28 May 2017
After months of dwelling over an attachment, I recently piece myself together. And I’m happy to say that I am becoming happier without having the need to be pretentious about it. L E G I T HAPPINESS!!
If I’m going to detail how I did everything, a lot of people might say that I have handled the situation immaturely.
But who the hell they are to tell me what is a “proper way” of dealing with a broken heart?
Let me all remind you: I was PERSISTENTLY hurt not only with lies and humiliation but also with the questions of “am I NOT good ENOUGH?”, and “was it MY FAULT?” As I was not used to this kind of situation, these thoughts managed themselves to torture me every time I remember it.
And you know what’s the worst part? I cannot comfort myself because the solutions I came up with always received a negative response from a lot of people. Some people said I had to act like nothing happened– which is a total bullshit because I cannot pretend like nothing happened (when A LOT HAPPENED) just so people around me won’t feel uncomfortable. Why WOULD I do that? I was hurt, I was betrayed, and I was persistently lied to, and you THINK THAT’S OKAY? That’s bullshit. Why would I pretend like what he did to me was not UTTERLY offensive?
So my life advice to my future self and to all the people reading this who are in a similar situation: Do NOT be afraid to cut people off your life. Stop thinking about what other people will think if they found out that you did it, but think about YOURSELF. If you know that it will make you feel better, go ahead. It’s your life, you don’t need to conform to their standards. You have your own mechanism for dealing with your broken heart.