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“I Believe” by RM [trans]

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Track no.11 on “RM” , the 1st mixtape

English

I believe in me i believe in myself
even if time passes, i’ll be livin’ in myself
Believe my faith believe my rap
I believe my damn voice will one day be spread
even if there are times where I’m doubtful of my dream, my own existence,
there has never been a time where I’ve doubted my voice
in my world, I’m God. that not a deal
if you determine the rank, *I’m 1
How you feel babe? do you believe that you are your master?
are you adjusting it well- the seesaw of reason and emotion?
everybody wants to become it- the leader of oneself
but you should trust yourself, a **re-done for yourself
the rationalization of bad thoughts and pessimism is MSG
it may feel like it’s right, but it erases your real flavor
we are too familiar with what we only see outside
but I have a Milky Way that is inside of me

wherever I am, whatever I do
I believe I believe
wherever I am, I take care of myself
I believe I believe

You know i believe in love, believe in hope
believe in thoughts that i got while i be living this life
living this stuff like breathin
from time to time I get confused too- what is a guy like me?
sometimes I’m quite like an angel or like a devil but
I coexist with everything. postive and negativity
the thing that leads the world and I, in the end, is those two guys’ synergy
about the previous topic, all the empty moments where I felt lost or even taken aback seem lovely now
whenever I’m confused about what on earth is right or what is wrong,
(I) think about what are the things that makes me want to live again
it’s this muzik, passion, those beautiful places outside and fashion
the whiskey that pretends to be an adult uh mom you kiss me
I hope that you, too, will find the reason that can relax your anticipations
everyone heads towards death. it may seem different but it’s the same road
anyways, on the palm of time that we are all on,
(Keep walkin’) rather than forget myself, I’ll believe instead

wherever I am, whatever I do
I believe I believe
wherever I am, I take care of myself
I believe I believe

even if you don’t believe in your dream, if it’s a dream that somebody else dreamt, everyone believes it
in books and TV, the internet articles, whether it’s a dog or cow- leader leader
follow your heart, not your mind. ***ah this is not something I’m saying easily
anyways, because that side and your heart are closer,
even if you hide your face, there’s no way for you to hide your heartbeat
You can hide your face boy but you can’t hide your heartbeat
It’s one life to life and one heart to give
Who the fuck ya want to be? got no life to miss

wherever I am, whatever I do
I believe I believe
wherever I am, I take care of myself
I believe I believe

wherever I am, whatever I do
I believe I believe
wherever I am, I take care of myself
I believe I believe


Korean

I believe in me i believe in myself
시간이 흘러도 i’ll be livin’ in myself
Believe my faith believe my rap
I believe my damn voice will one day be spread
내 꿈 내 존재 자체를 의심한 적은 있어도
내 목소리만큼은 의심한 적이 없어 so real
내 세상에선 내가 신이야 that not a deal
등수로 따지면 I’m 1
How you feel babe 넌 너가 너의 주인임을 믿어?
잘 맞춰주고 있어 이성과 감성의 시소?
모두 되고 싶어하지 스스로의 리더
허나 스스롤 믿어야 하지 스스로의 리던
안 좋은 생각과 비관적 합리화는 미원
그게 맞는 것 같겠지만 너의 진짜 맛을 지워
우린 밖을 보는 데에만 너무 익숙해
내 안에 은하수가 있는데
내가 어디 있어도 무엇을 하더라도
I believe I believe
내가 어디 있어도 내가 나를 지켜줘
I believe I believe

You know i believe in love, believe in hope
believe in thoughts that i got while i be livin this life
livin this stuff like breathin
나도 가끔 혼란이 와 나란 놈은 무엇인가
때론 참 천사 같기도 악마 같기도 하지만
모든 것은 양립해. positive와 negativity
세상과 날 이끄는 건 결국 그 두 놈의 시너지
존재에 관한 모든 방황, 가끔 당황
스러울 정도로 허한 순간들조차 이젠 사랑스럽지
대체 무엇이 맞는지 틀린 지 헷갈릴 때면
무엇이 날 또 살고 싶게 하나 think about
바로 이 muzik, passion, 저 밖의 아름다운 곳들과 fashion
어른인 척 하는 위스키 uh mom you kiss me
너도 널 기대 쉴 수 있는 의미를 만들길
모두 죽음을 향해 다 다른 듯 같은 길
어차피 우린 전부 시간의 손바닥 위에서
(Keep walkin’) 난 날 잊기보단 믿겠어

내가 어디 있어도 무엇을 하더라도
I believe I believe
내가 어디 있어도 내가 나를 지켜줘
I believe I believe

자기 꿈은 안 믿어도 남이 꾸라는 꿈이라면 다 믿어
책과 TV, 인터넷 기사에선 개나 소나 리더 리더
머리 아닌 가슴을 따라가 아 쉽게 말하는 게 아니고
어차피 그 쪽이 니 심장과 더 가까우니까
얼굴은 가릴 수 있어도 심장박동은 숨길 수 없지
You can hide your face boy but you can’t hide your heartbeat
It’s one life to live and one heart to give
Who the fuck ya want to be? got no life to miss

내가 어디 있어도 무엇을 하더라도
I believe I believe
내가 어디 있어도 내가 나를 지켜줘
I believe I believe

내가 어디 있어도 무엇을 하더라도
I believe I believe
내가 어디 있어도 내가 나를 지켜줘
I believe I believe


Notes on his lyrics:

“If you determine the rank, I’m 1″ is word play. In the context of a ranking system, Namjoon is saying that he’s number 1. But also, 1 in Korean is pronounced as “il” or “ill” which is American slang for “cool” or “awesome”. So it can also be interpreted as Namjoon saying that “he’s ill” aka the coolest or best.

** “A re-done for yourself” means a rebirth or remake from what I understand. Koreans adapted the English word “redone” into their culture and it’s most commonly used to describe fashion (ie: redone jeans=vintage styled jeans that has been readmitted into modern day fashion). I think Namjoon was trying to say that you need to trust what you make of yourself (your own redone or rebirth, rather) to become your own leader.

*** “Ah this is not something I’m saying easily” is yet another play on words.  In the official lyrics that Namjoon posted with his mixtape, he spaced his phrase as “아 쉽게 말하는 게 아니고” which is literally “Ah, this is not something I’m saying easily”. In the actual song, however, it sounds like he’s saying “아쉽게 말하는게 아니고” in which “아쉽게” means regrettably. So the line can also be understood as “This is not something I’m telling you out of my own regret (for following my head instead of my heart)”


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