God Almighty is Compassionate and always seeks for an excuse to shower His Mercy. If you ask for His forgiveness, He will readily forgive you, and will cover up your blemishes and past deeds, so that no one will be able to know about them, and He will make you a man of great distinctions, a paragon of virtues and an image of His Attributes.
You are young and can adopt this path better. Do not worry about us,
for we are already a spent force. You can purify your soul easily as you
are closer to the world of divinity than we the old people.
Comparatively you have detenorated less but things are becoming worse
day by day. The more delay will make the matter more difficult. It is
difficult for an old man to be reformed, but a young man can be reformed
It is easier to reform thousands of young men than to reform an old
man. Therefore do not postpone the task of reform to old age. Begin this
work while you are still young. Follow the teachings of the Prophets.
This is the starting point.
The Prophets have shown us the way we should follow. While we are
unaware of it, the Prophets are familiar with the way of safety and
security. If you want safety, follow the way shown by them. Gradually
pay less and less attention to your desires.
You will not get the desired result immediately, but gradually you
can get rid of your egoism. One day all our desires will come to naught.
It is not in our interest to pay attention to them. Lasting is only
that which relates to Allah. The Qur'an says:
What is with you will come to an end, what is with Allah will remain. (Surah an-Nahl, 16:96)
Man has that ‘which is with you’ as well as that 'which is with
Allah’. All the things that keep your attention directed to yourselves,
are that 'which is with you’. All these things will vanish. But those
things that keep your attention directed to Allah, are lasting and