remember when your heart was breaking?
your love for them was a river
that did not wish to be crossed,
and you couldn’t imagine surviving the rapids.
remember when every time you heard their name
it felt like bitter cold waves hitting your chest?
fighting your emotions was like doing a backstroke
against the current,
speaking to them filled your lungs with
an unbreathable sadness.
yet you woke up today, warm and dry.
your heart felt solid,
toned by despair and acceptance.
you heard their name and it was no different than
a trickle of creek water over your toes.
accepting your emotions meant being carried downstream
until the opportunity to pull yourself out arose.
you breathed in deep and whispered aloud,
“remember when you thought
your heart was breaking?”
backstroke(≈26k words total) by aerialiste chapters: ¼ (7k words) rating: explicit relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester characters: Sam Winchester, Charlie Bradbury, Kali tags: Human Castiel, Fallen Angels, Veterinary Medicine, Porn with Feelings, Angst with a Happy Ending, Angst and Feels, Canon Divergence, Not Canon Compliant, Canon What Canon, Charlie Bradbury Lives, Galveston Island summary:
“Well, shit,” Dean said aloud into the empty room, eyes still closed. “Okay then.”
So Dean finally got his act together, and he and Cas are now officially doing…whatever this is. But Cas has a complicated past of his own, and in the words of a new friend, “When they think they’ve got you, you have to remember you’re worth getting.” It’s just that Dean has never in his life felt like something worth getting, much less keeping—although Castiel seems to want to try.
Hello I but a smol humble pornographer of the Lord have committed an act of fanfiction. Also this is a sequel to “Crawl” and picks up right where it left off, so if you haven’t read that before, you might want to. Also, it’s completely finished but I’ll post a chapter once a week, every Saturday for the next month—hope you like it, my lovelies! I maeked it for u.