✍ proud of your boy ( alice’s goodbye to neville )
Alice had just finished her letter to Frank and it neatly rested on his pillow as he slumbered away. That left one more thing to do. She looked down at the scroll she was writing flecked with tears that fell from her eyes. She started ink on paper;
My darling baby boy,
I’m so sorry I’m not around to see you grow up to be the man you will become. I grew up with an absentee parent who at the end of the day forgot to be a father. I promised myself very young that if I had ever had children, I’d be there. I’d be around so much it’d be annoying. Which is why I think of so many moments I’m going to miss in your life. and it hurts.
I might never get to see you walk, or watch you ride your broomstick ( hopefully you haven’t inherited my flying skills but your father’s ), I’ll never see you off to Hogwarts or be there when you graduate. And I won’t be there on your wedding day to fuss over you. But I’ll be around Neville, where I am I’ll be watching. Watching you become the man I know you’re going to be. Your father and your grandmother will ensure that. I’m sure you’re going to do great things, things I can’t even fathom. You’ll be a hero in a way I wasn’t able.
I’ve made sure that arrangements have been made so you’re taken care of. Your Grandma Augusta is overbearing I know, but she means well. Give her a chance, one day she’ll surprise you I promise. Your Great Uncle Florean will be around to give you free ice cream whenever you go to Diagon Alley. Pace yourself, I’d hate for you to get cavities. And then there’s your dad. He’s the best person I know, the best thing that’s ever happened to me. He’s going to be an amazing father, just don’t be too hard on him when he makes mistakes. He’s trying his best.
As for me, my love. Know that I may not be there physically. But i’m here in your heart. I’ve left my journals and hopefully you’ll be able to glean who your old mum was. Maybe even the mistakes she’s made. I used to think that I could never love someone the way I love your father. But I love you more, it’s like I’ve left the best piece of myself behind in the world, only you’re better because you have the best pieces of your father too.
In time, I hope you’ll forgive me for leaving you.
I love you, Neville, I hope you grow up in a world far kinder than I did.