art history quote

I wish someone would’ve just sat me down, five years ago, ten years ago even, and told me how much growing up would feel like digging my soul out of my body by teaspoons and burying it.
—  from an unfinished story #810

“I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it’s true I’m here, and I’m just as strange as you.” -Frida Kahlo

Both aesthetically and ethically, I seek to translate my rage and my desire into new images which will undermine conventional perceptions and which may reveal hidden worlds. Many of the images are seen as sexually explicit - or more precisely, homosexually explicit. I make my pictures homosexual on purpose. Black men from the Third World have not previously revealed either to their own peoples or to the West a certain shocking fact: they can desire each other.
—  Rotimi Fani-Kayode

he was 65, his wife was 66, had
Alzheimer’s disease.

he had cancer of the
mouth.
there were
operations, radiation
treatments
which decayed the bones in his
jaw
which then had to be
wired.


daily he put his wife in
rubber diapers
like a
baby.


unable to drive in his
condition
he had to take a taxi to
the medical
center,
had difficulty speaking,
had to
write the directions
down.


on his last visit
they informed him
there would be another
operation: a bit more
left
cheek and a bit more
tongue.


when he returned
he changed his wife’s
diapers
put on the tv
dinners, watched the
evening news
then went to the bedroom, got the
gun, put it to her
temple, fired.


she fell to the
left, he sat upon the
couch
put the gun into his
mouth, pulled the
trigger.


the shots didn’t arouse
the neighbors.


later
the burning tv dinners
did.


somebody arrived, pushed
the door open, saw
it.


soon
the police arrived and
went through their
routine, found
some items:


a closed savings
account and
a checkbook with a
balance of
$1.14
suicide, they
deduced.


in three weeks
there were two
new tenants:
a computer engineer
named
Ross
and his wife
Anatana
who studied
ballet.


they looked like another
upwardly mobile
pair.

—  ‘Hell is a Lonely Place’, by Charles Bukowski (1920-1994)