I am thinking of what you’re doing now and if you had your meal. Do you even think of me? I miss how things used to be. How we were before and how things have changed. Love is not a game and so as the feeling of a person. You know how much i love you and how the words i’ve said came straight from the heart. I was never mad at you. And it’s funny because no matter how hurt i am right now because of you, i still want to hug you at this very moment.
You told me that you will never hurt and will never leave me. You promised things, and of course i believed in you. I am no longer that little kid who do not understand the things around me, i am now that lady who who understand things and i wished it didn’t hurt this much. I love you, i really do. And if you’re going to ask me now, i’ll still whisper the words i always say to you.
I just miss you so much. I miss who you were and the things that you did to me. I miss your voice, the way you call my name, your laugh. I miss everything about you and it hurts to miss someone who doesn’t miss you. Right now i feel so broken because of you but i’m not blaming you. Don’t be so stubborn, i can no longer be there to remind you to all the things that you need to do, i can’t be there now to remind you to always eat on time, to take care of yourself, not to do the things that’s bad for your health, i can’t be there now, but i am praying to God to take good care of you. Don’t worry, i am just here watching you from a far, i am not going anywhere cause i want to fulfill all my promise to you even if you failed to fulfill yours.
I want you to be happy and i really hope that you’re happy now. And if you’re not happy with me then maybe it’s better just let you go. It hurts, do you know that? I don’t even know how to get up every morning. It really hurts, it hurts so damn much. I wish it doesn’t hurt this much. So here i am now, broken. It’s funny how you told me that you won’t hurt me yet what you made me feel is triple as the pain i’ve felt before. I hope i can do something to lessen the pain. I’m sorry that i wasn’t enough to keep you with me. But i want you to know that i love you. I love you so much. And maybe someday, everything will make sense.
Remember that i love you, always will.