The One Where Its Not Jace
Pairing: Alec Lightwood x Reader
Summary: It had been years since you fell for Alec but lately it seemed like everyone was trying to get you two together. When Alec finally admits he likes you, you can’t manage to get the words out but things take a funny turn when you lose a bet during training.
A/N: ahhh alec fans, this ones for you 💝
“Alec?” you whisper, pushing his door open. A long creaking sound echoes does the hall way and you cringe as it continues to do so each inch you push the door open.
Alec appears in the doorway, “What are you doing here?” he asks, his face stuck in a frown.
“Isabelle said you wanted to see me?”
Alec looks at you, confused and you sigh.
Isabelle knew you had fallen head over heels for Alec the moment you had met him and once again you had fallen into one of her traps in which she tried to set you both up.
“Never mind,” you grumble, starting to walk away and Alec pulls you inside by your arm, shutting the door and pressing you against it. He holds a finger up to his lips.
“Someone’s coming,” he whispers as someone knocks on the door.
“Alec, you in there?” you hear Jace’s voice from the other side of the door and Alec relaxes, attempting to open the door before you shake your head.
“What?” he mouths the words.
“Jace can’t know I’m here,” you hiss and Alec raises a brow, crossing his arms over his chest, “Why?”
“He just can’t,” you whisper. You knew if Jace saw you he would make some stupid joke about you and Alec and then there was no way Alec wouldn’t catch on.
“I’m just getting changed,” Alec calls out, pushing you into his closet before opening his door.
“I thought I heard you talking to someone,” Jace states, looking around as Alec shakes his head.
“Figured y/n would be in here,” he turns to face Alec whose eyes widen, “Why would you think that?”
“Izzy told me.”
“Why would she think that?”
“I think she sent y/n here, another failed attempt I suppose.”
You feel your breathe hitch in your throat, “Please don’t ask, please don’t ask, please don’t ask,” you mumble to yourself.
“Failed attempt at what?”
Jace stares at Alec as though he’s oblivious, “You don’t know, do you?”
Jace sighs, flopping onto Alec’s bed, “The girl is totally in love with you.”
“No she’s not!” Alec laughs before Jace gives him a knowing look. Alec’s eyes travel towards his closet where you were standing.
“Well, do you like her back?” Jace asks, sitting up.
Alec swallows hard, “I- I, uhh-“
You push the closet open, not wanting to hear his answer and speed out the door, everything become a blur in your attempt to get away from them.
“Y/N,” you hear Alec’s heavy breathing behind you as you rush into your room, trying to shut your door but Alec is too strong.
He walks in, Jace following behind him.
“Get out!” you toss a pillow at them and they both dodge it, stifling laughter.
“Oh, just tell him already. It’s getting painful to watch,” Jace scoffs and you shake your head, “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Y/N…” Alec starts and you shake your head. You had seen the hesitation on his face when Jace had asked him about his feelings for you. You knew there was no way he felt the same.
“Alec, it’s not you that I like. It’s Jace,” you sigh and Jace’s eyes widen.
“That’s ridiculous,” he laughs and you shrug, “Well I guess you don’t feel the same way.”
“I’m dating Clary,” he reminds you.
“Oh, yeah. Well that’s too bad. I’m heart broken, really,” you inhale sharply, “Now can you both get out so I can cry myself to sleep.”
Alec and Jace awkwardly stumble out and you shut the door behind them, “Fuck,” you mumble as you fall back onto your bed, “Fuck, fuck, fuck.”
After a good hour of feeling sorry for yourself, you pull yourself up, pulling your clothes over your head and searching for pyjama’s so you could go to bed and just forget this night happened.
You spin around to find Alec in the doorway and he quickly puts a hand over his eyes. You scramble to pull a t-shirt and shorts on.
“It’s okay, you can look now,” you sigh and he looks at you embarrassedly.
“I just wanted to see if you were okay after what happened with Jace,” he smiles warmly, taking a seat on the edge of your bed.
You sit beside him, “I’ll live.”
“I didn’t even know you liked him. Is that why you didn’t want him to see us together? So he wouldn’t get the wrong idea?”
You nod slowly; it was an unintentional coincidence but it made a perfect cover story.
“So when – what – I mean, what exactly made you like him?”
You paused for a moment, thinking about all the things you liked about Alec instead, “I don’t know – it was just the moment I saw him. Trying to protect everyone - trying to do the right thing no matter how much it hurt him,” you pause, not wanting to say too much in fear of Alec realizing you were talking about him.
“Why didn’t you tell him sooner? Maybe if you had, it would’ve been you and not Clary.”
“I was too scared. Why would someone like that ever want someone like me?”
Alec stares at you, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear, “Hey,” he whispers softly, “Anyone would be lucky to have you love them.”
You shake your head.
“Trust me. It’s those who you don’t love that are unlucky. And they feel that pain every day.”
“Name one,” you laugh.
“Me,” he states, swallowing hard.
“This may be the stupidest thing I ever do, but I need to tell you this,” he begins, wringing his hands as he speaks, “I like you, like a lot, and I – I didn’t think to tell you. There’s been so much going on since Clary arrived, it never felt like the right time. But the same way you felt about Jace when you first saw him – that’s how I felt about you. And I can’t risk doing what you did. I don’t think I could stand seeing you with someone else without you knowing how I feel.”
You stare at him in awe and he begins to blush, “I get it if you don’t feel the same. I mean I know you don’t- I was there when you talked to Jace but just – just think about it. Think about me.”
Alec stands up abruptly, wiping his sweaty palms against his jeans as he starts to walk away before you can say another word.
You barely get any sleep and by the time it’s 5am you give and decide to go practice your combat skills rather than roll around in bed, half excited and half unsure of what to do. You wanted to tell Alec you felt the exact same way but for some reason the words just wouldn’t come out. Just like they’d never been able to.
“Hey,” you hear Alec’s voice as he catches up to you.
“Couldn’t sleep,” you mumble, rubbing your eyes, “Thought I’d get in some traininGLDKJA-AHHHH,” you yawn halfway through and Alec chuckles.
“In that?” he looks you up at down, and you feel embarrassed as you look down to see you’re still in your pyjamas. You didn’t think anyone would be awake; let alone Alec.
“I could still kick your ass in this,” you nudge him playfully.
“We’ll see,” he retorts before pausing, “Why don’t we make it interesting?”
“If I win – you let me take you out on a proper date; you give me a chance.”
“And if I win?”
“Well, that’s up to you,” he shrugs.
“Wait- what happens if you win?”
“You stay still for a minute,” you whisper.
“What does that mean?” he asks and you shrug, “You’ll see.”
Alec grimaces just thinking about it; you had kicked his ass on many occasions and he wondered if you were going to make him stay still through some really painful headlock or something.
You sparred for a good 20 minutes before you both started taking serious swings at each other but you of course won, knocking Alec on his ass and pinning him down despite him being fairly larger than you.
“Alright, alright,” he laughs as you straddle him, your sword at his neck. You retreat it, tossing it aside and Alec attempts to sit up.
You shake your head, “You lost.”
Alec nods, putting his head back on the floor before inhaling deeply and laying still.
You yourself were way too nervous but you couldn’t help yourself; you knew if not now, you would never be able to tell Alec how you felt.
Alec’s eyes widen as you move closer to his face, pressing your lips against his. He tangles his fingers in your hair and you let out a soft moan before he flips the two of you around, pinning you to the floor this time. As he pulls away, he hovers over you before his eyes widen and he stumbles backwards, landing on his ass.
“So much for staying still,” you laugh and Alec looks embarrassed.
“Why did you do that?”
“The one I like – it’s not Jace,” you laugh.
“Oh,” Alec grins at you and you pout, “Though, how badly did you really want to go on a date with me? You didn’t even try!”
Alec smirks at you, “I didn’t want to hurt you…”
“Oh really?” you giggle as he stands up, holding out a hand to help you up.
As you take it, he pulls you swiftly up and against his chest, wrapping his arms around your waist.
“I would never,” he whispers, pulling you back onto his lips.
“That’s too bad. If you had, you might be going on a date with me.”
“We can still go on a date,” he mumbles against your lips, “I don’t go out with losers,” you whisper back, smiling.
“If this is what the loser gets, I’ll lose every single time.”