at this moment i can't think of a film i want more than that wow

I Can't Find the Words

Today I lost a friend named Justin.

Many of you knew him as JewWario. Hell, I probably called him that more than his real name, but it was just as much who he was. He was one of the nicest, kindest people I ever had the honor and privilege to know and work alongside and God knows I am going to miss him.

I admit it feels hollow saying that. Not because it isn’t true, but because I don’t feel it does enough justice. I’ve said before about the importance of words, how much they matter and affect people… but here I am, talking about a person who I will never see again in this life and I feel I can’t find the adequate words to express myself. I’m not used to death. Mind you, I don’t think anyone truly IS used to it, but I haven’t experienced it very much in my life.

Justin committed suicide. If you look at the last message I reblogged, it lists various resources for people who are contemplating the same thing. I hope they’re helpful. And I hope Justin knew how much his show helped people. I’d like to think he did. I want to talk about the suicide, how none of us saw it coming, how we could never contemplate him doing it, or just that I could ever understand what would drive a person to make such an act… but I don’t understand it. I don’t feel those same things and in a way I feel like a jerk because I DON’T understand it. All I can do is try to offer help in the hope that it will never happen again. And try to focus on his life and the people he touched.

The first video of Justin’s that I ever saw was a pilot for a show that I don’t think he proceeded with, which was a shame because I really enjoyed it. It was called “Play Proceeds Clockwise,” which talked about board games and had this neat gimmick where the camera would rotate between the four players as they explained the game. I liked it so much that I decided to learn more about this guy and I watched a lot of “You Can Play This,” though I admit I didn’t always catch it when a new one came out.

I met him first during Kickassia. If I recall correctly, he and Angry Joe were sharing a room together and it had become the meeting room for everyone while we waited for more people to arrive. And here was this kind, wonderful guy with pink shoes and a pink luggage case who had a whole bunch of Japanese candies and foods with him. And he was having a birthday during the filming, too, so one night all 20+ of us went out to a Chinese food place across the street from the hotel. And this poor guy operating the little restaurant all by his lonesome had to accommodate 20+ orders one at a time from us all trying to celebrate Justin’s birthday.

And then during Suburban Knights he would continually impress us and wow us with his ability to roll that ball around in his hands. He kept saying it was really easy and anybody could do it, but I sure as hell couldn’t. And we all marveled at how well he played the Goblin King and made us laugh with every line delivery and just being the most charming guy in the room.

And of course everyone by now should know the story of how, during To Boldly Flee, I couldn’t look at Justin’s face while he poked me with a plastic sword, since whenever I did I started laughing my ass off. Justin knew how to make you smile no matter what. And I’m going to miss him so damn much.

In his honor, I’m shifting the schedule of upcoming episodes a bit. I can’t look at it in detail at this moment since I’m currently writing this on a laptop from a convention, but needless to say I’m pushing US-1 #3 back a week and am instead going to do Gameboy #3 and do a tribute to Justin in it.

It’s hard for me to think of the right words for this. I’m grieving right now. We all are. But the pain will lessen over time. We’ll stop thinking of the tragedy of it and we’ll instead only remember how damn happy we were to have known him. I’m looking forward to being able to do that. For the moment, I’ll remember this good times and I’ll cry. That will pass with time. I just can’t find the right words to express the things I’m feeling and how good of a guy he was.

Right now I’m just trying to work through this. And I will. I don’t know if my rambling is making any sense. But what I can do is remind everyone that you are loved. You are appreciated. And if you see somebody who needs to be shown love and appreciation, go do it. Thank you, everyone, and remember Justin.

Buffy the Vampire Slayer season three sentence starters
  • That's right, he was! Cheater!
  • Uh, if I may suggest; 'This time it's personal.' I mean, there's a reason why it's a classic.
  • I don't even know what a tea cozy is, but I want one.
  • Well, a gathering is brie, mellow song stylings; shindig, dip, less mellow song stylings, perhaps a large amount of malt beverage; and hootenanny, well, it's chock full of hoot, just a little bit of nanny.
  • Generally speaking, when scary things get scared; not good.
  • Wow. They should film that story and show it every Christmas.
  • There are two things that I don't believe in; coincidence and leprechauns.
  • When you think about him you get that good, down-low tickle, right?
  • Hey, I may be a cold-blooded jelly doughnut, but my timing is impeccable.
  • Besides, I look cute in a tiara.
  • You're not friends. You'll never be friends. You'll be in love 'til it kills you both. You'll fight, and you'll shag, and you'll hate each other 'til it makes you quiver, but you'll never be friends.
  • I'll find her - wherever she is - tie her up, torture her, 'til she likes me again.
  • Your logic does not resemble our Earth logic.
  • But when it happens I want it to be because we both need it to, for the same reason. You don't have to prove anything to me.
  • I wish that I wished you dead. I don't. I can't.
  • Strong is fighting! It's hard, and it's painful, and it's every day. It's what we have to do.
  • Prince of Night, I summon you! Come fill me with your black, naughty evil!
  • That's not why we fight. We do it because there's things worth fighting for.
  • It's sweet and thoughtful, and full of neat words to learn and say like "wilt" and "henceforth."
  • That's beautiful ... Or, taken literally, incredibly gross.
  • Don't worry. I'll steer you around the curves.
  • Getting rid of the evidence doesn't make the problem go away.
  • this is verging on naughty touching here, don't wanna fall back on bad habits - Hands! Hands in new places!
  • I'm so evil and...skanky. And I think I'm kinda gay.
  • Is that all you think about?
  • My life happens to, on occasion, suck beyond the telling of it. Sometimes more than I can handle.
  • Except he's starting to get that look, you know, like he's gonna ask me to prom.
  • I kind of love you.
  • Men are evil... Will you go with me?
  • And you have the emotional maturity of a blueberry scone.
  • Just have at it would you, and stop fluttering about.
  • We could just get a box that says "Ebola" on it, and, um...chase him...With the box.
  • Guys. Take a moment to deal with this. We survived. Not the battle. High School

anonymous asked:

Hey hey! :) I love your blog. You're awesome. Can I have a Kai scenario please where he is super impressed by your dancing? Like, as an extra in an Exo music video. :) I have looked through all yours and can't find anything similar. Thanks a bunch!

Hypnotized ~Kai~

No school today for me HOLLAA. Hope ya like it :) ~Admin S

“And… cut!”

You drew the breath you were holding and walked off the stage. The director was making you and all the other extras film the same dance scene again and again until you perfected it. Some of the other dancers were having some trouble with it, and since this was a very big music video for EXO, it had to be done really well.

“Good job, _____,” the director complimented you. “I’m sorry for making you do the dance over and over again, but some of the other girls were not quite getting it.”

You smiled and shook your head. “It’s not a problem,” you said. “Dancing is fun.” You shot him one more smile before walking to the snacks table a few feet away.

Once you got to it, you frowned when you realized there were no more water bottles. The EXO boys must’ve taken them all.

You sighed and ran your fingers through your hair.

“Need this?”

You spun around and came face to face with one of the most gorgeous members of EXO, Kai.

He grinned at you and stretched a bottle of water towards you. “Here, I don’t need it anyway,” he said.

You grabbed it hesitantly. “You sure? You’re like the main dancer, I’m sure you need to rehydrate yourself a little more than the other members.”

“Positive. You need it more than I do after all that amazing dancing you did out there,” he swiftly snuck in a compliment.

You unscrewed the cap from the bottle and caught his little compliment a few seconds later. “Amazing dancing?” you repeated.

“Mhmm.” Kai nodded his head. “I was watching you the entire time, and I can honestly say you’re probably the strongest dancer there.”

You took a sip of your water and raised your eyebrow. “So you’ve been watching me the entire time, huh?” you asked.

Kai blushed just a little bit. “Maybe,” he admitted. “I can’t help it. It’s hard for me to keep my eyes away from you and your moves. I think you have a very special and unique way of dancing, it’s like you don’t even need to try.”

You bit your lip to keep from squealing. You had always admired Kai and his dancing, so him complimenting you on it right now was just a dream come true.

“_________!” the director called. “We’re filming scene three now!”

You took another sip from your water bottle and then dashed to the stage. “Thanks again!” you called behind you at Kai. He just winked and waved.

 

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Once the music began playing, you were in your own world. This always happened when you were dancing, because you always wanted to give 100%.

At the moment, you didn’t even think about the fact that there were a bunch of people staring, including the EXO members. You didn’t think about the fact that there were also a few other girls on stage with you, dancing to the same song for the video.

You were the only one there.

Kai stood right beside the cameraman and admired your dancing. He sang along to the music in a low voice and nodded his head with the rhythm. “Wow,” he said. You just took his breath away.

Once the song ended and the director called cut! the other dancers scurried off to get a drink of water.

But you stayed there, in your ending pose.

Kai was the first to run up to you, clapping his hands. “That was breathtaking,” he said. “I think I just became your number one fanboy right there.”

You laughed and wiped the line of sweat off your forehead. “It means a lot,” you replied. “Coming from you, that is.”

“Coming from me?”

You playfully hit his arm. “Have you seen yourself dance?”

Kai pretended to be hurt by the hit, but he laughed it off afterwards. “There’s always room for improvement,” he said. “Even for me.”

You nodded. “Same here.”

Kai grinned, as if he was waiting for you to say those words. “Well I’m glad you said that,” he said. “So how about you and I meet at the dance studio later on? I could teach you some stuff, you could teach me…”

Your eyes widened. “Really?”

“Mhmm,” he hummed.

You beamed. “I’d love to.”

Kai grabbed your hand and nodded. “It’s a date,” he whispered.

randomgeekthoughts  asked:

Found this on the Star Trek XIII page of memory Alpha, thought you'd find it interesting. "Abrams has stated he would like more female characters in the sequel. [6] He also mentioned the sequel could fallback on abandoned story ideas for the characters. "There was [an idea] implying the sexuality of one of the characters, a back story for another character that was pretty intense, a really funny story we wanted to do with yet another." There was a bit more, but it wont fit and I can't add links

Here’s a link to the page for everyone interested.

And here’s a link to the article where JJ says he wants more female characters. Here’s an excerpt from it -

JJ ABRAMS, director of the new Star Trek film, Star Trek: Into Darkness admitted that while the franchise has done a lot to advance equality, maybe it’s still a wee bit sexist.

In an interview with news.com.au Abrams said that “there needs to be more” main roles for women in the upcoming sequels.

“It’s critical to me and it’s true that when I wrote the pilot for Alias, or Felicity or Lost that female roles be as important as any other role,” he said. “But I think in Star Trek while Zoe (Saldana, who plays Captain Spock’s love interest Nyota Uhura) gets to do a couple of pretty cool things that are way above and beyond what you ever got to see in the original show, I couldn’t agree with you more,” he said. “There needs to be more of that and more of her.”

Abrams said it was “critical” that female actors be as centrestage as male actors “not because they are male or female but because it’s the right thing”.

“I’m happy Zoe got to do so much more than in the first film, but there’s a lot of room to go still,“ he said.

First of all, Captain Spock? The writer of this article really needs to fact check before giving everyone’s favourite Vulcan a promotion.

Secondly, WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK JJ. The franchise WAS still a ‘wee bit sexist’ - but your additions to it have increased the sexism tenfold!

Not to mention I find it really bloody difficult to see why, if he really wanted more female characters and for their roles to be as important, he didn’t INCLUDE MORE FEMALE CHARACTERS IN THE TWO FILMS HE PRODUCED AND DIRECTED!

It seems like a classic case of saying one thing and doing entirely another.

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And then we have the link to the article where he talks about the potential story ideas for the characters BUT I should clarify that that section ended with - 

There was [an idea] implying the sexuality of one of the characters, a back story for another character that was pretty intense, a really funny story we wanted to do with yet another. Hopefully, if there are future films, those other stories will get their moment,“ he said.

Implying to me that none of those ideas are currently in the film, so don’t get your hopes up for an LGBT character just yet!

I do think this excerpt from the article is worth sharing because oh wow does this explain a LOT -

“I was never a big ‘Star Trek’ fan,” Abrams, 46, says with signature effusiveness, recapping news he broke to Trekkies last time around. “I liked the movies — they were more accessible to me than the TV show — but none of it would have made my desert-island discs collection. It was always a little talky for me. I knew that if it had had more visceral energy and muscularity, I would have bought into the intellectual side more.

Yeah, suddenly the heroic white man banging chicks and shooting bad guys thing makes a whole lot of sense. Thank goodness he’ll be off working on Star Wars, since that’s clearly where he needs to be.

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It’s also worth noting that neither Damon Lindelof or Alex Kurtzman is writing the film, but Roberto Orci still is, alongside J.D. Payne and Patrick McKay who are apparently two up-and-coming screenwriters whose projects are all still in development!

So yay! That means we have no idea what to expect from them in terms of their writing ability, sexism in their writing, OR their opinion on Star Trek.

I don’t know about you but I personally can’t understand why they wouldn’t just find someone outside the Bad Robot family to write the next one. You know, someone who actually knows and loves Star Trek? Not that we know whether Payne or McKay are Trekkies or not, but I still find it really fucking dubious that they’re trusting the 50th Anniversary movie to two unknowns and Orci.

And yes, the page also confirms that Paramount is pushing for a release in 2016 to coincide with the 50th Anniversary. Now if only I was confident we were getting a film that truly lived up to and celebrated what’s come before, then I’d be a hell of a lot more excited than I am…