aro forgive me

I’m tired of non-aro people trying to weigh in on QPRs. Like of course it doesn’t make sense to you because you aren’t aro. And now you’ve got your own skewed idea of what it’s supposed to be without actually learning anything about it. And, even though you don’t feel the attraction like an aro person does, you now think it’s appropriate for your opinion to be more important than an aro person’s. Stay in your lane, please, and let aro people define their attraction as we please

so this is an idea that just struck me and won’t leave. me. ALONE.

  • ace Sirius and demisexual Remus discovering that they’re ace-spectrum together
  • commiserating over how little they understand their peers when they start talking about sex and dating
  • Sirius thinks he wouldn’t mind the romance part of it tho
  • that’s a lie, he knows he wants romance and he knows exactly who with
  • spoiler alert guess who
  • but Remus doesn’t seem to want any part of this whole Relationship Business™ so Sirius just
  • never mentions it
  • ever
  • all he wants is cuddles but all he gets is struggles
  • meanwhile REMUS
  • after years of getting to know Sirius and developing the emotional connection between them
  • realizes he is attracted to his friend
  • and doesn’t do anything about it
  • because obvs Sirius doesn’t want that and Remus would never ask that of him and he feels like shit that he’s having these thoughts at all
  • esp when Sirius reveals that he is interested in dating and
  • Remus feels even worse
  • because he could never be worthy of Sirius
  • not when Sirius has been through so much with his family and being disowned and he deserves… everything
  • he deserves someone who will make him happy
  • and Remus is just Remus
  • in his most optimistic moments he thinks maybe he’ll graduate and become a social pariah who can barely support himself
  • but at least he could survive on barely
  • his future prospects are not great #understatement
  • at some point Sirius drunkenly confesses his feelings
  • maybe it’s when they graduate and the whole world cracks wide open with possibility in front of them and it’s terrifying and awful and amazing all at once
  • and it’s time for a little bit of that Gryffindor courage, he thinks
  • so he kisses Remus
  • and there’s that moment
  • that moment where Remus is too shocked to kiss back and Sirius pulls away because shit he fucked it all up
  • and Remus is like no get back here we are not done explain to me what just happened please
  • “I love you.”
  • awkwardly, not meeting his eyes: “I love you too, Padfoot.”
  • “No really, Remus. I have feelings for you. Have for a long time.”
  • then there’s a give and take—a dance—because Remus still doesn’t believe him because he’s just not worth it Sirius
  • “Listen, I’m going to have to ask that you stop that, right now, because I won’t have anyone talking about the man I love like that. I will fight you and you know me, Moony, I fight dirty. Are we clear?”
  • blushing but rolling his eyes all the while: “Crystal. Now get back here and let me kiss you properly.”
  • and that’s not the end there are still things to be sorted out
  • Sirius worries about The Sex Question™
  • where he’s afraid Remus wants more than he can give
  • but all Remus wants is him
  • there is nothing about Sirius that Remus could ever want more of, would ever even dream of changing
  • well except 
  • Remus wishes Sirius wouldn’t forget to clean his hair off their counters it just gets everywhere
  • how does it get everywhere Sirius were you combing your hair in the kitchen again why
  • they keep joking that he sheds worse as Sirius than as Padfoot
  • it just takes a flick of your wand for Merlin’s sake
  • and maybe they don’t live happily ever after
  • but they are happy