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I get to see my friend today who had her baby nearly 2 months ago, and I can’t wait ☺️
Damien’s also coming over today but no clue when…
I’m starting to get the very bad aches in my hips so when I walk either my left leg or right leg just goes and it feels sore to walk on 😣👎 and last night when I was trying to sleep my hips really started hurting to the point I couldn’t find a comfortable place to lay down so I had to sit up for an hour or so 👎😔

Before I was pregnant, I never took photos showing my stomach only when I got my belly piercing done and just that was my belly button. I was always self conscious of my body so the first photo was all I could find of what my body looked like before I was pregnant that showed how slim I was.
Once I look at these photos, I see how much I’ve grown! First photo I was self harming, hurting the people around me and pushing people away making my self more depressed. Than to 16 weeks I stopped the self harming but still had some sort of wall up that made me just not want people and hide…
28 weeks I’ve broken out of that wall, no self harming and I only feel fat because of my pregnancy not because I ever was what I thought!
And now 37 weeks I’m a much happier and fun person to be around *so I’ve gotten told* me and my mum are much closer and never fight anymore like we use too! I’m much closer to my family and know what is going on in my surroundings instead of being bunched in my room and not allow anybody to come in or talk to me because I go into bad situations and started harming myself because I was pushing away others…
The only thing now I’ve got to stop is the biting of my lips! My midwife says that’s my anxiety and depression because I haven’t self harmed I’ve turned to biting my lips when I don’t even notice I’m doing it.. Hopefully that will be dealt with soon and I won’t have to bite my lips just so I can keep going on with my day without bad thoughts ☺️⭐️