@ahshesgone‘s latest drawing made me gush and fangirl so hard and sooo much that I got Ash into having an art trade with me!!! :DDD *throws confetti around* I’m so happy and soooo insecure that I messed this up sob
Ash requested a pencil drawing from me with Soul and Maka being domestic… and I pimped it a bit with digital colors to not have it too dirty and dull… I hope you like it Ash! ;u; ♥
Really really dom cal/ash threesome where they’re your daddies and punish you but then cute aftercare and PLEASE I NEED THIS
Could you please do a threesome 5sos smut with ashton calum and the reader? The one u did with reader cal and Mikey was amazing!!! You are an amazing writer omfg!!!!
“We’ve got to get you ready baby” Calum mumbled against my lips. “Ashton will be home soon and he’s not in a good mood princess so you need to cheer him up”
“Why’s daddy Ash in a bad mood” I sighed. Calum’s hands slid down my waist as he nestled his head into my neck looking into the mirror.
“He got told off at work, he was so pissed princess”
“Is he going to punish me?” I whispered.
“Of course princess” Calum smirked, kissing lightly over my neck. This is how most Monday’s go. Calum would be home early from recording in the studio and Ashton would be pissed. You were there princess which meant each monday you had to pre-pare for them to come home. You honestly don’t remember how it started but you adored both men. They were both your daddy’s, Ash being the more kinky rough and Calum being more love rough.
Calum had you in his and Ashton’s shared apartment and you were in Calum’s room. You were stood in black lace underwear with stockings. Calum had picked it out for today’s activities and to be honest the black lace was my favourite. Calum reached down for the cat ears and placed them on my head. I walked over to Calum’s dresser which had my make-up bag on it. I tend to stay here a lot, I practically live with them. I grabbed the pencil eyeliner and walked back over to the mirror. Cal was sat on the bed twirling around the black tail butt plug. I undid the lid of the eyeliner and flung my hair off my cheek. I drew three lines across my cheek giving me a wisker effect and did the same to my other cheek. I placed the eyeliner down and turned to look at Cal. The fur of the tail sliding around his fingers and he smirked at me.
“C’mere baby girl, bring the lube” I grabbed the strawberry flavoured lube and walked over to Cal. I placed the lube on the bed and bent over Calum’s lap. He ran his fingers up my back, over my ass and he pulled my panties to the side. He poped open the lube and squirted some onto the butt plug, some of it dripping over my ass. He made sure the plug was covered in lube before sliding it down my ass crack, lathering it in the lube that had dripped. The tip of the plug, circled around my hole and Calum gently pushed it into me. I let out a hiss and clutched Calum’s jeans.
“Atta girl” he said, sliding it in all the way. He gave a slap to my ass and pulled me up. I looked in the mirror and twirled around. I wiggled my ass and watched the tail sway. I let out a giggle and looked back at Calum who was staring at my ass.
“Daddy” I whined. Calum looked up at me and smirked. God he looked so good with his drop dead t-shirt and his black jeans. I walked over to him and he leant back onto the bed. I climbed onto his waist, my groin pressed against his crotch and stroked my hands up his arms. His beautiful massive arms, one covered in the most amazing art and the other just pure naked, just how I liked Calum overall. I tucked my hands under his t-shirt and stroked up his beautiful brown body. Calum didn’t have a six pack or anything like that, but the small tummy he had was such a turn on. I leant forward and kissed Calum’s collar bones.
“Baby, if Ashton walks in on this he’s not going to be happy” Calum whined, but stroking over my back.
“So?” I smirked. I kissed up his body and he gave me a warning look. He licked over his lips as I got to his chin, kissing over it. His puppy brown eyes were watching my every move as I moved my lips towards his.
“You’re going to be in so much trouble” he whispered tilting his head to the side. His lips brushing against mine, instantly I felt myself getting wet. Not only by Calum’s words but I knew I’d be getting in trouble with Ashton.
“I don’t care” I smiled, I sucked onto his bottom lip as his eyes bore into mine. The brown eyes almost a black colour. I licked over his lip and pulled onto it a few times. My hands were on his waist and I grinded onto him. He let out a growl, one of his hands that rested on the bed coming to my face and pushing me off him. He closed his eyes, licking over my open lips and entering his tongue into my mouth. I sucked onto it and he run his tongue over my teeth. He took his tongue out of my mouth and he kissed me. I looked up at him and he kissed me again smiling. I heard a cough come from the door and I turned my head. Ashton was stood at the door with his arm’s folded and glaring at me.
“Sorry am I interrupting something?” he growled, I quickly climbed off of Calum’s lap and stroked my hair down.
“I warned her” Calum said eyeing me down. I shot him a glare as he stood up. Ashton walked over to me, but I took a step back. The pattern followed until my back hit the wall. Ashton smirked and my breath hitched in my throat. He stood in front of me and slammed his hand against the wall next to me.
“Don’t you fucking listen to Calum now sweetheart?” He groaned
“Of course I do” I smiled innocently
“Fucking liar” Calum spat and smiled at me wickedly. I shot a glare in his direction and Ashton’s face came closer to mine. He bit my jaw, I held onto my breath as his long fingers came up around my neck. He lightly tapped his fingers and his hand tightened. I felt his tongue poke out of his lips and he dragged it across my jaw. I reached down tugging on his shirt and lifting it over his head. My body shivered and Ashton’s other hand came down to my lace core. I stroked down Ashton’s chest and grabbed his bulge.
“Such a naughty girl” Ashton growled against my neck. Ashton’s hands tore my lace panties in half and threw them either side. I let out a gasp as he pushed my hips into the wall the butt plug pushing further into my ass. I let out a wince and Ashton fake pouted at me.
“Did that hurt baby?” Ashton pouted. I folded my arms against my chest and furrowed my eyebrows at him. He laughed and pushed me on the bed. I sat on the end of the bed as both boys took of there trousers. I reached around, pushing the butt plug that was slipping out back in, biting my lip. I looked back up and the boys were stood closer and there hips pressed together as there covered boners were in my face. I reached both my hands forward stroking over there bulges and licked my lips.
“Do you want our cocks princess?” Calum teased, running his finger through my hair. I nodded, squeezing there bulges and fluttering my eyelashes at them.
“Use your words”
“Yes daddy, I want your cocks” I moaned. Both men slipped there fingers under the waistband of there boxers and slid them down slowly. I didn’t know where to look because I was so close. I shuffled back and took in the sight. Boxers dropped to the floor and both dicks slapped up against there tummy’s. I swallowed thickly as Calum climbed on the bed. I leant back as he crawled next to me, sitting down stroking down my sides. Ashton came and sat the other side of me.
“Take our cocks baby” Ashton husked out. I spun myself around, so I was facing them. I stroked my hand up both of there thighs and bit my lip. I spat onto the palm of my hands and rubbed them together. I first took Ashton’s cock into my hand giving it a pump before grasping Calum’s. I shuffled forward a bit so that I was equally in the middle jerking them off. They both let out grunts as I pulled equally on there cocks. I swiped the tip of there cocks, Calum’s letting out a small dribble of pre-cum. I took my thumb in my mouth, licking over Calum’s cum and staring into Calum’s brown eyes. The corners of his mouth curved up into a smile and I shut my eyes moaning.
“Suck my cock princess” Ashton growled. I shook my head at Ashton and he furrowed his eyebrows and looked shocked as I bent towards Calum’s cock. I licked over Calum tip and smirked at Ashton. Calum let out a chuckle and I looked up at him. He was mouthing words to Ashton, who was not happy with me sucking on Calum’s cock, he roughly pulled onto my hair and I fell off the bed with Ashton catching me. He sat on the bed and bent me over his knee roughly.
“You fucking bad bad girl” Ashton hoarsely said. I giggled and Ashton’s hand came down onto my ass. I let out a moan and squeezed Ashton’s thigh.
“I want you too count pretty girl” Ashton grumbled. His hand came onto my other cheek, his fingers tapped against my ass as he waited for me to count.
“Two” I squeaked out as he stroked over my ass soothingly. I felt a small burning sensation but kept counting every time his hand slapped down. He spanked me a few more times and each time I let out a moan of a number. Each time the spanks got more harder with Ashton’s large hand covering the space of my ass.
“Nine” I whimpered out, a pool of wetness dripping down my leg and onto Ashton’s thigh. I felt another presences behind me as Calum had the last spank, hitting me so hard my ass cheek bounce like jelly and it stung like a bitch.
“Ten” I whispered getting off Ashton’s lap and clutching my ass. Ashton stroked over it and bit down on my hip as I rested into him. I giggled as Ashton strict demand was slowly fading as his cock was leaking and he stroked over my back.
“You’re such a good girl taking them spankings Y/N.” Calum grinned, he walked over to me and placed his hands either side of my face and pulled me in for a kiss. I moaned onto his chapped lips as Ashton played with my tail. I stroked over Calum’s chest and wrapped my arms around his neck. I sucked onto his lip as Ashton thrusted the buttplug in and out of me. Ashton ran his fingers over my back and unclipped my bra. I dropped my arms from Calum’s neck and the bra fell off my arms.
Calum lightly pushed me back onto the bed and I fell back with him, he had his tongue in my mouth as he sucked down on my lip. I crawled up the bed with him and threaded my hands through his hair. I felt his dick slide against my pussy as he hovered over me. My body shivered and I pushed my hip up into his beautiful long cock. He let out a laugh and wet my lips licking over them and leaving a trail of salvia as he pushed his head up.
“How do you want it princess?” he said whilst licking over his lips. I ran my thumb over his lips and he sucked onto it.
“Hands and knees, daddy” I moaned as his tongue licked up my thumb.
“Dirty girl” Cal whispered pulling me up and flipping me over. Ashton came up in front of me as I looked up at him. I opened my mouth and stuck out my tongue he tapped his cock onto my tongue and licked the corner of his mouth. I felt Calum move my tail buttplug against my ass, resting it on my back. I sucked onto Ashton’s tip as they both roughly thrusted into me. I let out a choke around Ashton’s cock as he held my head.
“Take it Y/N” Ash growled. I sucked onto Ashton’s thick cock as Calum started moving inside my pussy. I moaned around Ashton’s cock feeling Calum’s long smooth rub against my walls. Ashton pushed further down my throat and I coughed around him. He pulled out, a string of salvia attached to his cock, I gave a deep inhale and rested my head on his happy trail for a second whilst Calum moved inside me.
“You like my cock pounding into you Y/N?” Calum questioned. I whined pushing back onto him and licking over Ashton’s cock. Calum’s hand came slamming down on my ass and jolted forward head butting ashton’s lower abdomen. The sharp sting went through my body, I kissed over Ashton’s dick, trig to relive some of that tension. He grabbed a hold of his dick and slid it into my mouth and rotated his hips, lifting one of his legs so that one of his feet were flat against the bed. I swallowed around him feeling his pre-cum dribble down my chin.
“Such a pretty toy for us to use” Ashton moaned. I clawed at his thighs as he let out several groans, I could tell he was close because his groans were getting more frequent and louder. I also felt his cock throb inside my mouth. I started deep throating him the tip of his cock hitting the back of my throat.
“I’m gonna- ohh” he moaned. Hot spurt of cum were realised down my throat and I swallowed it up tasting the salty flavour. Ashton pulled out of me and ran his fingers through my hair. I grinded back on Calum feeling my pussy quiver.
“Fuck” I whimpered, sliding up and down Calum’s wet dick. Calum reached underneath me rubbing my clit in his fingers. I threw my head back and Calum smacked my ass. I rocked up and down onto Calum and I felt myself cum undone.
“Cum for your daddies Kitten” Ashton smirked. Calum relentlessly pounded into me and my pussy clenched around his dick as I came. I shut my eyes and fell forward into Ashton’s hands that were keeping me upright. My pussy shook and I whined out, Calum didn’t stop thrusting and my pussy was overly sensitive.
“Shit” I moaned into his hands. Ashton pulled my face up and kissed my lips as I moaned into his. Calum clutched my hips and roughly brought mine to his as he came inside me, his hips shaking. I pulled up and Calum’s dick slid out of me and kissed Ashton.
“Lets get this make-up off of ya” Ashton smiled, grabbing my make-up wipes from the side.He pulled one out the packet and wiped it over my eyes and cheeks. The coldness making me cool down from how sweaty I actually was. I turned round on the bed and laid down, pushing my hair out of my face and Calum and Ashton laid down next to me.
I never listen to podcasts but my friend Ash @cruzmylene (she is part of the podcast) is always very, very nice to me, and she gave me a transcript before the episode. As Ash explained to me, Aziz was interested in being unbiased and exploring every possibility related to Joanna for the podcast, so of course he included things like A+J=T and discussions of A*rys/Joanna, which obviously aren’t my thing. (Is there anyone who is surprised about this? Nobody should be surprised here, I express my thoughts loudly and often.)
I think I interpreted various passages in TWOIAF differently from Aziz, and I have some unique ideas about Tywin and Joanna that I have never seen anyone anywhere on the internet express, so I think what I will do in the future is write another Joanna Lannister essay discussing my own interpretations. My previous long-form essay on Joanna was written well before TWOIAF was published, and it is grossly out of date.
Just from the transcript, I think Aziz did a great job and he was amazingly thorough. I just. Don’t like some of those theories though.
Is anyone flipping their shit about Cal or is it just me??
Ppl idk what is happening exactly but the rips in reality, the doubles, dark planet lit by no sun, the distant prince, ash beach and the tiny night vale are all related somehow? I need to write this down and think a bit on exactly how, though.
BY THE WAY did anyone notice that Cal might be/be related to the man in the tan jacket?
I have so much to digest after this ep u guys, come talk to me pls!
Holy shit this was like one if the first requests I ever got and I’ve been scared to answer it hahaha
I just got out from a long day at school and all I wanted to do was sleep but I had to go round to my best friend Michael’s house to drop of some work for him.
I let myself into his house as he gave me a key ages ago. I cluelessly walked up the stair to Michael’s room I was about to knock when I heard gruff moans. I turned around to leave thinking I mightn’t be interrupting him until something stopped me.
“Oh god. Y/N that feels so good”
Oh my god. I laughed quietly was Michael wanking while thinking of me?
I decided to walk straight into his room.
I looked to see him sitting back on his bed his head thrown back in pleasure as his hand moved in swift movements up and down his hard shaft. His tongue was poking out and he was a moaning mess. It was the hottest thing. I giggled causing his eyes to shoot open.
“Y/N” he smirked carrying on his movements while looking straight at me.
His body tensed and I could tell he was about to cum. I slowly stripped walking towards him and straddling him.
“So you think of me when you touch yourself” I smirked
“Oh god” I heard Luke’s deep moans coming from his bed room.
Is he cheating?
I stormed into the room shocking Luke as he stopped his action.
I threw my hand to my mouth as I held back a laugh.
He had been jerking himself off.
“Thank god for that” I sighed looking at a bright red flustered Luke.
“I’m so sorry Y/N I-I don’t think you’d been home so soon” he was so embarrassed bless him.
“It’s fine Luke. As long as you’re thinking of me” i winked before helping him finish off.
“Fuck Y/N…” I heard deep moans coming from the lounge. I had just popped into the kitchen to make some food when I heard Calum.
did he seriously think I wouldn’t hear him?
I walked back into the room seeing Calum in his state of pleasure. I bent over to change the DVD and heard him groan loud. I turned to give him a wink as he carried on his movement bitting his lip in a sexy manor.
God he was so hot.
“Shit” I heard Ashton say waking me up from my sleep. I opened my eyes to look next to me but he wasn’t there.
“Ash?” I asked “are you okay?” I called
“U-um give me a minu- oh god holy shit ugh” he moaned as I became confused.
“Ashton are you -” I started to laugh as I walked into the bathroom seeing him standing there moving his right hand up and down his length.
“Ashton! It’s like 6am you horny idiot” I laughed
“I’m sorry babe I couldn’t help my self it was your fault”
“How come?” I asked
“You were sleeping on top of me and kept moving and it wouldn’t go away” he said pointing down. “It was uncomfortable I had to do something!”
me and my mom left each of our tiny bags of my dad’s ashes out next to our beds before we went to sleep and woke up to them put back inside of their boxes!!!! we both thought the other person did it but it was neither of us it was my dad i know it and i feel safe and comfortable thank u dad :’)
Specifically: ending the control a person has over another person.
What You’ll Need: - Poppets of some kind, can be paper with names written on them or dolls. Preferably something degradable and burnable. - String - Pen/marker/writing utensil - Scissors - Fire/something to burn a poppet in - Trash
Instructions: 1. Any pre spell rituals you like to do, do them now. 2. Write the names of the people involved on to the papers/poppets. For example, I’m ending the control person A has on person B. As you write, say ‘this paper/poppet is A. This paper/poppet is B.’ 3. Tie string around A, leave some length, then tie the other end around B. Say ‘this string is the control A has over B’ 4. Take your scissors, cut the string (closer to B than to A), and say ‘I cut this string and break the control A has over B’ 5. Take B, and set B on fire while saying ‘I cleanse B from control and they will rise from the ashes’ Feel free to tack on any other descriptors you like. I’m fond of ‘rise from the ashes like a phoenix’ 6. Literally throw A away in the trash. The smellier and more rotten food trash is the best choice. When you throw A away, say ‘A’s control over B will rot in this trash’ 7. Any closing rituals.
This actually worked really well for me. After I did this, the friend that I did this spell for had a huge break through in their healing process. Not to mention telling someone who hurt your friend to rot in the fucking trash is super therapeutic for yourself too.
Shut Up U – Wa$$up // ₩atch & Learn – LiVii // Awful Boy (ft. Khan-S) – M-Zero// Black Mamba – Choi Sam // Crazy Diamond – Cheetah // Jessi vs. Kisum – Unpretty Rapstar // 달라 (Dolla) – Ash-B // Love Song – Jucy // Did It On’em (Cover) – Kisum // Hell and Back – Kasper // What Are You Looking At (Nada Solo) – Wa$$up // Sudden Attack Pt. 2 – Jucy // Puss (ft. Iron) – Jimin // 시선 (Gazes) – Choi Sam // Blacklist - HyunA
Shay this is urgent!! What fob songs are about Peterick?? Thanks!
hmmm like off the top of my head???? god.
disclaimer: all of this is headcanons, none’s confirmed or real, okay. NOW
imo folie was the peterick album. bc, according to my peterick theory, that’s when everything fell apart. thus angst. so
disloyal order - pete literally said the line “what a match i’m half doomed and you’re semi-sweet” is abt patrick and him. additionally patrick said this was one of his two fuck you songs @ pete where he was just so mad at him he made it how he wanted to and completely disregarded all of petes input
i dont care - the other fuck you song. also, okay, this is a headcanon, but i like to think “take a chance, let your body get a tolerance, i’m not a chance, put a heat wave in your pants” is abt patrick not liking teh bootysex and pete bein like…yknow. but thats a headcanon.
27 - my fav fob song ever, i just like pretending “my body is an orphanage” = slutty patrick but yknow realistically, probs doesnt
headfirst slide = ALRIGHT SO in my long ass peterick theory that i will eventually post, i elaborate, but basically some reports abt pete&ashlees divorce claimed he was cheating on her with a guy and that same year patrick put out the i in lie which majorly alludes to having an affair with a man. this song is abt having an affair too, and how passionate patrick got while performing it leads me to believe he had some kinda personal connection to the lyrics (which are abt an affair, yeah) yknow. idk
shipped gold standard - “i wanna scream i love u from the top of my lungs but im afraid that someone else will hear me” that soooo screams peterick lmao
shes my winona - i just like pretending the daddy bit equals daddy kink peterick but yKNOW
what a catch - literally nonromantic fluffy but angsty peterick fic as a song. i mean. god.
coffees for closers - idk this one just gives me vibes, idk..same with pavlove. just. listen. ull hear.
americas suitehearts - “im in love with my own sins”. i mean.
thnks fr th mmrs - “he tastes like you only sweeter” i fuckin
saturday - “me and pete attack the lost astoria” “me and pete in the wake of saturday” what gays?!?!?!?!?
sugar - the lyric in the booklet says “wishing to be the friction in HIS jeans”. my joetrick headcanon comes into this but. uknow. jealous pete ftw eh?
fourth of july - i wrote an angst fic abt this song lmao. it’s so peterick it makes me cry every time i listen to it. like, legit. every single lyric. i loved it as soon as i heard it - instant top five fob song. that’s an impressive feat. mostly bc peterick.
ginasfs - consult ashby lmaoo
the kids arent alright - “in the end id do it all again i think ur my best friend…and in urs when it rains it pours” I THINK THIS IS PETERICK LIKE CLOSURE AND IT MAKE ME WANNA DIE. at my concert pete leaned into patrick twice during this song. he hasnt done that i years.
nobody puts baby in the corner - one of my fav songs but also i like to think “ill be ur best kept secret and ur biggest mistake” is pete @ patrick u feel..but i think the rest of the song is petes ex gf u feel. but that line is peterick, i liek to think.
jet pack blues - ties into my affair theory. “did u ever love her, do you know”. makes me cri everytime. i kno ppl dont talk abt ash lee anymore but i think she got hurt as bad as pete did and it make me sad regardless of if patrick was involved or not
dark alley - patrick regrets putting it on the record, pete does too, he says it’s way too personal and they’ve never done it live and they never will. also, the lyric “kisses on the necks of best friends” was originally “kisses on the necks of ‘just friends’”. i think thats significant seeing as. yknow. pete smackin wet ones on patricks cheek/neck all the time on stage. what went on in private?
twin skeletons - the last official show fob ever played before the hiatus was in madison square garden. 10/4/09. that’s in new york. they probs had a hotel. pete&patrick probs were in the same room. shit probs went down. ugh.
a real life gem of a phone conversation it took me multiple playthroughs of alibi in ashes to experience:
george: how did the date go? ned: for a date set up under false pretenses with a girl who is not my girlfriend, shockingly bad. did you know that she’s mean even if she likes you? she said that a date with me was like taking a tour of a stuffed animal factory. at first it’s fun looking at the cute stuff, but then you get bored before it ends. and that was the nicest thing she said the whole time.
CONGRATS ON 2K OMG AHHHH!!! 🎉🎉 Could u do #2- Michael #12- Luke #13- Calum #14- Ashton? Love uuuu :) xx
(Aw thank you!🎉 Love you too :) xx)
“Are you sure about this Ash?”
“Almost one hundred percent.”
“Yeah, like eighty.”
“Ashton!” I hiss, spinning to face the curly haired boy. He grins, looking between me and the drop behind. He’d dragged me up to cliff dive, after getting the stupid idea from one of his friends the week before.
“Come on baby, Tom did it and he’s fine.” He smiles, looking around me and down to the water. “We’re not even that high.”
“Do you know what you’re doing? Seriously, not just you being reckless and spontaneous?” I beg, clutching his hand. “Because I really don’t want to die jumping off this stupid cliff all because Tom said-”
“Hey, I’m with you, okay? Always.” He says soothingly, his thumb dragging circles on my hand. “We aren’t going to die. I know what I’m doing, and you don’t have to do this, but I’m jumping off this cliff no matter what.”
“I just really don’t want to die.”
“Well if we do, at least it will be together.”
“Just kidding!” He giggles, dodging the punch I aimed at his shoulder. “Now, are you jumping or not?”
“You’ll be with me?”
“Duh.” Ashton rolls his eyes, already taking slow steps back towards the edge, pulling me with him. I nod, causing Ashton to grin.
We stand on the edge, toes already off the cliff, hands tightly clasped together.
“One more thing.” Ashton says, grabbing my face and kissing me hard. He pulls away with a smirk. “Just in case.”
I cringe as the door flings open, Michael storming in, the other boys in tow. I’m perched on the edge of the bed, and the nurse standing beside me turns to glare at him, looking back to me for reassurance that I knew the intruders. I nod, cringing as Michael comes to stop in front of me, visibly fuming.
“Have you lost your damn mind!?” He exclaims, the boys and me all cringing whilst the nurse continues to glare harshly.
“Excuse me,” She says, but I shake my head.
“It’s fine.” I reassure her.
“I’ll give you all some privacy then.” She says slowly, sending another glare to Michael as she leaves. Ashton whispers sorry to her on the way past.
I look back up at Michael, smiling weakly. He takes deep breaths as he tries to calm himself, and I take the opportunity to send a smile at the others.
“Dear Mikey, Ash, Luke and Cal, just popped to the hospital, I fell and my forehead is kind of sort of bleeding a lot. I’ll clean the blood off the floor when I get back. See you in a bit, Y/N.” Michael recites the note I left, looking at me incredulously.
“Yeah! I needed stitches, see?” I nod, pointing just above my left eyebrow.
“WIll it scar?” Calum asks.
“Not sure, I’ll ask when the nurse comes back.” I shrug.
“How did you even fall?” Luke chuckles.
“Excuse me,” Michael interrupts. “I think we’re all forgotten that Y/N left a note to say she’d gone to the hospital.”
“Well, you were in an interview.” I say. “I couldn’t interrupt.”
“You don’t leave a note! You call someone! How did you even get here?”
“Taxi.” I say, and I notice the boys try not to giggle behind Mike’s back. “The driver was really nice, kept checking I was okay, he didn’t leave until he knew I was being seen to, and he didn’t charge me.”
“Oh well as long as he didn’t charge you.” Michael scoffs, and I smile.
“I’m good Mikey. No brain damage, just some stitches, maybe a scar. That’s all.”
“You don’t leave a note!”
“I will remember that in case it happens again.”
I catch Luke’s eye from across the room for what feels like the hundredth time that night, before yet again averting my gaze to somewhere else. I sip my drink, attempting to pay attention to the conversation around me, but finding it difficult when I can still feel Luke’s eyes on me. Just as I finally manage to understand what’s going on, a hand rests on my hip, a pair of lips resting near my ear.
“I think we need to talk.” Luke mutters, and I swallow thickly before nodding. He grabs my hand, dragging me through the house and out into the front yard. He spins to face me, my breathing hitching for a second at how beautiful he looks. I glance at our still entwined hands, but Luke doesn’t let go.
“Can I go first?” He pleads, and I nod, shutting my mouth quickly. “I miss you. I miss you like crazy. And I don’t have a right to, I know that. It was my choice to let you go, but I shouldn’t have. I should have held onto you tighter than anything else, I know that now. And I’m so sorry Y/N. I’m sorry for the shit I’ve put you through. I don’t have the right to, but I still love you and I just need you to know that.”
I close my eyes as Luke finishes his speech, bouncing on my heels as I think about his words.
“You don’t deserve me.” I finally sigh, opening my eyes to face him. “I did nothing but love you Luke, and you tore me apart. You left, no warning, no chances to fix whatever you thought was broken. You just disappeared, and I had to deal with that.”
“I know.” He nods. “But I-”
“So you better come up with something more than an I love you to convince me that you’re worth risking my heart again.” I cut him off, staring up at him expectantly.
“I’m in love with you.” Luke replies, stepping forward boldly. “You’re everything I think about. I close my eyes and it’s you, it’s alwasy you, and I can’t get you ot of my headd. And you’re right, I don’t deserve you. But God Y/N, I’m going to spend the rest of my life trying to get back to being the guy who won your heart the first time around, the man who did deserve you. I’m not giving up this time, not for anything. And if I have to start again, I will. I’ll turn up on your doorstep with hot chocolate for you to drink on your way to work, I’ll send you flowers and pretend they aren’t from me, I’ll find excuses to be next to you, I’ll ask you on a first date again. I’ll take you on a do-over date again because I messed up the first one but you still liked me. I’ll help you fall in love with me all over again, as many times as it takes.”
I grin at Calum from across the room, winking when he smiles back before returning to my conversation with Tara and Meg. We giggle at Meg’s story of misfortune earlier that day, playfully making fun of her. A hand brushes my arm, Calum walking past as he enters the kitchen. I politely excuse myself, following the tanned boy to the quieter room.
Calum stands at the fridge, his eyes scanning it’s contents. I hop onto the counter beside it, sipping my drink casually. Calum smirks, his eyes still on the fridge.
“See anything you want?” I ask, Calum’s smirk only growing.
“There’s one thing I have my eye on yeah.” He nods, grabbing a can before closing the fridge, turning to face me.
“Ah, beer.” I nod, gesturing to his drink. “Excellent beverage.”
“I wasn’t talking about the drink.” Calum grins, moving to stand in front of me.
“In fact, what I want isn’t even in the fridge.”
“How interesting.” I muse, smirking back at him. “And where, may I ask, is this thing?”
“Oh I wouldn’t call it a thing.”
“But you would call it an it?”
“Only if I had to.”
“So what would you call it?”
“Beautiful.” Calum grins, and I roll my eyes despite my cheeks heating up.
“Smooth, Hood.” I smile, and he shrugs, his eyes darting to my lips quickly.
“Just speaking the truth.” He mutters, eyes on mine.
Neither of us say anything else, letting the tension fill the room. Yet again, his eyes glance at my lips, and I finally break the silence.
“Kiss me.” I whisper.
“I thought you’d never ask.” He murmurs back, before stepping forward and smashing his lips onto mine.
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