but, here are the reasons why i should // she makes me feel like the swollen desert sun is inside of me and like i am s h i n i n g g o l d e n through all my broken places. // she knows more of me than anyone else. // she’s always been all the best parts of me.
she is so beautiful and i have a dream where this is something i can say out loud, where she is something i can love out loud, where we are more than blacked out names on the family tree or cautionary tales.
this time, we walk the streets in daylight.
this time, the love is not a scarlet letter.
this time, it is a flag we will never let fall.
it is uncaged, unashamed, unrelenting.
she is the farthest thing from a secret
and i am the farthest thing from afraid.
every kiss doesn’t taste like a bullet,
my body isn’t full of exit wounds.
i think ppl need to be careful about saying “straight women fetishizing gay/bi men is JUST AS predatory as straight men fetishizing lesbian/bi women” like…. both of these are bad things, similar expressions of homophobia and entitlement, nasty as hell and inexcusable but like… acting like the exact same power dynamics are at play is kinda ridiculous and you have to accept that if you want a valuable discussion of these issues
I used to be the kind of person who whenever people told me they didn’t like girl groups, I was like, “Oh okay, I can respect your opinion,” but I am honestly at the point where I can’t do that anymore. I’m so tired of hearing my fave idols get slandered because someone made a judgement based off of two girl group songs they heard 10 years ago. If anyone said anything remotely bad about boy groups, those fans would lose their shit, but girl group stans are expected to sit there and take it. They have to listen to people calling their faves sluts, untalented, etc. They have to listen to people complain about sexy and cute concepts when boy groups can do bad boy concepts out the ass and not get any shit. They have to listen to people talk about how their faves “can’t dance” and how “annoying” their voices are. And if a girl group stan says anything about it, the rebuttal is always, “Well everyone is entitled to their own opinion :)).” I’m not respecting an opinion that is based off of poor judgement and ridicules women. I’m not respecting an opinion that is hypocritical and disrespectful to another human being. Female idols deserve respect and I’m so tired of having to fight for people to see how talented they are. I’m so tired of having to say this shit over and over just because people refuse to treat female idols like humans. Girl groups deserve so much better.