown in s2e1 to be repeating shiro’s words to himself, and again in s2e1.

also. i am 100% convinced that in the pinnacle moment when shiro is getting the team back on track in s2e13 keith is thinking patience yields focus and eternalising it. because each time he says this phrase out loud it is preceded by a deep sigh or exhaling of breath, his eyes closing for a moment as he grounds himself and focuses himself on the very words. there’s a very specific way he delivers and is seen to be dealing with this line. (that’s just really exciting to think about ahHHH look below)

so honeSTLY, like hell is he going to do an injustice to shiro and his words and turn his back on them. like hell is he going to back down and throw in the towel for the sake of his own self. 

keith will want to prove that he can be the leader. his entire life has probably been set against a backdrop of people thinking he won’t amount to much, laden will all kinds of assumptions that bleed constantly into how his actions and words are misinterpreted. there’s no goal and focus - the garrison gives him a chance to explore something he is inherently good at, but keith isn’t the same breed as many cadets in the sense that they may have dreamed of being a pilot for a long time. keith flies. he also damn good at it. that’s pretty much the extent of it. 

voltron and shiro combined, the team, all of this comes into play in shaping something even more unwavering inside him. keith has always been resolved at seeing things get done and finishing a task. in a situation like this, it’s tenfold. 

and even more: he wants to become the person shiro sees in him, he wants to earn that unyielding belief and prove he can do this. he has done it before, perhaps not to the magnitude this asks of him, but he has been able to in the height of a pressing moment give out a command to the team, alongside steer them in the right direction effectively. something not worth overlooking with keith is the fact he doesn’t falter in his actions [1, 2]. keith is able to make quick decisions in tough situations. because every word and action has purpose he commits wholeheartedly to. he’s all in, again. that’s it that’s the mantra that is just so so keith and integral to him. 

here’s a few quick examples of that put into practice: 

also he knows he’s not shiro. keith is pretty self-aware [see links above that talk is somewhere up there lol]. like i said, he knows what he’s about. he’s not going to try and step into shadows that aren’t his own and fill boots that don’t belong to him. that’s not right to shiro, and it wouldn’t make sense to do that from where he’s standing. he doesn’t want to try and be shiro. he wants to be a person shiro and the team the universe can count and depend on. trying to be shiro or become shiro is off the cards. it’s not taking shiro’s place or being a replacement. it’s assuming command on his own terms in the way shiro believes he can. 

he’ll carve his own path just as he has done in the past, apply what shiro has shown him and become his own person and in turn his own leader.


keith will endeavour to become the person that would make shiro proud. the person that will do as shiro asked of him, doing what shiro believed he was capable of doing. lead the team forwards in adversity and keep going. 

he wants to honour those words, he’ll cherish them. hold them close and pour every fibre of his being into living by them no matter what. 

anonymous asked:

I don't wanna call it too soon but this is the CUTEST PHIL LS maybe ever. Can't wait for you to say a little on it (especially re his many verbal eyerolls at chat, and the cat paintings...)

ughhhh yes there were definitely so, so many cute little anecdotes and jokes, and a lot of interesting tidbits that i took note of while watching: 

  • he opens the show by saying that he “welcomes” people calling him dad and appreciates all the father’s day messages. amazing
  • he bought his own dad a tasting selection of jams and marmalades which immediately made me irate bc it sounds like the perf gift for my father except i would never think of it bc i’m not as creative as phil ugh. phil probs buys everyone the best presents and i’m envious of people who are good at that
  • i loled at the fact that some vintage family drama sent like nine of phil’s great uncles to australia why is that so funny. also hearing re-confirmation of just how huge phil’s family is was kind of refreshing
  • the whole centipede anecdote killed me omg jst the image of phil freaking out and calling dan into the room (whether it was in his bedroom or somewhere else, i don’t rly feel like weighing in on that debate) and then dan obviously proceeding to freak out even more than phil (which we can very vividly picture based on his reactions in the piece of art that is phil lester vs. praying mantis.) it was just such a cute story lmao, i loved the way that phil called the bug a creepy crawly and said, ‘dan’s not a fan of those creepy crawlies either’ ughghghghhh. and i love that phil is definitely forever and always going to be the designated bug-catcher in their house even though he’s scared of bugs too, jst bc dan is always too busy having an actual breakdown any time he sees an insect
  • the random interjection of him screaming ‘bear’ from the bear kayak video made me lol
  • when he’s talking about bryony’s cat paintings and says he and dan are the only ppl who like them, i like that they pretty much always share tastes in everything, be less conjoined pls 
  • him narrating his thought process when he bought the fairy light twigs: ‘what i need in my life is some light-up sticks’
  • his plan to change up the dresser trinkets for every video is interesting and referring to the setup as a ‘tableau’ lmao–as i’ve said multiple times i don’t believe this room is his primary living quarters so i def took this idea to change up the background every time he films as further confirmation that this room is basically a set 
  • martyn has been in a ‘plane incident’ at one point in his life, didn’t know that
  • the way he talked about louise’s baby was so cuteeeee, his huge grin, the way he immediately went into a higher pitched voice, cheeky suggesting ‘phil’ as a name and then saying philippa could be a boy’s name but getting a bit nervous to make the general point about not needing to gender names and just saying ‘i mean’ a lot and giggling. then his feigned indignation when someone suggested ‘daniel’ lol he’s cute
  • learning dil was pregnant made him want to ‘rip his face off’ ok calm down mate
  • the fidget spinner omg: the way that he needed to make clear that it was no ‘2 pound friend present’ lmao i read this as him jokingly being a bit salty that dan didn’t appreciate all of the time and effort and ‘good money’ he put into this loving and thoughtful gift ahhaha. it was jst such a comfortable and warm little comment i loved it. and i love that he thinks it’s beautiful bc of the colors and i was lit dying at the whole story of him lying on the floor and trying to show off to dan that he could balance it on his nose and then utterly failing. adds more context to the way that dan was so fond last week when he talked about phil injuring himself with it
  • he doesn’t like killing animals, and always finds a way to trap them and throw them outside 
  • when someone asks him to give them a nickname and he comes up with, ‘ma more like mars expedition’.. wtf he’s adorable
  • kath could ‘open a brownie farm’ PHIL PLS 
  • ‘stop calling me dad though bc it’s inappropriate,’ he says with a barely concealed smile as he complies with everyone’s wishes to clean them. why does he love being called dad i need to lie down 
  • traditional lester thing is to get fish and chips when they’re all together
  • his sheer excitement about wonder woman was amazing omg. ‘she kicks so much butt but she has a personality and more movies should be made with a woman as the main character like that’ yAS phil 
  • thoughts on chris pine: he originally jst says he’s ‘funny’ but then when someone in the chat says ‘chris pine is fricking hot,’ he basically agrees and adds that he is ‘distracting’ and ‘radiating out of his face … what is that face? how do you achieve such a face?’ fucking amazing.
  • he always finds coins that are from 1997 lmao only he would notice that and think it’s some secret conspiracy by the universe jst to fuck with him
  • this week’s beauty tips:
    • change your face wash every 3-4 months because your face gets used to it. also you might want your face to smell like something different (his face currently smells of tree sap)
    • don’t spray hair spray directly into your mouth bc it tastes really bad and probably isn’t good for your health
    • drink lots of water (again)
    • put tea bags on your eyes and the caffeine will make you feel more energized and also you’ll look beautiful with teabags on your eyes
  • i’m certain that phil giggling, ‘but they’ve seen it from space and it’s a globe!’ single-handedly debunked the flat earth conspiracy
  • he goes ‘poot’ when he sprays febreze,,,, jesus christ. also of course he had a vanilla cupcake scented air freshener once,,,, have i mentioned that i am so fucking in love with phil jesUS 
  • his spon of dan’s vid was interesting to me, he kind of seemed to think of it at the very last moment even after he’d said goodbye to a bunch of people, and focused more on sponning it than sponning his own vid or anything from the gaming channel. he said it was ‘very funny’ which i’ll admit only added to my confusion about the objective or intention of dan’s video bc it didn’t strike me as trying to be comedic in any way. i wonder if phil genuinely found it funny and what he liked about it hahah, i honestly would pay for him to give it an honest review
  • his lil meows at the end before he clicked out were v pure i adore him

ya i love phil, ik it’s breaking news to yall but i really, really do. his live shows are always exactly what i need and he makes me so happy 

(phil live show: giant centipede attack - 6.18.17)

i find it so fascinating and interesting and telling that it’s the moments of tragedy and heartbreak where you see how much tony and steve really loved each other. bc trust and intimacy, caring so deeply for each other, risking their own lives to save the other person  ––  that’s just second nature. it’s instinct. it’ll always be a part of who they are and their relationship with each other, it’s not something that needs to be Telegraphed and pointed at to be real and profound and life-changing. 

they both know that the moment they met, the moment when steve opened his eyes and saw the avengers, when tony’s voice was the first one he heard after decades of the ice, that their lives would never be the same. there are Direct Quotes to illustrate that but tbh even if those didn’t exist they know.

because this is a friendship that’s been building on over a decade. ten years of fighting beside each other, inspiring each other to be better men, better heroes, better leaders, seeing each other at the best and the lowest. this friendship is one of the most long-lasting & significant friendships for both of them. the avengers liken them to mom and dad because this is literally the closest analogy there is in terms of the sheer closeness, understanding and compatibility that exists between them. when it’s been that long, everything becomes implicit, unspoken, it just is. you don’t need the constant affirmation – even though stevetony do that too – of the love and loyalty between you. 

so, it’s really only when they hit those Dark Times that it manifests in all this terrible conflict and anger and ugliness. people are constantly trying to characterise modern stevetony (e.g. 2007 – present) as ‘steve and tony are always at each other’s throats’ but like Again, As I Always Do, i want to point to the revolutionary concept that the only reason they can hurt this much and hurt each other this much is because of how much they loved each other in the first place. their love and hate at different periods throughout their wars or conflicts or civil wars aren’t mutually exclusive, the anger / betrayal / grief / heartbreak bleed into each other. 

these moments of conflict wouldn’t have as much impact as they do if they happened all the time. and they don’t. steve and tony have lead multiple teams, saved the world, endured one or both of them being brainwashed, and remained steadfast in who they are to each other throughout. marvel pits them against each other because of how significant their relationship is and the fact that tearing them apart means they can generate a universe-wide event, a film franchise, multiple spin-offs and essentially lasting (albeit unacknowledged) consequences for the rest of their comic universe.

tony spends a year in mourning, hallucinating steve and throwing himself into suicidal self-destructive missions during his tenure as director of shield after steve dies. when steve rejects any of his attempts to compromise and make peace during cw1, he literally prepares to die and let steve kill him. when steve thinks the illuminati has betrayed him and committed the most unforgivable act of erasing his memory, he only goes after tony. it’s tony he’s furious at, it’s tony he’s single-handledy hunting down, and it’s tony he wants to pay the most for what he’s done.

tldr, tbh, altho depressing and utterly typical of marvel to do so, i find it v. true to life and realistic that it’s only in moments of point-of-no-return tragedy that we get the big moments and confessions and ‘i loved him’. the tragedy of stevetony is that these two men do love each other, and they both know it on an instinctual, intuitive level. everything about the way they interact and trust and hurt each other is indicative of that love. they never expect there to be a moment where that love won’t be there in the subtext, they never Expect that there’s going to be a ‘this is my last chance to tell him’ kind of moment. (bc usually, lbr, it’s some kind of world-ending crisis where they’re in the middle of a war on opposing sides.) their tragedy is that they’ve spent so long loving and being in love w/ each other where the timing has never been right, or they keep convincing themselves they’re content with the status quo, or the other person isn’t in the right place or headspace to hear it, that they just never get their Moment.

so their moments end up being morgue-side confessions, hugs and speeches where one person all but tells the other person they can’t live w/o them, and y’know, the ultimate act of no homo where the only universe they’d ever be together is if they can become a heteronormative straight™ couple.

“Push” Daryl Dixon x Reader

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Daryl Dixon x Reader

Request from Anon: Is it possible that you can write a daryl x reader one where the reader is Maggie and beth’s sister and she tries to get Daryl to open up to her? And daryl just keeps pushing her away bc he has feelings for her

Setting: The prison

Warnings: Fluff, occasional swear word

A/N: Super excited for the new episode tonight!

Originally posted by onlydarylnormanfic

There’s just something about Daryl that intrigues you. The way he presents himself. He’s a quiet man- doesn’t talk much. He stays out of everyone’s way and does his own thing. That just makes you want to know him more. Ever since he and his group showed up at your farm a while ago, you can’t deny to yourself your feelings for him anymore. He was a handsome, strong man. He has a hard exterior but you saw a different side of him after Sophia’s death. He was caring.

The only person he ever really speaks to is Carol or Rick. Sure, he’ll “talk” to other people, but that’s different. You want to be able to talk to him like he talks to Carol, you want it to be deep. You want to get to know him for his true self, not the shut off redneck he makes himself appear to be. If you’re in the same area, you’ll try and start conversation, only getting a mere grunt in response. If it’s a good day and he’s in a chatty mood, he’ll give you a short response. But those days only happen on a rare occasion.

“Mind handing me that gun? I see something.” You say to Daryl as you two patrol the outside of the prison. Rick had put both of you on duty today. Usually it would be Glenn and Daryl, or even Rick himself, but Glenn was out doing a run and Rick was having some… issues dealing with Lori’s death. He was coming to terms with it, he had finally come back from disappearing for a few days, but you could tell he was struggling. So he assigned you to patrol with Daryl today, as you were the only other person available who was as good of a shot as him. Truth is, you were pretty excited to spend time with him.

Daryl handed you the gun, not saying anything as he raised his crossbow. You look into the scope, seeing a walker on the outskirts of the prison. Nothing to worry about- they couldn’t get in.

“False alarm.” You lowered the gun. Daryl grunts and sets his bow onto his back again, walking in front of me.

“What are you thinking about?” You attempt to make conversation, hoping that this day wouldn’t be spent in boring silence.

“None of ‘ya business, that’s what.” He responds. Despite his rude response, you smile- it’s a good day.

“Alright, I’m sorry.”

“Why are you talkin’ to me, Y/N? You’re always with your sisters, you’ve never even tried to talk to me until a few weeks ago.” He asks.

“Why not talk to you?” You shrug, walking faster to catch up to him.

“People like ya don’t talk to people like me.”

“Well what am I doing, then?” You smile up at him. You could’ve sworn you saw the faintest hint of a smile, but if you did, it was gone quickly.

“I’m gonna go take watch on the tower. You got it down here?” His good mood seemed gone. His face seemed strained, like he was rushed to get away from me.

“Uh, yeah, sure.” You mumble. Daryl doesn’t say anything as he walks away, leaving you to be alone.


Ever since that day, it seems as if Daryl is avoiding you. If he’d walk into a cell and you were in there, he’d turn on his heels and walk away. If he saw you in the halls, he’d walk past you quickly or just find another way to get wherever he was going.

You’d had the end of it. It had been about a month of this, this torture of not knowing what you did to make him hate you.

“I need to talk to you.” You hiss, walking into his cell. He was laying on the bed, seemingly about to go to sleep. He jumped up quickly, his face changing into an emotion you can’t read when he spots you standing at the foot of his bed.

“What do ya want? I’m tryin’ to sleep.”

“I need to talk to you.” You repeat yourself.

“Then talk.”

“Could we possibly go anywhere else?” You look around. Everyone else was still up, walking around and talking to each other. He looks at you, and you think that he’s going to protest, but to your surprise he gets out of his bed. You try to not stare, noticing that he’s in his boxers, but you admittedly let your eyes wander a tiny bit. He quickly puts on his jeans, and you blush thinking that he knew you were admiring him.

You lead him out of the cell block, and into the empty one next to it.

“Why do you hate me, Daryl?” You sigh. “You’ve been ignoring me for weeks. We finally had a conversation, a good one, at least for you. And ever since then you’ve been ignoring me. I’ve been trying so hard to get to know you, Daryl. There’s not many options of friends here. And all you know how to do is push people away.” You rant. “So, tell me, what did I do? Why do you hate me?”

“I don’t hate ya.”

“Well you certainly act like it.” You spit. “You walk the other way when you see me coming. That doesn’t scream ‘friendly’ to me.”

“Ya can’t stand there and tell me how I feel! Ya don’t know me, Y/N!”

“You’re right. I don’t know you.” You say with a bit of an attitude. Daryl looks at you, a look of hurt on his face. He shakes his head and stomps out, leaving you to be in there by yourself.

In retrospect, maybe taking him this far to talk wasn’t a great idea. You didn’t exactly know your way around the prison as well as he or Rick did, so trying to find your way back was hard, especially in the night time.

“What the hell happened? You and Daryl just disappeared and then he came back pissed as hell a few minutes ago.” Maggie ran over to you once you finally found your way back.

“I don’t know what happened.” You say truthfully. “He’s confusing.”

“You gotta give him more time. Carol’s made it seem like he’s had a pretty rough past.”

“Yeah.” I walk into my cell. “I’m going to bed. See you tomorrow.”


“Y/N?” A voice whispers to you next to your bed as you sleep. You jump out of bed and grab the person by the neck, an instinct you’ve gained since the apocalypse began.

“Shit, Y/N, it’s just me.”


You breathe out a sigh of relief, letting go of him and sitting back on your bed. It was sometime in the middle of the night, judging by how dark it still was.

“What are you doing here?” You ask him, whispering.

“I, uh,” He pauses. “Nothin’. It was stupid.” He begins to walk out, but you grab him by his hand to keep him from moving.

“What’s going on?” You frown, pulling him down to sit next to you on the bed. He hesitates, but gives in and takes a seat.

“I just… I don’ know.” He sighs.

“Hey, it’s ok. You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want.” You pull him in for a hug, but he goes stiff. You pull away quickly, forgetting that he was iffy about human contact.

“Well, you are welcome to stay in here if you want.” You offer, not thinking that he would accept given the response he just had to your hug. Much to your surprise, he lays down on the other side of the bed. You get underneath the covers, facing your head away from his feet, and drift back to sleep.

At some point in the night, one of you two must have moved around enough to get yourselves in the position that you woke up in.

You were nuzzled up in his chest, with his arm wrapped around you and his leg twisted around yours. You were both covered up in the blankets, so to anyone who walked by, it would certainly look like you two just had a wild night.

You tried to unwrap his arm from around you, but were unsuccessful. He was too damn muscular. You took this chance to admire how attractive he actually was. Normally, you’d see him with a permanent scowl on his face, but now? Now he just looked so innocent.

Your thoughts were distracted by someone coughing at your cell door. You jumped away from Daryl, causing him to wake up as well. His eyes widened when he saw how he was holding you, and he got up quickly.

“Uhh, Daryl, we have to go on a run.” Glenn said awkwardly before walking away.

“I’m sorry for comin’ in here last night.” Daryl mumbled as he got off the bed. “This won’t happen again, was a mistake.”


And just like that, he was gone again.


You have had enough. The avoiding, the “pushing away”, it only got worse since that night in your cell.

“I’m sick and tired of this, Beth. I’m not doing anything wrong.” You scoffed, rocking baby Judith in your arms as she was drinking a bottle.

“I don’t think you’re the problem. I think he’s just dealing with some inner conflicting emotions.”

“Like what?”

“I was with Carol the other day, taking care of Judith while you were off doing god knows what,” Beth started. “I was talkin’ to her about the problems you were having with him. She thinks it’s because he’s in love with you. He hasn’t ever said it out loud, not even to Carol, but she knows him better than anyone else.”

“In love with me?” You raise your eyebrows. “Me? He doesn’t even talk to me.”

“I don’t know.” She shrugs her shoulders. “I’m just the messenger.”


Your conversation with Beth stayed in your head all day. If what she was saying was true, Daryl has a real funny way of showing love to someone. Although, considering he had a bad childhood, maybe he just doesn’t know how to show it.

Only one way to find out.

You walk up to the watch tower, knowing that it was Daryl’s night watch time. You open the door to the top to see Daryl sitting there, eyes focused on the land surrounding the prison.

“You shouldn’t be up here.” He grunts.

“I want to be up here.”

“Why?” He finally looks at you.

“You’re confusing me. I hear that you’re in love with me, but then you treat me like-“

“What?” His face freezes. “Who told you?”

“So it’s true?” Your heart flutters.

“Doesn’ matter.” He turns away from you. “Please leave.”

“Tell me.” You walk in front of him, forcing him to face you.

“Y/N, it doesn’t matter, ok? I’m nothin’. I’m no one. You could never-“

You cut him off with a quick kiss to his lips. You don’t force more than just a peck, but your insides about melt at the feelings of his lips against yours.

“I love you, too, Dixon.”

Daryl smiled the biggest he’d smiled in a long time at hearing that sentence.

“I’m sorry I was pushin’ you away. I thought I could get rid of my feelings for ya. Thought there was no way you would ever even look at me, been thinkin’ that since the farm, you know. And then you started talking to me, and it freaked me out. I’m sorry, Y/N.”

You kissed him again, this time letting it be more than just a peck.


Originally posted by the-princejinyoung

  • for the request for spirit!jinyoung!! i changed it up quite a bit as you can see, so hopefully you like the idea
  • this is also heavily based off goblin, the kdrama, but it doesn’t follow the same storyline, so much as it just uses its definition of the goblin and life consequences of the goblin

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  • they’re doing an unplanned movie marathon over at kollektivet with eskild, linn and noora and during some foreign film no one but even really seems into eskild suddenly turns towards even asking “when is your birthday exactly?” “the 12th of February” “ok, cool” and with that it’s over and they continue half dozing off
  • except isak is suddenly in full on panic mode bc the 12th is 2 wEEKS from then and how could he forget and oh god what will he get even that is enough?!!??

1 week before

  • isak still isn’t clear on what they’re going to do or what he’s going to get even bc he wants to make it so so special but so far the only things he has come up with are:
  • a self made birthday cake but honestly does he reaaaaallly know how to do that and he’s not yet desperate enough to go ask noora for help but getting close
  • a dinner at some fancy restaurant but that means having to get his dad to give him money for a date and would he even do that??? (or finding a job in a week that also pays out within like a day which seems v unrealistic too)
  • a party at kollektivet with their friends, but honestly everyone has gotten into a habit of coming over a lot lately anyway (including evens friends) so really how would it be much more different??
  • himself. naked. with a bow. but he gives himself to even with everything he’s got already so….
  • whatever he thinks of it just doesn’t. seem. like. enough. not enough to tell even how thankful he is for everything he has done for him (and for existing in general) and how loved even makes him feel and how safe and how truly like himself and it’s messing with his head

6 days before

  • “what do you want for your birthday? what are you even doing? its this weekend right?” magnus is the one who asks even first and even just shrugs and nudges isak “i don’t care as long as its together with this one” and everyone is taking isaks panic as him being embarrassed  

4 days before

  • everyone keeps asking isak what’s going to happen on even’s birthday and he feels like the worst person ever because he just doesn’t know and then finally finally he goes to the girl squad for advice bc they will know what to do (right?????) and he just has to tell someone and then thanks to them for their advice he FiNAlly knows

1 day before

  • they’ve been chilling in bed all day having a lazy saturday and isak just can’t get enough of even but he has shit to do to prepare for the next day so after even finally falls asleep isak sneaks into the living room to do the prep


  • it starts with breakfast in bed which noora helped him with (bc really isak you want to give him a cheesy toast with cardamom??? how basic??? lets bake him a cake) and isak got eskild to keep watch so even wouldn’t get out of bed yet

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/ i apologise in advance im gonna type this Properly some time when im not so tired. but there’s something about keith re: how he perceives others i just can’t stop thinking about it so i’m gonna drop it all here before sleeping:

The thing is, Keith likes to deal with two things predominantly: the present and the facts. He’s a creature of the now and the moment, he doesn’t linger in the past or indulge the future that much. focusing on the task at hand, or what’s going on is what counts. I could write an essay on keith + conditionals and the future itself but that’s another topic entirely. So anyway back to the topic here: eliminating the chances of there being a threat in a person is important, as we see him do with the Arusian (he could be dangerous) (im not taking any chances!). 

BUT here’s the thing. Keith doesn’t really actively make a judgement on people, he lets their actions do the talking to determine who they are. Like i said in my second lubos meta about keith + not judging Lubos because it’s not his place to but he kNOWS from the behaviour of Lubos enough to declare he’s NO KING and is resolved to bring him back to the Olkari so he can face his mistakes and they get the chance to make their own choices.

The thing is, several times in canon we see that once keith has evaluated the actions of a person/people, he doesn’t really think to re-question it UNLESS he’s presented with information that conflicts with it - like with the revelation of Ulaz and there being galra that aren’t working with zarkon. That makes Keith question are all Galra are truly bad? and he makes it abundantly clear that now he has seen Galra fighting against the Empire it changes things (It means something to me. It means some of them are actually willing to help. And we could use all the help we can get! It just seems crazy to lump everyone together.)

And ofc the weblum Galra affirms this: We’re Paladins of Voltron. We can’t just leave people to die even if they are Galra.

Keith is not really ever shown to JUDGE people based on his own personal feelings. Jumping back a moment, whilst admitting he is wary in S2E3 “Shiro, are you sure you can trust this? I mean, after all the Galra have done to you. They - They took your arm.” (we need to talk about Keith re: shiro bc that is important and it’s where inconsistencies can creep in for many reasons) and “You know I trust you, Shiro, but this doesn’t feel right.” 

- he’s not making judgements on Ulaz or bringing Ulaz himself directly into it. He’s assessing the situation objectively and expressing his concerns because from what they know and have seen the Galra have done nothing positive for the team or even the Universe. But he trusts Shiro. Once it’s clear they’re being tracked he accuses Ulaz “If Zarkon knows we’re here, it’s because you ratted us out.” because of Ulaz’s actions which have led him to believe that’s the truth in a pressing situation where people and Voltron are now in DANGER.

BUT. BUT once Ulaz’s actions prove he’s on their side and it’s clear, Keith seldom can keep quiet about it (Sorry we doubted Ulaz, Shiro. He saved all our lives). honestly he actively defends Ulaz’s name and his intentions to Allura when before he had been questioning Ulaz because he now has the facts at his disposal (Yeah! Maybe Zarkon found out about this place on his own. He’s probably been searching for the Blade of Marmora.)

And god is he passionate about making sure people understand that Ulaz sacrificed himself FOR THEM. i’ve written somewhere before about this point. The way he speaks about Ulaz and Thace really is something to touch upon for another time in depth. In fact, the meeting of Ulaz, Thace and the Mystery Galra is so interesting and important to understanding how Keith perceives people tbh.

he’s actually very open minded despite being so logical and keen to eliminate the risks. Like okay we’re gonna hop forwards to the galra in the weblum for a sec. Keith KNOWS what that symbol means it’s the symbol of the empire. So he takes a precaution to eliminate the risk. Once the galra helps him and their ACTIONS are clear, Keith lets them keep their weapon. they have a job to get on with and that’s the priority here. but the thing is he even goes as far to shield them from the blasts multiple times. 

and then - he even tURNS HIS BACK to the armed galra to collect the materials up??? i m just. KEITH.

It’s not trust exactly. And it’s not carelessness either because Keith has reasons to believe that he is able to do this. he has rationally decided this Galra is not the threat at the moment. “So you’re just like the rest of them” demonstrates that Keith gave them the benefit of the doubt, despite having the opportunity to just lump everyone togetherbased on how they had behaved and interacted with him - regardless of the symbol on the pod and the fact they’re Galra. 

Now their actions have proven to Keith something different. 

In general, he believes no matter who you were your actions determine who you are NOW and he’s made the choice based on the actions of that galra to believe that as they have a common enemy working together is going to be feasible. 

Even when he’s wary of the Arusian on Arus once allura tells him to back off he begrudgingly does because he does understand what it means to be a paladin, i’ve said this in a few metas before he really does think like a paladin of voltron and he is so devoted to this cause and to the mission and the greater good. it’s juST.

Anyway with the Arusians. they get to the village and he lets one of them hug him, he could just easily shake them off or make a scene, i mean he’s walking away from the scene at the time. He’s clearly uncomfortable and openly admits to not really being the kind of person to hug strangers. But he kind of pats the arusian anyway and lets them be, and even is seen talking to the same on at the party later???? And then his face when he sees the Arusian village being burnt down. He’s such a good honestly like. He REALLY IS.

but that whole scene in particular with the Galra in the weblum SHOWS exactly what I fear and is potentially a weakness of Keith - which is that actually Keith can be so incredibly open and in quite an alarming way  - which i don’t even think Keith himself is aware of. because he doesn't necessarily judge people he just leaves their actions to do the talking and then makes a decision on how to react. 

he is shown to make sure that people face the repercussions of their mistakes and bad choices because if you commit yourself to a choice you see it through no matter what or else that choice was nothing and your actions have spoken. 

furthermore, Keith is not afraid to call people up on things no matter who they are or their stature (lubos/allura). He’s also insistent that people get credit and respect when they’re due no matter who they are or their stature (ulaz/thace/hunk). 

TLDR: Because of all this, because of how he operates it is very possible keith can and could be betrayed.

Touka's words - of the past and present and what she wanted to tell him on the bridge

When she asked about how he felt and talked about how she’d feel, of course it completely applies to AkiraxAmon’s case ( goes to say how many parallel there are between them).
But the way she looks on, the expressions in her eyes, so lost in thoughts - she’s clearly thinking about a certain someone.

Now, my initial thoughts were connected to the events around Haise Sasaki. But on a second thought, her words have a much deeper meaning/more deep rooting. It not only applies to the situation around Haise but goes way back to part 1 of TG. Let’s digest this bit by bit:
“While you were just aimlessly roaming about” - Kaneki was aimlessly roaming when he left Anteiku. He tried to find answers but didn’t know exactly where to find them and what to find. He was a little lost - in mind and in finding his way back home (as she said herself in the end of the manga) This situation then continued with Haise, although the circumstances were different.

“did you ever feel like wanting to go see her?” - You know, I think there was another underlying factor that urged her to ask “did you want to see her?” - she’s also curious about what Kaneki might think and feel (although I’m sure she has already thought her own part about it).

Amon admits he did and Touka’s basically like ‘then you really should go see her. If I was in her situation I’d be happy no matter the circumstances or if the person himself has changed.’
(ahh i just almost killed myself with the feels. She loves him for who he is and would welcome him back in whatever shape or form. That’s true love~)

(They’re basically exchanging insights about each other’s significant person. I liked that dynamic of the conversation.)

>>“Even if time has passed, even if our bodies have changed, even if he’d forgotten me completely… as long as he came back home, things’ll be alright.” This is addressed at Kaneki. This is what she’d also want to tell him. Those are her feelings. Who’d have thought Amon gets to hear them first lol
(The question is, will the Touken talk go as smoothly as this conversation? Will she be just as open about her thoughts and feelings when facing Kaneki? I do believe so. She’s the one who asked to talk bc he’s been avoiding it. And this whole conversation embodies her growth in character and she seems to be very aware of what she feels and how to put them into words.)

When Kaneki left right after the Aogiri arc, when she went so far and risked so much to save him and she probably didn’t notice just yet how important Kaneki has become to her. she missed him terribly but she was also confused. Confused about their relationship and her own feelings. And when Kaneki finally visited Anteiku and left just before her arrival, she dashed after him without a clear plan of what to do or say when she’s finally faced him. And then things went wrong very quickly. Actually, both didn’t find the right words to say. Kaneki’s words hit a nerve with her and she failed to contain herself and later regretted it.

^ And those words she said now, they’ve probably been on her mind for the longest time, in one form or another; Long before Haise showed up.
-> Making the connection to how this has a much deeper root, I feel like this is what she’s probably wanted to tell him after he left, after his body gravely changed from the weak boy who couldn’t control his kagune to the infamous Eyepatch ghoul. This is the kind of message she wanted to get across on the bridge. But back then she was confused and talking (about her feelings) has always been her weakest point. In these past years though, she has experienced a lot and had plenty time to think.

The Touka now is a result if her own past and her failures. I love that through this conversation we’re able to see an actual example of how these things connect and influence each other and helped her grow. Knowing that she’s been thinking continuously, that she’s worked on herself and that her efforts bear fruit, I love this character exploration.

// They’re in a similar situation - Her and Akira and of course Kaneki and Amon (who pretty much have been walking in each other’s shoes for the past years).
So Amon talking about his fears/insecurities regarding Akira also indirectly shines a light in Kaneki’s feelings. We’ve seen how he’s “acted a little off” when they had their first casual conversation after all that’s happened. The difference between Kaneki and Amon is that Amon expresses he’s feeling guilty because he actually had to chance to meet her but Kaneki kinda didn’t as he lost his memory. (But then again, Kaneki actively left them and avoided her throughout the rest of TG part 1 until it was too late…)

Again, this whole conversation had so much meaning to it and I never thought it’d give us so much additional insight about their relationships and especially Touka’s changes. I’m really happy about it.

Alright, so I have Ideas™ about a convoluted Moulin Rouge Laurent/Crime Lord Damen AU, so bear with me, bc I’m probably never going to write this.

Um, TW: Violence, prostitution, the Regent being gross via implied CSA (but I’ll try to go into minimal detail for that), anything else let me know oh but Laurent!Satine doesn’t die so there’s that at least. Also a warning bc this was written in the early hours and has not been proofread at all.

Okay, so I’m real into Dual plots, so we’ll start with Damen, who is in this crime empire of some sort, I don’t know a lot about organised crime but the Akielos family is a Big Deal. So they make most of their money from the usual stuff: ‘protection’, drugs, etc. but they also have a name in prostitution, but the high-class kind. Their escorts are perfectly trained and come in all shapes and sizes etc, and in return for giving their lives and bodies (and most of their earnings) to the Akielos Family, they get to choose their own customers. So it’s shady, but like, not as bad as it could be. youtried.jpg

Except, our boy Kastor isn’t happy with being swept to the side and Damen being the inheritor so he’s been trying to get a following of his own (and Jokaste is helping him, but more bc she’s one of the escorts and she knows beauty runs out eventually and she’s got to move up in the world or get thrown away eventually. And Damen won’t marry her, so yeah, Kastor). And then surprise! Theomedes dies suddenly and totally mysteriously like wow, he was so healthy, how did that happen? (Murder!!). 

And Kastor is all: Suprise, bitch! This is a coup @ Damen, but he manages to escape with his life bc Jokaste has feelings of remorse and gives the poor guy a hand. So then it’s like the Crime Family equivalent of a civil war, Kastor’s got half the territory loyal to him, Damen has the other half, shit is going down.

Anyway, so at this point, it’s basically just mayhem: Damen’s trying to reason w Kastor and keep things together, and Nikandros is like, “We need to expand our territory,” so they can beat Kastor and regain control. 

This leads Damen one night to Vere, the notorious burlesque club that happens to one of the places Damen wants to take over. 

(Now time for a readmore, bc this is just the prologue, baby, it’s time for Laurent’s story)

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@kevystel said:                                                                                                                            writing yuuri is stress relief! i love this (can i tempt you to post that viktor snippet and Talk about his pov and how it differs from yuuri’s bc i’m a sucker for such writer analysis)

You absolutely can!! Half-snippet and POV talk under the cut:

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ne0dym  asked:

ok I just got through the 4th trial. Ouma backing Gonta into a corner so viciously was... kinda scary. The entire time, he takes the lead, even more prominently than Saihara. At one point he literally says 'so, the culprit is Gonta.' Later on, he meticulously clears everyone of suspicion until only Gonta remains. His aggressive demeanour is scary and also pretty sad, bc the others would never accept the truth otherwise. Idk what I want out of this ask, I just wanted to get that off my chest lol

The Chapter 4 trial hurts so much. Much of the misinformation that was floating around about it at first caused people to feel bad for one character or the other who was involved, but I find myself still feeling pretty miserable for every character involved: Miu, Gonta, and Ouma all got a super shitty hand in that trial, and it’s true that none of it would have happened without the killing game itself prompting this kind of tragedy.

The trial itself is absolutely bone-chilling and features some of the most incredible voice-acting moments in the whole game (in my opinion), and the points at which Ouma starts pressing are…pretty damn terrifying. There were a lot of scenes prior to this where I’d already been thinking of ndrv3 and Ouma both in very Umineko terms, but this was the trial that pretty much cemented it for me, because there was almost nothing more Umineko-like than watching Ouma have to shoot down every single possibility with his own “red truth” in order to force the group to accept that Gonta was the culprit.

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anonymous asked:

AU where Nymeria didn't come soon enough and Joffrey maimed (murdered?) Arya. What would've happened? How do you think the story would proceed?

well this ask is sure a punch to the gut so thanks for that.

but after that initial punch, i had fun with this.  my goal was to keep major strokes of the plot largely the same but to justify them with different characterizations that precipitate from this different scenario.  

this is also long bc i had fun so i’m putting it under a cut

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anonymous asked:

how would the rfa+saeran's reactions be to their s/o being extremely flexible?



  • One day he comes home and you’re just hanging from these silks???
  • D E A D
    • You just look so good!!!
  • He’s honestly so excited for you
  • He loves watching you perform on the silks! He’s utterly fascinated by the way your body can move
  • “MC you should perform!!! I’d go to every one of your shows!”
  • triesithimselfonedayandbreakshisarm
    • “I wanted to try and look like you…”
  • you bet ur sweet ass he makes you cosplay and perform on the silks
    • instagramaestheticpicturesyespls
  • shows you off to all his LOLOL friends because youre his precious, talented bean


  • wakes up and you’re not in his bed???
  • someonestopthisdramaticunicornomg
  • finds you in his living room iN THE SCORPION POSE
  • alittleoffendedthatyoudidntshowoffyourflexibilityduringthediddlydotime
  • obviously he wants you to teach him!!!
    • Lowkey jealous that you’re better than him at a fitness activity
  • Almostbreakshisspinetryingtodoscorpionpose
    • “it’s okay MC!!! I heal fast”
    • udumbassyoukindaneedurspine 


  • when jaehee sees you dancing at the party, she never thought much of it???
    • Obviously you were fantastic but she thought you probably had a lot natural skill
  • Sometimes when you’re helping at her coffee shop, you dance around a little!
    • HonestlyursocuteJaeheealmostspillscoffeeonhercustomers
    • You’re standing on your toes what the hell
    • Are legs even supposed to go that high???
  • She’s really worried at first because she’s scared you’ll injure yourself!!!
    • but the customers start noticing your little ballet moves???
  • Pretty soon you’re putting on dance sequences in the coffee shop and you’re attracting a lot of customers!!!
  • Her little bean is happy so she’s happy!!!
    • nothingcomparestothesmileyougetwhenthecustomersclapforyou


  • As a birthday present from him, you two are now at the Summer 2016 Olympics!
    • Youknownormalcouplestuff
  • As you’re watching the Rhythmic Gymnastics portion, you casually mention that the hoop was your favorite item when you used to do this
    • Jumin is floored
  • “You can do stuff like that with your body???”
    • “I mean yeah..it’s not hard..”
    • rushesyoubacktoyourhotelroomsoyoucanshowhim
  • He hires a trainer for you because he think you’re that good
  • “We’ll get you to the 2020 Olympics, MC”
    • He supports you so much???
  • Youdonthavethehearttotellthisprecioustrustfundkidthatitwasjustahobby


  • Alright this little nerd LOVES superheroes
  • Of course he does, he loves calling himself defender of justice
  • When Deadpool is released on DVD, hE IS SO HYPED
    • Dressesupasdeadpoolwhenhegoestobuythemovie
  • Drags you into watching it with him but honestly ur were probably as excited as him to see it!!
  • During the strip club scene, you mention that you kinda miss pole dancing???
    • Wait what
    • What do you mean you miss pole dancing
  • Turns out you used to perform at a strip club for little while as income for college???
  • How did he never know about this? He searched your entire background???
    • “People don’t normally advertise that they were strippers, Saeyoung…”
  • “Willyougivemeshowsforfree?”
  • looksuphowtoinstallapoleinhishouse
    • actuallymanagestodothis???
  • This boy plays “Right Round” every change he gets with MC and hopes she’ll actually dance to it
    • “Saeyoung you have to work to make these panties drop”
    • B L U S H E S he may be a kinky mofo but he embarrasses really easily, what a cutie
  • Wants to learn so you two can become a stripping duo lenny face
  • Honestly though, he jokes about free shows n all, but he thinks that it’s so amazing that you’ve trained your body that hard!


  • He walks in on you lying down on your stomach with your head tucked between your feet???
    • “Oh I’m just trying out my contortionist skills!!! I used to dabble in it when I was younger”
  • He used to think you were royalty but now you’re a god???
    • Considersbuildingashrine
  • Loves watching you!!!
  • Alittleturnedon
  • “Wow MC you’re so talented”
    • “What???”      
    • “i sAID YOU’RE UGLY BYE”


  • this boy has no idea what he’s in for when you invite him and the rest of the gang for a pool day!
  • You invite your own friends too bc they’re hella awesome
  • Oh boy oh lord oh pal is he surprised when all of sudden u and your friends just start dancing???
    • Are those ur legs hOT DAMN
    • How are they moving like that omg
  • You look like an actual mermaid???
  • When you come out of the pool, you’re just giddy from happiness because you got to show your bf one of your most loved hobbies!!!
    • “Can I see again..?”
    • “Haha remember when you used to be blind and you couldn’t see”
    • MCwhy
  • buysanunderwatercameratophotographyou


i’m going to combine these two! enjoy the angst <(・∀・ <) (i’m sorry i took forever to answer ;_;) (also more under cut bc this one’s pretty long)


- his heart completely stops after his s/o hits the ground and needs a second to process what’s happening before snapping out of it

-once he snaps back into reality he flies to his s/o and cradles them in his arms. He picks them up bridal style and murmurs things like “it’ll be okay baby,” “it’ll be okay please hang on, please’

- barks orders to whomever is near him to get help from Miiko or call eweleïn inmediately. he starts running his hands through his s/o’s hair and face, trying to clean his wounds of blood and dirt

- as soon as you’re taken care of in the infirmary, he stands outside with blood dripping from his shirt as the doors shut, his eyes are completely lifeless as he sits down, deadly silent, and just waits.

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What If? Sims OC Tag

Chosen OC: Archie Kolb

I was tagged by @sim-bubble​ and @tea-sims​!!! Thank you loves! <3 :’)

I tag: @femmesim, @essiesims, @bananahut, @ichosim, @inabadromance, @tititatatoot, @obsimmian, & youuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


  1. What is your character’s favorite memory?: His favorite memory has to be when he was just 6 years old. He was finally old enough to go on random lil trips to the market with his dad & on their way back home his dad would let him sit passenger and they’d go “halfsies” on an oatmeal cookie.
  2. Who and what would your character give their life for?: Archie would put his life on the line for his family, Margo, friends and his coworkers. & honestly prob strangers too. If he had only 30 seconds to pull someone out from a car accident, he’d go for it.
  3. What is your character’s greatest fear? He fears that his mind will deteriorate before his body when he gets old.
  4. What is your character’s proudest accomplishment?: AHHH I’ll just list all of his accomplishments: Reaching his goal of being a Ufologist, being hired by NASA as an astronaut, pushing himself to finally meet Margo, Marrying Margo, buying his 2nd home, starting from a trailer home to his own home, graduating uni. (these are all out of order)
  5. What is your character’s #1 insecurity?: Because Archie is really prim and proper, straightforward, and a strong believer, he sometimes feel like people perceive him as a pretentious person.
  6. What will/can break your character completely?: If someone that he held dear to him died and he didn’t get the chance to do anything about it.
  7. What would your character make a scene in public about?: Archie actually joins protests in regards of saving the planet, keeping the world clean, science is important, etc.
  8. What can drive your character to do criminal acts?: At the most, he would probably beat the living pulp out of an individual if they created chaos for his loved ones. Other than that, he would never resort to criminal acts to keep his income steady. He’s got connectionzzz
  9. What Pet (mythical or not) would your character want to have?: Archie would love cats, dogs, bunnies, the whole shi-bang but, he’s allergic to animal fur. Wah wah waaaaahhhh
  10. What is the cutest thing your character has ever done?: Reading his vows to his waifu, Margo


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anonymous asked:

since you've talked about it before do you have any trans yata headcanons?

I certainly do my guy. 

Here are my previous posts about trans!yata: 1 | 2 I thought I talked abt this more but I can’t see any more posts about it on my blog so apparently not??? 

I would also like to direct u to @snow-runt‘s A+++++ trans!yata hcs tho bc it’s those hcs that got this idea in my head in the first place

  • So in my mind I guess I think Misaki would have figured out he was trans in his early tweens, maybe when he was about 11?? But he’s the typical trans narrative “always been a tomboy” type and it just kind of clicked that the reason he hated girly stuff so much is cause he’s a boy 
  • He’d start presenting masc when he started middle school, but wouldn’t tell his family because he doesn’t know how to communicate. He gets told off a few times for wearing the wrong uniform by teachers but eventually they just get tired of telling him because they know he’s not gonna change. 
  • He gets really snippy at people about being misgendered, which happens a lot while he’s in school, which is part of the reason he drops out as early as he does. 
  • When he and Saruhiko have their encounter in the bathroom that first time, Saruhiko asks why he’s in the boy’s bathroom, and Misaki just snaps at him “I’m a boy!” and Saruhiko doesn’t question it again. 
  • Once they get closer as friends, Saruhiko would get curious as to why Misaki’s mother seems to talk about him like he’s a girl though, and it’s at that point that Misaki confesses that he wasn’t born a boy, and he’s terrified of losing the only friend he has. Saruhiko blinks and says “Oh, you’re transgender” and Misaki nods and Saruhiko just goes “okay,” and doesn’t really bring it up again
  • Saruhiko does start to notice though as Misaki’s puberty kicks in and even though he has quite small boobs they still bug the shit out of him and he can’t stand periods and stuff. Saruhiko catches him using bandages to bind with while they’re getting changed for PE and he tells him off and orders a proper binder for him. He also tells Misaki to go to the goddamn doctor and go on the pill so he doesn’t have periods so often/they aren’t as heavy or painful. As much as Saruhiko is High Key A Mess, he’s still organised enough to make sure his best friend is not a mess. 
  • Once they’ve moved into the apartment together, Saruhiko starts researching a way for him to self-med, and he offers to fund Misaki’s HRT, as Misaki can’t afford it himself. Misaki cries a little bit. 
  • By the time they join Homra, Misaki is full-time and he tries his best to be stealth. Because he started transitioning quite young, he manages to at least pass as androgynous fairly easily, and it helps that he’s quite tall for someone who’s AFAB (considering the average height for a female in japan is like 5′2″) and his voice was already sort of deep. 
  • Misaki panics a little bit when he finds out Rikio is a member of Homra, seeing as they knew each other when they were kids. Rikio initially doesn’t quite recognise Misaki, but eventually it clicks. Misaki sees the look of recognition in his eyes, and internally starts cussing and panicking that Rikio will out him, but Rikio doesn’t say anything until the two are alone, when he quietly asks why he remembers Misaki as a girl. Misaki quickly explains he’s a guy, he was just born a girl, and tells him not to tell anyone else at Homra. Rikio simply says he understands. 
  • The only other people at Homra who know are Tatara, Izumo, and Anna. 
  • Anna knows because of her clairvoyance, 
  • Tatara knows because Misaki told him shortly after Saruhiko left. Tatara was a great source of support for Misaki during that time, and Misaki ended up admitting to him while he was quite upset everything Saruhiko did to support him while he was starting his transition. 
  • Izumo knows because he was trying to tend to Misaki’s injuries after a fight, and he told Misaki to take off his binder (which he thought was just a tank top) so he could take a look at the injuries underneath it, and Misaki vehemently refused. They argued for about 5 minutes before Misaki finally gave in and admitted “I can’t take it off because it’s a fucking breast binder okay?” Izumo is initially confused, and he’d probably say something like “You know I won’t care if you have gynecomastia. I care that you’re probably hurt pretty bad and won’t let me take a look” and Misaki kind of reluctantly admits no that’s not why he’s wearing it. Izumo would apologise at that point for pushing him, but still ask that he was allowed to take a look at his injuries. Once Misaki was cleaned up, Izumo would say smth like “pardon me if this is kinda intrusive, but don’t most trans guys get surgery to get ‘em chopped off?” and Misaki would say yes, but that costs money that I don’t have, at which point Izumo would offer to fund his top surgery with profits from the bar. Misaki is initially reluctant to accept the money, but Izumo insists that they normally apportion a certain amount of funds to charity anyway, and this counts as a charitable case, plus once he knows Misaki is binding he starts to notice him wincing when his ribs get sore and stuff. 
  • When he does get the surgery, they cover it up to the members that don’t know about Misaki’s trans status as him having a skateboarding accident and puncturing a lung and needing surgery to fix it up. 
  • Izumo also offers to pay for Misaki’s bottom surgery if he wants it- Misaki gets really embarrassed talking about it, but he told Izumo at one point that he can’t legally change his gender on his documentation unless he gets GRS, so Izumo knows he does want that surgery.

anonymous asked:

I'm seen a ton of people do MCs that are a little chubby/have a bit of a belly but I've never really seen any with like, a borderline obese MC? Like, they have to wear 4X clothes at least and it really upsets me bc I love body positive posts but I've rarely ever seen one for bigger than a little curvy and well tldr: can I request RFA+V+Saeran with an MC who is obese and really insecure about it?

A/N: I know I said before when I wrote one about MC with a tummy and freckles that it was me but like yo i was wrong this one is me ;A; tho my clothes are usually bigger to fit my shoulders and bust way more than anything else fucking rip i hate clothes Also!!!! Body positivity!!!! Yes!! ~Admin 404

I hope this isn’t too repetitive to the other one I’ve written but??? It’s basically the same thought process??


           -Loves your body so much!

           -You’re always so warm to cuddle up with!

           -He really doesn’t care what you look like, he loved you for your personality before he even saw you in person

           -You’re so kind-hearted and amazing, why would your looks matter?

           -Reminds you all the time that you’re amazing and absolutely perfect to him!

           -Will buy hoodies that are way too big for him because!!!! He wants you to wear them!!

           -Love love loves to lay his head on your tummy and you play with his hair

           -If you get insecure over it, he cuddles you close and literally refuses to let you go

           -You can get up and try to walk away but he’s literally attached to you

           -When you get tired of dragging him around and give up, he’s ecstatic and peppers your face with kisses- Just wants you to feel good about yourself!!!!


           -His job relies heavily on looks (and of course talent but shh)

           -But literally does not care what others say about you?

           -Again, you’re so kind-hearted!!! So nice!!!!!! So amazing!!!!!!

           -Personality > looks

           -You look past his looks, so why should it be any different for him?

           - Body worship

           -Tells you there’s no reason to change! Don’t fight him on this MC, he will shut you up with kisses real quick

           -10/10 will straight pick you up and carry you everywhere if you’re insecure

           -“But Zen! I’m heavy!” “Nonsense, you’re as light as the feathers on your wings my angel!”

           - BLUSH BLUSH BLUSH


           -She has to buy bigger clothes as well, to fit her bust!

           -SHE CAN WEAR YOUR CLOTHES!!!!!

           -Really doesn’t care about your body size

           -Judges you by the size of your heart, not your clothes!!

           -Cuddle time is the best!

           -Wants nothing more than for you to love yourself!

           -Will curl up with you, sipping coffee, and watching one of Zen’s DVD’s!

           -When you’re insecure, she will marathon these DVD’s, talk about your guys day, or bring up literally any topic of conversation

           - this lil shit makes you lose your train of thought

           -Once she knows you’re too preoccupied to think about your appearance, she visibly relaxes and puts all of her love into her words and actions


           -He’s looking for an emotional connection

           -He doesn’t care what you look like

           -Loves you for you!!! You helped him emotionally!

           -Always holding you close!

           -And??? Elizabeth the Third loves you?????

           -She’s always laying with you! And he loves it!!!!

           -If he notices you’re insecure, he will sit you down and tell you how beautiful you are!

           - will full on make a powerpoint presentation on why he thinks youre amazing

           -Seriously, you’re sitting there for hours upon hours until he believes that you understand his point

           -Enjoys all of the blushing he causes, and at the end of his talk, he’ll drag you to the bedroom to show you just how much he loves it eyebrows wiggling, wink wonk


           -You were the one who was able to look past the fake personalities he’s put up

           -You’re the one who’s been through everything with him

           -So he really does not care what you look like

           -You’re so important to him!!!! Looks don’t matter to him!

           -Plus, he loves cuddling with you anyway! More to love! MORE TO LOVE!!!

           -Feels so so so bad when you get insecure!!!

           -He’s insecure as well, so when he sees that you’re insecure he reFUSES


           -Can and will kiss every inch of you to show how much he loves you

           -Literally lays across you until you give up and admit defeat. Afterwards, he will spend hours upon hours telling you every little thing he loves about you



           -How could you talk bad about yourself!!!!

           -He can’t believe it!!! You’re amazing!

           -Why couldn’t you see that?

           -So, you’re plump? Who cares? NOT HIM

           -He thinks you’re soooo beautiful!!!!!

           -You’re his favourite subject matter for pictures!! ALWAYS TAKING PICTURES scream

           -Holds you close every time you’re insecure and makes you go through all of his pictures of you as he tells you every single thing he likes about the picture

           -The moment he has you in his arms though, you will not be leaving. Nope. Not until he knows for sure that you’re accepting of yourself

           -Realizes that it takes a very long time to actually accept yourself and your body, so he promises to help you as long as it takes!! Wants you to love yourself as much as he loves you!!


           -Why do you care what you look like?

           -He doesn’t care about what you look like, so why does it bother you?

           - Team Insecure featuring the Choi twins and this MC

           -You’ve helped him through so much!

           -He loves the personality and heart that you possess, so why would the size of your shirt matter?

           -When he catches you being insecure, he will immediately drag you to some place where he can cuddle you

           - saeran i dont wanna cuddle on the floor its cold omg why

           -Will hold you completely against himself, and won’t let you go

           -He lets you get all ranting or crying out while he holds you close, and runs his hands through your hair

           -Waits until you’re almost asleep to whisper how much you mean to him regardless of what you look like, hopefully putting a smile on your face