awesome doll

i’m in my prime,
not withering and old.
but i refuse to play
your wicked games any longer.

i know this tether is unbreakable,
but you make me feel like i’m interchangeable.
you drew a target on my heart,
when did this become fatal attraction?

i don’t have the strength,
the energy,
nor the patience
to be held hostage by your love.

so baby please don’t despair
when i say that
i’ve found the courage to
let you go.

you were never meant to be tied down in the first place.

—  believing i could love you was my mistake, c.j.n.

if people were elements,
then we are ice and fire.

your touch is frost upon my burning skin,
my breath melts your frozen heart.
your kiss is cool against my lips,
and my heat warms you all the way down
to the tips of your toes.

and although we could complement each other,
beckon the other away from the end of polarity
to come and meet in the middle,
too much of one

will eliminate the other.

—  and i’d never forgive myself if i caused your destruction, c.j.n.
Stoned love

Stop messing round with that fire,
Living like love is just a gun for hire,
Cos one moment its just messing round,
To your wiki saying she’s your spouse,
Oh but its not just girls,
Cos yeah one moment I was tearing off her blouse,
Now she says she’s living in my house,

Babe I know you said you’d never smoke pot,
Its just; that burned Like your first splif,
Now we just hanging around in the dark, you’re pale as a ghost.
Stop messing round now, cos am too stoned,
You’re know I can’t save you cos in this game am too gone,

She’s only seventeen, and thinks at sixteen am all there is,
But a degenerate kind, baby am definitely not what you need,
She wants to dance with devil, Mr brownstone is just grave,
Oh Y’know the drugs will drown her out, just too young,
Can’t believe this is my life, smoking and fucking in the back,

An open letter to recast owners

I’ve been debating with myself wether or not to post this because I’ve been away from the hobby and this ‘discourse’ for some time doing my own thing and generally trying to get my shit together but then someone had the bright idea of posting that delightful list and attempting to brand myself and some 700 people as bullies and stalkers. Not cool bro, not cool at all.

So this is my open letter to the recast owning community, particularly those like the admins of the above blog. I always welcome discourse, if you want to discuss any of this or any of my points then I more than welcome you to my inbox, it’s always open.

Gretings fellow doll lover,
The thing I really, really want to emphasis above all else is that we get it. We really do.
Who wouldn’t want something they’ve been wanting forever and a day for cheaper than usual? It’s only natural and we’re a generation (or two) of people who’ve been brought up to search for a bargain every chance we can. So we understand the temptation. But the issue of recasts vs supporting artists goes much deeper than just the price tag and that seems to be where the disconnect is, at least from what I’ve observed the last few years.

Allow me to make an analogy;
Imagine, if you will, that you’ve got yourself a job cleaning floors, be it for a bit of money on the side or your sole source of income.
You’ve got yourself all set up, you’ve bought the brooms, the dustpan, the garbage can and bags. Not to mention you bought all those cleaning chemicals which weren’t cheap at all. So you’ve come up with how much you charge your clients based on the cost of your equipment and you manage to squeeze in a little on top to cover your labour and time. You come up with what you consider a very fair price considering the time, effort and cost involved in your work. Sounds fair right?
Now imagine you’re cleaning a floor, you’ve done a good job, you could eat off that floor. Some guy comes along, tells you what a good job you’ve done and even picks up a piece of rubbish for you but the second your boss appears to pay you what you’re owed this other guy, we’ll call him Mr R quickly shows him the garbage can, telling your boss at length what a wonderful job has been done and he’ll only charge half of what you where asking for.
Oh! Well your boss loves that idea, a perfect floor for half the price! Who wouldn’t jump on that deal! So MR R leaves with the money, having done a tiny amount of work compared to you. You’re left out of pocket and with nothing to show for all that time and effort your poured into your work.
How would that make you feel? Maybe you could let it slide if it happened just once but imagine that Mr R keeps coming back, he’s got the money now to follow you to your next job and the one after that and so on after all.

I’m hoping it’s obvious where I’m going with this… on a simplified level that’s exactly what recasters do. They make money off the hard work, skill and all that time an artist pours into making dolls and deny those same artists potential sales by poaching customers with an artists own work. I don’t know about you but I’d find that so incredibly beyond galling if it were me in the artists shoes. And if your work is constantly being sold out from under you, why bother to continue?

That is the crux of why recasts are so harmful to the BJD world. Creating a BJD from scratch takes skill (something which might have entailed formal education and the debts that go with it), a hell of a lot of time and development and a lot of money sunk into it along the way for equipment and materials. Why should anyone sink all that into making dolls when someone else is going to come along, make the minimum amount of effort and make money off that artists hard work?
And if artists decide they’ve had enough and it’s just not worth their time to make dolls anymore then we ALL loose out. Even recast owners. Because what’s there going to be to recast if dolls aren’t being made in the first place?

There’s been many good posts made about the costs of producing dolls and I encourage and implore you to go look for them. Do some research on what’s involved in producing the dolls we all enjoy and you’ll come away informed and hopefully with a good sense of what it’s like for the artists who’s work we all covet.

So much of the narrative being used by blogs like bjdrecastpositive and the people behind them relies upon is attempting to paint anyone who disagrees with them as bullies and stalkers.  I can’t speak for all 700 people singled out on that list they complied but I know that I’ve never stalked anyone in my life (who even has the time or energy for that?) and I certainly don’t bully anyone. Being vocal and disagreeing with something someone posts publically is not bullying.
And once again I implore you to use your own common sense and take that list and posts like it for what it is; an attempt to shift focus away from the real issues at hand.
There’s some very impressive mental gymnastics going on (which we’ve seen before) comparing recast owners and their side of the 'debate’ to the struggles of the black community or the LGBTQA community among others, not to mention all that intersectionality but and I really must emphasise this as hard as it may be to hear it; recasts owners are not the victims, they are not being persecuted or discriminated against. That isn’t what being disagreed with in a debate is. That isn’t what having your decision to buy a fake doll called into question is.
And a decision is exactly what recast ownership is, with the exception of course of the poor people who get scammed, it is a conscious decision to put luxury wants above all else, regardless of whom it hurts. How ever someone wants to justify it to themselves on no level does deciding to buy a fake doll and having that called into question compare to being persecuted for your skin colour or sexuality. And I honestly cannot believe that’s even something I have to explain. The mind boggles.

Like I said at the beginning. I get it, I really do. None of us are pretending to be perfect or to have never made questionable decisions but the point is that we are all capable of looking back on our decisions, realising it was a mistake and doing the right thing. Be that by changing our ways or by making amends. Even some of the big name doll companies have made such journeys, Dollzone started out as a recast company, they decided to change their ways and they’ve since flourished into what they are today, likewise Fairyland fucked up pretty big by copying the designs for their steampunk weapons a year or two back but they realised they’d messed up and made it right. We are all constantly growing and learning. It’s part of life and learning from our mistakes is a fundamental thing we all share.

All I’m asking with this letter is to encourage recast owners and supporters to simply put themselves in someone else’s shoes, to think about the implications of buying fake dolls and to have a good hard look at their decision to do so. There are so many alternatives, be it layaways or this awesome list of dolls under $300 that @bluekitsune put together. The alternatives are there, you just need to look for them.

At our game this past Saturday I got to give my old team jersey to my superfan Morgan. Apparently made her year. She’s basically the best, and reminds me over and over how incredibly important it is that we have the privilege of being strong, athletic role models for little girls like her (and kids of all genders, frankly). What I wouldn’t have given to have had roller derby to go see when I was her age.

anonymous asked:

Winteriron prompt : AU bucky uses pick up lines on tony. Both are in their late twenties. Humour and Happy ending.

I hope you like this! I used this post for the pick up lines. I didn’t use them all, but I have another part in the works, (though this is a stand alone). You can find this on Ao3 here

Dazzle Me (You’re the Universe) 

“What about her over there?” Sam asks, gesturing towards the bar. Bucky doesn’t even look.

“Seriously Sam?” He’s exasperated by the whole conversation, honestly, and he aims a kick at Steve under the table as he carries on laughing.

They’ve been sat in the bar for nearly an hour, drinking and laughing and watching people on the dance-floor: and for the last twenty minutes, Sam has been trying to convince Bucky to talk to someone. All because Bucky had said that being an astrophysics student didn’t mean he couldn’t get himself a date if he wanted to.

“Yeah, man! I want proof.” Sam protests, a glint in his eye that Bucky knows all too well is a challenge – it’s had Nat bailing the three of them out of the campus lock-up before now.

“Buck’s always been good with the ladies, Sam.” Steve tells him, and shit, now there’s a smirk to go with that glint.

“Oh yeah?” Sam slides his gaze to the bar again. “Fourth from the right.” He says, grinning, and Bucky groans, giving in and turning to look, a not my type already balanced to be said, when he counts across and sees who Sam’s referring to.

The guy is exactly his type.

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I met SNL cast 4/8/17

Wow ok so after the chaos of the dress rehearsal, @myloveholtzy ran back to get her presents for Kate and I held our “spot” outside NBC. She had this awesome Nino doll and “Where’s Kellyanne” book and when Kate came out literally the crowd went batshit crazy. She saw the Nino doll and was shocked and came over and spent a lot of time with @myloveholtzy then took some pics with some other fans. I couldn’t get a pic with her this time because there were so many fans but that’s ok, I’m gonna try again soon!

Leslie came out but she only took a few pics on our side cuz Kate was still here and it was chaotic and people were trying to get pics with her so sadly I didn’t get a pic with her either

Aidy was such a sweetheart and stopping to take pics with literally everyone 

Also, one of the girls next to us spotted Coco from Zoey 101 (her name is Jessica Chaffin) which made our night because we weren’t expecting her at all lol

One of the girls there is a huge fan of Vanessa who was really happy to hear that and was super nice of course 

Melissa was so adorable and so nice and happy and she put her arm around me for the pic which I wasn’t expecting so that explains the awkward angle I took that pic with

Bobby looked tired when he came out but he was still really nice and stopped to take pics with us

Alex was talking to fans and was being really friendly and taking time to talk and take pics ahhhh

Steve Higgins was there too!! Ahh it was so cool seeing him 

Beck and Kyle came out and waved but didn’t stop for pics

Chris Kelly came out too and he was really nice and spent a lot of time talking to fans and when people asked him for pics, he said he doesn’t usually get this aww

Colin came out pretty late (a few minutes after @myloveholtzy left) lol he looked tired and didn’t stay for long

Anyways ignore my face I was super tired after the show so I look dumb but yea i love these people!!!! Hope this helped any of you who want to try and meet the cast someday!

Click here for my other SNL stories.

“You will be all that I seek
In a twisted lie
I would live inside you
Words will be all that I keep
In an open space
They would live inside you
We a- we a-are
We are all just dead air”

[BJD Makeup inspired]