A/N: For my dude @rockystar013122 for inspiring this drabble off of a convo we had last week about Baekhyun ;) love ya -Admin Germane :3
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“And the way he smiles is so adorable as well! And don’t you just love-” your rambling was cut off by a pillow being thrown in your face from across the room.
“Y/N we’ve heard you rant about Baekhyun for two hours now, let our bleeding ears rest.” Chen whined from the couch, giving you his best begging eyes to get you to stop. You removed the pillow from your face and huffed, crossing your arms and pouting.
“Now now, there’s no need to start that. You know that you’re still one of our closest friends, but just please shut up about Baek. He’s not as cute as you think.” Chanyeol said, looking at you from over the top of his laptop.
Yeah sure, you may have been ranting to two of your closest friends about their band mate, but how couldn’t you? Baekhyun (bless his sweet little heart) had just asked you out a few days ago. You both had been having a cute, innocent flirting thing going on for the past few months and soon enough, friendship turned into romance and you couldn’t help but gush about your feelings for this man. He was just too cute for his own good! From his smiles, to his aegyo, and his sweet hand holding and cuddling, you couldn’t help but rant. So when his closest guy friend just told you he’s not cute, you raised your eyebrows curiously.
“What do you mean Chanyeol?” you asked. Chen barked from the couch and had to cover his mouth to suppress the grin that spread over his face.
“He’s just not as innocent as you think.” Chanyeol said carefully.
“Dude, you should see his search history.” Chen laughed, putting down his phone to look at you dead on with a smirk pulling at his lips.
“If you have something to say, just spit it out.” you said, crossing your arms over your chest as you glanced between the two of them. Chanyeol bit his lip nervously, gently closing his laptop.
“Y/N, how much do you truly know about our beagle Baekhyun?” Chanyeol asked you.
“We’re best friends, we know everything about each other.” you said proudly, a small smile tugging on your mouth when you thought about your fluffy boyfriend.
“Yeah Yeah, but what about his kinks.” Chen urged, heading straight to the point. You blushed; you two hadn’t really talked about that stuff yet.
“I-I don’t know much about that.” you admitted softly and Chen let out sorrowful ‘oh’.
“Then sweetie, you better hold onto something, cause we’re gonna take you on a ride.” Chen said, rolling onto the floor and scooting towards you to pat your shoulder.
“He’s kinky?” you asked.
“Extremely,” Chanyeol said, “He’s got this fascination with butts.”
“And he loves, and I mean truly adores, biting. Like once you do that, he’s gone.” Chen added.
“He likes to roleplay. He likes the idea of playing around and exploring characters.” Chanyeol went back to typing, and you wondered how he could just so casually type while talking about this.
“And don’t dare call him 'Daddy’ unless you want to be up until dawn.” Chen smirked.
“He has a weird turn on for shower sex.”
“Oh, and don’t forget about the dirty talk.”
“And the mirror kink.” Chen finished.
“No hyung, it was Lay that has the mirror kink, not Baek.” Chanyeol corrected and Chen apologized for his mistake. Your checks felt as hot as the Sahara Desert, and suddenly the clean image of your boyfriend disappeared as new fantasies ran about in your mind.
“Aw, Y/N, your cheeks are as red as cherries.” Chen cooed, pinching your cheek slightly.
“Stop, that’s not funny.” you grumbled, trying to make the heat go down, but every thought you had was of a not-so-innocent Baekhyun and the flush would just keep rising. The front door to the dorm opened and closed and the devil himself walked into the living room.
“Y/N! Baby, you didn’t tell me you were coming over here today! I wouldn’t have stayed for extra dance practice if I’d known” Baekhyun smiled at you, moving to sit on the other side of you, leaning down and kissing your cheek in a greeting.
“Hey, you’re really warm, you aren’t sick are you?” Baekhyun asked, placing his palm on your forehead with a concerned look on his face.
“Chen was just messing with her.” Chanyeol chuckled.
“Yah, you brat, don’t mess with Y/N.” Baekhyun whined, playfully smacking the back of Chens head. Chen just smiled and took the blow, sticking his tongue out at his hyung.
“If these punks mess with you Y/N, just let me know, I’ll teach them a lesson.” Baekhyun promised, ruffling your hair. You couldn’t speak, still flabbergasted from the newfound information about Baekhyun.
“H-Hey, could we talk, alone?” you asked him and Baekhyun nodded instantly, taking you into his room. Chen and Chanyeol looked at each other and smirked, getting up to go and press their ears to the door of Baek’s room to hear the embarrassingly funny conversation the two of you would share.
Could I get and exo and bts reaction to their s/o grabbing their butt and being like “approved🖒” plz and thanks 😉
Xiumin: As soon as you grabbed his butt, he will be blushing and totally embarrassed that you did so…“Jagi, you couldn’t wait?” he would ask. When you nodded no, he would smile.
Suho: As soon as you grabbed his butt, he would look at you weirdly…but then he would smile because of your sudden randomness of grabbing his butt.
Baekhyun: You guys were just sitting down in the couch of your apartment, when suddenly he got up and you grabbed his butt, making him turn to look at your face and say… “Oh girl is on!”
Lay: As soon as you grab his butt, he would be confused and say “Baobei why did you do that?”. “I don’t know because I wanted it to” you would say. “But why though?” he would ask still confused.
Chen: You guys were just watching a movie, when suddenly he wanted to go to the bathroom and since the bathroom was the opposite way where he sat, he had to pass in front of you. When he did you grabbed his butt, leaving him perplexed over the situation… “I see how it is” he would smirk.
Chanyeol: You guys were just talking in the leaving room, when suddenly Chanyeol got up to get water and as soon as he got up, you grabbed his butt. Making him laugh over the situation. “Jagi…seriously. Sometimes make me wonder how more random could you get” he would say smiling.
D.O: As soon as you grabbed his butt, you were regretting. He got mad a second but then he felt embarrassed about it.. But then he reassured you to never do it again that he will prefer a kiss rather than that.
Kai: You guys were eating fried chicken at your place, when suddenly he had to get to up in order to get water or cola to drink. When he got up and passed right in front of you, you grabbed his butt and he turned around and say “Right after, we finished we are getting it on!. Be prepared” he smirked.
Sehun: You guys were grabbing your boba, since he was standing next to you and nobody was starring you decided to grab his butt. “Y/N!!” he would exclaim. “What?” you asked surprised by his reaction and immediately started to laugh. “Seriously….” he said annoyed. “Yeah” you keep laughing. “Tonight you’ll beg for mercy” he would say. “Oh get it on!” you confidently said.
Exo Reaction (Requested) Jealous when you spend time with G-Dragon
Anonymous said:Heyy~ I’m not really sure if you did something like this before but could you do an exo reaction to you (their idol girlfriend) spending a lot of time with Jiyong (G-Dragon) and them getting jealous and once when Jiyong posted a “cute” photo of him and you, he (the exo member) got really jealous so he asked you if you love him and you answered with “of course yes” so you broke up but after that he found out that you and Jiyong are siblings and you tought that he knew it? (Hope you understand ^^)
He knew that you had male friends, but it infuriated him when G-Dragon posted a picture of the two of you getting ice cream together.
“Do you love Jiyong, (Y/N)?” He asked as soon as you got home from what he thought was a date.
“Well of course.”
You would leave crying after Baekhyun yelled at you for being unfaithful in your relationship.
Later that night, Baekhyun would receive a text that made his stomach drop.
Why was it so wrong for me to spend time with my brother?
He would give you the silent treatment as soon as you walked in the door. When you asked what was wrong, he would show you the picture that G- Dragon had posted of you recording.
“A talented, beautiful girl,” Chanyeol would quote from the caption, sparking a fight between the two of you.
“I can’t stay with a cheater!” He yelled, staring down at your broken expression.
“I didn’t know spending time with my brother was cheating!” You screamed, voice cracking as you left the apartment.
Chanyeol would be left speechless, standing alone as he felt regret for accusing you so quickly
I am such an idiot.
“So you have plenty of time for Jiyong, right?” Chen would ask. “Do you love him or something?”
“Yes, I love him.”
Chen would mutter something rude under his breath, initiating the fight. You would storm out of the dorm, crying your eyes out, startling the other members.
It wasn’t until later that Chen would be flooded with guilt after finding from another member out that G- Dragon was your brother.
He would be scrolling through social media, waiting for you to come home when he stumbled across a picture of you and Jiyong smiling with the puppy filter. His heart would break as he read the caption.
‘Missing this amazing girl right now.’
When you came to see him, you were quickly reprimanded for “sneaking around behind your boyfriend’s back.” You left in tears as quickly as you had come, later texting D.O. to tell him that Jiyong was your brother.
‘I have massively screwed up with (Y/N).’
“How was rehearsal?” You would ask Kai when he got home.
“I don’t know, how was your date with G-Dragon?”
You were quickly cut off by Kai who began to yell at you for hurting him. You would disappear into your shared room without a word only reappearing with a dufflebag filled with your things.
“And what do you think you’re doing?”
“I’m going to my brother, Jiyong’s house.” You stated, slamming the door as you left, leaving Kai at a loss for words.
The picture of you and Jiyong at a carnival together would immediately spark a fight.
You would leave the dorm with tears streaming down your face as Lay watched you leave, emotionless. The other boys would approach Lay about you and he would go on a tangent about how hurt he was before Xiumin cut him off.
“Yixing, G-Dragon is (Y/N)’s brother.”
His stomach would go into knots as he realized that he was the one who hurt you, not vice versa.
Being one of the sassiest members, Sehun would only reply to you with teasing comments about G-Dragon.
“Gosh, you just love him, don’t you.”
“Of course, Sehun he’s-”
“Your side man?” He asks, becoming increasingly angry. “You know, there are plenty of other people who would kill to get with me, but I turn them down because I didn’t want to hurt you.”
You got up and stormed off to your room.
“Nothing to say?” Sehun would ask, feeling as if he had won the fight.
“Nothing besides Jiyong is my brother!”
With that you would slam the door, leaving Sehun feeling as if he was the biggest idiot on the planet.
He would immediately confront you about the “flirty” picture that Jiyong had posted, causing you to laugh.
“Aww, I didn’t see that.”
“Aww?!” Suho would yell, “Are you in love with him now or something?”
“I mean, I love him, but-”
“I can’t be here anymore.”
With that, Suho would leave your shared apartment, infuriated about the situation. He would later receive a text from you saying, “Jiyong is my brother, I can’t believe you would accuse me of something like that.”
He would mentally beat himself up for this, trying to think of a way to fix things.
“She’s grown up into a true beauty.” Xiumin would repeat, staring at the picture of you that G-Dragon had posted.
“Whatcha looking at?” You would ask, plopping down next to him.
“Oh, nothing.” He would say coldly.
“What’s bothering you?”
“Nothing except you sneaking around behind my back.”
Before you could speak, Xiumin was yelling.
“If you want to sleep around, then leave!”
You stood up from your seat next to him, tears falling down your cheeks.
“Fine.” You state. “If you need me, I’ll be at my brother, Jiyong’s house!”
As you left the apartment crying, Xiumin’s stomach dropped.
“For some reason I feel more jealous now than when Xiumin got her
virginity.” Kris’s grumbling wakes me up but I don’t move. Jihyo’s head is
still buried in my chest, our legs are tangled together, our bodies fully held
together, something I’m unaccustomed to.
Baekhyun joins in on the complaining, “That should be me snuggled up next
“Lets wake them up so we can get this girl out of our baby’s bed and out
of our house. I don’t like not being able to talk naturally with Joo when
others are around.” Kyungsoo adds.
“Please be my guest,” Suho scoffs, “Do you think Joo is going to let us
kick the girl out, just like that?”
Lay is always the voice of reason, “Maybe we should leave them be a
little longer, let them wake up on their own. Joo maybe use to us waking her up
but the girl might freak out.”
“I’m not going anywhere, this girl could get a little too frisky with our
baby.” Luhan sounds a little more aggressive than normal.
“To be completely honest, I’m really turned on by this. Do you think they
would make out?” Sehun earns himself a smack to the head.
“If wanted a show, all you had to was ask,” Jihyo teases as she places a
few kisses on my collarbone.
“Jihyo-ya,” I whine trying to push the girl away with no luck as she
continues her chaste kisses.
“This needs to stop,” Xiumin growls, tearing me out of my bed and out of
“Ya! Give me my Joo-ya back!” Jihyo pouts, snapping up, not caring that
she’s only in her underwear. Xiumin glares down at her, to my surprise her
bitch face falters, but only for a second.
“Get dressed and get out,” Xiumin demands.
“I don’t like that one,” I give her a teasing look remembering what we
discussed last night.
I bust out laughing at her, Xiumin does not look one bit amused until I
pinch his cheeks and coo, “Oh, come on Kitty oppa.” Watching the cute man’s
angry face flush is one of the funniest things I’ve ever seen.
“Joo-ya,” Jihyo whines bringing my attention back to her. “Can you make
me your famous breakfast rice? I haven’t had it in forever.” I grin big at the
idea, dropping to the ground I grab the girl’s hand and drag her out of the
room, the idea of clothes, completely forgotten.
Lay is chasing after us with two over sized shirts in his hands as we
giggle like school girls all the way to the kitchen. I sit her down on one of
the stools before digging around the kitchen for all the things I need to cook
a meal for 14 people. My daddies come into us still giggling and discussing how
pretty the kitchen is.
“Baby,” Kyungsoo warns when he sees me reaching for the knifes. Giving
him a small smile I grab the smallest one to cut the vegetables into small
“I’ll be careful.” I promise.
“Joonie told me about how you aren’t allowed to cook,” Jihyo eyes
Kyungsoo up, “I’m guessing it’s this guy’s fault.”
“It was more of a group decision,” I answer for them.
“If you are going to be cooking you are going to need this,” Luhan grabs
me an apron and helps me put it on. Chen does his usual thing by coming up next
to tie my hair into a little top knot.
Jihyo chuckles, “Wow, such service.”
“Here Jihyo-ssi,” Lay comes to her offering one of my shirts that she
“So I finally get to meet all of you,” Jihyo scans the men surrounding
the kitchen. “Wow, you all are really hot.”
“I have always been wondering what kind of friend our baby would have,”
Luhan narrows his eyes on her, “you are not what I was expecting.”
“Should I be insulted by that?” Jihyo lifts a brow at me.
I glare at my daddies bravely, “They would never insult you. They know
too well on how I feel about people being rude to my Jihyo, don’t you guys?”
“I like her,” Lay takes the seat next to her.
“Lay hyung, you like everything,” Sehun grumbles still glaring at the
Lay does his weird little switch, he gives the younger a scary look, “I
like anyone who can make our Jooyoung so happy.”
“Can I please help you?” Kyungsoo grumbles as he hovers around me,
watching with such intensity.
“No, I’m going to cook by myself.”
“Let the boy help,” Chen encourages me, but I still shake my head. “He
looks like he’s going to have a panic attack.” Looking up at Soo I understand
Chen’s worry, Soo has his hands up ready to rip the knife out of my hand, his
fist clenching and unclenching at any movement I make.
“She has always preferred cooking by herself,” Jihyo informs them. “I’m
surprised she can cook with everyone watching.”
“Are we making you nervous?” Chen asks obviously being the nervous one
I shrug, “Not really.”
Jihyo whistles, “That’s impressive. You guys must be really comfortable
with each other. For a while I was the only one she would cook in front of
until I introduced her to the boys. Jin loves cooking too so they started
cooking together when ever we hung out.” I glance up at Jihyo to see her
smiling softly at me, I can tell she’s happy that I have more people I’m
“Do you cook Jihyo-ssi?” Lay wonders.
She shakes her head, “I can burn water. Which is why Joo had to become
such a wonderful cook.”
I scoff remembering our middles school years, “You had a house full of
servants yet you made me cook for you.”
“That’s because your cooking has more heart. Plus you cooked great for
yourself at home too without proper ingredients, I just wanted to see how much better
it would get if you had good food. Not the tiny scraps that your family left
for you.” That makes me glare at her, her words don’t bother me, I know my
family has issues and I’ve accepted that, it’s just that fact that she said it
in front of my daddies. I pray that they didn’t hear but I can tell from the
way they tense they did.
“The scraps they left you?”
Chanyeol almost snarls.
Jihyo and I share a knowing look that trouble is about to bust out, I
struggle to find the right words to explain it. “When I was younger I was
really picky to the point I only really ate rice but that irritated my father
for some reason. He made a rule that I could only sit at the table with them if
I would eat all of my food and of course as a child I was stupid and put up a
fight. He didn’t like that I was disrespecting him, how could I deny the food
he so graciously offered. So he decided to just make it a rule that I was not
allowed at the table with them at all. It’s fine, it taught me how to cook for
myself.” I try to smile through the sting I still feel for that fight. “It
makes sense though, to teach your children that they won’t always like what
they get, I try to understand it better now.”
Of course, they couldn’t just leave it at that, someone has to question
the story more, “How old were you?”
“Six,” Jihyo answers for me. We weren’t even friends when this first
happened but Jihyo is still angry about it as if it happened yesterday. She has
never liked my family and the way they treat me.
“Six?” Kyungsoo snaps. “They stopped feeding you because you were picky
at six? How did you even cook let alone feed yourself?”
“Pushed a chair in front of the stove when no one was home or when my dad
I avoid looking up at them as I continue cooking, knowing the anger on
every face, including Jihyo. I try to avoid thinking about my family, I’m much
happier here where if I was gone for even an hour someone freak out, compared
to me being gone for a week and a half before I even get a call asking where I
am. Like I said, they don’t treat me bad, just as if I don’t exist. Pushing
that thought away I want to cry when I see the heart breaking look in Lay’s
eyes as he stares at me.
“Can you all please go wait in the dinning room?” I ask sweetly but they
can all hear the demand. To be honest, I don’t expect them to listen but they
all huff before shuffling into the dinning room in a line. When they are gone
Jihyo whistles, her eyes still on the door.
“Those are some protective boys you got there,” She nibbles on her lip.
“They are a lot like you in that area.”
She nods looking back to me, “I know, I can tell from the killer look in
their eyes. Makes me think of when your sister locked you out and told your mom
you ran away and I went in there screaming at that lying bitch.”
“Can we stop talking about them? My oppas get really upset when I mention
anything related to my family.”
“Probably because your family are assholes, every story about them I know
is them being assholes to you. I get upset when I think of your family and I know
all of the things they did to you growing up. You basically raised yourself.”
“Jihyo, please,” I beg.
She sighs, “Fine. Is it done?”
I continue mixing the blend of rice, beef, and vegetables making sure
it’s completely cooked before nodding. Glancing in the direction of the dinning
room, I see that none of my daddies can see as I climb on to the counter for
some bowls, something that could end with me getting in trouble. Quickly, I
wave a confused Jihyo over to help carry the 14 bowls needed, with my hands
full I jump down as quietly as possible but nothing can get past my daddies.
“Baby,” Kyungsoo calls.
“Yes?” I say back in a small voice.
“Do you need help with anything?”
“Nope, we’ll be in there in a few more minutes,” I dish up the rice mix
as quick as possible without throwing it all over the floor. Jihyo helps me
carry the food into the dinning room, placing a bowl in front of each man. When
everyone has food Jihyo and I sit down together with Kris on my left and Lay on
the other side of Jihyo.
“Thank you so much!” She beams at me. An echo of thanks comes from the
men around the table who begin digging in. This whole time I’m expecting
someone to say something to insult someone but to my surprise the conversation
doesn’t go that way.
“You are a good cook,” Baekhyun compliments with an affectionate smile.
“She’s the best cook,” Jihyo corrects. “I’ve missed your cooking. I wish
you could come over more.”
Before I even have the chance to think of a response Kai snaps back,
“That will not be happening,”
“Oppa,” I start but he immediately cuts me off.
“Don’t even think about questioning me right now Baby,” Anger is bright
in his eyes whether it’s from last night or brought up from our last
conversation I am not sure. “Every time you hang out with this girl something
bad happens. You almost got shot, you guys got arrested, and who knows all the
other bad situations she’s pulled you into.”
“Kai please, can we talk about this later?” I groan.
“It’s okay Joo,” Jihyo places a hand on my thigh. She scans each mans
face, taking in the anger from last night, the jealousy from the morning, and
the sadness from our conversation in the kitchen. “I know you guys don’t like
me very much because of my bad habit of getting our Joo into bad situations but you should remember something before
you guys try to completely cut us off. I’ve known her since we were seven.
We’ve had countless sleepovers, shared so many secrets, and had so many
conversations that we know each other better than we know ourselves. We are
connected. Our friendship won’t just disappear because you don’t like me.”
I know she is trying to help but her words only annoy Kai more. Kai stands
up, walks around the table, and pulls me out of my seat and down the hall. Much
to Jihyo’s dismay I give her a look before I’m out of her sight, making sure
she doesn’t follow. We turn a few times before he slams me up against the wall
in one of the random halls. I hold my breath as he glares down at me, my hands
are held above my head.
“Baby,” His voice is husky, filled with jealousy and lust. Some how that
one word sets my blood on fire, I’m staring up at him with my bottom lip
between my teeth, my eyes are open wide, trying to appear innocent.
“Yes Daddy,” I coo, wiggling my arms out of his grip to wrap them around
his neck, pulling the tall man closer.
His hands find my hips, “Stop being cute, I’m mad.”
“You’re jealous,” I correct, pecking his lips softly.
“Of that girl in there?” Kai scoffs. “I’m annoyed that she seems to think
she can touch you where ever and whenever she wants. She thinks you guys are connected,” He spits the last word out
“Because we are,” I don’t butter it up for him. “She has been there for
me for almost ten years. She took me in when I would get kicked out by my
sisters. She would feed me when I was hungry. She brought me to you guys. She
saved me. She has done so much for me, we are connected.”
He huffs, his eyes are fixed on my face, “I still don’t like her. But you
are right, she brought you to us, so we owe her something. But right now, I’m
irritated and jealous that I haven’t been able to touch you this morning.” With
that he leans closer, catching my lips in a hungry kiss. My fingers tangle in
his blonde locks, pulling him closer as our tongues battle for dominance. A
battle he ultimately wins, as always, when he starts grinding his hips against
“We can’t right now,” I manage to breath out in between our kisses.
“Why not?” He whispers against my lips, “Afraid of that little girl
finding you being fucked up against the wall?”
A blush spreads across my face, I push him away, “Daddy.”
He growls coming closer again, “Give me two minutes.”
He nods placing his lips on mine again. I should say no, I should push
him away for being so rude to Jihyo, but I can’t. Not when he’s looking at me
with such loving eyes, he kisses me slowly, letting his tongue reach every
centimeter of my cavern, his hands gripping my hips tighter when he starts
moving his again.
“You’re done,” I moan, pushing him away, trying my best to ignore the
aching I now feel between my legs.
“We are not done,” He gives me one of his sexy smirks, “You’re mine
tonight. You are so luck we don’t have school tomorrow because you are not
going to be able to walk.” It’s not the first time I’ve heard those words and I
can’t help but blush at the truth in them. He steps away from me, offering me a
hand he leads me back to the now empty dinning room.
“Lay and Chen walked her back to Joo’s room,” Tao explains coming out of
the living room. “They volunteered to take her home.”
“I want to go,” I pout.
“Oh no, you are in a lot of trouble. Speaking of which,” He glances in
the direction of the kitchen before leaning in closer, “You are really in the
dog house with a certain hyung.” As if he knew, Kyungsoo comes into the dinning
room to finish clearing the last of the plates, not even giving me a glance. He
disappears into the kitchen with the bowls in his hands, a scowl on his
I groan, “I’m on everyone’s bad side today.”
Tao chuckles pulling me in for a tight hug, placing a soft kiss on the
top of my head, “You gave us a heart attack. We are just trying to calm down
from the fact that you being in the police station gave us such scary feeling.”
I just nod, internally debating on the meaning of is words. We’re they worried
about why I was arrested or because I could have spilled the beans on what is
going on here? He doesn’t give me much time to think about it before pushing me
in the direction of the kitchen. “Go make up with him. He doesn’t cook good when
Sighing I step into the beautiful kitchen to see Soo at the sink washing
the dishes. Approaching him slowly is the best option I can think of, that is
until I’m half way to him and he turns around, completely unamused by my
sneaking. With his glare on me I straighten, preparing for a scolding or at
least some words from the heart shaped mouth of his but nothing comes. He turns
around to continue his dishes, something that shouldn’t annoy me, but still
does. I take the last few steps to him, wrapping my arms around his waist for a
firm back hug.
“I’m doing the dishes,” His voice is like ice.
“I’m trying to give you my love,” I tease back, hoping to crack the
coldness around him. When he says nothing I leave a few kisses on the back of
his neck, a shiver runs threw his body.
“I’m upset with you baby.” He continues his motions.
“So I’ve heard, what are you upset about? The getting arrested? Jihyo
“Did you cry?” He asks softly.
“When your dad told you that you couldn’t eat with them anymore, did you
“No,” I sigh, “I was happier eating alone. No one was there to make
comments on my thinning face and body. They couldn’t tell me how ungrateful I
was. It was when I first started to realize that I don’t need them and that made
me feel strangely peaceful.” He doesn’t say anything for a few minutes, I feel
like he’s still upset with me.
“You are a very good cook,” He finally says.
I smile, “That’s such a big compliment coming from a cook like yourself.”
He hums in response. There is another moment of silence before he says,
“Where did you learn to make that?”
I hesitate answering, afraid to make him upset again. When I don’t answer
he stops doing the dishes, turns around in my arms to look at me. His eyes are
concerned as if he knows, “When there was nothing else to eat I would take the
leftover rice and the few things I could find around the kitchen and make
something like that. It just happened to become one of my favorite things to
eat growing up.”
“I’m going to be heading out,” Jihyo busts into the kitchen, dressed in
her outfit from last night. I let go of Soo to hug my friend goodbye.
“I’ll see you at school,” I say as we hold each other.
“Call me if you need anything, like an escape route or fake passport,”
She teases, ignoring the daggers Soo and even Lay and Chen are giving her.
“Stop saying things like that, you are going to give them a heart
attack.” With one more tight squeeze we release each other, both Lay and Chen
kiss the top of my head before leading her out. Soo’s arms are around me in a
second, he lifts me up on to the counter, his hips are in between my legs.
“I’m sorry you had to do that,” He whispers as he leaves soft kisses
across my collarbone. “I’m sorry I wasn’t there to help you, to take care of
Cupping his face I bring his lips to mine, kissing him softly, “You are
doing a wonderful job now.” His hands slip underneath the t-shirt I’m wearing,
his hands are hot against my skin. I don’t have the shirt on a moment later,
either does he a second after. Our lips join together again, moving slowly,
enjoying the taste of the other. I can’t help but nibble on his bottom lip,
earning me a small moan from the boy. With his hands on my hips again he pulls
me closer so I can feel the length growing in his pants. My arms around his
neck, deepening the kiss and pulling him closer, not wanting there to be any
space in between us.
“I’m going to be a little rough, okay?” He warns me between kisses.
I chuckle at his cuteness, “Go right a head.” With my permission he unzips
his pants and takes out his already very hard manhood. My brows go up, “I
didn’t think our conversation was something that could get you like this.”
“All I can think about is how much I want take care of you, to make you
happy, to make you feel good.” His hot kisses start at my shoulder, leaving
small red marks in his wake. A little moan leaves my lips, how can such little
kisses set my insides on fire, it feels so unfair that he can do this to me.
I’m too distracted by the kisses to stop him pulling my panties to the side
until he slams himself in me, balls deep.
It’s not a little moan the slips threw my lips, instead, a very loud,
“Oh baby such a dirty mouth,” He chuckles, pressing those heart shaped
lips to mine.
“I already know Lulu is going to scold me, I don’t want to hear it from
you too,” I groan out, trying relaxing myself with his massive length in me.
Thank god he gives me a minute or two to adjust to his size before he begins
moving. Even then the strokes are slow and teasing, like it always is with Soo.
Him, Suho, and Chen are all the gentle type regardless of how many times I
slept with them, the others enjoy both gentle and rough. “What happened to
being rough?” I tease as I buck my hips for some more friction. He slams into
me, another line of swear words fly out of my mouth.
He says nothing, only groans when he picks up the pace, fucking me for
all he’s worth. His face is in the crook of my neck, his hands are gripping my
hips so tight there will be bruises, not that I mind. My walls are clenching
tightly around him as the knot in my stomach curls tighter and tighter. Just as
I’m about to find my release he stops, I open my mouth to complain but he pulls
himself out completely before pulling me off the counter and bending me over
the island. I claw at the granite when he slams back in me.
“Daddy,” I whine softly when he doesn’t being pumping, just buries
himself in me.
“What baby?” He teases.
“Please,” I try to beg but he quickly pulls out and slams back into me
before I can get the words out, only moans escape my mouth.
“Please what baby?”
“Faster,” Is all I’m able to get before he does it again. “God damn!”
“Wrong name baby,” I can hear the grin in his voice.
“Kyungsoo,” I moan softly.
“Yes my beautiful baby?”
I beg, “Please go faster.”
“Since you asked so nicely,” He kisses my shoulder before pounding in
again like before, filling me so good.
“I’m so close,” I whisper, my hands try to hold on to anything as the
pressure in my center continues to build.
His pumps become more erratic, he leans forward and whispers in my ear.
“Come for me baby.”
The next few chapters are for her birthday so I’ll upload all of those tomorrow night! Hope you all have a good night! Enjoy!
A/N: Okay, so. I saw this EXO pocket-sized fanart on pinterest and got inspired to write this. So please enjoy this pocket-sized fic with our lovely Kim Jongdae. ((Have no clue how long this will be. Oh well))
When you came home from work that day, you didn’t expect to find your apartment a complete mess.
“What in the world?”
You walked to the small kitchen, it in a mess as well, and placed your keys and purse on the counter. You heard yelling coming from down the hall that lead to your bedroom, followed by the sound of little feet running on the wooden floors.
“(Y/N)! You’re home!”
You looked to see Jongdae, or Chen as he wished to be called, running up to you. You sighed softly and gently picked him up, placing his small figure on the counter, crossing your arms with a stern look.
“Jongdae”, you said, using his real name. Chen let out a nervous laugh. You rarely called him by his actual name, and when you did, Chen knew he was in trouble.
“Uh…How was work?” Chen asked, trying to seem as innocent as possible.
“You were riding the cat again, weren’t you?” You said, already knowing the answer. Your cat, Smoothie, hopped on the counter as soon as that left your mouth, her fur all in a mess. Chen smiled widely at you.
“We made 3 laps in 45 seconds. It’s a new record!”
“Chen, we’ve talked about this. No riding the cat! What if you got hurt?” You sighed. Chen only shrugged innocently. He smiled widely.
“I’m sorry, (Y/N). But, come on. It was fun!” he chuckled. Chen watched as you rose a brow at him, giving him a look that said ‘I-still-said-no-riding-the-cat’. You saw a familiar glint in Chen’s eyes. “Chen, don’t you do it.” You watched as a cute pout graced his face.
“But, (Y/N), I said I was sorry…Won’t you forgive me?” he said. You began to feel guilty. Boy, did he have you wrapped around his finger when he did that. One pout like that, and he could get away with anything. The longer you stared at him, the more precious looking he got.
“Damnit, Chen. Okay, I forgive you” you groaned. You laughed lightly as he jumped up, a cheer leaving his lips.
“But!” You said catching his attention. “You’re going to help me clean this place up.” Chen held his hand to salute, a serious expression his face. “Aye aye, captain!”
A giggle left you as you gently picked him up and placed him on the floor.
“Will you get the things you can pick up while I change?” You asked. Chen sent you a smile and nodded before running off. You headed to your room and sighed in relief that it wasn’t a disaster like the rest of the place. You quickly changed into comfortable clothing and went to clean with Chen. After about 3 hours, you finally managed to clean the entire apartment.
You slumped on the couch with a tired sigh. You jumped slightly in surprise when Chen began to climb up your leg. Once he was on the couch, he moved to rest on your lap. You gently ruffled his hair with your finger, earning a laugh from him. You smiled as Chen hugged your finger.
“You’re my favorite giant”, he said smiling up at you. A giggle escaped you.
“Wanna have a movie marathon? You can choose” You said. Chen’s face lit up and you laughed as he quickly climbed off your lap. “Help me down, please?” he said shyly as he stood at the edge of the couch, remembering he was too small to jump down or he’ll get hurt. You nodded and set him on the ground, watching amused as he sprinted to the movie cabinet.
“Want popcorn?” You said standing. You heard a loud ‘yes’ from the movie cabinet and laughed, walking into the kitchen to get some popcorn.
Once the popcorn was finished and in a bowl, you walked in to see Chen dragging a movie case on the ground. You lightly shook your head and set the bowl on the small table in the living room and walked over to help.
Chen nodded excitedly and you smiled. You quickly put in the first movie and got comfortable on the couch with Chen resting on your shoulder. You handed him a piece of popcorn, giggling as he struggled to hold it with his little hands. He pouted at you and you took it from him and split it in half so he could hold it better. He gave you a large smile and nibbled the popcorn.
A little longer than halfway, you noticed Chen had fallen asleep, that one piece of popcorn still in his hand. You lightly chuckled, seeing as it was still his first piece and he’d only managed to eat half.
You set the half-empty bowl of popcorn on the table and slowly stood. You managed to get Chen in the palm of your hand without waking him up. You silently awe’d as he little figure curled up in your palm. You quietly walked to your room and laid him on the pillow of your bed. You covered him with a blanket you made yourself and quietly walked back to the living room to finish the movie.
By the middle of the second movie, you fell asleep on the couch.
→ mafia!park chanyeol → in which two respectively fucked up people found a way to love each other despite the warning signs. → word count: 3k → pt 1 // pt 2 // pt 3 // pt 4 // pt 5 // pt 6 // pt 7 // pt 8 // → song of the chapter: leaving tonight by the neighbourhood
“So what do you want to do Y/N?” I asked, walking around in HQ. Suho had assigned me to watch Y/N for the next few nights since I primarily work with drug deals and hostages, but since there wasn’t anything scheduled for me that night and rest of the week and the rest of the guys should be busy, it turned into my job to watch the five year old. “We could play hide and seek!” Y/N yelled, bouncing around the ‘living room’ of HQ, “inside voice please Y/N, and you wanna play with just the two of us?” she didn’t seem to pay attention to the first part of my sentence. She ran up to me putting her small hands on my knees and looking up at me “Yeah! We can play with just the two of us, can’t we?” she smiled excitedly waiting for me to give the ok. “I guess we can, do you wanna hide first or do you want me to” I leaned forward putting my hands over her shoulders, they completely disappeared under my large hands. “I count, you hide” she said pointing at both us to prove her point. I got up and lead her to the center of the room so she wouldn’t run into anything when she opened her eyes.
“Alright, you cover your eyes and count to ten and I will go hide, sound good?” I looked down at her, letting go of her hands and getting ready to hide. “Ok, One, one thousand two, one thousand” she covered her eyes and began to count. As soon as her eyes were covered I took off down the hall running to my room, hiding behind the door. Making sure it was an easy hiding place for her to find, not wanting to make it too difficult for the five year old. “Ready or not here I come!” I heard her yelling into the empty HQ, her little feet stomping down the halls, loud enough for me to here from where I was hiding. I could hear her opening and closing doors down the hall, knowing who they belonged to and how close they were to me. She would take a few minutes at each room, checking all the room then leaving.
I could hear her just outside of my room, standing on the other side of the door. She turning the knob opening the door, it swung open hidding my figure behind it, she came inside the room searching for me. I could see her small body searching under the bed, stand up and move over to the closet. Just as she opened the closet I tiptoed out of my spot and snuck up behind her, as soon as I was directly behind her I grabbed her under her arms lifting her into the air “gotcha!” she shrieked with laughter as I held her above my head. “Baek! Put me down” she yelled trying to wiggle free of my grip. “You wanna be put down? Alright” I put her down but as she started to move away, I grabbed her again and began to tickle her sides. She began shrieking again and fell to the floor on her knees, giggling and trying to push my hands away from her sides. “Baek stop! I’m gonna pee!” she yelled finally getting me to stop, she finished giggling and got up onto her feet. “It’s my turn now, you count and I get to hide!” she smiled up towards me “alright ten seconds right?” I asked “no, twenty ” she said grinning mischievously “twenty? Why twenty?” I was curious why she had suddenly changed the rules “so I can find a good hiding spot, you’re hiding spot wasn’t very good” she laughed, thinking how I didn’t have a good spot “uh, fine twenty” I said. I turned my body away so I was facing the wall and began to count “one, one thousand two, one thousand” I heard her giggle and take off down the hall.
I reached twenty and began to search for her, going right as I could hear her footsteps going that direction when she ran off. I thought of all the places a five year old would go, beginning by going to each rooms. I searched and couldn’t find her in any of them, confused I moved to my next option I went to the supply closet, opening the door there was nowhere she could hide that wouldn’t have been obvious, it was a small room, so I moved on. The only other place this way was Suho’s office, I went up the stairs and into his office searching all the possible hiding spots in there. She wasn’t in there either, I began to get worried if she wasn’t this way then I wasn’t sure where she would be, jogging I went back to the living room and began to search everything that way. She wasn’t anywhere over there either, I began to panic, where could a five year old hide in a gang HQ anyway. There wasn’t a lot of places she could fit, the doors were locked which means she would need a key to leave or one of the members to take her out. She had to be inside the building.I started searching everything again, she had to be here, she had to be.
By the time I had checked everywhere at least seven more times the guys came back, which meant she had been missing for over two hours. “Hey Baekhyun, what you looking for?” Chen asked accompanied by the rest of the guys, the routine for the night over. “Well you see… um I may have kind of um lost Y/N?” I said coming out more like a question, Suho pushed his way forward from behind Chanyeol and Sehun “you what?” he asked glaring at me “well you see, we were playing hide and go seek and I haven’t found her yet, so technically she isn’t lost” I said trying to avoid punishment. “Alright well how ‘long’ has she been hiding?” he crossed his arms across his chest leaning back, standing straight up “um well… maybe like almost three hours” I said, my voice progressively getting quieter as I spoke. “ALMOST THREE HOURS!” this time it was Sehun to yell, he was oddly attached to her. “Um yeah” I said “we need to find her, she’s probably scared by now, she couldn’t have left so she is still inside the building. Everyone split up and look for her” Suho said, everyone ran off into different directions in search for Y/N.
For an hour we still couldn’t find her, we had all searched everywhere and came back to the living room to discuss “how can we not find her, we’re a god damn mafia group for god’s sake, she’s a five year old girl!” Xiumin yelled into the room, not speaking directly to anyone. We all went quiet after that, only able to hear our own breathing and suddenly a cry. We all turned our head towards Sehun’s room where the cry had come from, running in that direction we burst into his room. Looking around we still couldn’t see her but we could hear her crying “Y/N where are you?” Sehun called into the room. “Over here” we heard from his closet, we all ran towards it, Sehun was the closest and reached it first, he yanked the doors open looking into it looking confused “where Y/N?” he asked, we still couldn’t see her yet she was clearly in there. “Back here” her arm emerged from a corner of the closet behind a wood piece “I’m stuck, please help” she asked. Sehun reached forward and pulled the plank away leaving enough space for her to squeeze through “Y/N what happened?” he asked kneeling in front of her shaking form “I found the empty space and thought it was a good hiding spot but I got stuck and couldn’t get out” she cried latching onto Sehun. “Have you been in there the whole time?” I asked, looking down at her small sobbing form “Yeah, I thought it was ok at first, but then you didn’t find me so I tried to get out and got stuck! It was so scary, I thought you were never going to find me” she cried hugging tighter to Sehun. “I’m sorry Y/N I tried to find you but, you were just too well hidden, I tried to find you. I promise I would never leave you alone” I said trying to reassure her, she pushed away from Sehun a little and he used his sleeves to wipe away her tears “it’s ok Baek, I know you didn’t mean to” she let go of Sehun all together and walked up to me. I leaned down so I was the same height as her opening my arms so she could hug me. She walked into my waiting arms putting her head on my shoulder, I stood from my kneeling position with her still in my arms “why don’t we go to bed, it’s been a long day and I’m sure you’re tired” I said looking into her eyes, she nodded her head. Putting her head back into my shoulder “Ok say goodnight to the guys and I will tuck you in alright?” I put her down on her own feet so she could give all the guys a hug and a kiss on the cheek. She ran up to each member, them rather leaning down to her height or in Sehun’s case picking her up and spinning her around giving her a big sloppy kiss on the cheek, her giggling all the while. He set her down and she waddled back towards me, I picked her up and brought her out of the room the guys calling goodnight as we exited the room. “Baek can I sleep with you tonight?” she asked as we started to approached her room “of course Y/N” I stopped walking, turning around and walking back to my room.
We got to my room and I pulled back the covers for her to lay down, as soon as she was under blanket I took my jacket off and laid down next to her. I pulled her body close to mine, my arms wrapping all the way around her, kissing her on the forehead. “Goodnight Y/N, I promise to never let you get lost again” I said into her hair, muffling the sound “I know oppa, goodnight, I love you.”
All right so that was the first chapter of my exo mafia series, hope you guys like it!
He lays me on his bed, my dress already discarded the minute we entered
the room, leaving me in my white bra and underwear. A handsome grin spreads
across his face, “Tao had the right idea putting that on you.” Next thing to go
is his shirt, followed by his sweatpants before he begins crawling up his bed
to get to me. “You look so beautiful like this.” I find myself blushing under
his intense gaze as he is leaning over me. His arms are on either side of my
head, his hips are in between my legs. “I’m going to go slow so you tell me if
you want me to stop, okay?”
I nod. He leans in close, placing a soft kiss on my lips before making
his way along my jaw, down my neck, and all over my chest. My heart is beating
so fast I’m surprised he can’t hear. With one more kiss right in between my
breasts he glances up at me as he uses the front clasp to remove the cloth in
his way. With that gone he continues his sweet kisses that send electricity
threw my body, making my lower half tingle. His mouth finds my right nipple, a
small whimper leaves my mouth, something that makes the older man smile.
“That was beautiful, do it again,” He continues his sucking and nibbling
on my breast before switching to the other one that has been neglected. More
moans slip from my lips as I arch my back for more contact.
“Daddy that feels so good.” He goes lower and lower until his kisses
reach my clothed womanhood. I squeak at the tingling sensation making him
chuckle. My underwear is quickly removed giving him the access he wants.
“I love the way you taste,” He kitten licks my sensitive little bud and
my hips buck up the wonderful sensation. His hands grip my hips tighter as he
continues with his teasing. I whine, the older smirks, “What baby? I told you
we were going slow.”
“But not this slow!”
“What do you want me to do baby? Fuck you up against the wall? You are
too tight for that, I need to get you ready.”
“I am ready!”
He chuckles again, “Are you really baby?” He surprises me buy slipping a
single finger into me making me clench. “Oh, you’re so wet, but still so tight,
you gotta relax.” His finger moves in and out of me slowly at first before
picking up the pace, a moan leaves my lips again. My walls clench tighter as he
adds another finger, stretching me slightly. More pumping is followed by his
tongue returning to my little button of nerves, no more kitten licks. I can’t
help myself but to lace my fingers threw his hair, holding him to me.
“Daddy right there!” I groan, his fingers curl to reach my sweet spot
making my toes curl at the tingling sensation. I let out small breathy moans,
the knot in my stomach gets tighter and tighter as he continues to torture me
with his pace. He adds another finger, filling me so good, the slight pain is
bearable with him sucking on my bundle of nerves. Soon the stretch and the
pleasure are gone, leaving me whimpering for more.
“Are you sure you’re ready baby?” He kisses his way back up my body, his
lips find my quickly. I can taste myself on his lips as he kisses me deeply,
trying not to leave any part of my mouth untouched. When he pulls away I nod,
taking deep breaths to try and relax myself at least a little. “Use your
“Yes daddy. I’m ready.”
With one more peck he quickly pulls a condom out of his bedside table and
slipping it on before returning to his position in between my legs. He rests
most of his weight on his elbows, my hands find his biceps and hold on for dear
life as I feel his manhood at my entrance. Oh so slowly he pushes it in, my
nails dig into his skin as my walls clench around him making him stop for a
Threw grit teeth he growls out, “Baby, I need you to relax, you are so
tight. I’m trying to go slow but if you keep this up I’m going to fuck you in
the mattress until you can’t walk for a week.” His words soak me to the bone
but I force myself to take a few deep breaths to ease the tension surrounding
his member. He continues his intrusion, stretching me more and more until tears
are pricking in my eyes at the burning pain. My bottom lip is in between my
teeth, keeping me from letting out the small cries that are trying to slip out
of my mouth. “I will make you feel so good baby, don’t cry, the pain will go
away, I promise.” He kisses the tears that had slipped down my cheek.
His face is in the crook of my neck when he is fully in me, he is fisting
the sheets on either side of my head, doing his best to control himself. After
a minute or two, when the burning feeling subsides I take another deep breath
before saying, “Move.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yes daddy, move.”
Just as slowly as he pushed in, he pulls out, then back in, out, in, out,
in. Just as I begin to think he was lying about the pain, he grinds himself into
me, hitting the same spot from before. I moan, “Oh fuck.”
“Found it,” He chuckles before doing it again, only harder. His pace
continues to be agonizingly slow; the tightening knot in my belly needs a
little more. I let my hands travel down to my breasts, but I only squeeze them
once before my hands are pinned above my head and he thrusts into me hard,
hitting that spot just right.
“Daddy!” I basically scream in pleasure.
“I told you baby, no touching yourself. The only thing that will be
making you cum is me,” Another thrust, “Understand?”
“Yes!” I groan.
“Good girl,” He smirks. “Now tell me baby, how does it feel?”
“It’s feels so good.”
“Should I go faster?”
I nod, too focused on his hips grinding against mine.
He stop moving, balls deep, he growls, “Answer me.”
“Please fuck me faster.”
He chuckles, “You have such a dirty mouth. I’m not fucking you baby,
remember that. This is making love. I’m not touching you completely out of
lust, I’m doing this to prove how much I love you. To remind you that you
belong to us, that you will never be leaving, understand?”
A blush spreads across my face at his words and his hip movements,
“Daddy…” I groan as he picks up his pace. Our fingers are interlocked above my
head, I hold on tighter as he begins to ram into me, making me scream in
“I want you to scream my name as you cum baby, yell it for everyone to
here so they all know that I’m the first to make you completely mine,” He
groans in my ear as his thrusts become faster and sloppier. My breathless moans
fill the room along with his almost animalistic groans until the knot in both
of us finally bursts.
“I’m gonna kill him!” I hear Kris whisper. I don’t open my eyes just yet
as I try to remember where exactly I am. Xiumin’s room. Oh yeah, I lost my
virginity to Xiumin last night after I busted in crying about how no one likes
me, god I’m stupid. But oh my god that was so good. Never in my life did I
imagine loosing my virginity would feel that good.
“At least it wasn’t Jiyong,” Suho pipes in. Why are they all in here?
It’s Wednesday, don’t they have work or something, shit, I have school. But
that isn’t enough to convince me to get out of bed. It actually makes me dive
deeper into Xiumin’s embrace.
“I’m jealous,” Luhan whines, I can hear the pout in his voice.
“You should just shut up and get out before you wake her up,” Xiumin
growls, turning his head to glare at his younger brothers.
“Were you gentle with her?” Lay worries, making me laugh. Oh daddy Lay,
always so cute.
“He was very nice, don’t worry,” I chime in peeking out from the covers.
“Do you hurt anywhere?” He comes around to the edge of the bed to look at
“I haven’t really moved at all, and given the option I would prefer not
to for awhile.”
Xiumin tightens his grip around me, “I can agree with that.”
“How was your night out?” Chen asks with a kind smile, of course he is
the one to ask a question not related to my lost virginity, thank you Chenchen.
“It was really fun, I forgot what it was like to go out with friends, it
feels like it was another life.”
“I’m happy you had fun,” Suho sighs, “It’s going to become a regular
“What?” The whole room, including me, yells.
“Jiyong has made the request, but it was definitely a demand, to get you
every Tuesday night until further notice.” The room busts out in complaints and
cuss words and lots of things I’m sure I was not supposed to catch. “Everyone
calm down,” Suho yells firmly. “This isn’t up for discussion, that is unless
our baby doesn’t want to do it.” They all look at me.
I shrug, “I have no issue with it. I like talking to him.”
“So you like him better than us?” Sehun huffs.
“No I do not like him better than you. It’s just nice to have a friend I
can talk about this kind of stuff
with. I can’t ask Jihyo about any of this, Jiyong is a really good listener and
he gives good advice. I want to keep hanging out with him.”
They let out a loud whiny sigh, “Fine,” Kai decides, “I guess we can’t
fight it as long as she is happy.”
“Now that that is settled,” I smile before snuggling back into Xiumin’s
“No, school,” Suho reminds me.
“But Dad!” I whine.
“She’s staying,” Xiumin decides holding me tighter.
“We’re calling in sick today?” Chanyeol grins before slipping in bed
“Ya! Get out,” Xiumin tries to kick Chanyeol off the bed.
“Leave him alone,” I swat at the older, rolling over to lay against the
“No, no, no, my baby,” Xiu whines.
Luhan climbs up the bed to get in between Xiumin and I, successfully
almost knocking the older out of the bed, “You get her all the time Hyung, we
want some time with her.”
“Dog pile!” Baekhyun declares as he charge the bed with Chen, Kai and
Sehun tailing him. I can’t help but laugh as chaos breaks out and I’ve never
been so thankful for Xiumin helping me get my underwear back on last night as
the blanket is ripped away. People are kicking and laughing and Kris is
swearing as he joins the fight. My insides tingle at the chaotic scene going on
in front of me, never in my life have I felt so warm and happy.