The same angry cold twisted and churned inside me, building to an unbearable pressure. They had no right to do this to me. I had not been born to be their tool. I had a right to live my life freely, to be who I was born to be. Did they think they could bend me to their will, use me however they would, and I would never retaliate? No. A time would come. My time would come.
Royal Assassin by Robin Hobb.
What does this paragraph sound like? It doesn’t sound like the hero’s narrative, does it… it sounds like a villain’s origin story, almost. That’s where you’d expect to find it. And it isn’t; it belongs to the hero, who will always remain loyal to the “they” he refers to.
I find this so interesting because that’s Fitz’s driving, normally unspoken force, isn’t it? It’s the fundamental thing that disjoints him from Kettricken and Verity and Dutiful and Burrich almost everyone else. Kettricken, Verity and Dutiful were all raised with not just the expectations of their rank, but also the privileges and supports; Burrich considers his life at Buckkeep a vast improvement on his childhood, and gave his loyalty to Chivalry as a much older person. So none of them entirely understand why Fitz is so “difficult”, so resistant to almost everything.
He’s torn - he’s a good person, he cares about his family and his people, he wants to help them. But he also has an impressively strong understanding of morality, and he knows what is being done to him is wrong. Except if he breaks out of it, he harms people. So he suppresses that inner, moral voice; he doesn’t feel that he has another option. Every time he tries to break away he is (often forceably) dragged back in.
And the rest of the family wonders why he’s like this and never truly understands.
“Shrewd sat before his hearth in a cushioned chair. Despite myself, my heart sank at how wasted he had become. …A small table at his elbow supported a censer, and Smoke rose from it. The fumes already made a bluish haze about the rafters. The Fool sprawled disconsolately at his feet.” - Robin Hobb, Royal Assassin
Can you please like do prince!Jaebum with bodyguard reader with their first kiss. Like a sequel to the sequel. Please. my soul needs it lmfao
Oh my God you should totally write about the one where they drink all the soju and kiss!!! Prince Jaebum auuuu!!!
I definitely, 100%, and completely will do this! Their first kiss wasthe soju one so I’ll combine these two requests the next time it’s Jaebum’s turn for a drabble (which are Fridays)! I love me some princely Jabeum and some badass reader AU’s so this is gonna be so much fun!
Prepare yourselves for drunken, cute kisses with a prince and an assassin! CAUSE I’M READY!
‘Yes. So have you. And you’ve been sick. And you slept quite a long time. And now you are awake and bathed and you still look terrible. But you no longer smell. It’s late afternoon now. Are there any other obvious facts you’d like to review?’
‘I dreamed about you. While I was gone.’
He gave me a dubious look. ‘Did you? How touching. I can’t say I dreamed of you.’
‘I’ve missed you,’ I said, and enjoyed the brief flash of surprise on the Fool’s face.
‘How droll.’ - pg 81, Royal Assassin
I love this scene. Fitz is all “Yay, my best friend is here, let us converse!”, and the Fool is just “Why are you still talking? I’m just here to make sure you’re still breathing. I recently insulted you multiple times. Weirdo.’