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Moonage Daydream
David Bowie
Moonage Daydream

I’m an alligator, I’m a mama-papa coming for you
I’m the space invader, I’ll be a rock ‘n’ rollin’ bitch for you
Keep your mouth shut, 
you’re squawking like a pink monkey bird
And I’m busting up my brains for the words

Keep your 'lectric eye on me babe
Put your ray gun to my head
Press your space face close to mine, love
Freak out in a moonage daydream oh yeah!

Don’t fake it baby, lay the real thing on me
The church of man, love
Is such a holy place to be
Make me baby, make me know you really care
Make me jump into the air

Keep your 'lectric eye on me babe
Put your ray gun to my head
Press your space face close to mine, love
Freak out in a moonage daydream oh yeah! 

Keep your 'lectric eye on me babe
Put your ray gun to my head
Press your space face close to mine, love
Freak out in a moonage daydream oh!

Keep your 'lectric eye on me babe
Put your ray gun to my head
Press your space face close to mine, love
Freak out in a moonage daydream oh yeah! 

Freak out, far out, in out

Hooked on a Feeling │ Go All The Way │ Spirit in the Sky │ Moonage Daydream│Fooled Around and Fell in Love │I’m not in Love │ I Want You Back │ Come and Get Your Love │ Cherry Bomb │ Escape │ O-O-H Child │ Ain’t No Mountain High Enough

Argument between Haru and Makoto
Argument between Haru and Makoto

Makoto: If you truly want to stay as you are, I won’t say anything. But…If it’s just that you can’t find a dream for yourself, I…would want you to find one.

Haru: You want me to find one? Is that really something you can find just by looking for it?

Makoto: Well…

Haru: Forget it. I’m done talking about this.

Makoto: Wait.

Haru: Let go!

Makoto: Listen to me!

Haru: However many times I listen, it’s the same! You can’t find a dream just by looking for one! I’m fine with the way things are!

Makoto: You’re lying! The truth is, you want to find a dream, too! You should find that dream, and go flying into the outside world to follow it! You habe the ability to do that!

Haru: Even you’re talking like this? Where I swim and who I swim for…I’m free to decide that for myself! And I’m saying I’m fine with the way things are!

Makoto: But you’re not fine! You’re not fine! That’s why we’re all telling you this! Nagisa and Rei and Rin…And me…It’s because we all love you. Because we care about you. Why can’t you understand that?! We want you to find your dream…To look to the future…

Haru: All you ever do is meddle with everyone! Stop sticking your nose in everyone else’s business! A dream? A future? Well, what about yours? Stop going on about other people’s futures when you haven’t even decided your own! Well, say something.

Makoto: I have decided. I’m…going to a university in Tokyo. I meant to tell you sooner, but I just couldn’t find a way to say it. I…

Haru: Do whatever you want!

Makoto: Haru!

Soul-searching

Paint it Black was written by Brad Bucker & EugenieRoss-Leming, so I wasn’t really expecting a good episode. I didn’t hate it, but definitely the most remarkable thing was Dean’s confession.

(Thanks to cas-you-assbutt-dean-needs-you for being fast and awesome to post the audio here).

Dean starts his confession playing it cool and saying stuff like “it’s the women, Father.” He says he lets them think that they have more of a future than they do, and he even gives a name: Gina. Dean presents himself as a womanizer who sees two or maybe three girls at the same time, even on the same day. Dean says that it was something endless that is “making [him] sick.” The Father tells him to reflect on his transgression. He even hopes that Dean might have the beginning of some “serious soul-searching” when doing this exploration. In other words, he wants Dean to try to understand the reasons for his own behavior.

After talking about this (that may or may not have been how he really feels), Dean starts to talk about the real issues weighing on him. His biggest confession is that he doesn’t want to die, that he isn’t ready. He’s been expecting that to happen sooner or later, but now that he realizes his death might be closer than what he thought, he thinks that:

“There’s things, there’s… people… feelings that I… I wanna experience differently than I have before. Or maybe even for the first time.” 

Do you know what’s more important? Even the Father realized that the kind of feelings Dean was talking about are romantic because he suggested Gina as the person Dean could experience something different with. And what’s Dean’s answer when the Father says that? “Yeah. I’m just starting to think that… there’s more to it all than I thought.”

Of course the first name that came to my mind when Dean said that was Castiel. No doubt about it! But I know the last time Dean mentioned people (who love him, by the way), he was talking about Sam and Cas.

How can Dean experience feelings in a different way toward Sam? Easy! He could start to see Sam as his brother and not as his responsibility. He’s never done that. Since he was 4, taking care of Sammy, being Sammy’s father figure has been who Dean is. Maybe it’s time he does things differently.

How can Dean experience feelings in a different way toward Cas? Well, I seriously can’t think of any platonic, no-homo thing to say, so I’ll spit it out. Maybe the “serious soul-searching” he needs, the one the show’s been hinting at (with cake and Taylor Swift) includes Dean realizing that… yeah… maybe it’s time to let himself love and be loved for the first time. Maybe “there’s more to it all than [he] thought.” Maybe it’s time he finds his own Colette.