artist breakdown

I’m not overreacting , i’m not being dramatic . But it’s soo damn hard when you’re drowning in a circle of bad thoughts . you can’t let go , you can only be a victim

anonymous asked:

what do you most want nick to ask harry?

For his hand in marriage

Swedish books/movies/tv shows you should read/watch

Originally posted by introverts-hideaway

Here is a list of swedish books/movies/tv shows that you should read/watch if you want to !

(this is not a ranking)


April Witch 

(Aprilhäxan) by  Majgull Axelsson. 

Desirée wants to know who stole her life. Institutionalised since early childhood due to severe disabilities, she lies in her hospital bed making plans. She can neither walk nor talk, but she has special abilities. Desirée is an ‘April witch’, which means that she’s able to see through other creatures’ eyes and can make them take her wherever she wants to. In her quest to find out which of her three foster sisters has stolen her life, Desirée becomes an invisible presence in their lives, following them, biding her time.

Simon and the Oaks

(Simon och ekarna) by Marianne Fredriksson.

Simon Larsson grows up in a working-class family in Gothenburg in the 1940s. World War II is raging. Simon’s father is a man of principles and strong views; his mother runs the home with love and warmth. But they are not his biological parents. Simon finds out that he was adopted and that his real father is Jewish. At school, Simon meets Isak Lentov, the son of a rich Jewish bookkeeper. The Lentovs, who fled from Nazi Germany before the war, becomes closely linked to Simon’s own family as the two boys make the transition from childhood to adulthood.

The Hundred-Year-Old Man Who Climbed Out of the Window and Disappeared

(Hundraåringen som klev ut genom fönstret och försvann) by Jonas Jonasson.

On his 100th birthday, Allan Karlsson breaks out of an old people’s home, through the window. He is determined to fill his remaining days with adventure and embarks on a long journey through Sweden, being chased by thieves and police, making friends along the way. Mixed with his old-age adventure, his life’s story is told: he dines with president-to-be Harry S. Truman, hitchhikes with Winston Churchill, travels on a river boat with Mao Zedong’s wife and treks through the Himalayas.

Gösta Berling’s Saga

by Selma Lagerlöf.

A priest defrocked for misbehaving and drinking, Gösta Berling wants to die. The Mistress of Ekeby saves him from freezing to death and takes him in. As one of 12 party-loving homeless men in the manor at Ekeby, Gösta Berling becomes a leading spirit. But the evil Sintram lures the men into making a deal with the devil, which leads to the Mistress of Ekeby leaving home. Wild adventures, power struggle and redemption follow.

Let the Right One In

(Låt den rätta komma in) by John Ajvide Lindqvist.

It’s the winter of 1981 in the grey Stockholm suburb of Blackeberg. Twelve-year-old Oskar is being bullied. But he has a friend who lives next door, Eli. The two develop a close relationship, and Eli helps Oskar fight back against his tormentors. But this story is more than just a snapshot of average suburban life. Eli is a vampire, which Oskar has yet to find out. As mysterious murders spread fear and confusion in the community, Oskar starts to understand – but doesn’t abandon Eli.

The Road

(Vägen till Klockrike) by Harry Martinson.

In 1898, cigar maker Bolle faces big changes. Hand-rolled cigars have to give way to modern, machine-made, mass-produced cigars. Industrialisation is here and Bolle doesn’t like it. He hits the road. On wood-lined gravel roads we follow his vagabond journey through a Sweden about to change. Bolle learns how to beg without provoking people, faces the fear of inhabitants and meets riding policemen as well as vagabond friends. The vagabonds share a longing for freedom and a feeling of scepticism of the brave new world.

Popular Music from Vittula

(Populärmusik från Vittula) by Mikael Niemi.

Matti and his silent friend Niila grow up in Pajala in the very north of Sweden, in an area called Vittula. This is the 1960s/70s, when roads are covered with asphalt, small farms are closed and rock music hits the radio. The older generation doesn’t like the novelties, shaped as they are by memories of poorer times and by Laestadianism, a conservative Lutheran movement that started in Swedish Lapland. Mikael and his friends dream of another life, a life that awaits beyond the horizon.

Let Me Sing You Gentle Songs

(Nu vill jag sjunga dig milda sånger) by Linda Olsson.

One dark evening in March, Veronika arrives at a remote cottage in a small Swedish village, having come all the way from New Zealand. She is a young author longing for peace and quiet to be able to finish her novel and get on with her life after mourning a great loss. Veronika’s closest neighbour is Astrid, a loner. Behind her walls, dark family secrets and a personal tragedy are hidden. As the cold winter turns to spring, the two women slowly form a bond. Their friendship will change both of their lives forever.

The People of Hemsö

(Hemsöborna) by August Strindberg.

Carlsson is on his way to the island of Hemsö in the Stockholm archipelago to work at widow Flod’s farm. With Flod’s husband dead and her son Gusten not caring about farming, the farm is in a state of disorder. When Carlsson starts taking care of everything, Flod is happy, but her son finds Carlsson very snobbish. Eventually Carlsson marries Flod – but let’s just say she’s not the only woman on the island.

The Serious Game

(Den allvarsamma leken) by Hjalmar Söderberg.

Arvid Stjärnblom and Lydia Stille accidentally meet again, ten years after their young romance ended. Now, they are both married, but can’t help falling for each other again and start an affair. Lydia is an independent woman who gets a divorce and is prepared to follow her emotions, which turns out to have far-reaching consequences. Arvid, on the other hand, stays married to his wife with whom he has two children. It soon becomes clear that love is a serious game.

Keep reading

It’s no secret

that the voices


“things shall get better”

always escape from mouths

not suffering

like we are.

those truly suffering

know better

than to tape the cracks

of something broken

with false hope

—  I don’t believe you when you tell me “it gets better.” // A.S

With the terrible realization that I’m probably not going to stop doodling ME stuff anytime soon, figured I’d redesign ‘simpler(?)’ versions of the characters to reference from because… you know. Space armor is the leading cause of artist breakdowns. 

Took a lot of inspiration from the old TV series Buzz Lightyear of Star Command because I loved it, some of my college profs apparently worked on it (!!), and it’s probably what got me into badass space family adventures in the first place. 

Marker pen study of Breakdown’s hands. (Sloppily referenced from very low-res screenshots, please forgive.)

Hats off to Augusto Barranco and the other TFP artists who gave Breakdown such an amazing design. Just the attention to detail here. Dig those dead sexy knuckle guards with their diamond-shaped studs; our boy wears the robot equivalent of brass knuckles 24/7. I was also surprised by how long his fingers are. I had to blunt them to fit the page, but in reality they’re much longer than, say, Bulkhead’s stubby cocktail wieners, and likely more dexterous, too. BD could probably perform fine manual tasks as well as heavy lifting, which is part of what made him such a perfect physician’s assistant.

Just, yeah, great design. Love it.

y’all who follow artists :

it is SO important to me & to any other artists you follow/interact with & especially to marginalized artists you follow that you reblog & share & connect our work with your networks!! don’t delete any of our captions or forget to credit us, but a reblog goes such a long way, not only for “exposure” but for any artists (like my yung queer blk ass who has been culturally taught not to value my art as art and my work as work) to see that they matter, that something they’ve made or shared with u mattered, to give a value to such vulnerability & time spent creating & brainpower. have a discourse with the work in the comments! tag yr friends! tell us u love something! critique! engage! 


Grantaire only has breakdowns when he’s alone and when no one can see him
He feels like his friends shouldn’t have to deal with him when he feels like breaking and pushes them away so he can finally not disturb anyone and just cry when no one can hear him

The echo of my feet crushes the reflection in the floor. Suddenly my steps feel like destruction before I’ve even dared to speak.
—  I’m desperate to feel something // A.S