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🎶🎶🎶PSA! 🎶🎶🎶

Hey! So a lot of you guys who have been following me for a bit know that I’m in a bit of a tough spot in my life right now, and have been for a while now! As such, I’ve tried a few different ways of raising and saving money, and you all have been so incredibly helpful to me (And I’ll never be able to thank you all enough!)! 

🎶 Why? 

To fill in people who aren’t caught up on what’s been going on, I’m a queer young adult who has been living here in ATL for a while now in hopes of immigrating, though I lacked the funds. Things went bad a while back, and events happened that resulted in me planning to go back to canada for the sake of my mental health, amongst other things. It wasn’t long after, however, that I wound up being unable to live in my house in ATL any longer due to family and financial complications. In the few months i’ve been homeless, however, I’ve finally come to terms with what it is I really want to do; that thing being staying here in the US with my friends and family (I know, surprising right?)! 

It’s already basically confirmed that my mother will help me through the process of filing under her as a relative as long as I can be the one to get the money for it ($1,500).

Now that’s ultimately not a lot of money, but keeping in mind that I cant legally work, on top of being homeless (meaning my money is going towards other things besides immigration, such as living costs and trying to find a home with some of my also soon to be homeless friends) makes it very hard to save it. Furthermore, I would have to save all of this money before my 20th birthday in November because i only have until I’m 21 to do this! I literally can not stress the importance of that enough! 

🎶 What I’m offering! 

Now unlike some people on this website, I don’t have the talent to offer things like commissions or art rewards! However, for those who don’t know, I am a ukulele player! And with the instrument slowly gaining more and more popularity (Thanks 21p and SU!) I can offer online (over skype) lessons for beginners - intermediate learners  for the fair price of $25 /h! (That’s cheaper than you would pay for lessons at your local music store). 

That’s as many lessons as you want, all 1 hour each for only $25 learning the basics, chords, and songs without even having to leave the comfort of your bedroom! (cool!) 

I wish I could offer more, but unfortunately as far as my talents go, this is the only one that’s lesson worthy! 

🎶 Interested? 

Great! Shoot me an ask HERE, or feel free to shoot me an email at trashxe@gmail.com and we can set that up ASAP!

🎶 Additionally! 

Don’t want lessons but still want to donate? Awesome! People like you make the world go ‘round! Feel free to drop any donations over paypal to selbi.steeves@gmail.com !   

In the event that I Should raise more than what I initially needed, the remainder will go towards finding a home for my friends and I / misc. living costs!

Have any questions about where the money is going / progress / my story? Again, feel free to shoot me an ask HERE! 

Thank you all again so much, I don’t know where I would be without all of your help!  Please remember to signal boost this if you can! We all very much appreciate it! 

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When I was a little girl and my father would read me bedtime stories before I fell asleep, they were always about a poor girl who was in trouble and needed to be rescued or saved and needed the ‘hero of the story’ to come and do just that. And that’s how I thought life would be.

I thought that every bad thing that happened to me would be solved by the ‘hero of my story’ and for a while it was. When I fell and scraped my knees my father would pick me up and stop me from crying and put a band-aid on the scrape. When the boys would pick on me for wanting to play with them and then not being as good, the teachers would put an end to it by telling them I just needed more practice and then I’d be just as good as they were.

When I got older it was my boyfriend that would solve my problems and hold me when I was sad or crying or hurt and he would make it better. He would rescue me, save me, be the “hero of the story”. Life was just like the stories my father would read to me when I was a little girl.

Until it wasn’t. Until I was all alone and my boyfriend was no longer there to hold me because he was holding someone else and the teachers wouldn’t tell the people in my class off because I was old enough to stand up for myself and my father was too busy to even notice that I needed help.

But I couldn’t help myself. I didn’t know how. My whole life I had been told that someone else would save me, rescue me, be the “hero of the story” and then I got older and no one would and I didn’t know what to do about it. Because I had never been taught to help myself.

I had to teach myself.

And now, while being held by someone I love does help when I’m sad or hurt, I know that they can’t fix the problem for me and I know how to fix it for myself. Now, even though having someone stand up for me is a wonderful feeling, I know that I can’t have people do that for me all the time because someone is not going to always be there to do so and I need, and know how, to stand up for myself. Now when I get hurt I am capable of putting a band-aid on my own wound.

Although having someone look after me sometimes is an amazing thing, I know now not to rely on that person to save me, rescue me, be my hero.

I am the hero of my own story.

regarding the fact that the last two lll videos have been fluff with no obvious point… i understand why people might be upset, especially because we’ve been waiting for so long for this season and because no new characters, esp. poc, are being introduced. and honestly, i was also a bit frustrated when i clicked the link for today’s vid and saw under 2 minutes of the same thing we had last ep.

but when i think about it, i can’t be mad. not just because i happen to like the BALTH IN A BATH videos (and i know some people don’t, which is totally fine) but because this is classic ben. yes, we the fandom may want more plot to start off the second season—but in-world there is no second season, there is just ben’s life. and he’s exactly the type of person who would post months-old footage of him and balth messing around with a loofah and steamer-thing (may i remind the fandom of BIRDS?) rather than giving us actual plot/character development. it may annoy us, but that’s kind of the point.

anyways, there’s a lot of season to come, so hold tight, we’ll get everything we want pretty soon!

The Signs as BoM fandom things

Aries- Kevin’s Minion Kink

Taurus- Nic Rouleau Rhymes

Gemini- “I am disgusted, I’m revolted. I dedicated my entire life to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and this is the thanks I get?”

Cancer- Every dinner needs a sidekick

Leo- Connor trying to kiss Kevin during the transfer scene

Virgo- ChurchTarts

Libra- Avenue Q Parallels

Scorpio- *Shouts into the night* GAYYYYYY MORMOOOOOOONS

Sagittarius- “More to the point, why do you let bad things happen to me?”

Capricorn- Singing every part of Hello! by yourself

Aquarius- The Daddy’s Boy Video

Pisces- The Bee of Mormon

  • taylor:yeah some people think 13 is a bad number, very superstitious, but for me good things always happen on the 13th :)
  • *stage breaks* *gets trapped on stage* *inner ear piece doesn't work*
  • me:so what's the truth
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Hp aesthetic // Tom Marvolo Riddle //

 "I can make things move without touching them. I can make animals do what I want without training them. I can make bad things happen to people who are mean to me. I can make them hurt if I want to…I can speak to snakes too. They find me, they whisper to me"

I spilled an entire 20 oz. coffee all over myself and every inch of my kitchen this morning...

I mean…it EXPLODED.  And my arm was covered in it.  So now I smell like coffee. That’s better than smelling like some other things I guess lol.

I don’t know how I failed to mention this when I was talking about dropping oatmeal in my bra.

Food Plan Today:

Breakfast:  Butternut Squash Oatmeal with 2/3 cup Fage 0% and 1 large strawberry

Lunch: Romaine salad with olive, hard boiled egg, and light ranch dressing and a 6 inch chicken breast sub with all the veggies, no cheese, fat free honey mustard.

Snack:  Banana

Dinner:  Homemade Rice bowl with black beans and blackened chicken and romaine lettuce.

4th meal:  Probz Taco Bell

1 gallon of water.

I work until midnight tonight so lots of food is required.

a few years ago i went to wendys with the family and this group of guys came in and this one guy had a great butt and i mean a REALLY great butt and i fell over flat on my face and my nose was bleeding for like 10 minutes and they came over cause THEY WERE WORRIED ABOUT ME AND THE GUY WITH THE GREAT BUTT KISSED MY FOREHEAD