bay leaves

Caught Feelings

Requested by: anon

Insp: Caught Feelings by McKenzie Small

Pairing: Riarkle

Rated T for Language

When angst meets fluff…

“It’s Farkle. It’s always been Farkle.” Riley gasped as the realization struck her.

“What?” Lucas and Maya questioned as they whipped their heads towards her.

It was their junior year of high school.  After several unsuccessful attempts to resolve the triangle, the trio had finally decided tonight was the night for the triangle to die.  The three agreed not to leave the bay window until they had a solution.  Because of this agreement, they had been sitting in silence for the past hour in Riley’s room, and darkness was creeping fast upon them. 

Riley had been staring at the luminous moon from her bay window seat and recalled all the times she had spent with Farkle staring at the same night sky, musing about Pluto and Mars.  And somehow, as the hours had passed, her mind kept wandering back to him.  He had captured her every thought until she was spending more time thinking about him than on how to fix the stupid triangle.  It was only until a few moments ago that she realized her thoughts of Farkle weren’t a distraction from the problem at hand, but rather, it was the solution.  He was the answer to the triangle: her mind was with Farkle because her heart was also with him.

“I’m in love with him.” Riley whispered as she gazed at each of her friends.  Her voice trembled as she confessed this, not because she was unsure of her feelings—she had never been more sure of anything in her entire life—rather she trembled because she was terrified about how her admission would change things. 

“With…Farkle?” Lucas questioned hesitantly.

Riley nodded. “There’s not a triangle. I guess there’s never been a triangle; I just didn’t see it before. I think I fell in love with the idea of you, Lucas. I projected the fantasies about my perfect prince onto you, and somehow, in the midst of this, I caught real feelings for Farkle.”

“Wow.” Lucas blinked, as he slowly absorbed this new revelation.  He quickly recovered from his surprise and flashed Riley a genuine smile.  “Well, you couldn’t have picked a better guy to fall in love with, Riley. I wish you both the best.”  Lucas stated like the southern gentleman he was. 

Riley smiled at him in return. This was why it was always so easy to cast him as her perfect prince; he was such a nice guy and he fit the role perfectly.  But she knew now that even though things looked good on paper, her heart belonged to someone else.  She wanted something real. She wanted Farkle.

“So I guess that’s it then? There’s no more triangle?” Maya asked in disbelief.

Riley shifted in the bay window and shrugged. “I guess so.”

The three sat in silence as they attempted to convince themselves that the triangle was as dead as Riley’s romantic feelings for Lucas.  After years of getting used to the triangle, it was difficult for all of them to believe that it was over, just like that.  Maya took a moment to put her own disbelief and feelings about the triangle aside to study her best friend.  Riley was fidgeting in her seat, her foot tapping nervously.  Maya cleared her throat and captured her attention.  “Well what are you waiting for Riles? Go get your man!” She joked as she cracked a smile.

“I’m scared this will ruin our friendship,” Riley whispered earnestly, her eyes wide with concern.

 “The only way that you could ruin your friendship is if you kept this from him. You know how much Farkle cares about honesty. If it came out that you kept something like this from him, then that would ruin your friendship. You have to be honest with him Riley,” Maya advised.

“Okay,” Riley nodded, “Okay, yeah you’re right.” She agreed.

Maya and Lucas looked at each other and then looked at Riley who seemed to be frozen in place. Maya cleared her throat once more. Riley snapped her head to look at her. “Oh, yeah, okay, yeah yeah I’m going.” Riley mumbled as she climbed out the fire escape. Before she disappeared into the night completely, Riley popped her head into the window and looked at each of her friends. “But if I’m going to be honest about my feelings, you both have to be honest about yours. Talk.” She stated as she motioned to the two of them before descending down the fire escape.

Meet me outside Topanga’s in five minutes. It’s an emergency. Riley texted Farkle quickly as she ran to her mother’s bakery.

Her phone beeped not one minute later. On my way. He replied.

Riley smiled. As she approached Topanga’s, she began to feel giddy.  Her fear and uncertainty quickly dissipated as she imagined how he would react to her confession. She would confess her feelings and jump into his open arms. They would kiss and there would be fireworks. It would be just like she had always envisioned it would be. Maybe he wasn’t a prince, but he was her happy ending.  And she couldn’t wait to live happily ever after with him by her side.

She got to Topanga’s before he did and found a table for them outside the bakery. The place was deserted since it was late and the bakery had long since closed. Riley settled her gaze on the moon once more until she heard footsteps pounding down the concrete stairs.  Farkle placed his hands on his knees and attempted to catch his breath as he came to a stop in front of her.

“I…came…as fast…as I could.” He gasped in between breaths.

“It’s okay Farkle, have a seat. I just wanted to talk to you.” Riley stated as she motioned to the chair across from her.

Farkle gave her a questioning look, but was too tired and relieved to sit down to question her orders.  He took a few moments to catch his breath, and once he was breathing normally, he took a moment to study her. “Sooo…what’s up?” He asked nonchalantly.

“We solved the triangle.”

“You did?!” Farkle perked his eyebrows in surprise. “Wow, that’s great.” He chuckled softly and muttered under his breath, “It’s about damn time.”

“Hey! I heard that!” Riley giggled as she slapped his arm playfully.

“Well, it’s true!” Farkle laughed.

“Yeah…okay.” Riley admitted as she smiled at him.

“So…is that what you wanted to tell me?” Farkle cocked an eyebrow. “I mean, I’m happy for you and all, but you could have just texted me the news. I hardly think this would constitute as an emergency—“

“I’m in love with you.” Riley blurted.

“–I mean dammit Riley, you had me worried sick. I thought something was seriously wrong, so there better be something else—wait what did you just say?“ Farkle’s eyes widened like a deer caught in the headlights.

“I’m in love with you.”

Instantaneously, Farkle froze like a statue in Central Park.  His eyes remained wide and his mouth was fixed in a slightly agape position. “Farkle? Are you okay?”  Riley asked concernedly.  She snapped her fingers in front of his face a few times, searching for even the slightest muscle twitch to signal that he was still alive.  After a few moments, Farkle began to blink profusely, as if he was clearing the fog from his brain.

As the fog began to settle and the Farkle she knew and loved settled back into the present reality, she noticed his blank expression as he processed her confession.

 “Oh,” he finally stated as he studied his hands nervously.

Oh? Riley had been expecting a little more enthusiasm than that. This was hardly the skipping off into the sunset fairytale she had pictured in her head. Her disappointment soon transformed into slight annoyance as she noticed his continued unwillingness, if not outright avoidance, to meet her gaze. “Oh? Is that all you have to say?” Riley snapped.

“Yes…I mean, uh…no. No, it’s not.” Farkle stammered as he rubbed the back of his neck, still opting to study his fingers over meeting her gaze.

“Well?” Riley asked as she tapped her foot impatiently.

Farkle stood there quietly, acting as if he hadn’t heard her.

“I’m in love with you Farkle.” Riley repeated.

Farkle remained silent and unresponsive, as if he was in a trance once again.

“FARKLE I’M IN LOVE WITH YOU!” Riley yelled, finally losing all of her patience.  At this point, she just wanted a reaction, something more than a simple “oh.

Farkle jerked to attention, startled by the loudness of her voice.  He whipped his head to look at her for the first time since her confession, and it was then that she noticed the anger in his eyes.  His countenance had shifted drastically and his face was colored with rage.  He slammed his fist on the table. “Damn it Riley, would you stop saying that?!” He yelled back at her.

Riley felt the hurt building in her throat but pushed it back down. “Saying what? That I love you?!” She stated in disbelief as her voice rose to match Farkle’s.

“Stop it, just stop it!” Farkle screamed as he placed his hands over his ears.

“Farkle…what are you doing?” Riley asked impatiently as she took in his slight freak out.

“La la la, I’m not listening.” Farkle sung to himself.

Riley rolled her eyes. This was ridiculous.  Was he a child? She grabbed his hands and forcefully peeled his fingers away from his ears. She grasped his hands tightly and caught his gaze. “NO, I’m not going to stop saying it because it’s true. I love you Farkle. You can refuse to hear it all you want but that won’t stop it from being true.”

Farkle furrowed his eyebrows and pursed his lips in response, offering Riley a peculiar expression. Riley and Farkle settled into a prolonged silence once more. Riley stared at her best friend, while Farkle sat staring at his feet. She could tell he was thinking intensely about something, and knew better than to interrupt him until he was ready.

“This isn’t fair.” He stated as his voice sliced through the silence.

“What isn’t fair?”

“I just…I can’t do this Riley. I’m sorry.” Farkle sighed as he stood up from his seat and began to walk towards the stairs.

Riley sprung from her seat and grabbed his wrist before he could make it too far.  “Farkle, stop!” He came to a halt but kept his face turned away so she was unable to read his expression. She heard him sniffle. “Hey…” Riley said softly, “Farkle, please look at me.” She pleaded.

He slowly turned to meet her gaze and Riley felt her heart shatter as she took in his tear stained cheeks.  “What can’t you do?” Riley asked, her own voice giving way from attempting to hold back her tears.

He motioned between them and she understood.  He couldn’t do them.

“Farkle…do you love me?”

“Riley…” He sighed as he broke free from her grasp and began to walk back towards the table.

“Just tell me Farkle and I’ll leave you alone…do you love me?” She asked as she followed him back to the table.

Farkle collapsed into the chair and placed his head in his hands.  He rubbed his eyes tiredly. “Of course, I love you. You know that I’ve always loved you. Nothing can change that.”

“Then what’s the problem here?”

Farkle sighed and ran his fingers through his hair in frustration.  “Riley…you can’t keep living in a romanticized version of Rileytown.  You can’t just expect everything to be tied up perfectly in a neat little bow as if it’s really that simple.” He exclaimed as he threw his hands in the air.

“It is simple!” She cried. “I love you and you love me…isn’t that enough?”

“No…” Farkle shook his head sadly.  “It’s not.” Farkle gulped as he met her glassy gaze. “I couldn’t wait around forever, Riley.” He frowned.

“Well, now you don’t have to wait anymore because I finally realized what you knew all along.”

Farkle bit his lip and reached out for her hand, lacing their fingers together.  “I love you Riley, but it’s not enough. The timing’s not right.”

“Farkle…what are you saying?” Riley asked as she searched his face for answers.

“It’s too late, Riley. I’ve moved on.”

“Oh.” Riley stated as she jerked her hands out of his grip, as if his touch was suddenly poisonous.

Farkle winced, seeing the effect his words had on his best friend. He didn’t want to hurt her. It hurt him to know that he was.  But what did she expect him to do?  He couldn’t sit around pining for her forever. How was he supposed to know that one day she would actually return his feelings? But no, he had closed and locked that door long ago.  He couldn’t open it again even if he wanted to—he had bolted it shut and thrown away the key.

“I’m sorry, Riley. You know I don’t want to hurt you.” Farkle stated as tears began to escape from her eyes. “Oh please Riley, please please don’t cry,” He begged.

“I—I’m f-ffine.” She stuttered as a river began cascading down her cheeks.

Farkle instinctively wanted to pull her close and wrap his arms around her. That was what he would normally do, but now things were different. She was in love with him.  If he comforted her, would it make her love him more? Would it only end up hurting her more in the long run? Farkle was paralyzed by confusion and sat there helplessly as he watched his best friend cry, knowing that he was the cause of her tears.  He felt sick.

After Riley began to calm herself and Farkle watched her helplessly, they sat across from each other, a silence settling between them once again.  Riley appeared to be lost in thought, and Farkle was too busy studying her to have any deep thoughts of his own.

“Are we going to be okay?” He asked quietly.

Farkle’s question brought Riley out of her trance.  After processing his question and reorienting herself to the present, she nodded her head and smiled at him.  She gazed up at the stars before she looked back at him. “Yes, we are Farkle. Do you know why?”

“Why?”

“Because I may be too late now, but I’m going to wait for you.”

“Riley—“

“No, Farkle, stop,” Riley cut him off abruptly. “Just let me say this.”

Farkle nodded and motioned for her to continue. “I know I took too long to realize my feelings for you, and I’m sorry.  I’m sorry for living in my Rileytown fantasy and expecting you to drop everything and fall into my arms.  I shouldn’t have expected you to wait all this time, that’s not fair to you.”

“Thank you, Riley.”

Riley nodded, acknowledging Farkle’s gratitude before she continued, “But know this Farkle Minkus…I’m not going anywhere. You waited for me for all those years, and now I’m going to wait for you. You’re my soulmate, Farkle. I love you, and maybe that’s not enough for right now, but I have hope that one day, when the timings right, it will be.”

Farkle’s mouth hung slightly agape, mirroring his earlier expression.  After opening and closing his mouth several times, he managed to form a coherent sentence. “Riley…I just—I really need you to be my friend right now,” he pleaded desperately, willing her to understand.

“I know. And I will be. I’ll be your Canada, just like you’ve always been mine.”

Farkle nodded appreciatively and smiled at the reference.

“Even so, I’m not giving up on us just yet, Farkle Minkus. I know you, and I know you’re scared to open those old feelings back up, so I’ll wait for you until you’re ready.”

“But…why? Why would you wait for me?” Farkle asked in disbelief.

“Because you, my Farkle, are worth waiting for,” she stated with absolute certainty.

Farkle’s breath caught in this throat as she leaned towards him and placed her hand on his face.  She placed a soft kiss on his cheek before whispering in his ear, “You’re my Pluto, Farkle, and I’m not giving up on Pluto just yet.”

She sat back in her seat and winked at him, causing a blush to creep up his neck, betraying his own feelings that he thought had long since been locked away. 

After things had settled between them, Farkle, in typical Farkle fashion, insisted on walking Riley home.  They walked home in a comfortable silence as each fell in step with the other.  The air between them felt different, but it was a good different.  It was the kind of different that was new and exciting.  It was the kind of different that occurs when two people love each other but aren’t ready to be together just yet. It was the kind of different that was okay with that. For now.

When Riley and Farkle neared her front door, Farkle pulled her into his arms, just as he had wanted to do earlier. He held her for a little bit longer than friends should and squeezed her tight before he pulled away.  “Thanks for being honest with me, Riley.”

She nodded at him and smiled before she turned and placed her hand on the doorknob.  Before disappearing into the darkness of her house and tip toeing past her sleeping family, she called out to Farkle’s retreating figure, “Hey Farkle?”

“Yeah?” He said as he turned around to face her.

“I meant what I said.”

“Which part?”

“All of it.” Riley smiled. “But the part that I want you to remember is that you’re the kind of guy who’s worth waiting for, okay? You’re worth waiting for, Farkle.”

It was almost five years to the date when Riley stood across from Farkle in front of all their friends and family in a white dress, both of them grinning from ear to ear. After promises were made, rings were exchanged, and cheers erupted from the audience, Riley leaned in close to her husband’s embrace.  In a voice that only he could hear, she whispered, “You were worth the wait.”

And he was.  This was something Farkle Minkus would continue to prove to his wife for years to come.  And Riley Matthews couldn’t possibly have imagined a better happily ever after than the one she was living with Farkle at this moment, the one that she would continue to live with him for the rest of her life and until ever after.

The end.

Bay Leaves (Bay Laurel)

Element: Fire

Magical Properties

- Bay Leaves are extremely useful in divination, clairvoyance, and inducing visions. They are useful in other metaphysical skills too; protection from psychic attacks, boosting general magic, and aiding psychic development. Bay leaves are used in clairvoyance and wisdom brews. Leaves placed under the pillow or used in dream work will bring prophetic dreams.

- Bay Laurel is associated with Apollo.  When the nymph Daphne tried to avoid him she turned into the first laurel tree, which Apollo adopted as his sacred tree. The leaves were also chewed and burned by Apollo’s prophetic priestesses at Delphi, which ties in to its uses in divination.

- Bay is used for its properties of purification and protection. It is used in consecrating things, dispelling negative entities and energies, spell breaking, and protection against negative magic. When placed in the corners of a home it will protect all who dwell there, and it can be burned to achieve the same effect.

- Bay is excellent when put to use in wish magic or other things regarding bringing about ambitions and goals. Write a wish on a bay leaf and burn it to achieve your goal, use them in spells and charms to bring prosperity, luck, success, and abundance, and use bay to bring about healing and transformation.

- Bay can also be used for: love, passion, harmony, inspiration, wisdom, justice, memory, release, strength, fertility, victory, and employment.

Medicinal Properties

- Bay oil can be used to treat arthritic pains, lower back pain, earaches, sore muscles, and sprains.

- The leaves can be used in cooking, taken in tea, used in herbal baths, and infused in oil.

- WARNING: the oil should never be used by women who are pregnant, should never be taken internally, and you must dilute the oil and use it in small amounts when applied to the skin.

My Happy Home spell bottle!

If you know me then you’ll know that over the past few years I’ve had a series of not-so-ideal living situations. I’ve had the room next to the kitchen, I’ve had incredibly messy roommates, and just all around bad situations that have left me with a lot of bad feelings. That’s where this little guy comes in.

I created this little spell bottle to dispel any bad feelings that I may be holding on to and to help create a happy environment, for not only myself but my housemates to live in. As I added each herb, I said aloud the purpose and job that herb had in creating a peaceful living space.

This bottle (starting from the bottom) contains:
- Rosemary: for cleansing and creating a clean slate
- Bay leaves: purification and removing my negative feelings
- Cloves: protection from negative energy
- Salt: protection and safety
- Cinnamon: energy for myself and my housemates
- Thyme: happiness for anyone who enters our home
- Basil: harmony and pathways of communication
- Coriander: love and friendship

- Sealed with the wax of a lavender scented candle made by and given to me by one of my current housemates

Psychic Moon Bath

This spell is best Preformed during either the New Moon or Full Moon

This Herbal bath will help bring out or enhance ones psychic abilities, while working with and utilizing the energizes of the Moon. 

      Materials Needed 

  • 1 cup Sea Salt
  • ¼th cup Mugwort 
  • ¼th cup Bay leaves
  • ¼th cup Lavender
  • ¼th cup Yarrow
  1. Once you assemble all Your ingredients, Mix them together . While Feeling their energizes, pouring your power into them and visualizing your magickal goal blend the herbs with your fingers. once mixed Either set them aside in a bowl or Pour into a Sachet      ( adding them to a sachet makes clean up faster)
  2. Next run a hot bath, and add the herbal mixture and let seep for a few minutes before entering.
  3. Now enter the bath and just soak focus on your goal and intent for this bath. Stay in the water until you feel ready or the bath water becomes cold.

Mugwort should Never Be handled during pregnancy or if you are trying to become pregnant. 

- Spell by HoneyCoyote -

SIMPLE WISH SPELL

This is a very easy wish spell with few items needed to work the magic. 

WHAT YOU WILL NEED:

1 candle

1 Bay Leaf

A heat proof container/cauldron

and ink pen

your intent

Cleanse your items and cast your circle. Set with your items and focus on your wish. Write it on the bay leaf and then hold it between your hands, focus on the wish and see it manifesting in your life. Then breath gently into your cupped hands onto the Bay leaf three times. Close your hands then and feel your power and intention flowing through you into the leaf. 

Light your candle.

Hold the leaf into the flame and let it catch fire, then drop it into the cauldron (or flame proof container) to burn. as it burns say

“MAY MY WISH COME TO BE

WITH HARM TO NONE SO MOTE IT BE”

Once the flames subside and the ashes cool, take them outside and cast them to the wind.

Your spell is cast.

It is that easy. 

Prosperity spell candle.
-green candle (or any color of your choosing)
-coins for money representation
-green aventurine for positivity and perseverance
-lemon verbena herb for strength
- bay leaf to write name of one in need on for the wish
After adding the coins, stone and herbs, light the candle, crush the bay leaf and sprinkle into candles fire. I also carved the good fortune rune onto the candle. If meant for a friend or someone else you can give the candle to them and tell them to light it when ever they need a boost. ^_^