you know when you’re so far into a group and you have dedicated so much time to them and suddenly you cant even describe each member in words. like you know them so well but…. you dont. they’re so precious and important to you that you literally cannot find a single word in the dictionary that describes them


[ENG] 161017 B.A.P’s One Fine Day in Hawaii EP01 part 1

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Kpop rant

I wish some of these fans I see on this site would stop living in their dream land. Not to be aggressive or anything - dreams are cute and all, and as long as you’re not harming anyone I’m fine with it. But honestly something that just pisses me off is the way I see people worshiping the idols along with the Korean music industry like everything in Korea is just perfect. Obviously I do not mean every single overseas fan out there, but I’ve met quite a lot of people that just seem to believe that everything in their dream land Korea is just perfect.

News flash - it isn’t. This might sound like general bullshit, but honestly no one is perfect and neither are your idols. Like in any big group of people, there are assholes - people you would not like in real life. Most likely at least some of the idols you see are quite different in their real lives than what they are in front of a camera. There are homophobic people, sexist people, racist people as well as amazing beautiful people. Maybe I’m just a pessimistic person, but I think it’s healthy to know that not everything around you is perfect. I’m not accusing any particular idols, just pointing out that no, there’s no such things as perfect people. I wish people would just realize that their bias has done “bad” things in their life as well - they’ve fought, said hurtful things, been greedy and all other things every single person out there does as well. In a sense it’s nice how especially Korean male idols are presented as perfect gentlemen because they show good morals to their fans, but it’s also harmful how the Korean society along with us international fans hide the big issues behind the picture. Let’s take a few examples of just how wrong things can be.

Sexuality is a tender topic in Korea and worldwide - and even us, international fans, keep “shipping” members with each other but still deny the fact that some idols are most likely not straight, but they will never have the chance to come out. We will never know if the people we see every day are “hiding” their identity because they simply cannot show it to anyone. We really don’t know how comfortable these people feel in their skin, and maybe it’s not our business to even know.

Mental health is another issue that is just not talked about, but in reality it must be a huge issue considering the high suicide rate in Korea and just how long some trainees have to wait before debuting. Some train for 8 years like Jinho and some never even make it. Trainee life involves debts, suffering, sometimes even your parents will not support you through all the things you are going through. Some parents treat their trainee children as failures - because they were expecting their son to become a doctor or a lawyer. We just heard of WINNER’s Taehyun taking a break due to mental health issue, and it just makes me think of how many more idols there are that are suffering from similar issues. I’m not demanding them to say it out loud, but I really wish they are being treated. The fact that Agust D’s (Suga) “The Last” from his mixtape was a surprising revelation of mental health issues tells how rarely people talk about this. That yes, some of the idols you see have suffered from mental health issues. Some probably still do. And let me tell you from the point of a view of a person who suffers from an issue like this - life is not easy when your mind is not healthy. Life is a continuous fight to survive when your mind is like this.

If you ever make it to a debuting group, you most likely overwork yourself until the end. You don’t make as much money as western artists, at least not in the beginning. Life is hard, cruel and you’re basically in the bottom of the feeding chain of the entertainment industry. If you happen to have a good company with enough money and good sunbaes who help you, good for you. If you don’t, well too bad. Schedules are insane, (you get to sleep about 3 hours a night which I would never survive), including travelling from one place to another constantly even in the long hours of the night. Which then often leads to car accidents (do I even need to give examples?). Literally the worst thing is seeing the idol out of the hospital, about an hour after the accident, apologizing for the inconvenience and returning to work. Oh, you’re sick? Well too bad, fans are waiting.

If you’ve ever dreamed of dating a kpop-star - well, you probably shouldn’t. Their life is constantly monitored and followed, if not by their company, it’s by their fans and the stalkers, sasaengs, that call themselves fans for some reason. There’s always that one hater that comes and reveals bad stuff from an idol’s past. They post screenshots of conversations that have happened about 10 years ago and really their only goal is to hurt the idol. Hurt them bad. News of them dating will basically ruin their career because the hate they will receive is unbelievable. Yes, probably quite a lot of kpop idols have dated and still date (most likely other idols/celebrities), and we will never know of it because it is simply better that way. They give so much to us already, but still we expect them to let go of the last ounce of privacy they have? Remember Leeteuk’s grandparents’ and father’s funeral? Seeing the flashing lights made me want to puke. To think that one has to work through such sorrow in front of basically hundreds of cameras. Don’t people have any respect for these people that give their everything to us already? 

One could say that this is the prize one pays for being famous. I would say: does one really have to pay such prize? Does one’s privacy have to be taken away to such extent? It’s contradicting how we look at these idols both in and outside Korea. 

On one side they are basically gods, perfect and beautiful people who simply never make mistakes. 

And on the other side they are servants of the society, fighting to survive in the cruel industry, some barely surviving.

I’m not saying that I perfectly understand what I’m talking about. You can hate me too, if you even read until the end. I’m fine with it. What I’m trying to say is: just question the way you look at things for a second. I think it’s healthy to be realistic once in a while. Dream, but don’t let your dreams carry you away. Thinking kpop idols or the lives they live are perfect is only harming them more (because it encourages the way society already treats them). No, we can’t change Korean society, but we can at least take a moment to think about these things.