aubrey rambles

  1. somehow I’m lucky enough to have found a roommate who’s like one of the chillest, most easygoing people I’ve had the fortune of knowing
  2. somehow I ended up getting really lucky enough to be seeing a guy who actually seems to enjoy being around me, in spite of my neurosis, awkwardness, and general tendency to be a human trainwreck

seriously. how did fate end up smiling on me like this?

Bones in a nutshell

I know I’m always preasing this show basically (except for like the 1% of the times when I try to make objective observations - and that’s why I’m surprised when people get mad at me saying I complain all the time, ehm.) but the latest ep really hit me in the feels. I mean, FOX praised the ep a lot BUT I had my reservations. Not because I didn’t believe they could give me another favourite episode in s11, but because sometimes it has happened that FOX tried to oversell something just because they needed the ratings. This being said, 11x18 is legit one of my favourite episodes EVER. I’ve already said I would show this ep around to people just to make them watch the show if I could, but - really - it holds together all my favourite things and I was particularly impressed with the lines they used to make the characters reply to the “what do you want to be when you grow up” question. Because it’s truly who they are. Booth is the selfless man, so brave, so committed to his values, the man who could never hurt his family/children. Or even the strangers around him. Booth has always been SO desperate to give people something, without even thinking if he would actually get something back. He did that with the vets, with his friends, with Sweets, with Rebecca, with Parker, with Jared (!!!) and even with Brennan. He gave himself up completely to her - even if he did know that she wasn’t ready to love him back. But he really always wanted Brennan to find happiness. He really did. And that might have been a night out at the diner having a beer in the early stages or a shoulder to cry on or even someone to hug when she was scared (remember s2?). Brennan, on the other hand, only found her purpose when she became a mother and a wife. And I mean it in a completely good way. If you really think about it, it’s true. She had a shitty life in the early years, but then - as she said herself - nothing ever stopped her. And she was also helped by Mother Nature because she also had the looks, not only the brains. She was successful, she spoke a shit tons of languages, she was a writer and a scientist. She was a genius. Men would fall at her feet in a sec if she only wanted to. She could sleep with two men at the same time. But still, money or looks don’t buy you happiness. A big part of Brennan was missing until she found Booth. So now, she fully realized herself by being a mother. Because yes, you can love a man, but the love you give to your children is selfless. She could also finally give a child what she never had from her parents. A normal life. Brennan’s life has been pretty extraordinary, but she didn’t even know that what she needed the most was something normal.

“I want to be someone who never stops looking” The 3rd line I was the most impressed was Hodgins’. Because who says that you have to change who you are completely to have character development? Hodgins imo had one of the best developments on the show, but he never really changed over the 11 seasons. And that is a great thing. He learned to be less angry (and that applies both to this pre and post injury life.), but that’s not all that matters. Hodgins is a great person and a great husband and a great father but his work makes him who he is. This particular line made me appreciate the paralysis storyline even more. At the end of the day, it doesn’t even matter if he walks or not. Nothing can stop him. Nothing can stop Hodgins from being a man who is supposed to keep looking in order to be happy. And now he knows. His storyline has been imo one of the best of the entire series and if you notice his beard is gone in the next episode. They found an exceptional way of closing this storyarc. The writers made the character’s justice and I’m really happy.

Aubrey is a kid and I love him so much. He had a pretty shitty life too, but that didn’t stop him from being happy and dream big. Who cares, we all need a bit of positivity in our life. Angela is just Angela. If I had to pick a character to represent the heart of the show, it would be her. Beauty is the key. Angela brings joy in a place full of gloom and darkness and she does that through art and beauty. She is beautiful. This doesn’t mean that she doesn’t make mistakes, but she tries her best to always be positive and loving and selfless. She puts her family and her friends first. If you really think about it, Angela and Booth are very simiiar in the way they act around their loved ones. Every character on the show shares some traits and that’s probably they really look like a family. And then there’s Cam. So private, so committed, a great boss. Cam is basically the heart of the team when they are on the job. She’s always been. Do you remember when she was on the verge of tears when the GD was around? She was hurting her people. Yup. Her people. I don’think they would make such a great team if Cam wasn’t around. Cam is the Jeffersonian.

And then: Sweets, Zack, Vincent. They all left something to the other characters. Life lessons. No matter how happy they might be, they catch serial killers and murderers for a living. I don’t want to say they are destined to be unhappy but at the end of the day, they have to sacrifice themselves for their jobs. And they do. And this is a beatiful metaphor when it comes to the show too. Bones is apparently a show about death, but if you look at it closely, it’s more a show about life.

I told my daughter tonight…

Me:  Guess what Mom is going to do?  She is going to stay off of tumblr and read an actual book she can hold on to and turn the pages instead of fanfic.

Daughter:  Okay Mom.  But if you don’t I get to pinch you.

Me: (Thinks long and hard about the probability of my staying off tumblr and not reading fanfic) Um…nope no dice…think of something less painful. 

Daughter:  Okay fine what do you have in mind?

Me:  How you throw stuffed animals at me instead.

Daughter:  How about you pay me $5 if you don’t. 

Me:  Alright.  It’s a deal…(five minutes later, hands daughter a $5 bill)…I may as well give this to you now.  I’ll give you $5 more tomorrow to never mention my lack of willpower to anyone. 

Daughter:  Sweet.  Your secret is safe with me.  Can we do this again tomorrow night? 

Me:  No honey.  No we can not.  I do not need fanfic to bankrupt me.  We need to eat and stuff.  

Daughter:  Alright.  Whatever you say Mom.  I’ll see you tomorrow night. 

*I cloned my sarcastic personality.  I am in so much trouble.

I think we need to change how the world views “nerds”

I had the following conversation with someone today…someone I should be close to but this conversation just confirms why I am not.

A little prefacing…the back of my car is covered, and I mean convered, in bumper stickers that represent the things in my life that I am passionate about.  Here is a picture…or two…or maybe four…

That is not even all of them…I have since put more on…and I have 30 more coming.  I am not even ashamed.  I am hoping that one day someone will start a conversation with me in a parking lot and I can sing the praises of all of these things that I love…okay back to my story.  Here is the conversation that took place.

This person who shall not be named:  Seriously, why do you have all those bumper stickers on your car.  They really are an eye sore.  I don’t like them sitting out in front of my house.  Is it a cancer thing?  (At this point I should probably tell you that I have thyroid cancer and I didn’t put the bumper stickers on until after my diagnosis.)

Me:  Um…no.  They have nothing to do with the cancer.  They aren’t a cancer thing.  They are a nerd thing.  I am just passionate about things and I want to show it off.  

This person:  A nerd thing?  Why would anyone want to be a nerd? 

Me:  Being a nerd just means that you are passionate about something.  I am passionate about being a nerd in fact.

TP:  (Scoffs)  Being a nerd is not about being passionate.  That’s not how the world views it. 

Me:  Well then I guess we need to change the way the world views it.

TP:  Good luck with that.  I think it is a cancer thing.  The cancer has scrambled your brain.  

Me:  (Under my breath)  Yep I am totally adopted.  (Which I actually am and this conversation just proves it)