Part 2!!! Sorry it took me so long!! Hope you like it!
Everyone adores Jim, just like you expected them too. You
had dressed him in a miniature version of his regular uniform, and several
ensigns had cooed at him as you walked.
“What do you want to eat, sweetheart?”
He looked up at you in shock, “I can pick?”
“Of course you can pick! If you are good, and eat
everything, I might be able to convince Bones to let us have some ice cream”
Jim’s eyes practically sparkled at the mention of ice cream,
“Can I have spaghetti, please?”
“Such good manners! Of course you can have some spaghetti!”
You plug the order into the replicator, making sure the
portion is child sized, “Do you want a meat ball?”
Jim gapped at you, “I can have spaghetti and a meatball?
Frank never lets me have that!”
You can feel your hatred for Frank almost double. You could
tell by the look on Jim’s face that Frank had taken away food as a punishment.
That was probably one of the reasons why Jim was so skinny.
“Of course you can have a meatball. What kind of juice would
Jim looked like he was about to cry over to prospect of
getting juice, immediately you crouch down, “What’s the matter? Did I say
something to upset you?”
Jim just sniffled and whipped his eyes. He then flung his
arms around your neck, hugging you as tightly as his little body could, “You’re
the best, Y/N! You’re the nicest grown-up ever!”
Tears build up in your own eyes at the thought that Jim had
never experienced kindness as a child that people had only ever been cruel to
him, and he had still turned out to be a ray of sunshine, “Thank you, Jimmy.
Now let’s yet the food to the table before it gets cold, okay?”
“I can help carry it. And … can I have apple juice?”
You smile, “Of course you can, sweetheart”
Once you get back to the table, most of the command crew is
already there. Sulu and Chekov are updating Spock on everything that had
happened while he was searching for a cure for Jim. Uhura was still down on the
plant and had sent a message saying that she would be spending the night down
there. Scotty was talking animatedly about one of the engineers setting a
console on fire while they were trying to fix some wiring.
“Hey Y/N” several people chorused
“This is Jimmy, he’s going to be joining us”
Chekov was the first one to greet their tiny captain,
“Hello! My name iz Pavel Chekov. You can call me Pavel”
“H-hello, Pavel” Jim stuttered, blushing under everyone’s
“It’s alright, lad. No need t’ be nervous. I’m Scotty”
“I’m Sulu. He’s right, we just want to get to know you, Jim”
“My name’s Jimmy, not Jim, Mr. Sulu. Only teachers call me
Jim” The little boy informed the helmsman before he dug into his dinner. You
try to hide a smile behind your glass, but you can tell by the look that Len
gives you that you aren’t very successful.
“Now that you are here, I would like to know when you intend
to inform Starfleet of the Captain’s predicament” Spock said turning to face
“I had no intention of informing Starfleet until after you
had a definite answer on whether or not this can be reversed” Your voice is
cool, daring one of the others to challenge your decision
Spock nodded, “I had assumed that would be your answer and
proceeded to inform Starfleet and Winona Kirk of the situation”
Everyone around you freezes, Bones turns to look at Spock, “Are
you out of your Vulcan mind?!?”
“I can assure you doctor …”
“You told him mother that he was a child again!! You idiot!
I can’t believe you! You know what she put him through, and you are just going
to hand him back to her!?!”
“Jim’s mother has the right to know what has occurred here”
Spock snapped, his face was still blank, but you could see that he was angry.
“You and your damn regulations” you snarl, “You did this to
him once too! Following your regulations you got his ship taken away from him,
and now Starfleet is going to try and take him away from us again!”
“STOP!!” Jimmy shout, “Stop fighting!!”
You turn to look at the four year old, but he has already
jumped up from the table and sprinted out of the mess hall.
“Len, we have to find him. He could get lot on the ship!”
“Y/N calm down, darlin’”
You whip back around, looking first at Spock and then at
your husband, “I was serious before. I will fight them for custody of Jim, and
I will leave Starfleet if I have too”
“Y/N no …”
You glance over at Pavel, “I’m sorry, sweetheart. I won’t
let him go back to Frank, I have to take care of him. You all would be fine
without me anyway”
“McCoy would kill us! He would hypo us to death! He wouldn’t
have Jim to hypo anymore and he would turn on the rest of us!!” Sulu joked
You chuckle softly and turn back to Leonard, “I’m going to
go look for him. See if I can talk to him about what’s going to happen”
Len nodded, gently pulling you into a quick kiss, “Go get
You quickly wave at everyone before leaving, throwing one
last glare at Spock before you turn around and begin your search.
You eventually find Jim in Sickbay, surprisingly. He is
curled up under the bio bed in the far corner with a nest of blankets and gowns
as padding against the cold floor. You crouch down quietly, the two of you just
watching each other, until finally Jim holds his arms out for you to pick him
You gently set Jim on your hip, “I’m sorry for yelling,
Jim nuzzles into your shoulder, leaning his forehead against
the side of your neck, “I don’t like t when you yell, it’s scary. Your scary
when you’re angry, Y/N”
“I know, and I really didn’t mean to scare you so much.
Spock did something really stupid, and it made me really angry”
“If you were angry, why didn’t you hit him? Frank hits me
whenever he gets angry”
“It makes you a bad person if you hit someone while you are
angry. It makes you no better than the bad guys that we fight. The only time it
is okay to hit someone is if you are protecting yourself. Okay?”
Jim nodded quietly, “okay. ‘m really sleepy now. Can I go to
“Sure, Jimmy. You get to stay in my quarters tonight”
Jim pulled back and looked at you, “What about Bones?”
“He is going to stay there too!”
Jim seemed pleased with your answer and let you carry him to
the Command Deck, where your room was. Len was already there, and he had
replicated a child’s bed and set it up in their spare room. The two rooms
shared a bathroom, so people could walk form your room, through the bathroom,
and into Jim’s new room. You and Len would replicate more furniture and toys
for Jim tomorrow, but for now everyone was exhausted.
“I can sleep in here?”
“Yes Jimmy. This is your new bed, and your new room. If you
need us all you have to do is walk through the bathroom and you will be in our
Jim nods sleepily. You help him get dressed in his pajamas
and you lay him in bed. He is asleep before his head even touches the pillow.
You and Len walk back into your room, change, and instantly
fall asleep as well.
You wake up when you hear the bathroom door swish open. Jim
is standing there, rubbing as his eyes.
“Jimmy? Are you alright?”
Jim sniffles softly, “I had a nightmare, ‘bout Frank”
You coo softly, “Come here, honey. You can sleep with me and
Len grunted softly when he felt Jim crawl over him. Jim
hesitantly settled between the two of you, cuddling into your chest. “I can
“Yeah, Jimmy. You can sleep here. Tomorrow I would like you
to tell me about your dream, but for now we can just go to sleep. How does that
“Good” Jim mumbled sleepily, “Night, Y/N, night Bones”
Len puts his arm oven Jim, curling his fingers into your
hip, cocooning the child in both of your arms. You know that Len will help you
fight for Jim, you know that if it were up to the two of you, Jim would never
even mention Frank again. But for now all you can do is provide comfort to the
child, you can give him the love that he deserves.
“Good night, boys”
Your boys, your husband and now someone who could call your
son. You will do anything to keep them safe. Winona and Starfleet will have to
get through you if they even want a chance at touching Jim.
AND THEN NEEDS TO PROVE HIMSELF WORTHY OF BEING GOOD.
BECAUSE HE’S A CHANGED MAN.
[[Like for real though people SERIOUSLY need to read up on some Pocketbooks THEY ARE A TREASURE TROVE OF BEAUTY.]]
CHEKOV WAS HARDCORE AND SUCH AN ANGSTY SELF-LOATHING KID.
I MEAN LOOK AT THIS YOUNG MAN.
CHEKOV IS IN IT TO WIN IT.
AND HE WILL KILL PEOPLE TO DO SO.
WITHOUT A SECOND THOUGHT.
SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST.
HE’S NOT STICKING AROUND FOR ANYBODY.
IF YOU’RE SCREWED, HE’LL USE IT AS COVER TO BOUNCE OUT.
AND PEOPLE WONDER WHY HE WAS SECURITY AND TACTICAL?
BECAUSE HE CAN MESS UP AN ENTIRE STATION IF IT MEANS HE LIVES.
HE’D EVEN LEAVE THE PRETTY LADIES BEHIND.
I MEAN THIS KID.
THIS KID BUILDS BOMBS AND PLANTS THEM EVERYWHERE.
EVEN ON HIMSELF.
HE DOESN’T EVEN TRUST HIS TEAMMATES.
THIS BOY IS FLYING SOLO.
NOBODY’S GONNA BRING HIM DOWN.
AND AFTER PEOPLE REALIZE THAT THEY HATE HIM.
AND DAMN IF THIS ISN’T THE MOMENT HIS TEACHERS ARE LIKE:
“YES. TACTICAL. BOY IS CREATIVE AND RESOURCEFUL AS FUCK ALL.”
And then after realizing just how badly he fucked everyone over, and how badly he fucked up the situation, he gets all angsty and self-loathing about how he’s a terrible person who shouldn’t even be in Starfleet because who in their right mind would toss lifelong friends into certain death to survive, who would even be that bloodthirsty and sacrificial to just massacre everyone on the off chance they would kill him, it’s so selfish and cowardly -
[[Like he literally has a panic attack when his friends come to console him after the whole class gets failed, and it’s so well written, like - I feel it.]]
And since this scenario was just a flashback chapter of being tested by Starfleet, like, he spends the rest of the fucking book trying to martyr himself because he was such a horrible person and he isn’t like that anymore he learned his lesson and HE JUST NEEDS TO PROVE THAT HE’S A GOOD PERSON FOR ONCE AND -
UGH HE’S JUST SUCH A FUCKING BRILLIANT AND LOVELY CHARACTER.
[[Seriously the deeply bitter and intensively self-reflecting Chekov was one of my absolute favorite things about the TOS!Fandom back in the days of Geocities and Tripod. Like, humble Chekov who wasn’t necessarily full of humility, but rather just never mentioned things that he could boast about, because he thought he wasn’t that great, it was everyone around him that was great. Or Chekov who would be very harsh in judgment on himself, just like quietly sitting in the cafeteria or something as if he’s enjoying his small bit of time to himself, but actually slaving over every single possible scenario he could think of in how he could have done things better if he’d been able to do them differently.
AND I MEAN IT REFLECTS IN THE NOVELIZATIONS OF THE KELVIN TIMELINE BOOKS TOO. Has anyone read those? Because they’re fucking fantastic. Even “Into Darkness”. I mean, shit, when he loses Amanda Grayson it’s all “an agonized Chekov ran back to the bridge without pausing for confirmation that he had failed, because there was no time, so he swept it away like he swept his hand over his console”, and when they’re describing his position it’s all “as Chief Tactical Officer, it was Chekov’s job to anticipate an enemy’s moves and put himself in their position, no matter how distasteful” like - that’s a 17 year old child, who has a fucking PhD and presumably passed some kind of maturity test to get into Starfleet. Baby’s gonna be all sorts of emotional and compartmentalized.
Rest In Peace Carrie Fisher our Princess Leia. You are now one with the force, so we may have lost you but you’ll never truly be gone. You inspired so many people thanks not only to your movies but your honesty in sharing your personal struggles.
2016 can bite it.
The Goblin King, precious baby Chekov, My Head of House, and now Princess Leia. On top of many others.