“YN! That’s my son?!” He started to raise his voice now.
“Nathan stop.“Just then the doctor walked out.
"That was a close call, any longer and he would’ve suffocated from clogged airways. You guys need to be more careful.” The doctor informed us while flipping through his clipboard.
Nates head dropped down, he felt guilty.
“But he’s all set to go home now, he just need plenty of sleep for the next couple of days.” I nodded my head and followed him into the room.
“Baby, I’m so glad you’re okay!” I kissed his forehead and picked him up.
“I love you so much,” I let a few tears slip out. Nate was silent. He wouldn’t even look at me or Luke.
I followed Nate to the car and sat in the back with Luke. Soon We arrived at my house and I got out holding Lucas. Nate followed us to the door.
I walked in and went to Luke’s room. I dressed him in his favorite pjs and kissed his forehead good night. It was midnight.
“YN.” I heard Nate voice as I walked to the kitchen.
“That’s my son?” He asked pointing towards where Luke’s bedroom is. I nodded my head slowly.
“How come you never told me we had a child together?” He gave me a look of disgust and shook his head.
“Nate. Like I told you. You. Left. Me.”
“That doesn’t mean I wouldn’t be apart of Luke’s life YN, I missed the last three years of his life because of it?”
“Well don’t worry, because you’re not going to be part of it anytime soon.” I pushed myself up from the table and starting walking to my room.
“Why the hell not?!” He yelled coming after me.
“Nate. I don’t need you coming into his life and then just deciding he’s not good enough for you anymore and you walk out. He doesn’t need that. He’s doing just fine without you. I got it covered. I don’t need you screwing with his head.” I confessed turning around to face him. He was almost chest to chest with me.
“I don’t wanna be apart of his life, I want to be apart of both your lives, YN. Just let me please. Can we just give it one more chance?”
“Nathan, do you know how hard it is hearing your son ask why he doesn’t have a father? Do you know how hard it is to explain to him that his father didn’t love his mother anymore so he left? Do you know how hard it is to look at how sad your son is when he sees other family’s and fathers holding their child?! No, you don’t. You don’t understand half the shit he’s been through and he’s only three Nate. You need to just leave him alone. He doesn’t need anymore shit in his life.”
“YN.” Nate breathed, “Just let me try. Please just let me into his life. You don’t even need to tell him I’m his father. Just let me hang out with him. Let me try to fix this. Let us try to be a family again. Please.” Nate pleaded and sat on the edge of my bed.
I crossed my arms and thought about it.
“Nate, I’m giving you one chance, don’t mess it up with him. I mean it.” I pointed my finger towards him.
“I won’t lil mama. I promise you.” He smiled and got up to hug me. I stuck out my arm. I didn’t want his hugs.
“Well you can hang out with him tomorrow then. We were going to take a walk in the park.”
“Cool little mama, can’t wait to see you then.” He smiled as he back up towards the door. I walked him to the front door and leaned against the door frame.
“Bye YN.” He smiled and waved. The smile that melted my heart. Damnit Nathan. How can you just walk into my life and make me fall in love with you all over again.
I shut the front door and locked it. I walked to my room and laid down under the covers. I covered my face with my hands before I shut the light off.
The next morning.
“Momma! Momma! Nates here!” I woke up to Lucas jumping on my bed.
“Luke! Don’t wake her up!” I heard Nate whisper shout as he came crawling into my room.
“Nate? Luke?” I yawned as I rubbed my eyes.
“Oh hey YN.” Nate smiled as he awkwardly got up from the floor.
“What are you doing here?” I asked as I got out of my bed.
“It was a surprise before Luke ruined it.” He said in a silly voice as he picked Luke up and tickled him. Luke screeched as he got tickled. I shook my head and laughed as I walked out to the kitchen.
Nate and Luke followed closely behind. On the table were piles of pancakes and waffles. “Oh my gosh.” I covered my mouth seeing chocolate covered strawberries and candles lit.
“You did all of this?” I asked in disbelief.
“All for you lil mama.” He smiled. “I’ll have Luke back by 3pm okay?” I nodded my head and smiled at Luke.
“Have fun baby!” I waved to Luke. “I will,” Nate answered, I gave him a strange look. “You meant Lucas…righhttt.” He scratched the back of his neck and picked Lucas up. I saw the door shut behind them and I smiled to myself.
———-Nates Point Of View———-
“Hey buddy, wanna go to the park?” I asked Lucas as I put him down and held his hand. Lucas smiled at me and we walked down the street.
Soon we came across the park and I watched little man play for a while. He jumped around and slid down the slides.
“Nate!” Luke yelled to me. “What’s up buddy?” I wish he could call me dad. “Come up here with me!” I smiled at him and joined him at the top of the jungle gym.
“Why don’t I have a dad?” Luke asked me as he stared at other family’s.
“I don’t know buddy, anyone would be lucky to be your dad.” I pulled him into my lap and hugged him.
“What does your mom tell you about your dad?”
“She said he didn’t love her anymore so he left. But she said he’d love me even if he didn’t love her. I don’t know why he wouldn’t love her. She’s pretty and nice to me.” Luke looked me in the eyes.
“Don’t you think she’s pretty?” He asked me. I felt my face heat up. “Your mothers very beautiful.” I smiled and ruffled his hair.
“Well momma said that she loves daddy a lot and she wishes he’d come back. She misses him.” She still loves me?
“Lucas how do you know that?” I asked as he started to go down the slide. I followed closely behind him waiting to here his answer.
“Sometimes when I sleep with momma she starts crying at night. She says to me when she thinks I’m sleeping how much she loves me and wishes my dad would come back so I can have him.” He shrugged his shoulders not fully understanding what he said.
“You’re a smart kid.” I said in disbelief.
“Do you love my mom? You ask a lot of questions about her..” He asked with a wide smile.
“…Luke, you can’t tell your mom but I love her a lot. She’s the most beautiful women I’ve ever seen. I just wish she would let me show her that.” Luke looked at me in disgust.
“Ewe that’s gross.” He smiled and ran away from me. I chased after him and picked him up.
“Ready to go home?” I asked as he started to fall asleep in my arms.
“Yeah. I wanna see momma.” He mumbled. I put him in my arms so his head was resting on my shoulders.
It didn’t take long to walk home but Luke was snoring away in my ear.
I walked inside of YNS home and looked around. I don’t hear her anywhere? I walked to her bedroom with Luke and saw her sleeping on the bed.
She looked so beautiful.
I quietly placed Luke down next to her and headed to the kitchen.
————YNS point of view————-
I woke up to the sound of snores next to me. I opened my eyes to see Luke sleeping. I smiled at my beautiful baby and walked out to the kitchen.
“Hey lil mama.” He quickly looked at me and then back at the stove and then back at me, “nice bra.” He chuckled. I looked at my chest to see my tank top tucked into my bra. I blushed and pulled it down.
“What are you doing?” I asked as I jumped up onto the counter. Nate smiled at me and walked in between my legs.
“Cooking us dinner.” He smiled as his face neared mine and he slowly tried closing the gap in between us.
“Nate. I can’t.” I breathed as I put my hand on his chest. “I’m just grabbing a plate YN.” He laughed as he stepped back. I blushed again, something I did a lot around Nate.
He chuckled lightly and put his cooked dinner onto plates for us. I stayed on the counter and watched him.
“Nate? Why do you even want to be a family again?” He looked at me, stared for a few seconds then looked back to his pan.
“Why do I?” He asked looking at me. I shook my head yes.
“Well. Maybe because I never stopped loving you, I just thought about what’s best for you. You didn’t deserve a guy like me. Who’d never be home, you’d always worry about me and not put your life before mine. I didn’t want you to depend on me. I didn’t want you to stress over me. So I did what I thought was best and left. But then I saw you that day in the mall with Lucas. My heart shattered knowing you had a child. Part of me was wishing you weren’t married, and another part was happy for you. I wanted you though YN. You make me happy, I wanted you and that beautiful child of yours. I didn’t care if he wasn’t mine, but then I found out I was Luke’s father, I fell even more in love with you. I fell in love with him. I’m still in love with you.” He whispered the last part as he was standing in between my legs.
His hands stayed on my thighs as he looked into my eyes. He was still as beautiful as always. Nate slowly started leaning in. I closed my eyes as I waited for the feel of his lips. I could feel Nates breath ghosting over my lips.