A Feeling

12th December, 2017.

“We should call in sick,” Owen suggested as he nuzzled the back of her neck.

“We can’t both call in sick,” she yawned as she readjusted her sleeping spot, dismissing the idea before it stuck in her head.

“Okay, well how about you call in sick and then I can fall down the stairs at work so I can get off early?” he countered, his hand resting on the tiny bump of her stomach. She wasn’t too far along, but because she was carrying two babies, they’d have to start telling people soon.

“Owen, what?!” she exclaimed, laughing. She turned to face him, seeing the glisten of happiness in his eyes. Bringing her hand to the side of his face, she caressed his cheek and smiled at him.

“I don’t know,” he chuckled, wrapping his arms tighter around her, “I just feel like we shouldn’t go out today.” Truthfully, he had the weirdest feeling in the pit of his stomach, but he didn’t want to tell her and alarm her.

“Maybe tomorrow we can stay home,” she relented, “We can start pretending to be sick from today, tell everyone we’re feeling funny.”

“I like that idea,” he murmured as he looked at her with complete adoration. He observed her messy bed hair, her glimmering blues, her dimply smirk, and her overall pregnancy glow, which was beginning to show.

“Why are you looking at me like that?” Amelia smiled.

“I love you,” he said, answering her question, “I’m just taking it all in. You make me so happy, Amelia.” Her smile got even bigger and brighter as she pulled him close for a deep and meaningful kiss. She didn’t think she could get any happier than this.

“Owen or mom!” they heard Ryan yell, “Rosie spilled the baby powder all over herself!”

“And there went our bubble of happiness,” Owen sighed, laughing a little. She kissed him one more time before they went to tend to their tiny brood.

The weird feeling in the pit of his stomach hadn’t gone away. All throughout breakfast, he felt it. He felt it even worse once she left to drop Ryan to school. The feeling just wouldn’t go away.

“You okay, Hunt?” Nathan asked as he approached the ER desk, noticing the troubled look on his colleague’s face.

“Yeah,” he murmured, pulling out his phone, “Just worried about something.” His fingers automatically scrolled to Amelia’s contact, thinking of calling her.

“I have a surgery in OR 2 in about 15 minutes if you wanna take your mind off of it,” Nathan suggested, shrugging. A surgery didn’t sound too bad…

Amelia sat at the traffic light, hands in her lap as she waited for it to turn green. Owen had been acting so weird this morning, like he would never see her again. It had her on edge as she dropped Ryan off, but nothing had happened and she was almost at the hospital, so she guessed there was nothing to be worried about after all. When the light turned green, she quickly shifted into gear and began to drive across the highway, although something in her mind told her to wait. She wished she’d listened, because the second her car crossed the intersection, someone slammed into her fender, twisting her car around and toppling it over. As she sat, upside down and bleeding from her forehead, she cursed herself for not listening to Owen and just calling in sick today.

“Are you okay?” a voice called out to her. Seconds after, a man knelt down by her window.

“My neck hurts,” she admitted. Her momentary shock turned into fear as her mind ran through all the reasons her neck could be hurting her. Stupid neurosurgery education. In the background, she could hear a fainting dripping of some liquid.

“Can you get out?” the guy asked.

“I should probably sit still until the paramedics get here,” she said, “Is the other guy okay?”

“I’m surprised you even care, to be honest,” he chuckled, “But he seems mostly fine, the jackass.” He eyed the laceration on her hairline and how profusely it was bleeding. “I know you shouldn’t move because your spine could be injured or whatever, but I think being upside down is gonna cause you to bleed out from your forehead.” Amelia brought a hand to her head and touched where it hurt. The second she did, the faint dripping she heard from before stopped. Bringing her hand to her vision, she noticed that almost the entire thing was covered in blood. Just then, she heard sirens.

“Hey, lady,” the guy called, seeing that she was about to pass out, “Don’t fall asleep, okay? Don’t-“

“Tell the paramedics I’m…” she whispered before losing consciousness.

Owen stood in the OR, opposite to Nathan, as he observed the lung transplant surgery. Still feeling nervous about Amelia’s whereabouts and wellbeing, he could barely pay attention to the surgery. He was about to tell Nathan he wanted to leave when he heard his name over the intercom.

“Hey, Owen?” It was April. “We kinda need you in the ER.”

“I’m kinda busy here, Kepner,” he responded, refocusing on the surgery.

“It’s important,” she urged as discreetly as possible, due to the fact that others were listening to their conversation.

“This is important,” he countered.

“Owen, would you please…”

He was beginning to lose his cool. “What could be so important in the ER that-“

“It’s Amelia,” she finally blurted out, receiving concerning looks from other staff members, “She got in an accident.” Owen finally looked up at April, feeling tears in his eyes already. He’d never run so fast out of an OR.

When Owen got into the trauma room, it was pure chaos. There were doctors all over, prodding poking, quarrelling while Amelia lay on the table, trying to be heard by them. Arizona sat in one corner of the room, unsure of when she should do her ultrasound check, Jackson, Meredith, Maggie, Derek and Callie all crowded around Amelia on the table while Richard, Bailey, Alex, Stephanie and Jo tried to tell them what to do. It was mass confusion.

“I said I’m fine,” Amelia groaned.

“You’re not fine, Amy,” Derek berated, “They pulled you out of your upside down car. You lost a lot of blood and your neck could be broken.”

“If my neck was broken, I’d probably be dead by now,” she countered, rolling her eyes.

“I don’t see any internal bleeding,” Meredith announced as she moved the ultrasound probe around, “Her stomach’s a little distended though.” She briefly looked up and noticed Owen staring at all of them. “Somebody take him outside.”

“No,” Owen said, finally finding his voice. He walked over to her side and took her left hand in both of his. He kissed her forehead and asked, “Are you okay?”

“I want to know if the babies are okay,” she muttered as quietly as possible.

“We can check that once everyone leaves,” he assured her, still wanting to keep the pregnancy a secret, “How do you feel?”

“I feel fine,” she answered truthfully, “A headache and probably some whiplash. I just want to go home, Owen.”

“Okay, I need to take an x-ray of her spine,” Callie announced, “So all the unnecessary persons in the room need to leave.” In the background, Meredith’s ultrasound probe passed over something odd. Her eyebrows furrowed as she examined the image on the monitor.

“No x-ray,” Amelia murmured. She looked desperately at Owen, squeezing his hand, “Tell them no x-ray.”

Overhearing Amelia’s request, Derek said, “You need the x-ray Amy. You could have fracture or displaced one of the bones in your spine.”

“No x-ray, Callie,” Owen pleaded with her.

“What?” the orthopaedic surgeon asked in confusion, “Why?”

Just then, the sound of two heartbeats overlapping one another filled the room, making everyone go silent.

““Sorry for ruining the surprise,” Meredith awkwardly announced, “But both babies seem to be okay.” Everyone in the room began to cheer, congratulating the couple.

Noticing the two’s sombre mood, Arizona suggested, “Hey guys, maybe we should give them a minute before we do any more tests?” Reluctantly, the celebrant doctors exited the room, leaving Owen and Amelia alone, finally.

Amelia looked up at Owen, only to see tears threatening to fall from his eyes. “Everything’s okay, Owen.”

“This is my fault,” he scolded himself, “I knew something bad was going to happen and I didn’t say anything.”

“It’s not your fault,” she said, raising her hand to wipe the tears that had already begun to fall, “I had the same feeling too.”

“Why didn’t you say something?”

She shrugged. “I don’t know. I thought I was being dramatic.”

Owen knelt at her bed, squeezing her hand tight as he smiled through his tears. “You need to stop getting into car accidents.”

Amelia laughed. “I’ll try.”

“I can’t lose you. We can always make more babies. We can’t make more you’s.” He kissed her hand. “Are you sure you’re okay?”

“I’m fine,” she said, tears welling in her eyes, “I’m just…”

“I know,” he said, knowing exactly what she was going to say. He brought his face to hers and pressed their foreheads together, closing his eyes. “You’re okay, the babies are okay. This is nothing like last time.” He heard her sniff and he opened his eyes to see her crying. If this was so traumatic for him, he could only imagine how traumatic it was for her. He kissed her forehead and let her cry.

Thankfully, she walked out of the hospital with just a concussion, a head laceration and some whiplash. Unfortunately, now everyone knew they were expecting and would probably be talking and asking them about it for a while. At least they’d get to stay home tomorrow.


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