Betrothed at a young age, Sebastian and Blaine had never met
each other until a few months before their wedding. They were hesitant at first,
neither wanted their love lives to be dictated for them- but after getting to
know each other, they slowly start to fall for one another, thinking Yes, we
could be in love.
Reader is close to the glee club and has gone to school with them since freshman year) Sebastian left his phone at the Lima Bean and someone from the glee club found it. They look through it to see pics of reader and Seb like kissing each other, hugging and cute pics that you would have of your significant other. They ask him about it only to find him and reader talking about date plans and the glee Club finding out when he realizes that he left his phone at the Lima Bean. The entire glee club enters the room and tells them the gig’s up. They confess and the glee club accepts it. - @irony-is-my-life
Pairing: Sebastian Smythe x Reader
Notes: So I made a few changes. I hope you don’t mind. It’s late and not very well written. I’m sorry if it’s not your favorite. You can always request another one, though. My ask is always open. Also everyone’s a lil bit OOC.
Bells jingled and laughter poured into the local cafe called the Lima Bean. “And then Finn tripped over his books and slid down the hall!” Rachel was giggling through her retelling of an incident with an unsuspecting student and a distracted Finn walking the halls of McKinley. “Hey. I think it was a pretty graceful dive. I only tripped three other people.” Rachel, Finn, Blaine, Kurt, Santana and Artie were making a stop at the Lima Bean to get a little recharged before the weekend was over.
“Hey guys, I’ll catch up in a minute.” “Alright Finn. Don’t be long,” Rachel smiled.
Striding over to the bathroom, something caught his eye before he made it to the door. ‘Someone left their phone here. That’s rough.” Finn thought to himself. ‘I wonder who’s it is.’ Thinking he was doing the right thing, he started looking through the phone and opened up the photos app since it was the first thing he saw. Scrolling through the pics, the screen was filled with red, black and white. Finn cringed as the Warbler symbol flashed across the phone. About ready to just turn the phone in to the cashier, a familiar face caught his eye.. ‘(y/n)?’
“Hey guys!” Finn yelled as he approached his friends. “Oh there you are, Finn. We were wondering what took you.” Artie scrutinized his fellow singer. “You’ll never believe what I found.” Finn had everyone’s attention now.
“Well? What is it?” Santana. Always one to be straight to the point. “I found this phone sitting at a deserted table and so I tried to figure out who it might belong to. So I started looking through their photos-”
“Hold on, hold on,” Santana interrupted. “You tried to find someone’s identity by looking through their pictures?” “Where did you possibly find that knowledge?” Kurt questioned. “Never mind that. Look who’s in the pictures.”
Finn showed the group the picture of (y/n). “So it (y/n)’s phone? Big deal.” Santana stared at Finn as if he grew another head, completely confused.
“Yeah, no. It’s a Warbler’s phone. See?” He then showed them the Warbler symbol. “Let me see that,” Blaine took the phone and started swiping. “..holy crap. I think I might puke. Oh gosh!”
“Blaine! What is it?” Everyone hollered at their raven haired friend. Saying nothing, he held up the phone. Cue collective gasp.
*At Dalton Academy*
“Okay guys. Here’s the plan. We go in and confront that sniveling snake about what he thinks he’s doing with our (y/n). Then we use whatever means necessary to keep him away from our baby.” Santana sneered at the thought of Smythe. “Agreed.” All were in agreement then.
Storming up the stairs of the school, the group made their way to the Warbler’s practice room. Sneaking up to the door, the singers heard voices conversing inside. “Good. Okay. They’re in there. Let’s go.” Finn was ready to ‘talk’ to Sebastian. “Hold up a second,” Artie spoke. “I think.. there’s a girl’s voice..”
Everyone crowded the door, trying to hear. “-last time. Maybe we could hit up the ice cream parlor then head on over to the beach?” “Really? Seb, don’t you think that they’d see us?” “Come on, babe. I want to show you off. I really don’t care about your friends seeing us. In fact, it’d be a good thing. Maybe I can prove to them that it’s a good thing we’re together. I really love you and I’m sure they’ll be able to see that. Even if they don’t want to.” Sebastian had been trying to convince you to tell the New Directions for a while now. Everything he said was either shot down or flat out ignored. You really did care about Sebastian, but it’d be so hard for you if your friends, best friends, disapproved of your relationship.
“Sebastian. I know you really want to tell them.. it’s just,” you heaved a sigh loud enough for your eavesdropping friends to hear. “It’s just that if they didn’t approve of us, if they didn’t like us together, if they’d tried to break us apart.. it would kill me. I love you so much, but they might not love us together. They’re still my friends. My family. I just don’t think I’m ready.”
From the other side of the door, your friends were looking at each other like they were thoroughly disappointed with themselves, not you. “I can’t believe (y/n) feels like she can’t trust us with this. I feel so.. terrible,” Blaine was completely distraught that you felt that way.
“I know. We reacted so harshly when we found out, though. No wonder she felt like she couldn’t tell us. Ugh! I feel like a terrible friend,” Rachel was almost in tears now. “Hey, we all feel horrible. She’s our baby girl and we can’t have her feeling like we won’t support any decision she makes. Even if it is to date that..” Kurt stops as he sees his friends giving him wary looks. “..that great..singer..”
They all looked at each other in confirmation and pushed open the grand doors. Both heads inside snapped up to the intruders. “Guys? Wh-wh-what are you doing here?” Panic was evident in your eyes. Sebastian discreetly took your hand in his, the action not going unnoticed.
“We know, (y/n),” Artie spoke up. “Y-You do? Know what exactly?” “That you and this.. male are dating,” Santana cringed. “We found his phone at the Lima Bean and saw.. pictures,” Kurt visibly shuddered.
With a defeated sigh, you flopped onto the couch. “I’m so sorry, you guys. It’s just..”
“Yeah. We know, baby girl. I must admit we didn’t react well at first, but hearing what you just said.. we feel awful, sweetheart,” Kurt sympathized. “That was never my goal. I really do care a lot for Sebastian and if you all would try and keep me from being with him, it would tear me apart.”
Artie wheeled forward. “We know (n/n). We realize that now and we’re going to try and be supportive. Just as long as he gives us a reason not to.” He have a pointed look in Sebastian’s direction. “R-really? Oh my gosh! Thanks you guys! You won’t regret it, trust me.” “Yeah we better not,” Santana eyed Sebastian.
Sebastian took your hand. “I’m really thankful for this, you guys. (Y/n) means everything to me. So much so I’d give up singing to keep her. I’ll do my absolute best to keep her happy.”
You grinned up at him. You were short, okay? Besides, it doesn’t help he’s a freaking giant. “Keep her happy and we won’t make you quit singing,” Blaine stated. “But if you fail. You will suffer the consequences,” Santana added.
“I agree wholeheartedly. Besides, if I ever did anything to hurt my- our little (y/n), I wouldn’t be able to live with myself.”
The New Directions looked at each other and silently agreed. “Have fun kids,” Santana said. “Keep it classy,” Kurt added. After hugging all of them and Sebastian surprisingly shaking the guys’ hands and getting his phone back, they took their leave.
“Well. That went better than expected.” “See? I told you they’d be cool,” Sebastian said with a smirk. “You really like being right, don’t you?” you asked. “I like being right about us.” With a wink and kiss, neither of you could stop beaming.
Things that happened at the Great Comet today (9/2/17 2:00pm Matinee) that left me DEAD
Grace gave me a pirogi and talked with me about War and Peace
Shoba gave me a love letter!! When she passed by I just wanted to make eye contact with her and smile but she saw my vintage Comet shirt and gave me a love letter and I was so pleasantly surprised bc I forgot she was handing out letters and I really wanted one! I couldn’t stop smiling. It said “You’re beautiful” and I’m keeping it forever
Josh laid down right in front of me during the Balaga sequence and when they all cheer after “here’s to happiness freedom and life”, I cheered as well and he heard and winked at me and I had a heart attack
Lauren smiled RIGHT AT ME and I almost cried bc she’s my fav and I love her so much
Blaine was Andrei/Prince Bolkonsky and during the Private and Intimate Life of the House his wig fell off and when I later told him at SD that everyone thought it was on purpose he laughed and smiled at me. I also complimented the pink sweater he was wearing and he was so kind. I wanted to just hug him so much.
DAVE. AS. PIERRE. It was everything I’ve ever wanted and more! He was just so perfect and I truly think adding Dust and Ashes shifted Pierre’s whole character arc in a really dramatic and important way. He was so perfect and I love him to death.
I gave Dave the scrapbook I made him at the stage door and he was so happy!! It made me feel so warm and fuzzy inside!!
Denee danced right in front of me during Balaga and I laughed so hard I cried
During the club scene, Azudi laid down right in front of me and got up in my face and was saying stuff like “Where am I?? God I’m so wasted!! Help me?!” I told him later at stage door that I couldn’t stop laughing and he told me that The Duel is his favorite number to do
Another note about The Duel: JOSH IS SO FUCKING HOT!!!! Like he was right next to me and oh my godddddd. I love that man. His costume…
Amber Gray fucking brought the house down. Charming was so flawless I couldn’t have asked for more
Speaking of powerful female numbers, I was legitimately scared of Marya D in In My House. She started out quiet and worked her way up to rage and that scared the shit out of me
And Sonya Alone made me cry of course. I actually want to be Brittain and I just couldn’t imagine ever doing that and she does it eight times a week and it was amazing
I couldn’t stop crying throughout No One Else. Denee is a princess and it gave me goosebumps
And finally, The Great Comet of 1812 ruined me. That song was the death of me. Dave truly was the best Pierre I’ve ever seen and I could barely see through my tears
From the second the last song was over, every. single. audience member was on their feet applauding as loud as humanly possible. The support in the audience was amazing. The standing ovation lasted a solid 3-5 minutes. They took 3 bows.
Long story short: I can’t believe this show is closing. This was the best fucking day of my life and all I can think is “where to now?” Tomorrow the world will have lost a bright, shining star and that is a true tragedy.
So I just saw Darren Criss on set of The Flash, and I said hi. He smiled, said hi and waved back. It’s amazing how such a small thing can make me so happy, but Darren has that effect….. love the guy so much and how nice he always is :)
My Experience at Natasha, Pierre & the Great Comet of
Disclaimer: I’ve sat in banquette
seating four times. I’ve been able to see most of the theater, but I’m going to
be a little heavy on the Marya D. and Hélène stuff because I’m super gay, and
like… Grace McLean and Amber Gray, amirite?
So it started with this jaunty music, and the
whole cast comes out with the pierogi baskets, and you get dumplings if you
wave your arms enough. Also each cast member has a section and converses with
the audience for like almost five minutes. It’s great, because you can just
talk to the people, and I was in Pearl Rhein’s section twice (fell in love both
times, holy shit her eyebrows and wow is she tall). She said she loved my shoes
and hair and I felt my soul ascend.
Oh forgot to mention that while you wait for it
to start there’s this upbeat Russian music going on, and it’s great.
Also during the introductory no cell phones
thing, this guy announces it in a heavy Russian accent, and after each thing,
the cast goes “нет” and the ones like Pearl Rhein, and Sumayya Ali point to
people with their bow strings and you don’t even think of disobeying because if
not you’ll be given to KGB and sent off to Siberia.
It starts once the air siren goes off
Natasha cries out “No!” when Andrey leaves for
war, and there’s this whole necklace exchange, that’ll be significant later.
And Pierre is just up on the top level in front
of the doors.
He begins to sing, and usually before that
there’s raucous applause.
Pierre sings his verse, and then the whole cast
joins in, and it’s a magical moment.
Then the lights go up, and everyone has shot
So each time someone is introduced via their
lines, they get a spotlight and take a shot.
So, during Sonya’s she and Natasha cross arms
and take a shot that way, and it’s so cute.
Whenever Marya takes a shot, she makes a face
like “yes, that’s the stuff” and it’s such a beautiful facial expression. Also her
hair is what I live for. The updo is so precise, and perfect. I want to do
that. Also she’s got these streaks of lighter/greying hairs which I always go
During this, the actor who plays Andrey, is off
changing into his Bolkonsky costume (for me it was Nicholas Belton twice, and
Blaine Alden Krauss twice when Nick left for personal days three shows before
He comes back on in that costume, with his
instrument. And it’s really quite funny.
Immediately they meld into Pierre just after
Prologue, and it’s great.
During this, they’ve all got their shot glasses
When the line “il est charmant, il ne pas de
sexe. He is charming he has no sex” the women all twirl around him. And Hélène
is front and center spotlighted on the middle “balcony” and she’s just got so
Also Marya’s expressions are amazing and I will
continue to mention them. Even when she’s just sitting in the background, she’s
got such a presence.
When the line “how many men before good Russian
men…” comes up, and Pierre speculates about who leaves tootless and bald,
Anatole gets a spotlight and he just scoffs and saunters around stage as if to
say “yeah right, not me bitch”
During that last note, where everyone is going
‘ahhhhh’ it’s so much more intense than the cast recording and they hold it
forever honestly. Everyone is gathered on the two “banister” levels of the main
stage, and they’re all just intently staring at Pierre, and some are
practically hanging over the railings. Hélène is especially like “ugh, this
After a pause for applause, we go into Moscow.
The ensemble mostly exits, or at least gets somewhere on the outskirts of the
Marya hands off her shotglass to someone. And as
the music starts, she is wandering around inspecting things with a critical
When Natasha sings her name, she looks just so
excited and thrilled. But reins it in to sing her name back.
When Sonya does her thing, she like starts the
“sofia” part like she’s almost forgotten her name. And it’s clear Marya does
not like Sonya. There’s a whole backstory on why from the books so go read
When she does the “Welcome, welcome to Moscow”
she just goes for it, and both Natasha and Sonya visibly jump. The whole
audience does honestly.
She points to various audience members during
“faded and fading princesses” “gossips and crybabies”. And it’s great.
When she does her whole “bring in their things”
the ensemble rushes around to grab the extra props and stuff, and they’re so
terrified of and respect Marya.
She goes off down the middle orchestra stage,
and Natasha and Sonya do their impression of Marya’s growling voice. It’s so
When Natasha says “but I can’t bear this
waiting” Sonya looks so sad and exasperated. She follows Marya’s path and they
meet up in the rear of the theater. They reaapproach Natasha and Marya is
leading Sonya by her shoulders, and she’s like over half a head taller than
Sonya (Grace McLean is sorta tall, but she’s in heels to further emphasize her
stature. And I want those shoes they’re fabulous).
Oh both Sonya and Natasha are mostly in flats so
we see them as delicate and innocent I suppose. It helps with the height
When Marya and Sonya get to the top of the
stairs that leads to the main stage, Marya sort of pushes Sonya away, and she
braces herself against the banister while Marya goes to dote on Natasha.
They drink tea (laced with rum).
Oh and something you don’t notice are the
Bolkonsky’s. During all of this, Bolkonsky is fiddling with a knife, and
visibly trembling (probably some sort of dementia) and Mary is nervously
watching, and trying to help but he keeps shaking her off so she reads her
She also crosses over when Marya mentions her in
The Private and Intimate Life of a
We start with Bolkonsky’s part of the song. He
takes a really long pause before “people enjoy me” to stare to his left at the
audience and waves creepily/awkwardly. It always gets a laugh.
When he sings powdered wig, he pats his and a
puff of powder erupts from it.
During “such a majestic and agreeable spectacle”
Mary stands from the stair she is on leading up to the mezzanine.
Then she launches into her haunting part about
there being 22 more hours in the day.
When he starts ordering her around, she looks
just so frightened, and does this trembling bow, and Gelsey Bell is an actual
When she does her whole “and I have no friends
no never go anywhere” she runs across and around the stage wringing and waving
her hands tragically. Mary needs a hug. Someone please hug this poor woman.
The whole “I can hurt you” is said by Mary with
such fierceness that she quickly turns to reassurance to the audience that she
never ever ever would. And she loves her father so much, but he’s such an
abusive asshole. Like fucks sake I’m angry about this.
So the difference between Nicholas and Blaine
seems so much more intense when he sings certain parts like “worthless and
dumb”. He really does the shouty, angry old man act well.
So Mary makes an audience member stand and she
pretends he’s her suitor. Then Bolkonsky turns to another audience member and
kisses and nuzzles her and it’s hilarious for everyone involved.
Then the servent (Paul Pinto) who walked hunched
almost completely over, brings that table shot glasses.
The whole “where are my glasses” bit is so so
much more frightening live. The first time I heard it (and didn’t know the show
at all) I was actually terrified for Mary. And she looks just so horrified, and
upset by the entire thing.
Also during this, the music is haunting, and
Marya D. stands from where she’s been sitting and observing (with such a
haughty and regal expression) to ominously play the cowbell. It’s such an
interesting addition that I didn’t notice the first time.
Natasha & Bolkonsky’s:
So the servant announces Natasha’s presence, and
Mary is just so awkward the entire time.
They do the chair thing in complete silence.
Mary goes over to get her chair (that Hélène has been lounging on this entire
time and Hélène moves to drape herself on the staircase. That’s another thing.
Hélène even when off focus, just languidly and sensually drapes herself onto
They do their chair thing in the middle of the
main table section of the audience. And it’s so tense.
They both stand when singing their “I don’t like
her” verse. Then two ensemble members bring them tea (one is Lulu Fall, and I
think the other may have been Shoba Narayan. Pretty sure in fact.
Then they move to another spot and fake laugh at
Then Bolkonsky comes out in his underthings and
scares the shit out of Natasha.
Then Natasha tearfully tries to leave and Mary
realizes that they fucked up and tries to put it right, but Natasha intensely
yells at Mary who jumps back and holds out her hands in defense, so you know
this girl has been seriously verbally abused at the very least.
No One Else:
The lighting changes to this beautiful blue
(made even more beautiful by the fact that Dave Malloy is supposedly color
blind and can see blue well, but not red so you just sob thinking about that)
And Natasha looks so much like a princess in
this moment. Everything is wonderful and heartbreaking.
Andrey comes onstage and has a bundle of her
letters. It snows over him, and Natasha reaches for him but they don’t touch,
and he leaves again. She just looks so longing.
When I first saw it the last lines about him
maybe being in the drawing room and her just forgetting he was there was so
emotional and heartbreaking, I just teared up.
Cue dramatic music change. Marya does her whole
“the opera the opera” part and she seems so excited to be sharing this with
Natasha and even Sonya. Also the growl though!
The Servent (Paul Pinto again) is in this emcee
costume type thing and it’s so sparkly and extra with a top hat and everything.
When everyone else comes out you are just so
amazed by the costumes. Like wow. In an interview, the designer Paloma Young
talked about how they’re meant to look opulent and splendid from a distance,
but up close you see they’re cheaply made to represent the false splendor of 19th
century Russia and I am so angry they didn’t win best costume design.
So all of the women have their own unique
costume and color scheme. Even the swings get their own unique outfit. It’s
fantastic and fits each person so well. So like Lulu Fall is in red, obviously.
And Shoba has this orange and looks so beautiful. And Cathryn Wake has a bright
blue number, and don’t even get me started on Celia Mei Rubin’s costume. I love
her so much and am so happy I got to see her swing on twice.
Even the two opera dancers have like fancy
clothing which they quickly exit to change into their actual opera outfits.
Both Natasha and Sonya are so enchanted. And
Marya gives Natasha that flower for her hair. And she adjusts Sonya’s headfeather
She’s also so judgmental about Anna
Then Hélène sees Natasha and is instantly drawn
in. (Side note: every woman in this show is so gay for Natasha except for Marya
D. who is too busy being gay for Hélène sorry I don’t make the rules it’s a
When the servant does his announcement of the
people, Dolokhov saunters around stage, and kisses a woman’s hand and then
makes her kiss his. It’s great.
And Hélène just flounces around twirling and
displaying her body and outfit. She’s got two main dresses, and this one is
like her main one sorta. So it’s black, with green underskirts, and fringes and
it’s so pretty I want one now.
Side note: Marya actually is wearing something
not entirely red. Like it’s got red accents, but is mostly dark with gold
patterns that sorta look tinged greenish. Nod to her romantic entanglements to
Hélène? Coincidence? I think not!
And Natasha is so taken with Hélène, it’s so
When Hélène starts talking to Natasha, Marya and
Sonya are over to the side, and when Marya sees what’s going on, she quickly
(nearly runs) over to intervene. She places herself between Natasha and Hélène,
and looks so huffy when Natasha keeps interrupting. And her whole “woman you
should stay far away from” is said without taking her eyes off of Hélène. Like,
girl, you make out with her next act. I see your thirst don’t deny it.
Then the actual opera starts and holy shit is it
weird to see live. The two dancers prance about. And both Gelsey Bell and Paul
Pinto are the opera singers. Their voices (Gelsey’s especially) are just so
haunting, and the noises Gelsey makes are fucking weird, but wow are you just
so impressed by it.
Also, during on point the opera dancer (Mary
Page Nance though the first time I saw it Celia Mei Rubin was swinging for Ani
Taj) jerks her arms towards herself and pants comedically. It’s really quite
Holy shit I’ve got a lot to say just noticed.
And we’re not done yet.
Okay, so the opera pauses and we interlude onto
Sonya and Natasha who look so bored and confused. And Natasha gets up and
waltzes about the stage while Sonya narrates.
So Anatole makes his entrance and the big doors
open and this blinding light surrounds him. The entire cast turns to marvel at
this wonder, and audience included they all shield their eyes. Yes it’s that
bright. Anatole does this weird head thing to the beat of the music like he’s
reveling in the attention.
He walks down the stairs and starts kissing and
nuzzling an audience member then pats the closest male member to her as if to
say “good on you mate”
He goes right to Hélène and taps his cheek for
her to kiss him but moves his head to she kisses him on the lips instead.
That’s her delighted laugh you can hear on the soundtrack. In the book the
relationship is heavily implied to be incestuous. Suck on that George RR
Martin. Tolstoy’s already done siblings being weirdly attracted to each other.
The opera resumes and most of the ensemble has
joined in on the show. There’s people on the stairs to the mezzanine wearing
these creepy hooded costumes with long fingers. And others dresses as soldiers.
And the Andrey actor comes out bloodied while the two dancers tear off his coat
and pull long flowy sheets from him to resemble blood. He holds out a crumpled
red ribbon towards Natasha who shrinks away terrified.
During this stuff Dolokhov, Hélène, and Anatole
are on the middle level banister part and applaud in slow motion. Marya is
seated on the top level and does so as well. She just really loves the opera.
Natasha & Anatole:
Okay so during this, it’s the two of them in the
So I’ve been thinking about this for a long
time. But, when Natasha sings the part about there being “nothing
formidable…not a barrier of modesty I’ve always felt with men” for some reason
this makes her attraction to him so much more believable. Because see, she’s a
young woman in 19th century Russia where men and women don’t
converse this casually. So for her, this is probably the first time a man
outside her family has spoken to her like a real person instead of just some
woman they must be cordial to. And I hate their relationship so much, but it’s
so understandable that this impressionable young woman be taken with someone
who actually treats her like someone worth talking to. Like, Andrey has this
distant smile and is probably really formal with her, but here this dude is
being all approachable and shit.
Like jesus Christ stop hating on Natasha. You
fan girls will jump through hoops to defend Anatole; og fuckboi of the century
just because he’s pretty, even though he’s literally at fault so much more in
this situation. Like c’mon he’s a grown ass man. Fucks sake…
So a few more things. He grabs her flower at one
Also, the last line about there being nothing
between them has a double meaning. So yes, there’s nothing between them in
terms of like space, or something in the way of their mutual attraction, but
like also they just met. This relationship is not build on anything substantial
so there is like literally nothing really between them.
Okay so visually I love this song so much. It’s
such a fantastic thing, but I kept listening to the soundtrack and that’s what
really got me.
Before it starts Anatole is just upstage and
mimes a head explosion motion. It’s great. Like, I hate this character, but
Lucas Steele is just such a good actor for the part.
Okay so Anatole comes back to the Bezukhov
household all like ‘c’mon we going to drink tonight’ and Dolokhov comes in with
a tray and spins it while pouring what I’ll assume is vodka, but who knows.
The music gets intense and the seizure lights
start. A rave scene in 19th century Russia. Sign me the fuck up. The
first time I had to shut my eyes, but the next three times I actually kept them
open to watch everything, and it honestly wasn’t bad at all.
Side note: I love the whole drink with me my
love part. It is just a great line.
So just a few things I’ve seen. One of the
ensemble members (I think it’s Josh Canfield) is wearing a leather crotch
harness, and green speedo. (Side note: I’m probably going to mess up on who
each male ensemble member is because I’m way better versed in the women. I
think it’s a side effect of being a huge lesbian…) Mary is wearing these huge
aviator/mad scientist goggles (and yes I’m choosing to believe Mary has finally
gotten out of the house let me have this). During the chaos so much is
happening. So Marya D. is dressed up in this latex catsuit, and a riding crop
complete with like a mesh covered boob window thing because Marya is always in
something highnecked even as a secret deviant in a druggy club. (So different
cast sources claim Grace McLean is actually playing someone called Catya, but
costume designer says that “secret deviant… Marya is part of the aesthetic so I
choose to believe it really is Marya but she’s disguised with these huge
sunglasses. Also she spanks multiple people with that riding crop so like… wow
if I didn’t know I was gay before…
To continue, during this Balaga is going down on
Sonya (though technically it’s the actor Paul Pinto who plays a lot of roles,
so it could be anyone at this point), someone does a line of “cocaine” (it’s
sugar), Josh Canfield just slides across one part of the stage and almost into
the table section. And everything is so sexual, and it’s the best. Like Grace
McLean goes from humping Josh Canfield, to drinking with Dolokhov. During the
climax (ha!) of the scene there’s that whole bit about “the health of married
women and their lovers” and I just love this line so much. Hélène is so mocking
of Pierre. Some ensemble members mime throwing up into the audience from
drinking too much, and Mary is just hugging a banister pole and slumped on the
ground. Girl doesn’t get out much.
Just before the big duel, Marya pulls Anatole
aside to give him an impromptu blowjob. Like they exchange the riding crop and
hit each other with it, and she gets down on her knees while he unzips his
pants but then everything stops and Pierre is like “bitch, don’t touch my wife”
to Dolokhov, and everyone immediately turns their attention to that (Grace,
Brittain Ashford (Sonya), and a few others slip out to presumably change
costume. The ensemble take seats to see the fun, and I was sat right next to
Blaine and Heath Saunders while they talked about the duel (everyone is always
talking when off-mic too) and he nudged me when the announcer was like “as the
adversary’s…” and Blaine said to me “no they have not” and I was just like “not
at all” back to him. Wow.
There’s that whole duel thing, and beforehand,
Hélène is like “he will kill you” to Pierre and her voice just breaks. This
part of the play is when you can really see just how much more complex their
relationship is. Because Hélène’s actions show that on some level she really
does care for Pierre’s wellbeing because when Dolokhov is shot she just gasps
and you can’t even really hear it, but when Dolokhov shoots, she just gives out
this bloodcurdling scream of horror and distress. And for the rest of the scene
she’s just in shock, and exits by slowly walking up the stairs. I saw her expression
up close, and she was just in shock, and devastated, and it was a turmoil of
TL;DR Hélène is not the monster people love to
make her out to be. And I love her and will defend her with my life. Fight me.
While Anatole leaves he mimes finger guns at
Pierre, who is so not in the mood.
Dust and Ashes:
Transition to the big song. Okay, so I love this
song so much. For one it’s a beautiful song full of emotion and some great
lines (I love “bury me in burgundy”) but also because I have a lower voice
(with terrible range I might add) so I can sorta sing along to this one without
So, for a bit it’s just Pierre silently in his
office area. Then he starts hesitantly playing the chords on the piano. And
while I’d agree that Josh Groben’s voice is more pleasing to hear, Dave Malloy
sings it with such emotion, and I’d agree his voice is suited to play Pierre’s
character better. But both men are fantastic and I loved them both.
At one point he holds out a book and shakes it
at the audience in desperation. It’s so
beautiful and during the climax, the entire company is both standing side by
side in the mezzanine, and down the two aisles in the orchestra. They sing the
“ahhhs” and it’s the most beautiful and haunting thing. Like, if I could just
have a picture even of that moment, I’d die happy. You’re so focused on Pierre
that you might miss this, but it’s the most beautiful thing ever.
The song ends with this blue light on Pierre
(think back to the color blind thing and you’ll feel things).
Sonya and Natasha enter. It’s the next morning
just after the duel so everything that just happened from Private and Intimate…
to now was in like a twenty-four hour period. Maybe even Moscow, but I’m
choosing to believe there was some
time before Natasha went to visit the Bolkonsky’s.
They do the candle in the mirror thing, and holy
shit. So when Natasha is looking in the mirror, and she sees the man, Pierre
returns to his office area, and crosses right behind Natasha so she can see him
in the mirror and that is such a brilliant stage direction and I am so shook.
Her future is Pierre! It’s right there!
The scene changes so rapidly from Natasha’s
distress at seeing someone lying down in the mirror to Marya’s “SUNDAY MORNING
TIME FOR CHURCH” and thank you growl voice.
Then after the brief church bit, Marya goes off
to scold Bolkonsky for his behavior and I wish I could have seen Marya tear him
a new one because it’s so funny in the books. Grace exits the big doors with
such a flourish. She just like turns sidways, holds out her skirts and like
floats out the door.
So for this scene Natasha is mostly in her
corset and underthings and Hélène just waltzes in. This song is so gay, and
Dave Malloy has said it was meant to be, so fuck yeah gay.
Hélène has on her second dress. This one’s main
color is green, with black underskirts. And the coat she has on is so extra. I
Hélène is so sensual and flounces around,
twirling her skirts during this entire song. Amber Gray fuck me up. Her voice
is so jazzy, and she’s got the growl down too. Jesus Christ I’m so gay. She
just takes over the whole theater, and there is no one else.
During this, Lulu and Shoba are maids in the
household and have a beautiful dress for Natasha to try on. They hold it open
and she just ducks into it. I need to be able to dress this easily.
So, a few things about my favorite parts. “Now a
woman with a dress is a frightening and powerful thing” is probably one of my
favorite lines. Like fuck yeah woman power. Also, the fact that she
effortlessly pronounces “Alliez dans le monde. Plutôt que de dépérir d’ennui!”
which according to my French education means something like go into the word
rather than perish of boredom, but she completely botches the entire title of
the song. Charmante is not pronounced Charmanté.
Even if it does sound so much better.
Natasha has on her dress, and Hélène just casually rips the necklace Andrey
gave her off, and tosses it aside (Pierre catches it, symbolism anyone?) and
replaces it with her own necklace. Then they go off to the ball together.
the coat is passed to Natasha at one point and she just loves that coat as much
as I do.
tell you about the ball. This musical is so disregarding of gender norms like I
love it. Like an ensemble member Katrina Yaukey has full armpit hair dyed hot
pink it’s awesome. But, right ball. So everyone is in costume. The women all
have different tops to their dresses, but the skirts are mostly the same. The
inner skirt on most (dunno if its all) comes to mid thigh, and the outerskirts
open up and are long and swishy. They’ve all got little lace coverings over
their eyes, and mostly different headdresses. So, from what I saw there are a
few cat ears, some antlers (Pearl Rhein has such cool antlers). A few are
unique and I think the main characters have those. So Mary has this cute weird
thing that I’m not sure what it is, but I like it. And Marya has this golden
crownlike thing that also looks like it could be wings or something dunno. But
it’s unique, and her dress is backless and wow. (Gay much?)
there are no gender norms here. Here there are men dancing with men (They’ve
all got mostly the same outfit. A green fancy war uniformlike jacket and bear
mask (I think but I’m not sure might have just been the lighting, that Andrey’s
is silver while everyone else has gold.) and women dancing with women. And
different gender couples too, but sometimes the women are leading, and it’s so
fucking amazing and normalized. The first time I saw that I may have teared up
just thinking about how casually it’s shown. And in a play about 19th
century Russia no less.
so it has to be said, but Mary is wearing something so beautiful, and she looks
like she’s having the time of her life dancing with Katrina. And I choose to
believe it’s actually Mary (not some other role) who is finally getting the
adoration and attention she deserves. Katrina spins her around, and dotes on
her, and it’s just beautiful. Like she literally lifts her up at one point and
spins her. During this scene, not all the women and men lift their partners but
Katrina does, and Mary looks so damn happy.
Marya is dancing with either a female ensemble member who is Courtney Bassett I think. The veil
hides her face, and they were farther away. But wow. Is Marya a good leader.
She just sensually circles her partner, and like trails her lips over her
shoulders and chest, and wow.
it is a costume tournament and Hélène’s got on these dark angel wings like
someone put her in the victoria’s secret show right now.
back to the actual plot. So, Natasha and Anatole are dancing and whatever. It’s
all very sweet and whatnot, but back to the ensemble.
at the climax of the song, the dance couples life each other’s veils and masks
and all grab wine glasses with different water levels to change frequency. They
dip their fingers in the water, and literally trace the rim of the glass to use
them as instruments like what the fuck why did this not win best score and
orchestra?!??!?!?! It’s the haunting and soothing sound (yeah I know I’ve used
these adjectives a lot, but it’s true). This goes on, and they all stop at the
same time except for Hélène who keeps going with a spotlight on her for a bit
longer before cutting off with a flourish.
and another thing, Sonya is not at the ball. Everyone else is in costume, but
Sonya is still wearing her white dress, but she comes out to do the wine glass
Natasha and Anatole
pledge their love for each other, and scene.
Request: “SEbastian Smythe X reader? Maybe where Blaine is your brother and when he throws the slushie you get mad and tell him the relationship is over and he argues it was meant for Kurt and u say it’s the same thing bc Kurt is family and Seb pleads for u to stay and she rejects him. Later after time being apart he tries to win her back and is successful (maybe this happens in college, they’re both studying to b lawyers and he gets a second chance bc he’s more mature now)hope I’m not a bother!❤️”
Word count: 2.512 (Oops, sorry.)
A/N: I’m sorry for the late post, but I hope you like it. It’s a little bit long, I know, but I didn’t know how to write the story line and I just went with the first thing that came in my mind. Thank you for requesting and you will never be a bother to me.
- G. x
People say that everything that has happened in the past remains in the past and we can’t do nothing to change it, but we know that we can always use the past as our point of reference to learn in the future.
But did they know that everything that we put in our heads stay there? Like we remember some things, don’t we? And usually we remember the things in the past that we want to forget and forget the things we want to remember.
These thoughts kept running through your mind as you studied for your Law and Government exams. You honestly couldn’t concentrate on your papers since the moment that you knew that Sebastian Smythe was studying in the same college you were attending. You both wanted to be lawyers, but you never thought that you could attend the same school one day, mostly after what he has done in high school.
Sebastian Smythe was your loving but snarky and annoying ex-boyfriend. You loved him so much and people knew how you both completed each other. He had many positive traits, such as his intelligence, his talent at singing and dancing, his capacity of treating girls right. Although, he was so competitive and he didn’t accept defeat. He was never the loser, so he always needed to play dirty.
You remembered how you met him and how he made you fall in love, even though you hated him at first.
“Hi, I am (Y/N) and I think that you are a douche bag.” You said to him annoyed. He was bothering Kurt while you two were in your favourite coffee shop, Lima Bean, and you thought that it was a great move to stand up for your brother’s boyfriend.
“Mademoiselle,” He flashed you a kinky smirk. “I am Sebastian and I don’t care of what you think.” He smiled sarcastically and you groaned because of his annoying gestures.
You started your conversation in that way, but you never thought that you would’ve loved him nevertheless his flaws and it never bothered you whenever he planned something bad just to obtain victory. It didn’t matter if he cheated or he stepped on other people, he should always win. You never minded him about doing those bad stuffs, until he made a really bad mess.
He was part of a glee club in high school, the Warblers, and so are you, but in a public school, New Directions. These two groups hated each other, since both of them wanted to win every sectionals, regionals and nationals and the memory of a terrible happening was still fresh in your mind, even though many years have already passed.
It was another day of fight with The Warblers, when New Directions sustained that the first has copied your group’s idea of performing a Michael Jackson song during the regionals. A sing-off had took place, so this way your group could show them that you deserved to do a Michael song.
Bad by Michael Jackson was sung by both of the groups, that have shown their best to get what they really wanted.
Everything was going well: the song, the performance and the dance moves, until something went really fast and you haven’t gotten any idea of how it has happened. You were singing the last part of the song as you saw your elder brother, Blaine, fell on the ground. He was covering his face as he was shouting for pain and agony.
“Blaine,” You quickly ran to him, not even minding to finish the started song, and kneeled in front of your suffering big brother. Around him there was a big puddle of melting red slushie. “what’s happening?”
“I can’t open my eyes; my face is burning.” He yelped in pain once again and the guys of the group quickly helped Blaine to get up. You were so confused of how it happened, you were sure that The Warblers did something stupid again.
“Talk to your boyfriend, he did this.” Santana spat her words like they were venom in her mouth. She then gave Sebastian a stinging death glare, that made you confused even more.
“Seb?” You couldn’t believe at her accusations, so you turned yourself at him and you saw that he was holding a large empty paper cup using his right hand. He was shocked on what has happened.
Anger and delusion quickly filled your emotions. You couldn’t help but get up from where you were kneeling and give him a sharp and violent slap on his right cheek. He deserved it, he really did.
“You let me down.” You shook your head and you slowly walked away from him. He was shocked on what you did, obviously, but he knew that he deserved it.
“(Y/N), it was not meant for Blaine.” He calmly explained to you, he knew he was on the wrong side. Taking a step forward, he was trying to reach your hand. You asked for your group to leave you alone with him and they quickly went away, bringing Blaine, who kept on complaining under his breathe, with them and guiding him as he walked.
“Then for who it was? Santana? Artie?” You raised your voice a little louder and you noticed that his group mates weren’t there with you anymore, in short: you two were both left alone in the room.
“It was for Kurt, damn!” He raised his voice and answered you aggressively. “You know how much I hate that annoying friend of yours.” He let the empty cup fall from his grip and he walked towards you.
“And it was okay to hurt him?” You raised your left eyebrow, sarcasm in your voice could be heard. He crossed the line and he knew that.
“I have my own reasons why I should’ve hit him with the slushie.” He sassily answered and you were honestly tired of his shit. “Who cares if I hurt Kurt?”
“Sebastian, are you fucking hearing yourself? You did this to win the regionals and I know that, because you’re too competitive! And second thing, I care for Kurt, I care for everyone in that group. I care for them and it wasn’t okay to hurt Kurt because he is part of our family, since he’s Blaine’s boyfriend.” You shouted at him. You lost your calm because of his stupid plans and his stupid words.
“And you didn’t care for what I felt? You don’t care for what your boyfriend is feeling right now. Your boyfriend.” He held everything against you that you never cared for him whenever your friends were involved. He looked at the floor with a death glare, but then quickly looked at you.
“Sebastian, I cared for you and I really did. Nothing was a lie for me and I loved you so much, with or without your flaws. I loved you, but you really crossed the line this time.” You shook your head as you spat words that hurt you and Sebastian so much. “You need to grow up and I think that it’s better if we end this relationship now.” Tears then started to stream down your face.
“No, you don’t want to break up.” Sebastian shook his head many times, not believing of what you have just said. “We decide this together, (Y/N)! You can’t break up with me, just because your friends hate me or just because I hurt Blaine accidentally. No, you can’t and I am not letting you to do so.” Sebastian was a hard-headed person and you knew that he wouldn’t agree with your decision easily.
“Sebastian, I am so damn tired of tolerating your fucking actions. You grow up and I think that this would be better for the two of us.” You sadly told him and you turned yourself away from Sebastian, trying to walk away.
“Thank you!” He sarcastically shouted. “Thank you for leaving me after what I have done for you (Y/N)! After the patience, the support and the great things I’ve given you. Thank you.”
You didn’t mind what he has said, because you knew that Sebastian was acting up like that just because he was angry with everyone, he was angry with himself. You decided to leave him, even though it was a fast and hard decision to do. You walked away from him, turning around for one last time to see Sebastian crying while he was giving you a stinging death glare. It was hard for you to let go, but you really needed to let him go.
That painful thing happened many years ago and it caused you a hard time moving on from your first serious relationship, who would’ve ever thought that just a bad happening could separate two people that loved each other.
“(Y/N)!” You suddenly heard your brother calling you and you shook your head to erase your thoughts, the gesture slightly gave you a headache.
“What is it, Blaine?” You snapped at him as you turned around to face him.
“I called you a millionth time now.” He rolled his eyes as he went near you. “You were lost in your thoughts?”
“Uhm…” You bit your lower lip and nodded as you looked in his deep hazel eyes.
“What has happened?” He curiously asked you, taking the sit beside yours.
“Something is just bothering me, but it’s not that important. Don’t worry.” You lied through your teeth and then added a fake smile at the end.
“I’m not convinced, (Y/N). I know when you’re faking it or not.” He laughed out loud and you just rolled your eyes in response.
“What is it? Why are you here?” You bitterly asked him when he caught that you were just pretending to be okay.
“Someone’s looking for you downstairs.” His face quickly became serious. You suddenly felt a sting in your chest and you became nervous for a second.
“Who is it?” You curiously asked, trying to hide your nervousness.
“I didn’t ask, but you should go now.” He flashed you a sweet smile to courage you and you just nodded your head, not knowing why you quickly got up and walked out of your room.
You quickly ran downstairs and you felt another pang in your chest as you saw who it was. How could it be possible that you were thinking of him just a moment before and he then suddenly shows up at your door?
He was talking with Kurt calmly, but they suddenly stopped when they noticed that you were fixing your gaze on them.
“(Y/N)!” Kurt happily greeted you, like what he does every day. It’s a fun to live with Blaine and Kurt, because they always spoil you and you always get what you want. They take care of you as if you were their daughter, even though you are grown up now.
“Morning, Kurt.” You absent-mindedly greeted him. He got up from the couch and smiled at you.
“Do you want something while you talk to Sebastian?” He gently asked. “I’m fine, Kurt. Thank you.” You sweetly smiled at him and he smiled back at you.
“Alright, I’m leaving the both of you then.” He started to walk upstairs, obviously going to where Blaine was. You and Sebastian both followed his steps, but then looked at each other shyly when Kurt was already out of the scene.
“Uhm,” He shyly started. “Hi?”
“Hi.” You shortly replied. You couldn’t deny the fact that you missed him so much, but he hurt you and you couldn’t just hug him tightly, like what you used to do.
“How are you?” He seemed happy at that moment. He was happy to see you and you knew it, you could see it in his eyes.
“I’m fine, stuck at studying Law and Government.” You sighed as you break the ice between the two of you and you treated him as if he didn’t do anything in the past. “How about you?”
“I’m good, thank you.” He smiled. “If you want I can help you to study.”
“Uhm, okay.” You nodded slowly and his smile widen even more. “Why did you visit?”
“Oh,” His smile suddenly fell and he had a serious look in his eyes. “it’s about the past.”
“Sebastian, we can’t change the past.” You reminded him coldly.
“I know, but we can change our future.” He looked at you and you saw the loneliness in his green orbs. “If we want to, we can.”
“But,” You didn’t know what to say. You want to fix everything with him, but it feels like your pride is still eating you whole.
“It’s okay if you don’t want to, but let me say that I am sorry for what I have done in high school. I know that I was a douchebag that didn’t deserve anything in his life, but I am grown up now. I know what is right from wrong and believe me that I really do. In high school, I thought it was all fun and games, until it’s not.” He explained it seriously while he fiddled with his fingers. “Losing you made me realize something and I knew that I wanted to change myself.”
“Sebastian.” You sadly pronounced his name. “I really don’t know what to say.”
“It’s okay, you don’t have to say something.” He bit his lip and then he admired his shoes, as if they were the most interesting things in the planet. “I just wanted to tell you this.”
“You really changed.” You smiled sweetly. You missed Sebastian and you couldn’t lose him for the second time now. If you both met once again after all these years, there is a possible reason. “I’ve been unfair to you that day, I know, but I am happy that you decided to change yourself.”
“It wasn’t easy to lose someone you loved so much.” He looked at you straight in the eyes, but he looked away when you both felt embarrassed.
“I agree that it wasn’t easy.” You nodded slowly. “And you know how much I want to change the future with you.” You were shocked for the words that slipped out from your mouth.
“Really?” He was full of enthusiasm and he was really happy on what you have just said.
“Really.” You shortly answered.
“So, can we start it all over again?” He asked you sincerely. “Obviously, in a better way.”
“Hi, I am (Y/N) and I think that you are a douche bag.” You winked at him, remembering how you two first met.
“Mademoiselle,” He flashed you a kinky smirk. You smiled because he still remembered everything. “I am Sebastian and I am sorry for treating your friend bad.” He then smiled and winked at you.
You both chuckled loudly and you both got up from your seats. You warmly wrapped your arms around each other’s body and you enjoyed his touch silently. You missed his smell, you missed his hugs, you missed everything, but you are happy that you can finally have all of these things every day once again.
He’s far too warm. So is Blaine, but Blaine is always like that, always warm and cozy because Kurt married a furnace, and that’s okay because their little vintage apartment has radiators that work on a spotty basis at best, and–
“Kurt? You okay?”
Kurt sighs and presses his cheek against the side of Blaine’s face. Warm, warm, warm. “I’m okay,” he slurs, and though the sound of it (”Uhm-kay”) tells him exactly how drunk he is, he doesn’t care, because they’re at the threshold of their apartment and Blaine’s holding onto him just fine. He’s so hot, and a little sweaty, but that’s okay too, because they have the best times together when they’re hot and sweaty, and it’s Valentine’s Day, so–
“Are you sure?” Blaine pauses his attempt to get his keys out of his pocket and tightens his grip around Kurt’s waist. He reaches up and pushes Kurt’s bangs out of his face where his coif has finally fallen out of its hairspray.