(A/N): I LOVED THIS REQUEST SO MUCH AND I’VE BEEN DYING TO WRITE IT
Request: Hi! Bucky x reader where Bucky has to be touching reader all the time somehow? not dirty but just holding hands or his hand resting on her knee or something because he loves how soft her skin is and he counts her freckles when he’s anxious? or after a nightmare? hehe, something with those in there! I trust you with it. thank you!!
Bucky mindlessly reached over to (Y/N)’s hand, intertwining their fingers as he kept his eyes glued to Steve, who at the moment was trying to tell the team of Avengers about their upcoming mission. Without a word (Y/N) gently squeezes his hand, smiling softly when they noticed Bucky’s lips quirk up just a bit.
Bucky had a little habit of touching (Y/N) 24/7, literally 24/7. It didn’t matter if the team was in the middle of a press conference or on their way to a mission, if Bucky could even touch (Y/N) a bit he would. It could be the simple hand holding, perhaps an arm around their waist, a hand on their knee, more often than not something sweet and intimate and yet simple.
Bucky honestly couldn’t pinpoint why he needed to be touching (Y/N) all the time, it was almost like a physical need of his. If he couldn’t touch (Y/N) at least a bit most of the time he’d be thrown into a full blown panic attack, his heart would race, his breathing would shorten considerably, and he could barely even form a singular thought when he was like that. Thankfully (Y/N) was always there to calm Bucky down when he was like that, holding him closely until he was fine once again.
They had discovered this little problem when (Y/N) went on a rather rouge mission without telling Bucky. It was impromptu with Nat having only called (Y/N) in ten minutes before they were supposed to leave. (Y/N) of course accepted the mission, thinking that since Nat had described it as a rather easy mission that it would only take a couple of hours and since Bucky was on some new sleeping meds he should’ve slept through the night, oh how wrong (Y/N) was. But they didn’t know at the time that the mission would last a good few hours rather than the stated couple of hours and that Bucky’s medicine would stop working halfway through the night. So with a rather oblivious mindset (Y/N) set off, not even thinking of the consequence of their actions.
It only took an hour for Bucky to wake up, groggily reaching out to hold (Y/N) like he did whenever he could but when he was met with only cold sheets he jolted upright, his eyes already scanning around frantically for (Y/N) but they were nowhere in sight. Immediately his dread set in and he all but ripped the sheets from his body as he jumped up, throwing open the door to his room to look out into the hall, hoping (Y/N) had just gotten up to get a snack. But yet again Bucky was met only with the sheer dark of the tower, everyone else nestled soundly in their beds while he was up searching for a recently missing (Y/N).
“(Y/N)?” Bucky whispered to the dark, taking a hesitant step out into the hall. “(Y/N) are you here?” But there was no reply. Bucky gulped as he flicked the lights to his floor on, his heart damn near beating out of his chest when he found it empty.
Bucky’s first instinct was to panic, curl up on the floor and hyperventilate, while his other instinct was to try to figure this out logically rather than panic. Alas his first instinct one and he began to panic, his heart racing as he sunk to the floor in a puddle of worry. And there he would stay for a few hours until Steve, very concerned over the fact that Bucky hadn’t shown up for training would walk in and find his best friend nearly crying on the floor.
“Oh my god Bucky,” Steve had muttered as he rushed to Bucky’s side, placing a hand on his shoulder lightly. “What happened Buck? What’s going on-”
“Hey Bucky, sorry I’ve been gone, Nat called me in for a mission and-” (Y/N) stoped as the door to the elevators close behind them and as their eyes land on the scene unfolding. “Oh my god,” (Y/N) rushed to the men’s side, dropping to the floor beside the two. “What happened to him?”
“I don’t know, I just walked in here and I found him on the floor and then you walked in,”
“Shit,” (Y/N) muttered as they put a hand on Bucky’s arm, lightly shaking him. “Buck, Bucky, can you look at me?” (Y/N) whispered, hoping their soft tone would spur Bucky on enough to get him to look at them. Slowly, Bucky unfurled from himself and just as he had completely uncurled he was curling up once again, this time against (Y/N). He clung to them for dear life as he nuzzled his scruffy face into the crook of their neck, whimpering softly.
“Don’t do that,” Bucky had whispered between his heartbreaking little noises, “Ever again,” (Y/N) shared a look of confusion with Steve as they held Bucky tightly, one hand wrapped around his body while the other rested above his shoulders, their hand gently running through his strands of hair.
“What? Go on missions-”
“Don’t leave me…please,”
Since that moment (Y/N) had made sure to always be Bucky’s side, or at least when it was convenient and even if it wasn’t the two would find a way to make it work.
It had been an unexpectedly long mission, just like the one that had started all of this touchy feely business. The Avengers had taken an undercover mission, thinking that it would only take a few hours tops but it was seeming to stretch on for quite some time, nearly a whole day to be exact. The team was tired and hungry and most definitely grouchy and on edge, including Bucky too. Not only all that but they were also sleeping out in the forest, in the open for anyone to find them, and it was cold, freezing to be exact.
The team was all hunkered by their own respectable tree, curling in on themselves in an attempt to warm up. Bucky on the other hand was curled up beside (Y/N), smiling sleepily at them as they happily ran a hand through their hair. Without a single word Bucky lifts a hand to (Y/N)’s face, his pointer finger running along (Y/N)’s nose and cheeks softly. (Y/N) had discovered this was something Bucky did whenever he was anxious or nervous, somehow counting their freckles was always able to calm him down.
“You’re never going to count them all,” (Y/N) had whispered sleepily as they cracked one eye open to look at Bucky. “There’s too many,” Bucky merely smiled as he continued to mouth the number he was on, his finger gently tracing along (Y/N)’s skin as he did.
“I’m up to 45 right now,” He whispers, his eyes dropping with exhaustion. (Y/N) could only smile as they pressed a sleepy kiss to Bucky’s forehead, allowing their eye to close once again.
“Well, tell me when you reach 100,” (Y/N) muttered, allowing the feeling of Bucky’s soft touches to lull them to sleep.
Bucky had smile as (Y/N) finally drifted to sleep. He watched the way their chest evened out into a steady rise and fall, the way their lips parted slightly while they slept, how their breath would hit his hand when he’d drag it across their nose. He continued with his little counting game, lightly drifting his finger across (Y/N)’s skin with each freckle he counted. True to his word Bucky finished counting them all, smiling sleepily yet victoriously.
“100,” Bucky whispered in (Y/N)’s ear, quietly enough that it wouldn’t wake them.
No one even questioned the touches know, in the beginning perhaps they did. After all, it was a bit strange to see the deadliest assassin in history curled up on (Y/N)’s lap, more than content to just nuzzle and burrow against them like some cat of sorts. And while it had been a strange sight at first the Avengers were more than used to it now, in fact it was now strange if (Y/N) was seen without Bucky clinging to them in some kind of way. That’s why Steve didn’t even question it when out of the corner of his eye he saw Bucky reach over and take (Y/N)’s hand. Rather than comment on the unnecessary pda he let it happen, even smiling a bit himself when he saw the way Bucky’s lips quirked up at the small amount of contact.
Steve is content managing his own coffee shop and life is full with friends and neighbors. But an owner of big coffee chain pressures him to sell and someone from his past reappears. And now Steve needs to fight a bully, an ex, and himself to get his happy ending.
Steve Rogers should be happy - he has a job leading the new team of Avengers, friends, and a steady girlfriend. He works well with Tony Stark, who has retired as Iron Man and provides financial backing and technical support for the team. Steve’s life becomes complicated when the Avengers encounter a mysterious supervillain crimewave, Helmut Zemo wants to legislate the Avengers out of existence, and his relationship with Sharon begins to fall apart. Then, after the death of a close friend, Steve begins to question if he is truly happy.
The Avengers go undercover to retrieve stolen technology at a shady conference in Madripoor. Confronted by his past as a weapons dealer, Tony wonders if he’s a good person after all. Steve does not trust Tony’s new best friend, the flirty Kashmir Vennema. And the rest of the team just wants to wrap up the mission, even if Scott is having the time of his life.
Can the team pull together in time to find the thieves or has Tony walked into a trap he can’t escape?
The supervillains of New York decide to set up Tony and Steve on a date in hopes that they’ll start dating. The Avengers would like them to figure it out. But Tony and Steve think all the weird crime is just another day’s work. What will it take for them to finally see the light?
Present day Tony tells Steve that Steve wouldn’t like the college version of Tony. An alternative Steve, living in a dystopian future, is sent back to the past to stop the death of a young Tony Stark at MIT. He doesn’t know what he’s going to find but he’s going to try his best to save Tony.
Young Avengers, Avengers Academy, and the Runaways
Something that always bothered me about the dynamic between these groups is how they were treated differently in spite of being the same status as superheroes. For example, the Young Avengers seem to have been privileged in treatment compared to the Runaways and Avengers Academy. I never understood this at all.
What I mean is the adults treat the AA and the Pride kids like crap in spite of accomplishing things that neither the Avengers or Young Avengers accomplished. Okay, in Runaways Vol. 1, the kids were treated as fugitives…for taking out a criminal empire that only gained prominence because of the lack of oversight by the super hero community. Instead of giving the kids kudos for a job well-done, the Avengers opted to put them in foster homes and condemned for their behavior(Of course, Spider-man was not around for that because it would have been really hypocritical for him to admonish them). Meanwhile, the Young Avengers just group up to stop Kang the Conqueror and while the Avengers initially start putting them down, they eventually accepted them into the mold…for reasons Hell, the one normal person in the group(Kate Bishop) was even given the codename of long term Avenger so it was never a matter of safety.
Of course, the Young Avengers did not have stand-offish people like Gert or selfish assholes like Chase in their group, I found it highly hypocritical for them to reward a group for endangering the timeline in order to have their way in spite most of the members not really being invested in the occurrence(they pretty much joined up in order to help a friend and that is all) while the Runaways(Pride kids…whatever) had every reason to stop the Pride as it was their responsibility to or else the world itself would have ended. Then after the Pride fell, they continued heroing(in spite of resistance from Chase and Gert) solely because it was their responsibility to since they were the ones who created the vacuum in power in California to begin with. They have a reason to be heroes: to undo the crimes that their parents committed. Of course, their irrational distrust for all adults and their juvenile generalizations that all adults were out to get them may have turned the Avengers off(Chase is like one of those asshole kids that think super heroes are dumb and is just irritating sometimes), but Doctor Strange had to look at Nico and see the potential she had. Quicksilver and Scarlet Witch had to sympathize with Molly Hayes because they come from the same exact scenario(Evil Parents and good offspring). Why were the Avengers so resistant to the idea of training these kids or accepting them, but give the Young Avengers every resource they have? Hell, they even get to visit Avengers Mansion while the Runaways lived under tar pits and abandoned homes!
Then we get their treatment of the Avengers Academy kids. Anybody who has read that series knows that the main Avengers were straight-up assholes to the Academy kids in spite of knowing that they were tormented youth. These kids enrolled the Academy with the promise to be the next vanguard of the Avengers name, but on one hand, they just give the Young Avengers the mantle without so much of a second thought. The Young Avengers did not train nor were the trained by the Avengers. They were not questioned as severely as the Academy kids about motives and were not at the front lines of battles like them. They just literally picked up costumes and/or weapons and took care of business. There was hardly any adult supervision unlike Academy where the biggest Avenger names such as Hank Pym, Quicksilver, and Tigra were their teachers. They even had Spider-man teach the kids who was surprisingly a really good teacher as he trusted them to overcome their weaknesses in battle. But the Young Avengers screw up twice on nearly monumental levels and they don’t so much as get a suggestion? Even the darker and edgier counterpart, the Ultimates, are so much dicks to their successors. Captain America even allowed Miles Morales to fight alongside him in the Civil War. Iron Man publicly supported the New-Ultimates.
To me, the Avengers Academy and the Runaways are the tormented kids. The outcasts with crooked parents and the kids that experienced abuse(sexual or otherwise) and torture are given grief and obviousness from their adult peers. The Young Avengers are the kids with exceptional upbringings. The Runaways were raised by criminals and often have to deal with the consequences of that. The Avengers Academy kids each had their issues as well as each of them except Jeanne experiencing some bout of PTSD due to either Norman Osborn torturing them or a previous occurrence. The Young Avengers are comprised of a New York socialite rich girl whose mom did a lot charities with no powers to speak of(she was a sexual assault survivor, but so was Stryker of the Avengers Academy, the only difference is that Kate did not let the experience impact her negatively and got the help she needed because she had money while Striker ignored it and let it grate at him), a boy who has a proud if not forgotten legacy(Eli being black in America…okay fine I will give him a pass), a gay couple who had otherwise great parents who raised them in spite of either of them being their true parents, and the daughter of a superhero…who died and then came back just to watch his daughter die. It is funny because while the Young Avengers were partying and having a great time because they saved the multiverse, the most prominent members of the other two were forced to fight each other to death in a Battle Royale rip-off. Even now, the Young Avengers are going to become the main focus of Original Sin while the survivors of the battle royale rip-off are slowly becoming evil. It is as if Marvel is stating that tormented youth are a lost cause and in no way can be heroes, but rich and/or well to do kids can be rewarded everything because they wish it.