I can’t help but regret the time I wasted on ignoring my inner self. In middle school when I got an art piece put in a gallery, it was my biggest accomplishment. I had worked hard all year for honor roll, but it didn’t mean anything compared to that. But at that time, I didn’t see drawing as anything but a fun class in school. I sure as heck never looked at it as a career choice. Throughout high school, my “inner me” kept screaming out and wanting art but I chose to ignore it. I lied to myself and tried to convince myself that I was going to go get a PhD in science. Why? Because it sounded fancy and it sounded like the thing that was expected of me because of some dumb GPA. Once I realized that I was really bad at science, nor did I really like it, I jumped to business. Yup, that’s the next best thing right? I was going to live in a big city, and ride a taxi to work at some fancy downtown office and wear a suit as I sift through the hustle and bustle of the town trying to get coffee. I kept trying to convince myself that’s what I wanted. I’m really good at lying to myself. Like really good. But the thing is, I don’t like wearing suits, nor do I really like coffee. It actually seemed like a drag to me, just constantly preparing myself for this career that I “wanted”. Everyone else knew what they wanted and it scared me to say that I didn’t have a plan, so I made a plan and convinced myself it was what I truly wanted. I told myself that I was going to be a restaurant owner. But when I baked, it didn’t make me happy; instead, it seemed like more of a chore. Deep down, I was thinking, “Wow. Doing this the rest of my life, huh? That seems like a long time to be doing this…” but when people would question me on it, I would quickly defend myself with, “YEAH! This is really what I want to do!” All because I was scared to say I didn’t have a plan. Guys, don’t be scared to not have a plan. It’s better to admit to not having a plan than trying to convince yourself of some mirage of a plan. The day I realized I wanted to do art for the rest of my life, was the moment I finally felt free. The dots in my entire life connected and ever since I’ve wondered why I wasted so much time questioning what I truly wanted. Don’t be afraid to go for your dreams. Don’t be afraid of the unknown. It’s a journey, and although I can say that I regret the time I wasted on not working on my art, those were just my little detours. And as Ging says, that’s where you’ll find the things more important than what you want. I learned a lot in those little detours. I’m slowly learning not to lie to myself. I also learned what I didn’t want. Without those detours, I can’t say for 100% I would’ve been able to make it to this path. So, a big thank you to all my failures and doubts. You guys did me a solid and now I’m ready to take on the world!