as the fern grows

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Asplenium trichomanes, Aspleniaceae

This small fern you can see photographed growing on a variety of surfaces around Scotland, the maidenhair spleenwort, is fairly common in temperate and tropical areas of the world, but nonetheless probably my favourite one among the ferns I usually see growing around. I think the first few plants we learn to recognise and use as kids will always have a special place in our heart: when growing up while experimenting with plants in my grandparents’ garden I often played with this species when building terrariums and sometimes I would landscape bonsai pots with very small plantlets, to imitate the look of much larger ferns like bracken (Pteridium). 

It is quite variable and several genetically different subspecies exist, which aren’t easy to tell apart by eye, but one empiric way is to observe where the fern is growing. Some prefer the alkaline conditions of lime mortar used in brick and stone walls, others grow on more acidic rocks, like the limestone commonly used here in central Scotland. It can also tolerate a variety of conditions and that’s why I tried to observe it in as many different situations as possible: in the photos above you can see it growing on very dry, sunny walls in coastal areas as well as on natural rocks in more shaded and humid locations up the hills, and all the in-betweens. If you want to try and collect some to establish it on a wall or rocky area of your garden, I can say experience taught me it doesn’t respond particularly well to being moved. Growing in tight crevices, it is very hard to uproot it without damage, unless the mortar is pretty old and loose or you can move the stones of a drywall. You might have better luck collecting fronds where the spore-releasing sori are visible and stuffing them between rocks and bricks, which you can then keep moist if very dry. With time the spores will do their part and you will end up with a highly decorative colony which needs no attention to keep thriving. It can look even better if grown together with the related, but larger and very different, hart’s-tongue fern (Asplenium scolopendrium), for contrast.    

benedictandotherobsessions  asked:

Hey, I'm sure you deal with a ton of these questions. But i was wondering if you had heard of a fic where Cas loses his grace and they have to go find it. Cas has a complete breakdown in a bath tub, they come upon a dead trueform!angel, Cas' grace has started growing ancient plants and giant ferns....with only these pieces it has been next to impossible to find. Does this sound at all familiar to you? Thanks so much either way!

Hi!

It sounds familiar but I can’t place it. (I read a lot of fic summaries but since I only read bottom!Cas stuff I skip over some things.) 

The good thing about it sounding familiar though is that it’s probably not a super obscure fic that only a chosen few have read. Maybe one of my followers has read the story, so I’m going to post this and we’ll see what happens :D

Nerd!Derek blushing to the tip of his ear when Stiles winks at him in the hallways

Nerd!Derek having trouble breathing when Stiles starts talking to him and his pretty doe eyes just shine

Nerd!Derek looking nothing short of fond as he watches Stiles name 100 reasons as to why Harris is a dick

Nerd!Derek having a small mental breakdown when Stiles kisses him when they’re studying at his house

Nerd!Derek seeing Stiles in his clothes after spending the night gives him an aneurism because the shirt hangs off his shoulders exposing a collarbone (littered in marks that HE made)

Nerd!Derek covering his face in embarrassment as Stiles asks him to be his boyfriend at a lacrosse game IN FRONT OF THE ENTIRE SCHOOL using Finstock’s megaphone

Nerd!Derek giggling and turning a pretty shade of pink as Stiles peppers kisses all across his face

Nerd!Derek getting teary eyed when watching Where The Red Fern Grows for the first time and Stiles having to comfort him with hugs and tissues

Nerd!Derek reciting the periodic table when he sleeps

Nerd!Derek loving it when Stiles tugs on his hair as they’re making out and gives a loud moan at a particularly rough tug

Nerd!Derek giving Stiles his favorite sweater (the maroon one with thumb holes) and being all bashful about it

Nerd!Derek taking charge and slamming Stiles against the nearest wall and completely ravishing him because he has bEEN A TEASE ALL DAMN DAY

Nerd!Derek cheering Stiles on in the stands with a sign that reads “#24 on the field but #1 in my heart”

Nerd!Derek being the happiest he has ever been with Stiles Stilinski

Marley Dias is like a lot of 11-year-olds: She loves getting lost in a book.

But the books she was reading at school were starting to get on her nerves. She enjoyed Where The Red Fern Grows and the Shiloh series, but those classics, found in so many elementary school classrooms, “were all about white boys or dogs … or white boys and their dogs,” Marley says.

Black girls, like Marley, were almost never the main character.

Last fall, Marley decided to do something about it. She set a goal of collecting 1,000 books about black girls by the beginning of February, and #1000blackgirlbooks was born.

She has far exceeded her goal, with almost 4,000 books and counting. Now, she wants to set up a black girl book club and pressure school districts to change what books are assigned to students. Morning Edition’s David Greene spoke with Marley about her campaign and how she’s handled her success.

Where’s The Color In Kids’ Lit? Ask The Girl With 1,000 Books (And Counting)

Photo: Andrea Cipriani Mecchi

The professor who teaches metalworking and shop classes gets called the Old Professor, but he isn’t old. At least, he doesn’t look it. He gets called the Old Professor, but he calls himself Sequoia.

Sequoia is eight feet tall, with metal in his eyes and kindness in his hands and silence in his mouth. You’re a psych major without a drop of poetry in your soul but when you first heard his voice, something in your lizard-brain said “this is what a forest’s voice would sound like.”

There are indeed forests, inked into his dark brown arms - woods going up into misty mountains, ancient trees in forests primordial growing amongst ferns the size of houses, twiggy saplings rearing their heads above the fertile ash of pyroclasric flow.

There’s probably iron in the ink, an art major tells you. “Lots,” says another, subdued. “Red caps chased me to the shop building. He caught the leader by the arm and…I saw it burn.”

You don’t believe that, but it makes you shiver anyway. Even if his touch did burn Them, wouldn’t it be from the iron in his skin thanks to his line of work?

Among his red-black locs are iron rings made from old nails, silver rings so pure one of Them grumbled to you that they sing, and beads of green sea-glass and jade and one glittery chartreuse pony bead that Jimothy gave him in exchange for a whole sack of red ones. He’s free with the rings (usually to students) and the glass (usually to Them) but he treasures that damn ugly little plastic bead and you’ve seen him press it lightly to his mouth when he’s thinking.

Sequoia must have been a false name when he chose it. You don’t think anyone on campus would claim it is now. Really, you find that the most telling thing of all - though what it tells, you’re never sure.

But there is kindness in his hands, and welcome in his silence, and when you’ve all but fallen through his doorway with the tang of blood in the back of your throat from running and the sound of hooves behind you (not running; it would have been less frightening if whatever was back there had bothered to RUN) there is tea in his hands too, and you feel the hollow in your chest begin to heal as you pour out your story and your terror to a watchful face full of quiet interest and altogether free of judgement.

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.ווען איז עס געווען? איך קען זיך ניט דערמאָנען
:עס גייט מיר נאָך ווי אַ פאַרגעסענער רעפרען
אַ שטאָט ביים ים, נאָכטיורנען פון שאָפּען
.און אייזערנע ליליען פון באַלקאָנען
   
פאַרנאכט. צוויי שוועסטער מיט די שמאָלע פינגער
פאַרטרוימטע רירן אָן דעם שאָטנדיקן שטראָם
.פון זכרונות אין אַלטמאָדישן אַלבאָם
.די אַלטע בילדער ווערן לאָנגזאַם אינגער
   
,אין טיר האַלבאָפענער, דאָרט צווישן די וואזאָנען
.פאר’חלש’ט שווימען פּאָרלאַך אין אַ לאַשצענדיקן וואַלס
!אָ, טויטע יונגט! אָ, דער לעצטער וואַלס
…די טענצער שווימען און פאַרשווינדן ווי פאַנטאָמען
   
.עס איז געווען, געווען…איך קען זיך ניט דערמאָנען
   
When did it all happen? I can’t remember.
It hangs in the air like a ghostly song:
a seaside town, nocturnes of Chopin,
iron lilies of balconies.
   
Night. Two sisters dreamily touching
with their slender fingers the dim stream
of memories in an old-fashioned album.
Slowly the old photographs grow young.
   
Through the half-open door, among the ferns,
trancelike, intoxicated figures fold
in a last waltz. Oh, dead youth!
The dancers swim and fade like shadows.
   
It was, it was…I can’t remember.
—  A City by the Sea (אַ שטאָט ביים ים) by Anna Margolin (1887–1952). Translated by Adrienne Rich.
dog movies

The movie ends, finally, but Rin had already been crying for at least seven minutes. Or seven and a half. Not like Maki was counting, because that’d be weird. She knows the waterworks started around the time the dog arrived home, at least.

“You alright?” Maki asks, even though Rin clearly isn’t alright. She braces herself for the inevitable crash of Rin throwing herself onto her lap, getting tears and snot all over her shirt.

“I-It was so saaaad!!” Rin wails. She hugs her tight and presses her face against Maki’s stomach, as if to muffle her own cries. Maki pats her head. “Why do dogs always have to die in these movies?!”

“Dramatic effect? It happens so often it’s sort of cliché, honestly,” Maki nonchalantly says, even though she’d fought hard to keep back her own tears. She reaches for the remote and turns the volume down, completely uninterested in the credits and its melancholy violin music.

Rin lifts her head, pouting. “No, it’s not! It’s always sad! I bet you almost cried too!”

“I did not!”

“Anyways, why can’t you pick other things for our movie nights?” Rin finally sits up, sniffling and rubbing at her face with her sleeve. “Rin does like other kinds of movies, you know…”

Easier said than done. No romance— romcoms included, horror is usually a no-go, Maki has a weird rule about not watching Christmas movies when it isn’t December, Rin doesn’t have the patience to sit through dramas or mysteries, and Maki finds action films equally dull. So Maki typically ends up picking the selection for the evening, which usually includes animal movies; coincidentally, or not so coincidentally, they’re animal movies where the beloved family pet dies in an abrupt turn to bittersweet mourning at the end of an otherwise lighthearted family film.

I think it’s fine,” Maki shrugs, and she hands Rin a packet of tissues she coincidentally, or not so coincidentally, had in her pocket this whole time. “And you like these movies too, don’t you?”

“Yeah, but…”

“Also…” Almost guiltily, Maki looks away. “You’re cute when you cry.”

“That’s why?!”

“Mmhm.”

“Maki-chan! You jerk!” Rin feigns hitting at her with her fists, but she’s too embarrassed to pretend to be indignant about it or put any real force behind the blows. “Is that the real reason why you always wanna watch these movies together?!”

“You can figure out that one by yourself.” Maki softly laughs at Rin’s half-hearted punches and sits sideways on the couch, offering her arms out. Because she knows Rin can’t resist a rare invitation for a hug, nor can she actually stay mad at her for more than a few seconds at a time.

And just as she expected, Rin crawls into her arms, grumbling but nonetheless snuggling up against her, wiping her snotty nose against Maki’s shirt for good measure.

So my friend and I went to Petco about a week ago to get some tiny snails for her dwarf puffer. While she was getting those, I looked at the bettas.  I was planning for my next betta to be an elephant ear, but as soon as I saw this little white butterfly with no fins (either he bit them off or he had severe fin rot), I grabbed him.

Friend and I named him ‘Egg’ due his white color and fragile appearance. He is now in a heated, filtered, cycled, and planted 20 gallon tank. Originally, I was waiting for the plants (mainly anubias and java ferns) to grow in a bit more before moving Clown into it, but things change. I’ve been treating him with MelaFix and aquarium salt, and he is doing so good. His fins are starting to grow back, and he has so much personality. I have a couple pieces of wood in his tank that I’m trying to sink, and he just loves playing in them. He’s starting to get a nice purple tint too.

It’s hard to get a good picture of him now because he doesn’t stop moving. I will try to keep this post updated with Egg’s progress

Top 10 plants that I love

10)bloat wart
Grows fast, easy to keep, axolotls love to sit in it.

9)water lettuce
Cool floating plant, vacuums up ammonia and nitrate like nothing else, shrimps enjoy its roots.

8)anubias congensis(regular)
Bullet proof, can be glued to driftwood, beautiful color.

7)Marino moss
Can be broken up and glued to rocks or logs as a carpet, shrimps love it

6)flame moss
Interesting morphology, can be glued to rocks or driftwood, shrimps love it

5)Java fern
Easy to grow, beautiful color, bushy, propagates easily and quickly, axolotls love to sit on it

4)judgwigia red
Beautiful color, grows fast, easy to keep

3)anubias congensis(dwarf)
Pros of regular anubias congensis+ it is tiny and great for covering driftwood with(if you get a lot and have a lot of glue)

2)alternanthera reinekii
Beautiful color, grows tall and leafy, on the less demanding side of red plants

1)cryptocoryne wensii c tropica (Bronze wensii)
Beautiful color, grows bushy and large, easy to take care of, axolotls love to sit under the leaves, propagates itself, hardy.

A short guide to (Diego’s boyfriend) Chema Yazpik

Played Diego’s cute gay brother on La Vida en el Espejo

Played Diego’s cute gay boyfriend in the play Cock

Played Diego’s cute gangster husband in Solo Quiero Caminar

Played one of the main characters in the first movie Diego directed

Has been a goober in plays with Diego since back in the day

Has a savage profile

Has great hair

So stern, god

Wears the shit out of a leather jacket

Looks great all sweaty

Will very sweetly help Diego out anytime and anywhere he might need it, like here on the movie Mr Pig

Sexy dope

Strongly gives the impression that he could fuck Diego or anyone else into next year

justanothersortasmartfangirl  asked:

Hello, I would like to try a planted tank, but i have no clue how to start. I've been doing some research but i keep coming across terms like root tabs, water collum and substrate that I dont know. I have a 10 gallon tank that will have a betta after everything is planted and good. Any tips or help you can offer?

Hey @justanothersortasmartfangirl​! :p Hopefully these explanations of the terms ‘root tabs’, ‘water column’, and ‘substrate’ help you out! :) If you need/want further explanation or need/want me to explain them to you in a different way, please let me know! :)


Root Tabs: small tablets or capsules of plant fertililzer that can be put into the substrate, under plants, that slowly release nutrients. Usually they’re used in tanks with sand substrate, but you can add them to any substrate! You can buy them commercially, from hobbyists, or diy them yourself!

Water column: the water in your tank, basically….usually we refer to the tank’s water as the ‘water column’ because there are different levels of the ‘water column’: top, mid, and bottom. Some fish occupy the top level of the water column (like hatchets), some occupy the mid level of the water column (most school fish, like neon tetras), and others occupy the bottom of the water column (like corydoras). fun fact: you can usually tell what part of the water column a fish generally inhabits by looking at their mouth! Usually a fish’s mouth position determines where their food source is, and therefore where they spend a good amount of their time :) superior = top, terminal = middle, inferior = bottom. Another place that you might hear the term ‘water column’ is when people talk about cycling. A common myth is that beneficial (nitrifying) bacteria live in the ‘water column’ (aka the water in your tank), when they actually live on the surfaces in your tank!

Substrate: the ground cover at the bottom of your tank. Sand and gravel are ‘substrates’! There are also plant-specific ‘substrates’ like Fluorite or Eco-Complete or ADA Amazonia. If a tank has no ‘substrate’ then it is called a ‘bare-bottom’ tank :)


Planted tanks are awesome! I keep at least a few live plants in all my tanks! They help to take excess nutrients out of the water and look fantastic imo :)

Tidbits for Planted Tanks:

  • If there’s a specific substrate that you want / prefer / need: pick plants that work with that substrate! (ex: don’t get dwarf hair grass if you want gravel)
  • If there are specific plants you want: pick a substrate that will work with them. (ex: if you want amazon swords, pick a nutrient-rich plant substrate)
  • Some plant substrates leach ammonia for a few weeks. I believe that this is supposed to help your tank cycle and to give your plants some extra nutrients. If you use a substrate that leaches, a fishless cycle is recommended.
  • If you’re on a budget: sand is going to be your cheapest option, root tabs optional (depending on the plants you want to put in your tank).
  • Not all plants need to be planted: Marimos and banana plants don’t need to be planted, and sit on top of the substrate. Mosses can be left floating or tied/glued to things. Frogbit and duckweed float on the surface of the water. These kinds of plants do well in any tank, whether the substrate is gravel, sand, plant substrate, glass stones, barebottom, etc.
  • Some plants are ‘ root feeders’, meaning that they take most of their nutrients from the substrate. You can grow root feeders (like amazon swords) in sand (though they seem to prefer / grow larger leaves in plant substrate) they’ll just grow…really long roots lol when i put swords in my sand-only tank, they used more energy to grow roots than leaves! i had 12″ roots on a 3″ sword after a month or so! Adding root tabs to sand is a good idea if you want plants that are heavy ‘root feeders’.
  • Some plants are ‘water column’ feeders, meaning that they take most of their nutrients from the water in your tank. These plants can grow floating (like duckweed and frogbit) or be left floating or planted (like anacharis: you can stick it in the substrate or you can let it float).
  • Most root-feeders do best with a plant substrate, such as Fluorite
  • Most water-column-feeders aren’t picky and will do well with any substrate
  • Some plants have ‘rhizomes’, which is like a big fat horizontal ‘root’ that the smaller roots grow down from and the stems/leaves grow up from. Anubias and java ferns are popular rhizome plants! These plants can be superglued to stuff, tied to stuff, or planted. If you choose to plant your rhizome-plants be sure to bury only bury the roots, burying the rhizome may kill the plant.
  • Mosses can be left floating, superglued to stuff, or tied around stuff. Moss-covered driftwood is pretty popular!
  • Not all plants require fertilizer, but it usually doesn’t hurt to have some! Seachem Flourish is what I use, but there are probably quite a few more liquid fertilizers that are popular in the hobby. If you add inverts like shrimp to a tank, make sure that your fertilizer is safe for them!
  • Not all plants require CO2 (a tank that has CO2 (and usually high-lighting and lots of fertilizers) is referred to as a ‘high-tech planted tank’, a tank that has no CO2 (usually low to medium lighting, ferts optional) is referred to as a ‘low-tech planted tank’), but some plants (like dwarf baby tears) require CO2. Plants that require high light and CO2 aren’t usually recommended for beginners, but if you find that you really really really want a tank with a nice ‘carpet’ (some plants stay small and spread until they cover the whole layer of substrate; these plants are referred to as ‘carpeting plants’. popular carpeting plants include s. repens, dwarf baby tears, and dwarf hair grass.) and some other high-needs plants then do a ton of research and go for it! :)
  • Some plants require lots of one specific nutrient, like iron! Red plants and swords usually need more iron :) You can buy nutrient-specific supplemental fertilizers like Seachem Flourish Iron or Flourish Potassium.
  • Plants are usually labelled as ‘high-light’, ‘medium-light’, or ‘low-light’. Plants that grow under nearly any standard bulb or low-output LED light are usually ‘low-light’ plants (anubias, marimos, most mosses, anacharis). Some plants prefer a brighter light (like amazon swords), like a plant-specific light (like a finnex stingray or something like that). Others require very high light to survive and thrive. 
  • The rating of a light (low, medium, or high) is usually measured in PAR (photosynthetically active radiation). 
  • You may also hear about a certain light fixture’s “temperature”, which refers to the color spectrum of a light (some lights put off more blue or red light), which is measured in ‘Kelvin’. 
  • You may sometimes hear lighting in terms of “watts per gallon”, which was a popular standard of measuring lighting output when most people used T5/T8 lighting (those long tube bulbs). As we’ve moved more and more into LED lighting, PAR has become a much more accurate way to measure light rating! 

Handy Dandy Linkeroos:

Aquarium LED Lights (priced low to high):

Liquid Fertilizers:

  • Seachem Flourish Line (Flourish, Flourish Excel, Flourish Iron, Flourish Potassium, etc.)
  • Aquarium Co-op’s Easy Green (i’ve been wanting to try this out for a while…it’s on my aquarium wishlist! i’ve heard great things and another youtuber who grows and sells plants and was developing his own fertilizer formula said that the Easy Green Formula was quite close to his. If anyone has tried it, please leave a mini review!)
  • API Leafzone (I’ve seen some people on here who use it, but I haven’t personally used it. If you use this, please leave a mini review!)
  • Brighwell Aquatics’s FlorinMulti (I have some, but I haven’t used it yet. If you’ve used this product, please leave a mini review!)

Hopefully this info helps you out! :D Let me know if there’s anything you’d like me to clarify further! :) Feel free to share how your planted tank turns out!! :D

If anyone else has anything to add (posts, corrections, helpful tidbits), please do!

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I’d taken these photos at Lal Bagh ages ago but never quite got around to posting them. And what with all the shopping frenzy over the weekend, I thought it’d would be refreshing to gaze upon some greenery instead. The nursery at Lal Bagh is possibly my favourite place in Bangalore, and what with house hunting all throughout November I haven’t had the time to pop in there recently. Which makes me a bit sad! But I’m shifting to my lovely new place in a few days and I’m planning to do it up with all the plants, so I thought I’d share some indoor gardening tips I’ve picked up as a novice gardener this year.

1. Plants tend to be very attached to particular spots. It can take a bit of time to find the perfect spot for a plant, because different plants have different sunlight and temperature needs. So once you’ve found the right place for a plant, don’t move it around!

2. Most flowering plants need bright, direct sunlight. When I first got my Penta, I tried keeping it in front of a window thinking that would be sufficient. It wasn’t. As I discovered, the Penta only flowers when it gets the full blast of midday sunlight. I’ve recently had to shift it to the bottom of my balcony, where the light isn’t that strong, and while it’s giving out new leaves just fine, it’s not flowering as much. Flowers need light to grow!

3. Ferns - Ferns will not survive in air conditioning, so if you have an an aircon, don’t go for an indoor fern because it will die. Maidenhair ferns love all the sunlight they can get, Boston ferns like diffuse light. Both need copious amounts of water. I couldn’t rescue my Boston fern in time, but when my Maidenhair fern started dying dramatically in the AC, I put it in out in the balcony and since then it’s been growing at a prodigious rate. I mostly just dump a bottle of water every day on both my Maidenhair fern and Penta and they seem to like that a lot.

4. Monstera or Cheese Plant - This is the indoor plant you should go for if you have air conditioning. My Monstera has been thriving in my air conditioned room, unlike all the other plants (including succulents) which hated it. The only thing you have to be careful of with Monsteras is to never put them in direct sunlight. I put mine out for a few hours one day and it literally got cooked! It’s lost two of the most damaged leaves since then but grown two new ones in the cool of the AC. Monsteras are also super sensitive to over watering. I moisten the soil with a small splash of water every alternate day, which keeps it happy.

5. Repotting - This is a very helpful video with instructions for repotting plants, and the one I used the first time I repotted anything! Just remember to be extra gentle with your plants right after repotting, because it’s a bit of a traumatic event for them. I generally give my plants a little plant food after repotting to settle them down in their new home.

6. Plant food - Plant food is a real thing that actually works. You can get it at plant nurseries - it’s usually a NPK (Nitrogen, Phosphorus, Potassium) fertilizer that comes as a water soluble powder or already dissolved in a liquid medium. I prefer the powdered variety mostly because a little goes a long way. You can even get different types of plant food with different proportions of NPK depending on whether you have flowering or leafy plants.

7. Pruning - All plants need to be pruned regularly. Pruning is nothing but cutting off old, withered leaves so that new ones have space to grow. Just don’t prune your plants for a couple of weeks after repotting, because that’s a very delicate time for them.

8. Drainage - Unless you have an air plant, always, always use planters with drainage holes. A lot of planters these days come without one because drainage holes leak water from the bottom and that can be messy. Without a drainage hole though, water will accumulate at the roots and cause them to rot, no matter how little you’re watering!  If you’re worried about making a mess while watering, get planters with a saucer at the bottom instead.

9. Succulents - All my succulents so far have died, and I’ve no idea what to do with them. I’m stumped. Do they like sunlight? Do they hate it? What about water? I couldn’t tell you because I simply don’t know. All I know is that lifestyle blogs promote them as super easy to maintain and that’s an outright lie. Succulents are not easy to maintain. They’re a mystery wrapped in a conundrum and I don’t recommend them for novice gardeners.

10. Plants are living creatures, but unlike animals, they have no way of telling you if they like their living conditions other than starting to die if the conditions aren’t optimal. Right now, houseplants are a super trendy thing and everyone wants them, but remember that plants are a responsibility and they will take up your time. Just like pets, plants need everyday care and nurturing, and if you aren’t up for that, don’t get a house plant because you’re going to feel sad when they wither and die. Conversely, a dying plant can be rescued if you can figure out the right conditions for it. I’m not trying bring everyone down here! But when I got my first plants, I’d no idea that I’d get this attached to them and end up putting in so much care and effort towards their wellbeing! They do have a way of snaking their little baby tendrils right into your heart.

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Here is a doodle dump of my newest OC Etio
She’s a nature/darkness elemental, and very self conscious about herself. The ferns on her head and the ivy on her arms grow out of control whenever she’s nervous (which is most of the time), and she roots herself with ivy whenever she’s scared (again, a lot of the time). Every time she tries to make pretty flowers they end up pale and wilted so she gets very down on herself.

She is my child and I love her.