babies i miss you so much

My cat died yesterday.

For nearly thirteen years, he was my baby and my best friend and I am so incredibly heartbroken that he is gone.  His bravery and buoyant personality masked the gravity of his condition until the very end.  In the last twenty-four hours of his life, we learned that his heart, which was so big and loving and strong, was afflicted by a tumor, and that that cancer was spreading and metastasizing to his other organs.  In a small act of mercy, we were allowed time with him before the end.  I was given time to explain how happy he made me.  Time to pet him while he purred.  Time to kiss the silky fur beneath his ears once more.  Time to tell him just how much I love him (present tense, always present tense).  

I don’t know how to be anything but devastated.  I don’t know how the aching hole he left in my own heart will ever heal.  I don’t know many things; but I do know that he was loved and cherished and he lived a good life–spoiled and doted on, treasured.  I do know that he was happy.  I do know that he suffered very little.  I do know that he loved me.  I do know.  

In the spirit of maintaining normalcy as, perhaps, a way to begin to heal, I am going to continue trying to keep up with my daily #GradblrChallenge posts.  But I apologize in advance if I miss a day, or do not interact as much, or if I am less enthusiastic.  I’ve so enjoyed being a part of this community for the last few weeks and the accountability is valuable.  I do hope to continue–but if I don’t or can’t, my sincerest gratitude to everyone who I’ve interacted with. (Cc: @gradblrchallenge)

imagine having a baby with Aaron

• he would buy matching outfits for him and the baby

• he knew that you were restless because of the baby waking up all night so he would often take your place

• “don’t worry about it, love. I got it.”

• doing the choo choo train with the baby’s food

• constantly reminding you how thankful he is for you and the life you both created

• never wanting to give the baby up to the grandparents for the weekend because he would miss them too much

• always making sure people’s hands were clean before they held the baby

• like I’m not joking this dork would have a bottle of Germ-X in his pocket

• “babe, he/she made a stinky again!!!”

• #1 dad merch

• talking about how your kid will be so athletic just like their daddy

Drabble #77 "It's a Texas Thing"

I’m from the south and really enjoyed his one!!

Request: Can you do #77 with Jack plz

You couldn’t help the huge smile that spread across your face as you and your boyfriend Jack pulled up the long drive of your parents ranch house sitting on a hill surrounded by 10 acres of beauty. You may love living in London, but Texas would always be your home. Though he would never admit it, you could tell Jack wasn’t exactly exactly excited about staying here for a week but you were determined to make him see the beauty and fun of Texas. As soon as you open the car door your greeted by your mama running off the porch towards you and your dad slowly following “Y/N! Your early I thought I wasn’t going to see you until tonight! I’ve missed you so much baby” “I missed you too mama but I can’t breathe” you laugh as she lets you out of her death hug and smiles watching her walk to Jack whom is talking to your dad “you best not be badgering the boy now” your mom playfully hits you dad before taking Jack in an equally tight hug. “Come on now, I’ve just finished super I’m sure y'all are starving”
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After a large supper finished with fresh pecan pie and vanilla ice cream you take Jacks hand leading him outside, “Babe….it’s dark what are we doing?” Jack asks a bit nervous not quit knowing what to expect but he follows you to the edge of the back porch and sits beside you on the swing “Just watch the sky” just as you get the words out green lightning splices through the sky and you laugh as Jack jumps. “It’s heat lightening babe, we’re fine. We call it the Southern lights” you grin at your boyfriend before laying your head on his shoulder and he watches the sky in awe “I never knew watching lightning could be so calming and beautiful…it’s not even raining. We could never do this in London” you just chuckle and kiss his cheek “no you couldn’t, it’s a Texas thing

We may not get to see each other everyday. I am unable to hold you in my arms every night. But my heart knows that you are the one, and I will never let go.
MASTERLIST

As of: December 6, 2016

ETHAN

Netflix and chill?

“I’m coming over for cuddles and kisses.”

“I’m living every girls dream.”

Shopping

“I can make an exception for you.” (Halloween)

“Chillin’ by the fire.”

Date Night

“I don’t care if I get sick.”

“Chivalry is dead, but you’re still kinda cute.”

“I miss you so much.”

“I can’t believe I’m letting you do this.”

“But you’re so cute when you’re sleeping.”

“No hints, sorry.” (Christmas)

“Morning beautiful.”

“Yeah, it is my business.”

“Be the strong girl that I know you are.”

“I believe in you, and you should believe in yourself.”

“Baby Food Challenge.”

“I’m so glad I can finally call you mine.”

“I’m catching feelings.”

“I love every inch of your body.”

“I need to know that you’re okay.”

Babysitting

“I don’t like when we fight.”

“I hope you’re not mad at me.”

Day of Filming

“Come with us.”

“I have a huge surprise.”

GRAYSON

“You’re the best, you know that?”

“I’m here for you always. You know that.”

Shopping

“Who’s tryna get bit?” (Halloween)

“You should probably stay a couple more days.”

 “Don’t tease me like that.”

“I’ve gotta mark my territory.”

“But you know I like to spoil you.”

“C’mon, let’s go.”

Dear John

“Everyone is Going to Love You.” (Christmas)

“You didn’t tell me you were twins.”

“It’s just a movie.”

“It’s like you don’t even know who I am.”

Night of Relaxation

“I think it’s time to confirm everything.”

“I’m ready when you are.”

“Were you out with another guy?”

“You shouldn’t be scared to tell me things.”

“Girlfriend vs. Brother Challenge”

“I just couldn’t stop thinking about her.”

“I am so blessed I get to call you mine.”

“Are we having twins?”

“You like him, don’t you?”

Grayson fights your ex

“It was her boyfriend.”

“I wouldn’t miss it for the world.”

“I’m not going anywhere.”

“Happy birthday babe.”

“I made a mistake.”

“Back off my girl.”

BOTH

“Messy Trivia Challenge”

The Dizzy Challenge

5

Derek x Reader

Requested By @dontyouwishyouhadlove


You smiled at the little gift Derek had sent, it was a picture of the two of you, a few Hale siblings and cousins were squished in as well, you could never remember all their names. It was just like Derek to add to your hoard of photos, in fact you wondered if he sent you the pictures so they’d survive, he was forever bending or accidentally washing photos and bits of paper so it wouldn’t surprise you.

When you pulled up in the drive your front door swung open and your brother launched himself down the porch so he could yank open the door.

“I’ve missed you so much!” Scott sighed and you chuckled as you ruffled his hair.

“You saw me at gradation.” You chuckled and he rolled his eyes.

“Yeah and then we’ve had to wait for months so you could finish up there and come back home.” You groaned as he yanked you out of the car and into the house.

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Cute & Sleepy Daddy
  • Baby: *getting ready to leave early in the morning*
  • Daddy: *sleeping*
  • Baby: Aww he's so cute. *whispers* Muah. I'm gonna miss him 💕
  • Daddy: Princess?
  • Baby, startled: Oh! Yes daddy?
  • Daddy: I love you.
  • Baby: *all smiley and little now* I love you too daddy. Why are you awake so early? Was I making too much noise? Did you set any alarm or something?
  • Daddy: No, I woke up naturally. I guess I just really wanted to see your cute face before you go.
  • Baby: Aww, well go back to sleep daddy. I'll be back, I promise. I love you.
  • Daddy: I love you too princess. Be good.
Dear Anton

Dear Anton.

It’s been too long since I saw you. To be honest, I wanted to know you, I really did, and I miss you so much. I don’t like talking about you like you’re dead. It feels strange even now, and like something I’m being forced to accept.

I started a blog about you. It’s gotten fairly popular. I can’t help but to think, I wish I didn’t have this blog. I have all these followers because of you, I have people giving me messages, telling me they miss you too, and how they wish you weren’t dead, like I led them to some comfort and honestly I’m glad I can help them in the wake of your memory.

But that’s just it, Anton, the reason I have this blog is because you died. I wish you were still here, I wish it so much. It hurts every time I say or do something for you, and I need you back here.

I was just thinking, as I went for a walk in the snow, I’m so sorry you can’t see this anymore. I look outside as I’m riding in a car and music in my ears, and I think, “I am so goddamn happy to be alive.”

But then, I remember, what about those people that aren’t? You’re missing so much, every day, and I kept on living and seeing these things because I know if you aren’t here, someone else has to see them. You’re an intrepid, amazing, kind soul, and I am so sorry I couldn’t make it to your photo gallery.

Your photo gallery. It killed me, knowing I couldn’t make it. I’m so caught in the middle of school, keeping my grades up so maybe, just maybe I can make valedictorian so I can feel a bit better about myself and the way things are.

But that doesn’t matter. I feel as if I’m trying to talk myself up and I’m really not. I say “I miss you, I miss you” so much that it almost seems like it’s trying to form a moot point, a horse that’s long been beaten into the dust.

You’re a really amazing person. I think, if we were just trying to be basic, that’s what I’d say. You’re amazing. An amazing actor, photographer, person that I never got the privilege to meet, not really. What I had with you wasn’t enough to say I even remotely knew you.

I wish I could admit these things to anyone else. You know they won’t listen. I can barely listen myself. I’m trying to distance myself, you know, and it didn’t work. Actually, I’d be lying if I said I tried to distance myself completely.

So, we all decided to do this thing, giving you letters on your birthday, sending them out on helium balloons or posting them, or even just writing them, keeping them. I’m going to write a handwritten one too. It’ll probably be considerably shorter, but I’m sure you have enough letters on your plate, in your hands, right now.

It breaks my heart, what happened, and I wish more than anything that you were still here. God, I want to see another movie with the casting decision of Anton Yelchin for the lead role, the side role, any role at all.

I’ve loved so many things since you went away, like the sky and the snow, even though I’m horribly sick of it by now. Do you remember the way it looked when the sun hit it, or maybe snowflakes when the moonlight fell through the night air? It was like we were in a snowglobe.

I want to tell you so much about the world today. There are also things I don’t want to tell you, because a shit ton of bad things still happen and you don’t need to worry about those anymore. The sun comes out more and more each day, it seems, and the trees are starting to bud.

I wonder, what is it like for you now? Are you there, Anton? Ground control

I wish so much for you to be here with us today and now and here, so so very much. Happy birthday, and I hope the rest are happy too, even though they aren’t your birthday. I hope each day you had wasn’t harried or harsh on you, I hope you lived so many happy days with amazing people that love you so much.

I really do wonder what’s going on where you are. Is it pretty? Is it blank? Can you hear me? What can you see?

No, don’t answer that. I hope it’s so wonderful.

I wrote you a letter and buried it in the snow next to your grave. You know what I mean. I won’t bother to clarify. I hope you see it too.

I miss you so, so much, Anton, more than I can really explain.

I promise I will never forget you. 

Goodnight.

“With all the love that I possess,”

Jennifer

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I was going to draw something important but I ended up distracted…

But I enjoyed doing the distraction tho!! (^▽^)

Teru’s hair may have bothered me so much before but now I missed his old hair haha

@chocolatebunnyvee - you’re right…Teru’s hair looks a tempura shrimp! Thank you for the idea! It’s a blessing!!!