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Unsung

Fandom: Deltora Quest
Summary: As peace settles upon Deltora, Marilen is tasked with recording the life of Anna of Del. Pre-canon, mid-canon, post-canon.
Characters: Marilen, Anna, Jasmine, Lief, Sharn, Doom, Barda.
Pairings: Jarred/Anna, Lief/Jasmine
Notes: I was working on a Jasmine-and-Doom prompt, but I couldn’t stop thinking about Anna. So, here is a non-linear story with several stories bundled up inside it. AO3. FFN


The hour was late, and her hand was sore, but Marilen did not stop her work. Words seemed to pour from her mind and onto the page. The steady breathing from Josef’s crib grounded her as she wrote. She had known that becoming the palace librarian would be a great task, and that recording in the Annals would be part of her life’s work. And she knew that some stories were of more importance than others, even if they did not outwardly appear to be so.

She took a moment to look upon the beautiful face of her sleeping son. She preferred to work with Josef in the room. After such a long time of war and death, it was hard to focus without knowing her son was safe. Losing him was unimaginable. But that was why the Annals were important to her; so she could record the stories that she might never truly understand. She turned the pages to the beginning of the particular account, and looked at the section title written in her own flourishing script:

Anna of Del

Four people who Marilen loved had approached her to request that she commemorate this woman into the Annals. She had spoken with them many times; listened to their stories, and she had taken pages of notes. Although she had never met the woman, and she never would, Marilen felt a connection to Anna that was as fine and lovely as Toran thread.

With a sigh, she set her pen down and shook out her hand. Researching a figure who was not widely known was a strange task. Her head was awash with little facts and stories and the emotions of the people who loved Anna enough to wish to see her immortalized seemed to always linger.

It had been Jasmine, of course,  who had come to her first.

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anonymous asked:

Random question but why do you think people hate Ronaldo? Honestly, I don't hate him but he's not my fave human.

A lot of people say they hate Ronaldo because he’s “annoying” or “cringey”, and I can see where they’re coming from, despite me liking the character myself.

However, I have a theory.

A lot of the people who hate Ronaldo as much as they do, actually hate him because he reminds them too much of themselves. I mean, he’s a blogger that’s incredibly attached to his blog, he’s a theorist, sometimes he can be a selfish guilt-tripping asshole, and often makes blatantly immoral decisions for the sake of feeling morally superior and defending his theories.

…Doesn’t that sound like a certain fandom we all know?

Reblog this if you play with sideblogs!

I have noticed a startling number of people who make doing so difficult, though I think it is entirely on accident, so a little reassurance is in order!

I PLAY WITH SIDEBLOGS. I enjoy your muse even if it comes attached to a blog that isn’t a primary. Promise. Adore you all the way.

When you have to go out into public after finishing an awesome book and you have to pretend as if it didn’t impact you a ridiculous amount:

Originally posted by aestheticbiitch

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“WHEN I FELL INTO THE VOID, MY WHOLE BODY WAS DEFORMED… 

FOR A WHILE, I WAS… SORT OF FUSED WITH EVERYTHING I FELL INSIDE WITH… THAT INCLUDED MY CLOTHES. 

THIS SHIRT ISN’T THE SAME BECAUSE IT WAS GIVEN TO ME LONG AFTER MY FALL… 

BUT I CAN’T REALLY BRING MYSELF TO GET RID OF MY COAT, EVEN IF IT’S… MESSED UP AS MUCH AS MY BODY IS. 

BESIDES… IT MATCHES ME WELL, DOESN’T IT? 

HAHAHA….HA…” 

-Gaster 

I was nursing my son this evening on the couch when I noticed his eyes start dozing off. My first thought was “Let’s go lay down, baby”. Normally when he gets sleepy, we go lay down and I leave him in his room for a nap. But instead, tonight I decided to hold him and let him sleep in my arms. Looking at his tired eyes slowly close, I couldn’t remember the last time I let him nap in my arms. It was at that moment my heart sunk. How could I not remember when I last let my baby stay sleeping in his most warm, safe, favorite spot? My first born, my only son, my little love, I’ll let you stay right here. Because I don’t want to pick you up, put you down, and never pick you up again. I don’t want to lay you down for a nap in your bed and never let you sleep in my arms again. They are always open for you.

kyloholic’s masterlist

I thought it would be easier to make my masterlist a post as well, aside from being it a page attached to my blog in case there’s ever an issue to access it! Enjoy :)

SONG FICS

KYLO X READER

SERIES

BEN SOLO X READER

MATT X READER

So, what if, instead of thinking about solving your whole life, you just think about adding additional good things. One at a time. Just let your pile of good things grow.
—  Rainbow Rowell, Attachments  
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It’s okay to be lazy.
It’s okay to roll your sleeves up and instead of doing dishes, you read your baby a story.
It’s okay to put on the rain boots and jump in puddles outside and not worry about the mess made on the floor on the way in. 
It’s okay to forget about the laundry for a while and build a mega-block fort that will just get destroyed in 10 seconds anyway by the tiniest little feet and hands.
Be a mama. That’s the most important.

New Blogs Wanted!

Hello, everyone! As you probably all know by now, I’ve decided to post whatever I want on this blog. It’s about time I took back my Tumblr experience and stopped worrying about follower counts and other inane things that truly don’t matter in the end. Therefore, this blog will become multifandom. I am deleting my current multifandom blog (@peggehcarter) because I literally never use it, and will instead be posting all of my fandoms on this blog instead (besides Yuri on Ice, which will remain on my dedicated sideblog, @flowercrownyuri, because I post it way too much for it to fit into a multifandom blog, lol). 

As I undergo a bit of rebranding, I’m really cleaning out my follower list (aka, unfollowing people who are inactive for the most part) and refilling it with people who are part of the new fandoms I’ve acquired over the past few months.

I am currently looking for people who post the follow who tag their posts and are hate/wank free (or tag it). 

  • Yuri on Ice (for the side blog)
  • Voltron
  • Once Upon a Time 
  • “Book Fandom” blogs
  • Jane the Virgin
  • Gilmore Girls
  • Friends
  • Parks and Recreation 
  • Shadowhunters
  • Stranger Things
  • Figure Skating (for the side blog)
  • Aesthetic 

If you or anyone you know posts any of the following, can you reblog this? I’d be forever grateful. 

I completely understand if you unfollow as I move away from being exclusively SPN and delve into new fandoms. I want everyone to have a dash that is relevant to their interests, without guilt attached because of breaking a mutual follow, so please know there are no hard feelings. And also thanks to everyone who is going to stick on as I transition over the next few weeks. 

I love you all. 

Sometimes I’m on another blog to take a break from Voltron but I still see Voltron EVERYWHERE. and then I’m like “I’m so sick of Voltron” but when I log back into this account, I realize it’s a little hard to hate it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

anonymous asked:

My parents are divorced and I'm gay, I came out to my dad before my mother and when she found out she got super angry at me for not telling her first so she yelled at me and threatened me for about 30 minutes about this. It was only one time and she never did anything like this ever again. This was about 5 months ago. Whenever I recall the memory I become nervous, my hands shake and my vision blurs. So kinda a minor panic attack. Is there something wrong with me? What is it?

Hey friend,

I’m so sorry you’re going through that! It sounds really rough, and you deserve better than that.

It sounds like your brain is reacting to the trauma that happened when you came out. There are several different kinds of disorders that can stem from traumatic experiences. I’ve listed a few below, along with their symptoms and descriptions. This is not an exhaustive list, but rather a list to give you an idea of the types of disorders that can result from trauma.

Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD)

RAD is when a child  doesn’t form attachments to parents or caregivers. This can occur if their basic needs for affection and nurture aren’t met in their early years. This can affect their life when they are older as adults if untreated.

Symptoms include:

  • Demonstrating irritability, tendency to withdraw, fear, or sadness that is difficult to explain
  • Showing no response when others try to give them comfortable
  • Lack of interest in playing with others
  • Failing to ask for help

Dis-inhibited Social Engagement Disorder (DSED)

DSED is when a child acts overly familiar with strangers or other people they have never met before. This kind of behavior is often seen as culturally inappropriate, and can cause issues with people who might not have the best of intentions.

Symptoms include:

  • Behavior patterns where a child acts overly familiar with people they have met before. They do not show any signs of caution when approaching strange people. They also neglect to check in with their parents or caregivers to see if it’s okay to interact with strangers. This can also be challenging when children are willing to go off with adults they have just met.
  • These behavior patterns are not because of impulsivity, but because the child doesn’t understand or see the danger in doing so.
  • The child has experiences extreme patterns of insufficient care, such as neglect or deprivation, frequent changes in caregivers (like in a foster home), being raised in institutions where there are few caregivers to watch over them.

Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)

Probably one of the most common trauma induced disorders, PTSD happens after someone has experienced a traumatic event. There are several conditions that have to be met in order for PTSD to apply. Our body has a strong fear response that can be hard to counteract, especially if external circumstances reinforce that fear.

You must meet the conditions outlined below in order to be diagnosed with PTSD (by a mental health professional)

At least one re-experiencing symptom:

  • flashbacks
  • nightmares
  • scary thoughts

At least one avoidance symptom

  • staying away from triggers that remind of the traumatic event
  • staying away from feelings and thoughts related to the trauma

At least two reactivity symptoms:

  • getting startled easily
  • having trouble sleeping
  • feeling on edge
  • getting angry outbursts

At least two mood symptoms:

  • trouble remembering details of the event
  • negative self or world view
  • experiencing intense guilt or blame
  • lack of interest in activities that used to bring joy

Acute Stress Disorder (ASD)

ASD is when someone develops severe anxiety and dissociative symptoms soon after a traumatic event. These people have a decreased emotional capacity to respond, and find it difficult to enjoy activities they once loves. They also feel bad about doing day to day tasks, in comparison to the trauma they experienced.  These people can also have a hard time concentrating on tasks, may feel detached physically, may feel like the world is unreal, and have a hard time recalling the trauma.

In order to be diagnosed with ASD (by a mental health professional), you must also experience at least one symptom from each of the categories listed under PTSD.

Other symptoms include:

  • Response to traumatic event involves intense fear or helplessness
  • Avoiding stimuli that remind sufferer of the event

Feeling 3 or more of the following while recalling the traumatic event

  • Feeling numb or detached
  • Reduced awareness of your surroundings
  • Derealization
  • Depersonalization
  • Dissociative Amnesia

Adjustment Disorders

After experiencing significant stress, individuals can have difficulty adjusting back to normal life. Your normal routines might feel overwhelming, and you might have a hard time doing day to day things. This may lead to making reckless decisions or feeling suicidal.

Symptoms include:

Emotional

  • Sadness
  • Nervousness
  • Crying spells
  • Hopelessness
  • Anxiety
  • Jitters
  • Lack of enjoyment
  • Desperation
  • Difficulty sleeping
  • Feeling overwhelmed at things that you used to be able to do just fine
  • Suicidal thoughts

Behavioral

  • Reckless driving
  • Fighting
  • Ignoring bills
  • Avoiding friends or family
  • Skipping school
  • Performing poorly in work or school

In no way should this be considered a diagnosis. If you want a diagnosis, advice on medication, or professional help, you should go and see a therapist or psychiatrist. They have a lot more resources available to their disposal and have more experience in helping people recover from this sort of thing. I would highly recommend going to see someone who specializes in treating trauma. They have different techniques and ways of treating trauma disorders than general therapists.

Good luck, and I hope some of this can be helpful to you!

“What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality.”

~Mel

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> [Chen] “Have I done something wrong? Did I not spend enough time with him?”
> [Mongmong] “Ukyuu…”
> Mongmong tries to wipe away Chen’s tears that keep falling.
> [Chen] “I… I want to see the old Junmyeon. I have to, just once. I need to see his face one more time…”
> [Mongmong] “Ukyu ukyu!”
> Mongmong tugs on Chen’s arms, only to be pushed away gently as Chen stands and slips out of the room, leaving a worried Mongmong behind.

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Akuma Themes (9/26)

COOL IDEA OF MINE POSSIBLY

So since there was a decent amount of interest in the prospect of me doing a filmed ACOMAF scene with one of the guys I perform with frequently (even though I probably won’t go through with that project just to avoid other career issues in my personal life), I’m NOW considering filming myself (not showing my full face though) saying some Feyre lines for you guys … or even Aelin lines perhaps…

It would be good practice for me since I have a few new auditions coming up in the next month or so, and maybe I could give you guys some fun content as well.

Would anyone be interested? And be honest, I won’t be offended lol. For the record I am a semi-professional stage actress so it wouldn’t be just me reading out loud lol.

And if anyone IS interested in this, maybe give me some suggestions for what sections of which books to perform!