bathing suits for your body type

Alright it’s March, I’m starting to see spring break stuff, ppl making preparations, and figured I’d get this out early-


FAT GIRLS CAN WEAR WHATEVER THE FUCK THEY WANT

WE DON’T WANT YOUR “But is that bathing suit….flattering for your body type?” 

IF YOU SEE A FAT GIRL IN A BEACH/POOL SETTING WEARING SMTH MODEST LIKE PANTS AND A T SHIRT, DO NOT COMMENT. PEOPLE LIKE YOU ARE THE REASON SHE’S DRESSED LIKE THAT IN THE FIRST PLACE.

IF YOU SEE A FAT GIRL ROCKING A BIKINI, KEEP YOUR BULLSHIT CRITICISMS TO YOURSELF. 

LET US LIVE.

Elemental Spell Ideas

Most of the time, I try to do spellwork with the intent aligned with a specific element in order to use the energy of that element.Here are some ideas for choosing a type of spell based on its elemental alignment.

Water

  • charge herbs, stones, etc and throw into a moving body of water, such as a river, stream, or ocean. You can use a pond or lake, but I think the moving water has more effect.
  • Take a ritual bath with oils or herb blends suited for your purpose. The bath itself is cleansing, and soaking in the herbs, oils, and water while focusing on intent/chanting can be super powerful.
  • Carve runes or sigils into soap or bath bomb and use in bath. As the runes/sigil disappear, the spell is released.
  • Draw sigils into dirt with a stick/finger, let rain wash it away or pour water over it to release (this is also an earth spell)
  • Make teas/potions with edible(be careful!) herbs
  • Do a blessing or chant over wine or other beverages for yourself or to share any time (kitchen witchery is fantastic!)
  • Wash items with blessed and charged water to cleanse and purify. This can be ritual tools or just anything that you feel needs to be cleansed of negative energy.

Earth

  • Carve names, words, runes or sigils, into fruit and bury in a pot of dirt or in the ground. Good for things that you want to have manifest slowly.
  • For permanent effect, bury something that will not decompose, such as a stone or a glass bottle filled with items, herbs, images, etc.
  • Carve spells into wood or burn symbols into wood.
  • Recharge stones by burying them in dirt, sand, or salt
  • Collect dirt or sand from locations with good energy to use in rituals
  • Cooking! Specifically baking. (this can also be a fire spell, depending on what your’re making)

Air

  • Make incense
  • Place charms and other charged items in high locations or tie them onto tree branches
  • Astral or dream work
  • Create wind chimes or charms to hang in windows or outside near your home
  • Use incense to cleanse items and banish negative energy from your home 

Fire

  • Write sigils, names, words, runes, etc on paper and burn. This can be used for manifestation or banishing
  • Use bonfires to raise energy
  • Fire gazing or fire scrying
  • Candle magick
  • Sex magick
  • Burn carves wax figures for banishing
  • Write on bay leaves and burn or place on an incense coal
  • Again, cooking!

These are just my associations and methods that I find useful. There are of course countless other options!

It’ll Be Alright

Steve Rogers x Reader

Request: “hellohello!!! can i have a steve x reader where reader is very self conscious about her stretch marks and steve comforts her and stuff? tyty + i love your blog <3″ - @darlingbuchanan

Warnings: NONE

A/N: I DIDNT PROOF READ THIS SO IM REALLY SORRY IF I FUCKED UP WITH SPELLING OR GRAMMAR. 

You had never been a fan of the beach. Of course, the blues and greens of the ocean always caught your attention, but there was always something about it that left a bad taste in your mouth. As a kid, you would stand in the middle of the sand, standing behind your friends, as they ran frantically towards the water. It wasn’t until your family members started pointing out your recent weight gain that it dawned on you: you were never a fan of the beach because you didn’t have the “ideal” body type. 

***

When Natasha asked you and your friends if you guys wanted to go to the beach, everyone responded before you could even open your mouth. 

“What about you, Y’N?” she asked, her eyes landing on yours. 

You didn’t want to be the person to ruin everyone’s day of fun, so you hesitantly nodded your head. “Sure, I could go for a swim,” you smiled. 

***

You had a multitude of bathing suits in your closet. You took out your best three and lay them out on your bed. Black, white, and red fabrics littered your cream sheets as you heard your door open. 

“Hey, Y’N,” you heard a familiar voice say.

You turned around to see sandy blonde hair and a pair of blue eyes. “Steve,” you said, your body turning to cover up the bathing suits on your bed. “What are you doing here?” 

“Nat told me to make sure you were ready. We’re leaving to go to the beach in about 20 minutes, so don’t take long,” he said before spotting a red bikini top and winking at you. You blushed and shooed him out of your room. 

“Get out, Steve, I have a lot to do.”

***

Cellulite and stretch marks decorated your thighs and calves that were almost always covered around your friends. Today, though, the universe decided things would be different. You walked out of your room into the compound wearing shorts and a t-shirt over your bathing suit. Everyone was in the room, sitting in front of the large flat screen TV. 

“It’s about time, Y/N,” Tony jokingly sighed. 

***

The ride to the beach was fairly normal. The only thing on your mind was your body, though. Sure, you had curves, but they seemed to mean nothing to the stretch marks on the different parts of your body. 

“Come on, Y’N, we’re here,” you heard Bucky say. 

You nodded and stepped into the sunlight, your sunglasses making their way to your face. You looked around you and noticed everyone ridding themselves of their shirts, showing off their toned and muscular bodies. You especially noticed Steve, though. He pulled his navy blue t-shirt over his head in one swift motion, exposing his abs and nearly perfect body. You realized you were staring when he threw his shirt at your face. 

“Come on, Y/N,” he said, “get in the water with me.”

This is it. 

You nodded, noticing all of your friends were already enjoying themselves in the water. You began to slowly peel back the layers you wore. First, your shirt slowly came off, exposing the top half of the black and white one-piece you chose to wear, ultimately deciding that you would wear the red bikini when you were more comfortable with your body. Next, your shoes made their way off your feet, and your shorts were on on the floor. 

You felt Steve’s eyes on you as your hands traveled to your legs and stomach, trying to hide what could never be truly out of sight. You felt Steve walk up to you, his hands moving over yours. 

“Let’s go,” he said. He started walking away and almost didn’t notice that your feet were still planted firmly in the sand. 

“What’s wrong, Y/N?” he asked, concern taking over his facial features. 

You felt tears brim your eyes as his words made their way to your ears. You never really cried over your physical appearance, so why did you start now? Maybe it was because you were surrounded by overly-confident people, or because you had never actually had your body out in the open the way you did now. Or perhaps, you were about to cry because someone finally took notice to your apprehension and doubt. Steve, the boy who always seemed to be able to lend a helping hand to anyone who needed it, was also the one (the only one) to take notice to you and one of your biggest insecurities. 

“Wait, why are you crying? Oh God, Y/N, did I make you cry? I’m so-” he started, before you cut him off. 

“No, Steve,” you said, before pointing to your thighs. “I can’t get in the water with you guys, though. Just look at me, for God’s sake, I’m disgusting! Can you see the marks on my legs? They’ve been here for as long as I could remember. Do you know what it’s like to feel like a stranger in your body? To see all of your friends look so much better than you when you work just as hard, if not harder than them to be fit and healthy?” you asked, your mouth letting the words slip out before you could have a chance to think about it. 

“Y/N,” Steve started before you turned away from him, picking your shorts up from the sand. But before you could turn around all the way, you felt fingers wrap around your arm. 

“Y/N, you are the most beautiful person I’ve seen in all my 96 years of being alive, and I can’t believe you could think that about yourself. You are far from disgusting, and no one is stopping you from getting in that goddamn water but yourself. Besides,” he said, his fingers tracing the marks on your skin, “these are what make you, you. No one else in the world has patterns like this etched into their skin, Y/N. And if you don’t want to get in the water with me, I won’t force you. We can get ice cream, too,” he smiled. 

Your arms wrapped around his waist as you smiled. 

“Let’s go,” you said, dragging him toward your friends screaming in the water. 


A/N: I’m sorry if this isn’t what you expected lol! I hope you enjoyed it, though. Make sure to request for any Avengers/MCU characters!!

ktgracee19  asked:

Are your asks still open? If so can you a Pete dunne is dating someone that just came out of an abusive relationship and has panic attacks and how he reacts to them

- it happened during your first argument with Pete
- you should have warned him you guess, about what had happened and the mental scars you were left with
- he was off ranting about how it wasn’t his fault about something or another when you felt it
- your chest began to constrict and you started having trouble breathing and it just felt like your skin was on too tight
- you knew that there was nothing to be scared of with Pete. For all his bluster And surliness, Pete would rather throw himself off of tall building that raise a hand to you but the panic and fear didn’t care
- Pete didn’t notice that you had gone silent at first, continuing pacing and making dramatic hand gestures
- he turned to you too sharply, too suddenly and you flinched away from him, curling in on yourself
- the tears were welling in your eyes and it just was too much.
- The fire seemed to rush out of Pete, and he reached forward to grab your chin
- “Talk to me. I can’t fix it unless you tell me. ”
- you waited too long to reply and Pete wrapped you up in an embrace, his chin resting on the top of your head
- it was fifteen minutes of silence later that it all came rushing out
- your ex, when things went bad, the scars on your hips and thighs…
- You could feel the tension in his body, every muscle fiber jumping and twitching in rage
- he tried to keep it cool for you, but a poker face was not one of Pete’s strong suits
- it took another hour before you were calm enough for him to coax you into taking a bath
- he’d mumbled an excuse while typing intently on his phone, that he was going out for a bit
- you didn’t see him for four hours, falling asleep without him
- you woke up briefly to him sliding into bed with you, being pressed firmly against your body
- maybe it was the sleepy fog over your brain that lead you to think that his knuckles were raw and bloody, maybe it was just your imagination playing tricks
- you feel back asleep in his arms, feeling safe and warm
- it’s when you woke up the next morning, his clothes gone and a note neatly folded on a pillow that your heart broke
- “I’m no good for you, especially after what you’ve been through. I’m sorry. -P”

When Worlds Collide! [Murasakibara x Reader x Haruka]

Round One
[Murasakibara Atsushi vs. Haruka Nanase]

❣❣❣

Murasakibara was still in disbelief that he was doing this right now, with these two people.

Subject 1: His crush of two years now, who’s as adorable as ever. You.

And subject 2: your dead-faced, boring, annoying friend called Haruka Nanase.

This was far from being Mura’s first meeting with the young swimmer, but he was still disappointed every time that you’d bring him along. The guy always took your trio to the swimwear section.

At first, Mura thought it was Haru being sneaky and trying to get you in a bathing suit. But no. The boy was interested in trying things on himself.

“Ta-dah.” Haru says, in a monotone voice, stepping out of the fitting room in another pair of black swim trunks with purple stripes. Mura was thinking to himself how the heck this was different from the last, but you were clapping in happiness at the sight.

“Ooh~ this one’s nice too! It really complements your body!” You stated. It didn’t get past Mura the way your eyes always lingered on Haru’s body as you took him in like a feast.

It didn’t get past Haru either.

Now, Haru was never the arrogant type, especially when it came to love. But even he couldn’t help the smug grin on his face when he saw your gaze directed only at him … made even sweeter by how pissed his rival looked.

“I think I’ll get this one.” Haru finally announced, and Mura lets out a not-so-subtle sigh of relief. The moment after Haru checks out, the big man is clinging onto your arm.

“Neh, let’s get something to eat at the food court.” He proposes, wondering if this was his chance to finally steal your attention back. After hearing this, you wore a look of contemplation, glancing over at your other close friend.

“Haru-kun, do you want food?” You asked the boy. He blinks at you a few times with those startling blue eyes, before nodding. Mura thinks it could be worse; at least he’s not against the idea of getting food.

When you all arrive at the food court, Mura’s ready for the ice cream, the burgers, the ramen, the popcorn— everything. You turned to Haru, who had been very quiet since. “What should we eat first?” And watched as sparkles invaded his eyes.

“Mackerel.”

Mura’s features suddenly became dark, and he’s got a large hand on Haru’s shoulder.

“____-chin, I’m really gonna kill him.”

@roses-symphony replied to your post : where my Die x Toshiya shippers at? we need to…

Idea 1: Die and Toshiya on vacation! Or like deciding where to go for holidays …. Toshiya being super excited while Die would rather stay home with his cats

If these two go at the beach they will fight with gun waters just like 9-year-olds 😂😂 they seem the type to just go to private beaches where they would lazily lay on those covered white huge beach beds, their bodies and faces peeking through the white covers as the wind gently blows; Die would read and Toshiya would take a nap; 

Toto would take Die on his arms and take him into the water and just drop him there, he’s that much of a fucker 😂

Toshiya coming home all excited, throwing his shoes like 

Toshiya: babe! we’re going to the beach! so grab your bathing suit and pack your bags

Die *turning to him, while being in bed, shushing him all frowning*: shhh, the babies are asleep, and I’m not going to no beach 

Toshiya: you are pale, you need to get sunkissed…but if you insist, then I can be your sun, and kiss you everywhere

God I love bf Toshiya 😂

anonymous asked:

buffy as a boyfriend

Boyfriend!Buffy

  • likes when you call him handsome or even acknowledging his presence
  • he’d do stuff like sniff your hair because he can not get enough of your sweet scent
  • he would compliment you a lot as well
  • if anything he says whatever’s on his mind
  • well, almost everything
  • when he wants to see you flustered, he’ll say something abut you in japanese and will refuse to tell you what it means
  • if he ever walks in on you changing, i dont know what he’d do
  • maybe he would just stare at you like
  • “wow… nice view”
  • or maybe he’d scurry out of the room and be all embarrassed like
  • “shitshitshitsjit”
  • i think he’d prefer making out over little smooches
  • i mean ofc he would give you those big smooches out in public if he wanted to but
  • ofc he would like making out with you in private
  • hes the type to accidentally touch you somewhere where a bathing suit would cover and play it off like
  • “OHMYGOD IMDOSPRRY PLS FORGIVR MEEEEE”
  • but would turn around and be like
  • “AYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY”
  • cuddling would be you on top of him, his arms wrapped around your body and you both asleep
  • fights wont be too rough unless he feels as though he has been betrayed (who wouldnt????) but other than that, he cool
  • dates would be going to the mall and eating at a food court, a restaurant that serves both of your guys’s fav foods. and walking around the city or on a bridge near a river or going to the beach
  • to sum it up: hes a little snake that does no harm, simplicity, dates include: beach, mall, restaurants, bridges near oceans/rivers, the movies, cuddling includes: you on top of him w/ his arms wrapped around you entirely, does some sneaky stuff (but its on accident ok), loves making out w/ you in private, loves giving you big smooches in public, sniffs your hair bc of your lovely scent, is either confident or makes himself v v nervous
Preference #1: Calum makes you feel insecure and your boyfriend Luke forces him to apologize.

You had always been conscious about your weight and your body. You used to really dislike yourself but then when you met Luke and he always told you how beautiful you are and how happy he was that you weren’t just another skinny, mingy, blondie, booby, girly girl like Lindsay (High five if you get the Angus, thongs and full-frontal snogging reference.) Luke helped you realise your curves could be seen as attractive and sexy but you still weren’t too sure about showing them off.  Luke invited you to go to the beach with him and the boys. Luke, Ashton and Michael had gone out to buy some stuff whilst you got ready. Calum didn’t want to go with them so he waited at the house with you. You had been staring at your bikini and your one piece for ten minutes until you decided to ask Calum for advice. ‘’Cal, could you come help me real quick.’’ You shouted downstairs. You could hear him groan and walk up the stairs. ‘’What is it Y/N?’’ he asked standing in the doorway. ‘’Which one should I wear to the beach?’’ You asked holding up your swimwear. Calum looked at the swimsuits and then at you. ‘’Go with the one piece it suits your body type better. Was that all?’’ He said you nodded feeling hurt and Calum walked downstairs. You down until you were left in your underwear and bra and walked to your full body mirror. You thought boys found curves attractive but after what Calum said how could that be the truth? You looked at yourself and started poking into your body. ‘’I’m not curvy I’m fat. I’m so fat I could probably be obese. I probably am obese. Luke doesn’t think I’m attractive. No one would find me attractive.’’ You mumbled to yourself. After a couple of minutes of lowering your own self esteem you heard the boys coming home and Luke asking where you were. You couldn’t hear Calum’s response but soon after Luke had asked the question you heard him walking up the stairs. Instead of getting dressed and acting like nothing was wrong, something you always did when you felt down, you continued looking at yourself and pointing out all your imperfections. ‘’Y/N what are you doing? Why aren’t you dressed?’’ You heard Luke ask as he put his arms around your waist. ‘’Why do you think I’m attractive when I’m the size of a whale?’’ You asked tearing up. ‘’What makes you think you’re the size of a whale?’’ Luke said turning you around so he could hug you properly.  ‘’I-I-I asked C-C-Calum which bathing suit I should wear and he told me the one piece suited my body type better, which is just a polite way of saying I look like a whale!’’ You sobbed. ‘’Hold on one sec.’’ Luke said as he let go of you and ran downstairs, you heard him yelling something at Calum and vice versa but you were too upset to make any of the words out. After a short while the yelling stopped and  you heard someone walking up the stairs again. ‘’Y/N?’’ You heard Calum say, ‘’look I didn’t tell you to wear the one piece because I think you look fat. You’re Luke’s girlfriend and I’m his bandmate and his friend do you know what I mean?’’ Calum asked you. You shook your head as you dried of your tears. ‘’It means you are off limits. You are crazy beautiful and if I saw you in a bikini I know I wouldn’t be able to control myself. I’m sorry I made you feel otherwise now put on that bikini and show the world what a body to die for looks like.’’ Calum said before leaving to go downstairs again.

[A/N] Hope you liked it (: Requests are open. Just message me

ghostsprobably  asked:

hello! can you please explain the way you create a pattern for your cosplays, for example yellow pearl?

Yes I can!

I make all of my bodysuit patterns custom to my body, which is why they fit really well. It’s essentially a different version of the Sardonyx Arm Tutorial I have posted, but the means of achieving the outline are the same. I used the tutorial below to make both my Young Pearl Top and my Peridot Bodysuit

First off, you’re gonna need Cellophane, a lot of Masking Tape, and a friend.

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5SOS Preferences: Your Insecure

Luke:He placed a trail of hot opened mouth kisses, all down your neck. You removed your legs from around his waist, as Luke you up bridal style, placing you over on the bed. 

He looked at you with a smile on his face. You knew what was about to happen. He straddled your hips, as he leaned over to place his lips on yours. You melted back into the kiss, as he rubbed your sides gently.

“Are you okay?” He would constantly ask. It was going to be his first as well as yours, and he wanted to make sure you were okay.

Every time he’d ask that question, you’d respond with a simple, “I love you." 

He slid his hands underneath your shirt, still kissing you, he slowly pushed it further and further towards your neck. He stopped kissing you in an attempt to pull the shirt over your head. Before he could finish, you placed your hands on his quickly indicating for him to stop.

"Is everything okay?” He asked nervously.

You nodded. “ Everything is perfect, actually. It’s just that I…I am really uncomfortable with my you know….” You told him hoping he’d catch your drift.

“Your a little insecure, huh?” He smiled as he hovered above you. You nodded, shyly with your eyes closed. “Your beautiful…I promise I will take care of you.” He soothed.

Calum: “C'mon, [Y/N]! Put on that new bikini I bought you, and let’s go to the beach!” He shouted as he jumped off of the couch.

“Um, I don’t know Cal…Are Luke, Ash, and Mikey gonna be there. If they are then, I don’t really wanna…” You tried to explain.

“Why does it mater if they’re coming or not?” He asked his smile fading my the minuet.

You just shrugged your shoulders, and folded your arms firmly across your chest. He went from a smile to a confused look. “Something you wanna tell me [Y/N]?” He asked suspiciously.

“No. No, not really.” You said as calmly as possible. You didn’t wanna tell him that you we’re uncomfortable in a bathing suit. Especially, around three other guys, let alone him. 

“I’m not a fucking idiot. I know that your insecure and there is literally no reason to be. You’re absolutely beautiful.”

“Thanks.” You mumbled. “Let’s go to the beach!” You shouted smiling.

Ashton:He was always they type of boyfriend who’d constantly ask you if you wanted piggy-back rides, or tried to pick you up.

But you always told him “No”, or “No thanks Ash.” You have always been insecure about your body weight. You we’re afraid of him thinking that you we’re too heavy, or that you we’re fat.

You and Ash we’re at the park taking a stroll. “C'mon, get on.” He suggested, but like always you rejected the proposal.

“I’m not asking you, I’m telling you.” He stated simply. You looked at him puzzled. “ What you didn’t think I’d catch on? I know you think your fat.”

He said as if he’d known forever.

You wanted to cry,.

You felt embarrassed and ashamed. 

“For starters [Y/N], your not fat. Your perfect. And I don’t want you to ever think about yourself that way ever again.” You didn’t say anything, you just hugged him, mumbling thank you’s into his ear.

Michael:“UGH! FUCK THIS I AM NOT GOING!” You shouted as you looked into the mirror. You tried on what felt like a billion outfits, but couldn’t find the right one.

Michael who was sitting on the bed, with his phone in his hand, immediately looked up at you. “Everything I try on it looks awful. I look fat as shit, and I-”

You were cut off by and annoyed Michael.

“God dammit [Y/N]  would you just stop it?” He asked irked, getting up from the bed.“You literally looked amazing in everything you tried on, and you need to stop treating yourself like that.” He moved closer to you.

“But it’s tr-”

He cut you off by placing his lips on yours. He cupped your face and mumbled “Bullshit.” against your lips with your foreheads pressed against each others.

“Your fucking beautiful.” He whispered.

“You’re not too bad yourself, Clifford.” You teased.

iamatinyowl:

When I say I want more fat acceptance I don’t mean I want to see more hourglass shaped, cellulite free white girls rocking 50s pinup style.

Give me fat people with different fat distribution. Give me fat people in bathing suits. Give me fat people with no sense of style. Give me fat people of color. Give me fat trans people and fat gender non-conforming people. Stop making one narrow body type of fat people the only ‘acceptable’ fat body. You’re all body acceptance or you’re not really body acceptance.

lake house (nate maloley imagine)

MAYBE PART ONE? A/N i’ve been writing this imagine for like two weeks but i’ve been way too lazy to actually finish it. But since i figured this idea was still filled with inspiration in my head, I might as well just get it going since I really wanna see what you guys think. Hope you guys like it. Let me know if you guys want a part two to this imagine! (this is also an imagine for people with a thicker body but not just bigger ass and boobs, a belly, bigger arms, the whole nine yards. i love every single one of y’all and you all deserve this one.) much love -e

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My music was blasting in my car when we pulled up in the rocky filled parking spot in front of the lake house. Derek and Delany’s  parents had bought the lake house and had become tradition of the family to all go every spring vacation. But now the kids in the family were kinda older and we were all wanting to go by ourselves. So after a while of sweet talking, Derek, Delany and I were finally able to go all by ourselves.

We unloaded the trunk filled with food and drinks and snacks and as well as our bags filled with clothes. When we were all inside, I dropped down my bags and turned to them. “Since I was the geniuos who brought up the idea of us coming here for a little getaway, I should pick the room first.”

“Uhm, no! I helped, remember? So I should just go ahead and get the bigger room!” Derek argued with me and I just laughed at him and responded with, “No, Derek!”

Delany was all the way in the kitchen, stocking up the counter with chips and dips cause I knew that if she were over here in the same room as Derek and I and heard us arguing over the rooms that she would also be defending herself to try and get the biggest room in the house. However, after a bit of playful arguments with Derek, he called it quits and let me go ahead and find the room that I wanted. I smirked and grabbed my bag and went up the spiral steps and took the second biggest room, wanting to be nice and letting Delany or Derek have it.

I sat down my things on the bed and closed the door before stripping off my shorts and shirt and putting on my one piece bathing suit. I had the curviest body in my whole family, with a big ass and big boobs and even a belly too. It’s not that I was uncomfortable with two piece bathing suits but I felt that one piece just made me look a lot better. Better than two pieces actually.

After I fixed the straps and made sure everything was in place, I put my hair in two extremely messy french braids and headed back downstairs with nothing to cover the bathing suit with.

“Delanyyyy! Go check out the lake with mee” I whined but quickly cut myself off as I noticed someone was here that I didn’t know.

“y/n, this is Nate. I figured I would’ve invited him since he was bored as fuck in his house back in the city. That’s completely fine..right?” Derek asked as if I were supposed to immediately say yes to his request. I nodded my head and felt my cheeks heat up incredibly fast since he was a brand new face and this brand new face was staring right at my body and every single part of me.

“H-hi,” I stuttered but quickly tried to recover. “I’m y/n. You’ll love it here. Won’t get bored at all.” I smiled at him in a more respectful way than friendly. He responded quickly with, “Oh yeah I am positive that I won’t be getting bored, y/n.. Nice to meet you, ma.” He smirked as he watched my face expressions change back to being embarrassed and feeling slightly exposed.

He made me feel exposed yet in some way managed to not make me feel not at all insecure about my body and how it looked just in a simple one piece bathing suit. No other boy had ever made me feel that way, not even my boyfriend made me feel that way. He stared at me and I wanted to hide away.

I made my way out of Derek and Nate’s little circle and went over to Delany who was outside in the balcony, taking pictures of the view. I laughed at her and playfully nudged her. “Come on. Put on your bikini and let’s go slay down there in the water.” Delany quickly nodded her head since she was a type of girl to always go for adventures and actually go and view the world.

She changed and while I waited for her, I sat down on the couch and watched Derek and Nate make themselves drinks in the kitchen. Nate kept glancing back at me and whispering comments at Derek. Derek would just shake his head and laugh, not even bothering to look at me. I didn’t any of the comments that Nate was making other than one thing that was coming out of Derek’s mouth, “Man, she’s taken. Got a boy back in the city, he’s in love with her. Quit trying to get my cousin.” Derek laughed again and this time looked at me, noticing that I was just staring at them.

Finally Delany came downstairs and grabbed my hand leading me over to the door and we both headed out into the small trail that lead us to the lake. “So how are you and Jason doing?” Delany asked, carefully going down the path towards the lake since we were both too eager to feel the water to even put on shoes.

“We’re okay, I guess. We argue a lot, but that’s normal. He didn’t even want me to come. Said I was going to cheat on him with one of us Derek’s boys.” I laughed and once we finally made it down to the lake, I began walking over to the water.

“Well, I mean Nate is kinda cute.” Del nudged me and smirked, running over to the water with a squeal. I just shook my head and ran after her.

After an hour of being complete kids and jumping around, climbing on rocks and jumping off the water, trying to climb on trees even hit one another with rocks, Del and I made it back to the house and to our lovely surprise, there were more people in the house than what we expected. A shit ton of people.

I walked in and looked everywhere, feeling myself getting nervous and angry all at the same time. What happened to the let’s get relaxed, getaway type of deal? Didn’t quite work out so well with Derek. I found Sammy who quickly hugged me once he saw me regardless me being completely wet. “Ayeeee lil ma. Nice to see you again, y/n. Lookin’ good.” He smirked at me and handed me the blunt that they were ALREADY smoking.

I took a small hit and let the smoke purposely go all over Sammy’s face as I replied to him, “Thanks, Sammy, you already know. But anyway, why are there so many people here?? Is Derek crazy?” I looked at him, clearly annoyed and before Sammy could answer me, Nate made his way over to him and told him to leave me and him to it.

I groaned at his charming smile and wrapped the towel around myself even more. “What do you want, Nate?”

“Well I want you but if I said that, you’d stop talking to me.” He laughed and drank from his cup. “I actually wanted to tell you not to get mad at Derek for this huge party. It wasn’t his idea. It was mine, completely my own idea to start up a whole party. I’m sorry if it bothers you.” He smiled and his dimples became visible which made my heart melt slightly.

“It’s fine, it was just shocking to see all of these people here,” I quickly tried to apologize for being so annoyed without actually apologizing since my pride was way too high to let out the simple ‘i’m sorry.’

“Why don’t you just come join us?”

I thought about it quickly before answering. It’s not like I had a choice, I grew out of being the shy person who just stayed in their room. I liked having fun especially with Derek and Delany. Plus Sammy was here, gotta love little Sammy. I didn’t even knew Nate and at first he seemed so weird and like an actual fuckboy who just wanted to flirt with every girl but now for some reason, he seemed kind and gentle and like a good person. A nice person to have fun with. After all..this is a getaway.

“Yes. Let me just change and I’ll be back.” I replied to him and even though I saw him lean in to say something else to me, I turned, ran up the stairs, closed my door and stripped off the bathing suit. I changed into a very simple shirt dress that I had brought with me just in case something just like THIS was going to happen. I slipped on some flip flops since after all, I would just be heading up a flight of stairs and into a room after the party would be over. I didn’t bother to fix my hair or apply any makeup, just make sure there was space in the bed and went back downstairs.

I found the boys and Del all sitting down in the couch and I smiled once Nate saw me. “y/n! Come on, join us.” I walked into their little circle and was immediately pulled down to Nate’s lap whenever I reached him. I squealed quietly from the feeling of his hands wrapped around my big waist and I turned my head over to him, my cheeks flushed red. “Was that really necessary..?”

“No other space for you to sit at.” He simply said and laid his head on my shoulder. His fingers began to slowly move in small circular motions on top of the dress that I was wearing. My mind was screaming Jason’s name but I didn’t see any sexual tension in this. I wasn’t grinding on him. He didn’t have a boner. I was just sitting in his lap while we all drank and smoked and had a good time. Getaway. That’s it, right?

I saw absolutely no harm in Nate’s actions but definitely the people around us saw the vibe that we were both giving to one another. “Nate, I swear I’m going to kill you, your legs will go numb” I said and laughed as I take a sip of a drink that Derek had given me.

“Oh, it’ll be worth it!” Nate said, clearly drunk from the way his slurred speech and I just laughed at him, taking the blunt from his hands and taking a hit, exhaling the smoke up towards the ceiling so no one was hit in the face with it.

“Uh..are you y/n..?” A tall, muscular guy asked, standing in front of us all sitting down. All of the smiles and laughs disappeared and they all stared at me. “Yes, that’s me.” I said, cheerfully as I handed the blunt to Sammy. “Do you need anything?”

“You’re Jason’s girlfriend.” The man stated and I felt my heart begin to beat faster and my stomach turn. I shifted in Nate’s lap but he tightened his grip around my waist in a slight protective way.

“Yes, I’m y/n. And yes, you’re right. I am Jason’s girlfriend. What do you need?” My response quickly gave the man discomfort and he moved closer to us with his jaw clenched and his fists formed. I felt Nate’s arms move away from me and he pushed me away as he got up, as well as Sammy and Derek. All three of them quickly alarmed at the man’s actions and he looked at me angrily. “You’re such a hoe, did you know that? This is what you do huh?”

“What?!” I said unbelievably.

“You heard me, you fat fucking bitch! I’m Jason’s brother, Marcus. Remember me? Left Jason all fucking upset because he thought you were going to cheat with one of your cousin’s idiot friends and here you are. Being a complete fucking bitch.” He kept screaming and trying to get closer but Derek shoved him away from the group.

Del slid over to my and grabbed my hand, holding it tightly. “She’s a bitch! She’s fat and disgusting, thinking she’s got the baddest body when really she’s just a whale. And to top it all off, she cheats. A cheating ugly fucking whale!” Marcus screamed near Derek’s face and I could tell all of them were getting pissed at his words.

I felt my eyes watered and even though I wanted to run upstairs to my room and hide from everyone, I screamed back with as much strength as I could. “I didn’t fucking cheat on him! These are my friends, we are having a party!”

“Shut up, who–” Marcus was quickly cut off by someone punching him in the jaw. The punch quickly brought him down to his knees from how overwhelming and off guard it was and then the same person swung at him again, screaming, “Don’t you dare disrespect her!” The voice seemed familiar and I looked up and realized it was Nate.

PART TWO PART THREE

So today I’m going swimming for the first time in like 7 months. I have 3 bathing suits. Two of them are a two piece bikini. The other is a one piece but it has like slits down the side so it’s still revealing my stomach. last night I couldn’t stop thinking about how I was supposed to go swimming because I have small boobs and because of scoliosis my back is rather curved, and my thighs are just no. Plus um my stomach I literally look like I’m 6 months pregnant. And the people that I’m going with, two girls, who happen to be sizes 2 and 00. They are both younger than me.
its really like revealing yourself- having everybody see every single lump on your body, every scar, discoloration, every stretch mark. everything. every mole, beauty mark, tummy rolls etc.
Then I did some more thinking, and I decided yes I am overweight and I’m not the prettiest. But I’m not going to let society choose what bathing suit I wear. Because there is more to me then my scars and my fat. I am artistic I am sympathetic I am trying in life. I would do anything to help my family. I’m the type of friend that will never judge you about your beliefs. My personality is pretty okay honestly and that’s what actually matters. So if somebody is judging me based upon my appearance and they can literally go fuck themselves, because that makes them assholes. And I would never judge somebody on their size. So how dare you?
I have a yellow polka dot bikini two piece, a floral two piece bikini, and then I have a one piece that has slits down the side of it and most of the back is open. Normally I would wear a bikini top with my spandex shorts. But you know what fuck it tbh.
Im not going to let my weight interfere with one of my favorite activities- swimming.

flippie-the-floppy  asked:

By any chance do you have a master list?

Preferences

How He Is With Your Kids 

Your Wedding Dress

His Weird Turn On

How He Asks You To Be His Girlfriend

What You Wear To Meet His Family

Cute Text Messages

His Phone Background

Your First Born

You Tell Him You’re Pregnant

What You Wear On Your First Date

Your First Date

Sweet Moments

The Bathing Suit He Buys You

They Type of Boyfriend He is

Wedding Theme

Imagines

  • Cameron

Rumors

Let’s Give Them A Show

That Blade Shouldn’t Control You

  • Nash

Your Brother’s Friend

You’ve Got A Visitor

Stressed

4th of July

  • Taylor

Fight and Make up

Missing Daddy xx

Insecurity

  • Matt

Tease

Playing House

Distance

  • Jack J.

Boyfriend/Girlfriend Tag

Welcome Home

  • Jack G.

Let’s Take a Trip

Prom?

Admit It

Frat Parties and Fights

  • Jacob

It’s You

  • Sam Wilkinson

Boyfriend/Girlfriend Tag

Run Away 

Oblivion (smut)

  • Shawn

Body Shots (smut)

  • Aaron

Jealousy 

  • Sam Boggs

Terrible Things

Run Away

I’m Sorry (smut)

You’re so Nervous

Mixes

Jack Gilinsky

Sam Wilkinson

Edits

  • Empty Arenas

Flights

Paradise

  • Videos

Jack G x x

Jack J. x

Shawn x

Matt x

Cam x

  • Pictures

Tour Poster

Punk Edits

Fan Fictions

Our Next Chapter (Jack G.) 

Sequel (The Last Chapter)

Girl Like Me (Nash)