my cousin is having a baby shower soonish and I’m just
bc it’s a reminder I’m going to have to probably listen to a semi-newborn demonspawn at christmas and people are probably going to expect me to hold it while cooing about my future HellNo McNuggets I am in no way psychologically (and possibly physically) capable of having and assuming I’m straight and want sex in any way? Maybe I’ll spend my christmas eve hiding in the bathroom
I remember the day my sister suggested I’d make an ask blog as if it were yesterday.
She had already made her own ask blog earlier that day and her character inspired me to make @ask-red-robot-scout. I was already a huge fan of team fortress, but I’d never ran an ask blog before let alone use tumblr for anything.
it’s been an entire year since then and so much has happened. Many new people joined the fandom. A rainbow of teams now exist, monsters, aliens, ghosts and all kinds of mercenaries answer asks to this day. Asks were received on a daily basis. The community flourished and I saw so much creativity in such a short span of time.
I’ve never been more proud of people I’d never met before.
Of course we all know how this story ends; teams started dying off fast, members of the community left for a number of reasons, every last drop of inspiration was sucked dry from them. Very few blogs lasted more than a couple months.
I, however, wouldn’t give up. Spite, the need to please others, a friend’s encouragement and multiple promises kept me going, even when there were days of absolute silence, I refused to leave my blogs to die. I believed I was keeping the community alive but that couldn’t be further from the truth. Even then, I didn’t care, I had a valid reason to stay.
I’d made a ‘promise’ to be the last ONG standing, to make my followers happy, but now I know I can’t keep to my word. I’ve made so many promises in fact that I can’t possibly owe up to all of them. I’ve exhausted myself emotionally and physically time and time again trying to entertain everybody, I would skip meals and lose sleep making RP replies to the point where I would shake. When you guys told me to take a break, I felt stressed, like I was letting everybody down.
The point is, I’ve realized that I no longer have a reason to continue running this blog, it might even be beneficial to my health if I quit now. Whatever motivation I had for it before is long gone, I need to move on, for my own sake. I will always love the community and adore the game, and I’ll remember you all and never forget your kindness, your jokes, your silly asks and the interactions we’ve forced our poor muses to have with one another, but I think it’s time I go. I’m also sorry I have to drop our threads.
netflix death note team: ok we need a racially diverse cast the young people eat that shit up
netflix death note team: we COULD leave everyone as their intended race… BUT…
we could Instead make everyone white except one guy, who is black now. thatll really make the teens happy
imagine wanting someone who provides zero (0) entertainment to stay only so you can look edgy and woke on tumblr dot com wanting a (boring) girl to stay over a (live feed gold) guy earning them extra feminist sjw woke points…
Me: “hey do u wanna hear abt fish?? :D there’s so many cool fish and I just got this big tank and these are the fish I’m thinking abt putting in it and this fish is rly cool and I wanna get These fish one day in the future but not right kow.i have t wait, u see bc they get rly big and can’t properly accommodate that right now but see THOSE fish don’t get AS big so it’s a bit more conceivable that I could get one right now aren’t these fish so cool? Also I would never get one of these bc they tend not to do well in captivity but they’re SO COOL look at these 500 pictures of them I have saved on my phone, and-”
Them: *backing away in horror, trying to figure out how to get out of this conversation that they didn’t even want in in the first place, trying to look politely interested while they plan their escape*