bc i just made one about me life

ok but is no one going to talk about phichit’s dream of having his own ice show

I MEAN JUST LOOK OK-

HES MADE EVERYONE LOOK SO CUTE WITH THOSE HAMSTER HATS IM GONNA CRY THEYRE ALL SO HAPPY and LOOK!!!! EVEN LEE SEUNG GIL IS WEARING THE RIDICULOUSLY CUTE HAT!!!

AND PLS GIVE PHICHIT SOME CREDIT FOR IMAGINING OUR OTABEK WEARING A HAMSTER HAT. OTABEK. WEARING. A. HAMSTER. HAT. 

YES. PHICHIT I HOPE U FULFILL UR GRAND DREAM BC BABY U AND THE OTHERS ALL DESERVE TO BE HAPPY AND HEALTHY AND LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST. PLS JUST LOOK AT PHICHIT’S FACE

JUST TELL ME THAT DOESNT MELT YOUR HEART. HES SUCH A BEAUTIFUL RAY OF SUNSHINE I WANT HIM TO ALWAYS BE THIS HAPPY!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!

I will never understand why ppl find mccree sexy bc I just can’t take him seriously with his weird dom-y lines (“I saved ur life it belongs to me now”) like in what universe is mccree the one in charge of any relationship when he always sounds like he’s about to cry when he says “don’t sass me???” America explain???

the fact that doyoung reached out to taeyong and held his hand to ground him when he was extremely nervous was beautiful but the fact that taeyong was supposed to go on stage to collect their award yet he took the time to hug doyoung for dear life, as if doyoung made him whole and gave him energy to deliver that speech just said a lot about their friendship. no scripts, no planned actions, just raw and pure instincts. actions will always be louder than words.

anonymous asked:

i think ive said this before but idk but like you go to my school but i have no classes with you and i never see you but occasionally ill pass you in the hallway and just kinda die a little inside its a wild life and im too scared to say anything to you but one time i think we made eye contact and i was thinking about it for the rest of the day

literally i walk the halls at school and think “someone here knows about my blog” but i have no idea who it is and it kills me you should come talk to me about dan and phil sometime bc i hate school and im always dying

shcnen  asked:

14 from the drabbles thing for dazai, please! I love your writing and how you play with the words to describe the situation perfectly. I beg you, never stop writing you have a wonderful talent. <3 (I hope my english isn't too much fucked up, because english is not my first language. So I am really sorry if I made any mistakes.)

14. haunting childhood crimes

from the vellichor drabble challenge

thoughts: sdghkl tysmm and your english is perfectly fine! unlike mine bc i don’t care about grammar and i think half of these sentences are fragments, but they’re the ones that inspired me with this drabble.

Hair the color of the chestnuts you stole as a child, soul delicate in ways you could never comprehend just like the handmade charms you used to break with both a stone and your carefree life. Bubble-gum hued kisses, so spontaneous and so fleeting but you always know that it was there because you could taste its dewdrop residue. Heart, beating and alive, in your grasp and stolen, for you had always known theft instead of the law.

None of it yours to take, but somehow they appear by you in every waking hour and stay at your side even after your eyes slip shut.

What matters to you, just a little, does not matter as much to him - you know he has it worse off. How must he see you? A life so beautiful, like the ones he used to rip away from the world, or perhaps a mind that dances through the strict lines to pave its own way, like those he used to break apart for his own purposes.

The two of you are bent, in the worst of ways, but among the shelves of old, terrible trophies, the solace you find is in each other’s arms.

okay listen i have a shitty memory and also a very loose grip on reality so if u tell me something happened i’ll probably believe u 

even if it’s like ‘fletcher you literally tried to murder me yesterday’ i’d probably apologise bc i very possibly could have done that and then forgotten about it

within my life i’ve had two surprise parties thrown for me, and both times i didnt realise they were surprises bc i just assumed i’d been told about them beforehand and had forgotten

and then i couldnt admit i’d forgotten so i didn’t mention it and acted totally unaffected but then ppl thought i was rude for nOT ACKNOWLEDGING THE SURPRISE PARTY

anyway this isn’t a relatable post i just wanted to let you guys know that my terrible memory made me fake my way through not one but two surprise parties within my short lifetime as a Human Disaster

anonymous asked:

I agree, Jumin's Valentine ending just made me feel sad tbh. It basically confirms that MC has a boring life with a husband who isn't home often. And then he comes home and showers her with gifts and like...I don't care about that? That's why I prefer his normal ending, bc at least that one suggests that they have more fun in their lives and it's cute without being too corny.

That’s exactly what I thought! And I heard that there are a lot of Jumin’s fans who feel disappointed at this VD Ending and I can relate.

Tbh, there’s no character development for Jumin whatsoever. At first he thought money was everything and now he still does??? Not only in this Valentine’s Day Ending but also in the Christmas DLC, he basically donated a bunch of money to impress a girl (He said it himself). I really love Jumin (I ship him with Zen, duh) but I don’t like how Cheritz shaped his story.

And about MC in Jumin route, she is too Mary Sue to me - - In VD Ending she even asked Zen “So… Should I be mad about this (Jumin not being home on VD)” like wtf? That’s something you should decide yourself? She’s too much of a puppet for me. (Oh wait she’s a puppet in the game to begin with).

Like, yeah, I do love money. Still, I’d prefer not to wander around in my house all day because that’s not how you should live.

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I MADE IT!!!!! I can’t believe I hit 200!!!!! Not too long ago I wrote a celebration fic for hitting 150. I was not expecting this so soon! Thank you guys so much!!!!! I want to thank @not-moose-one-shots for helping me get here. She is an amazing woman who doesn’t treat me any different bc of our age difference. She has helped me so so SO much with writing, life stuff, and just anything I’ve ever asked her about. I love you, girl! (PS go follow her, she and her fics are amazing!!) And thank all of you!! I wouldn’t be here without you. You guys make my days brighter. I love you guys ❤❤❤

youngjaaes  asked:

Top 5 B.A.P MVs?

I lied I’ll answer it now and hope the code doesn’t break anyway I think this is in order, but I am know to change my mind about things every 3 minutes)

  1. Where Are You, What Are You Doing — including all three versions of waywayd because it was just so cute and it looked like they were having so much fun and it made me feel good about life
  2. Feel So Good — pastel bap is just fave and I’ll admit that I’m a bit biased just because Carnival is my favorite album by b.a.p overall
  3. Skydive — they seriously upped the game with this one, the acting,scenery, the pacing, and plot were all so well done 10/10
  4. One Shot — as much as I complain that it hurts bc jae died, I actually lowkey love one shot so much
  5. That’s My Jam — it was hilarious and fun, and I loved b.a.p making fun of themselves and of course programs overall an amazing theme

special mention to fsg japan for finally putting them in the right colors and warrior for getting me into bap at their debut

ask my top 5 anything

today i had to explain the english speakings internets obsession with suicide jokes and depression related humor to a japanese girl and it was so tricky like i had to to explain that the people making these memes wanted to kill themselves and so they would make jokes about it to cope bc they never would and that they were made for everyone else that felt the same way, and that it was literally just internet based like no one in real life talks about it and i don’t think she understood it but it made me realize how actually sickening uniting the internet can be, a whole branch of humor based on the layered irony of wanting to die and then the layered reality of hiding it in plain sight for everyone to see and join and take part in and yet do nothing to try to stop

anonymous asked:

i really relate to that post you made because no one in my life really cared about me they didnt pay attention to how i was actually doing all the signs of what happened were there but i wasnt important enough for anyone to notice even though it was painfully obvious its not even really what he did to me that hurts anymore the thing i have breakdowns over now is just the fact that there were so many people that shouldve noticed but i guess i just wasnt worth helping

This ask made me cry bc I’m so heartbroken that u relate . Also grateful that im not the only one. But i don’t think it’s that you were worth caring for. I think it’s that all the adults u and I were surrounded by just….fucking sucked. Idk. I love u. Pls take care

anonymous asked:

you know, I kind of live on the other side of the world from you (I think?) so when you post new chapters it's always way into the night for me and every single time I'm like lemme juuust see where this one picks up, just the first paragraph, then go to sleep bc school and work and life, right? and I fail every. single. time. :D bc it's just So Good, and I'm So Excited and So Invested and love where you're taking these characters and just ... thank you!!!

Well, I live in the Washington, DC suburbs and TRY to post about 4pm EST (Failed miserably today ;-) )

I’m sorry to interrupt your sleep especially on a Sunday night, but thank you for your lovely words!!  You haven no idea how incredibly happy they made me!!!

HELLO FRIENDS, ITS YA LOCAL HOT MESS HERE BEGGING U TO REFOLLOW HER

ok so!! i made the INCREDIBLY DUMB MISTAKE of deleting my old blog!! same url as the one i currently have (csibarryallen)! i’m devastated about it and i’ve been crying for the past hour (let me live) bc i’ve had that blog for seven years so i’ve litch just lost what was perhaps the biggest documentation of my life ever. tumblr staff was pretty useless helping me and said i can’t restore my old account, so i’ve had to start over!! that’s pretty rough tbh but i’m hoping y’all can help!! 

what you can do: 

  • follow me here on my new account!! i just hit a really big follower goal yesterday and i’m devastated that i need to start all over, but i’d love to see all my mutuals again!! 
  • search for any of my old posts on your blog by using the “/search/url”. some of my recent urls include officialseaworld, acepeter, rathaways, and csibarryallen. if you’ve been following me for a while, you can also try some of my older urls!! if anything pops up, please just shoot me a message and let me know!! 
  • reblog this post and get the word out to your followers!! i’ll be following back as many of you as i can, as i’m currently following zero people lol.

any and all help would be sososososo appreciated!! it sucks so much that i have to start all over but hopefully i can get things back to normal soon! 

so i’ve been thinking about making a patreon for my original writing (probably not before summer though, bc school is really hitting us with the constant exams) and made a twitter poll about it here

it’d be cool if you’d let me know what you think (either in the pool or just, you know, on tumblr)

i’d also still be open for commissions but since no one went for that and i really wanna free up some time/resources for my original ideas, i’m leaning towards patreon more

You know what I think about this a lot, but am I the only one that’s actually made pretty uncomfortable by the idea that romantic/sexual attraction is what gender you’re attracted to?

I understand why that was changed from sex, because that was problematic in itself

But I don’t feel like gender is a better term either because that’s presuming that you can somehow see and determine gender when?? It’s one of the most volatile, indistinguishable and intangible things on the planet?? How in the hell are you attracted to gender?? What is gender?? Where is it???

idk maybe it’s just cause i’m non-binary (and quite clearly straight men and non-straight women arent attracted to me bc of my gender) so I suppose it affects me more directly, or rather I have more reason to question it…. who knows

sooo seeing all these people making masterlists of their fics made me want to make a top 10 list of my favorite fics that’ve been published in 2015. tbh this was really hard bc i’ve read a lot of fic this past year so buckle up, here we go.

(sidenote: i really should’ve just titled this my fav avery fics of 2015 but whatevs)

10. these amber words on our fingertips | jmcats/ @jmcats

‘He’s not getting attached, he swears. There’s no point.’

(Re: Zayn’s life in London is about one thing — making life perfect for his son. He’s still finding himself in this city, with all of the noise and left behind dreams. He needs to focus and Liam is, well, distracting. He’s different. Zayn’s always liked that word.)

9. These Faded Stars Along Our Horizons | ch3stpaynes/ @ch3stpaynes

Zayn isn’t used to this; the buzzing feeling that comes along with pinched grins, cherry red lips and eyes like Sunday morning coffee. He’s used to smogged out cities, not enough oxygen between each breath and perhaps a few spliffs with the boys when the weather isn’t absolutely dreadful.

And Liam Payne may just flip all of his priorities upside down.

8. Bridges I Have Burned | thisonegoes (the lone zarry fic on this list)

A Sweet Home Alabama AU, where Zayn returns home with a stack of papers for the one man who’s haunted him for years.

(this is where things got super difficult for me)

7. Spark | unfortunate17/ @unfortunate17

“Liam,” Maura says quietly, “Liam Payne, Khal of the Dorthraki nomads. He’s offering you the force of all his men, all forty thousand of them, in exchange for nothing but your hand in marriage.”

Zayn’s mouth drops open, “For my hand? What the hell for? He’s absolutely mad.”

Maura shrugs, walks towards his bed to take a seat next to him, “There’s an old legend among his people - they call you the Son of the Moon.”


Or, a Game of Thrones AU that lacks all the death and sorrow, where Zayn is Daenerys Targaryen and Liam is Khal Drogo. No knowledge of Game of Thrones is necessary.

6. Your Lips On Mine | zipplekink/ @zipplekink

The situation is weird, like really fucking weird. Liam thought maybe he was hallucinating when he first saw Zayn in their apartment, exhausted from work or something. He thinks about Bradford a lot more than he probably should, always eager for the next time he gets to watch him. But when Niall told him about the other new roommate, Zayn, he never in a million years thought it would be him - even when Niall said Zayn was just his type and had silver hair.

[Or the one where Zayn is a camboy, who likes to think about the fit mechanic with a liking for leather jackets and scruffy beards from uni during his shows. And Liam, the mechanic, who realizes his new roommate is Bradford, the man with the smooth skin covered in tattoos that Liam watches late at night with a hand wrapped around himself.]

5. Habits Of The Heart | zipplekink/ @zipplekink

“I’ll be really good to you,” Liam whispers, sliding an arm under Zayn’s shoulder like he is a pillow. Zayn closes his eyes, remembering when Liam had said those same words to him while laying on his chest before they started dating. The same feeling rattles in his chest, the same uncertainty, the same need for his words to remain true.

“I know,” Zayn whispers, massaging his fingers through Liam’s hair. “You always have.”

Liam pushes up, brows furrowing together as he stares down at him, the humor in his face turning far more serious. “And I always will, Zayn.”

4. Everything On You Intoxicates | zipplekink/ @zipplekink

Where Zayn maybe stalks that fit guy from his Intro to Lit class on Instagram

3. Inside the Pocket of Your Ripped Jeans | ellipsometry

Fuck Niall, honestly. Fuck him for telling Zayn about this – he of all people should know that despite his leather-jacket-and-cigarette façade, underneath it all Zayn is just a hopeless romantic. And when dealing with hopeless romantics you can’t go serving mysterious, hunky, salt-water-washed strangers up on a silver platter. You just can’t.

It’s a simple concept, really: Take a photo, then leave a photo. But, like most simple things, Zayn manages to make it much more complicated. So by the time Zayn meets Liam for the first time, he’s been carrying a picture of him around in his pocket for nearly five months.

2. hello kisses sweet as wine | xxcaribbean/ @culebraliam

(little bird. fuck me this fic is so gooood)

not everyone is brave enough to go after the things they want. too much judgment and little respect creates nothing but fear; yet zayn’s always pursued what he’s felt regardless of those hang ups, and there’s not a day that goes by that he doesn’t regret any of his choices.

now, though, his decisions go a little beyond the spectrum of what people might consider normal, but zayn swears he did it out of love for himself and for his family. but mostly, it’s for his insatiable need to feel steadiness for once in his life.

zayn doesn’t expect mr. payne to have all the answers, and he certainly hadn’t meant to leave an impression.

so, this isn’t really a love story. well, it shouldn’t be.

(and, drum roll please, my favorite fic of 2015. by who else really?)

1. through the summertime, winter, spring, and fall | zipplekink/ @zipplekink

They change with the seasons, burning bright during the summer and biting cold during the winter, but that feeling of being in love Zayn found in the summer clings to him through it all.

(god this fucking fic tho ^^^^^ don’t ask me how many times i’ve read it. one: i couldn’t tell you and two: it’s embarrassing)

happy reading! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THOMAS MULLER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you are 26 and you need to stop getting old because i need u in my life forever and ever <3 THOMAS MULLER IS MY FAVORITE AND SHIT IS ABOUT TO GO DOWN BC HERE’S WHY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH:

THIS GUY MADE ME LOVE THE SPORT

HE’S SO WEIRD

like……….really weird (& i just appreciate how real of a person he his)

but him in a suit…likelook at dat though…damn boy

BUT LOOK AT HOW BEAUTIFUL THAT IS HE IS SUCH A GOOD PLAYER AND A LOT OF PEOPLE DON’T REALIZE THAT HE IS REALLY ONE OF THE BEST PLAYERS IN THE WORLD BUT TO ME, HE IS!

PLUS HE’S MIA SAN MIA AF (wow we’re twins…perfect for each other lmao)

AND HE WON THE WORLD CUP WITH ALL HIS FRIENDS (#NEULLER)

and he’s the cutest husband ever and im so jealous and i just want a thomas AND HE ALWAYS DOES THIS CUTE WINKY THING AND I LOVE IT I THRIVE OFF OF HIS WINKS:

all-in-all, THOMAS AKA HORSEY BOY, I HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY YOU DESERVE ALL THE HAPPINESS IS THE WORLD BC YOU MAKE EVERYONE LAUGH AND SMILE <3 :) 

This has kind of been bothering me for a while and I just wanted to see if anyone else has thought of it.

I know Tumblr is huge about the “Cut Toxic People Out of your Life” movement, but what if, and hear me out, that toxic person isn’t actually toxic.

Like if they’re bullying you in any way, obviously get rid of them. But if they’ve just “been annoying you lately” or “have been in a bad mood this week”, by all means, TALK TO THEM ABOUT IT. DON’T IGNORE THEM AND STOP TALKING TO THEM. Chances are they have no idea/would actually feel bad if they were annoying you, or maybe something is happening in their personal life that has made them upset. They might even WANT or NEED your support as a friend or however your relationship is with them. But DON’T, for the love of God, ABANDON THEM AND BRUSH IT OFF AS GETTING RID OF “TOXIC PEOPLE”.

I can testify that this “detoxifying” movement sometimes hurts others for the sake of your personal happiness. Just think it through before you act.

When I came out as gender fluid to my mother she told me that I would probably get a lot of questions from my grandmother when I told her, and that made me shit scared. But when I finally found courage to come out to her, she was THE ONLY ONE who didn’t ask a single question bc she was THE ONLY ONE who knew what it was, because she has FRIENDS who are gender fluid and I just grandmother WHAT?! and she was so cool about it and that was the biggest WTF moment in my life. So I decided to throw in that I’m bisexual, and of course she also had a friend who’s bi, who which also had a crush on my grandmother and my grandmother let her hold her at night, but didn’t go any further. I think my grandmother won the “grandmother of the entire fucking life” award.