i feel like part of what makes me so uncomfortable with ot//ayur/i (beside from the obvious fact that it’s shipping a 15/16 year-old with a 19 year-old) is the fact that, as a 15 year-old gay kid, most of my gay friends are 18 and 19 years old
these are some of the people i’m closest too, emotionally and physically. i feel comfortable and safe sleeping in a bed with them, and cuddling, and having them do my makeup or braiding their hair or asking for help unzipping my dress. if i’m having a bad day, i go to them for help. if one of us is having dysphoria or is feeling unsure about labels, we talk about it. i know i can go to them with questions about relationships and sex and they’ll give me honest answers and advice, and i don’t have to worry about them mistaking our relationship for anything but friendship and mentorship and bonding over common experience. i can feel completely safe in asking them if my outfit is too revealing or where to get free condoms because i know that they would never, not even for a second, think of me in a sexual light.
but so, so many people can’t seem to understand this. because we’re both gay, and we both like hugs and they kiss me on the forehead when i’m feeling shitty, people assume that our relationship must be a sexual or romantic one. any sort of affection is twisted into something romantic, and it makes me feel so unsafe, because the entire reason our relationship is possible is because i know that they would never see me in that light. i’m like a little sibling to them. they teach me how to survive in this homophobic hellhole of a universe, and someday, i’ll pass on that knowledge to younger gay kids.
so when i see yu//rio being shipped with ot//abek, an older teenager who helped yu/ri/o out of a situation where he was being chased by terrifyingly obsessed fans, and is shown to be one of the only, if not the only, person y/uri/o considers a friend… to be honest, it scares me. in these two characters, i see a clear reflection of my own relationship with older gay teens. not only in the way that the two of them interact, but in the way that other people, and especially straight people, interpret it. i see it every time i rest my head on an older friend’s shoulder, or hold their hand while i cry. you can’t comprehend the idea that gay people have a community and a family that has nothing to do with sex, because that’s the only part of our relationships you’ve ever wanted to see. you only care about the relationships between gay people when you get something out of them too. so yeah, fuck that. let us have our friendships. they’ve never been yours to take.
idk, just my two cents. please don’t reblog if you’re just going to argue with me about my experiences. trust me, i know them better than you do. if you’re also lgbt and a minor, though, i’d be happy to hear your thoughts on the matter!