How do you write when you're in a slump? Rn I feel like there's no point in doing anything because whatever I make will turn out bad or won't be seen.
the other day, or the other week, or something, i was in a conversation about betas. now, the general rhetoric i hear about them is that betas crush your ass under such pressure that you shit diamonds in the end.
this doesn’t work for me. my beta tells me what i need to hear, and she tells it to me honest, but she builds me up too. she doesn’t hesitate to give me strategically placed compliments now and again. because i am a delicate creature. i am sensitive and moody and despite being a thirty-two-year-old it is easy for a high schooler to make me cry. mostly because i know i can’t ever, ever fight back the way i can and want to. but also because i am sensitive, i feel like i am no good, and that everything i create is bullshit. IT LITERALLY DOES NOT MATTER HOW MANY KUDOS I GET OR HOW MANY COMMENTS I RECEIVE, MY BRAIN INSISTS THAT THEY ARE LYING BECAUSE WHAT I DO IS HORRIBLE.
that’s my secret anon. i’m always in a slump.
so for me. i just keep writing. if i stop writing i will die. i don’t have to keep writing the same thing, i don’t have to keep writing well, but i need my fingers slamming these gross, oily keys or i don’t know who i am anymore.
that might not work for you. and i’m certainly not going to tell you that it doesn’t fucking suck when people don’t see what you’ve done. its not even about the attention, it’s about creating something and wanting to share it, and to have people to nod and say, “yes, that’s a thing.” i’m not going to tell you to just power through that feeling because it is bitter and it is cruel and it eats you alive. i’m not going to tell you that wanting more kudos than you get is ungrateful because i’m not in your head, i have no idea why you want more. honestly, i don’t care if it’s for sheer attention, attention is lovely and we all want it in some form or another.
remind yourself why you like to write. that can mean writing all the time. writing dumb things, like the world seen through the eyes of your dog, or rpf of your and your friends in the event of a zombie apocalypse. remember why you write. sometimes you’ve gotta take a break to do that. sometimes you’ve got to start something new. but if writing is a thing that you suddenly don’t like, don’t force yourself to like it. maybe it means you just have to practice a lot until you do.
but you’re not me. this might not work for you. but nothing is pleasant when you feel like you suck. so you can either figure out the best way to not feel that way (for me it’s writing a lot of shit that never sees the light of day) or you can find something else that is more rewarding to do with your time.
it’s okay to give up, but i don’t think you have to.