aren't you all amazing

This Valentine’s Day I’d like to share a few things with you. I’m 19 years old and:

I have never had sex in my life
I have never dated anyone in real life (so not on the Internet)
I have never kissed anyone
I have never been on a date
I have never even held hands with someone romantically
I literally have never even been close to dating anyone in real life

Not because I don’t want to or because I’m picky. Because no one has ever asked me out or showed affection for me or even flirted with me. I don’t think anyone irl has ever fancied me, or if they did they never let me know in any way.

And you know what? I don’t care. I moved on from feeling abnormal and broken and not whole. I refuse to connect my value as a person to those things. I will not allow myself to think of myself as less because I have never done any of those things. Yes maybe my self-esteem still relies on my uni grades or good reviews of my works but I finally stopped thinking that there is something wrong with me for not experiencing those things.

I feel happy and whole anyway. I survived every crush who didn’t return my feelings and every instance of being attracted to someone and knowing they do not like me back. I survived and moved on.

And today I’d like you to turn to things you really value in your life. Your jobs and talents and hobbies and passions. Your family and friends and pets and even house plants. Your favorite books and bands and TV-shows and video games. Your favorite ice-cream and favorite pair of jeans and favorite plush toys.

There are so many people and things you love. There are, I hope, things that make you happy. Focus on them. And screw the society that tells you that you need relationships to know that you are loved. You are already loved. Don’t let society ever persuade you otherwise.

anonymous asked:

I've been looking for a few Phan artists? A lot of them also blog about other fandoms and post about shows/music I don't care about which clogs my feed. You're a bigger blog so I thought you might know a few people who are strictly, more or less, Phan artists?

sure man!





@phantheraglama (that’s not tagging so click here)  




@wavyfoxtrot (fran also draws/reblogs bts [kpop] but probs worth it anyway!!)


@pickinglester (that’s not tagging so click here)




i’m honestly definitely forgetting a million amazing artists but here are some!! callout post @ myself: a lot of these people i saw on my dash all the time and i see their art everywhere and i wasn’t ??? following them ??? friendly reminder to follow the people whose art you’re always reblogging bc i think a lot of us forget that

anonymous asked:

Could you recommend me good skam blogs to follow? I am new to the fandom and therefore I would like to follow high quality blogs. Thanks!

hello love, oh gosh!! there are so many good ones!! well firstly i would direct you to my blogroll (i don’t follow a lot of blogs so it’s easy to go through and all of them are *insert thumbs up emoji*) but some that i think you NEED to follow are:

@tarjeiandhenrik | @cuddlyevak@skamedits@skamisako@kardamomme @kardemomme-kisses | @yousefsanas | @linneaxskam | @tiptopevak | @toneelspeler | @evenbec | @tocapturethisvoice | @nalle | @sanathequeen | @minuttet | @valttersen | @littlespooneven | @softnorwegians | @kosegruppaa | @skamforfaen | @skam-addiction | @skamfairy | @skamz | @sanaknows | @stardefiant

oh gosh i bet i forgot a lot of people, this is just out of the back of my head. i know i am gonna cry bc i forgot someone but yeah those are quality blogs!

anonymous asked:

angsty nessian is the way to go

Congratulations nonnie, you and @jjellybean are the winners this evening because it’s what I felt like writing. Or at least the nessian part. Have fun.

Summary: Nesta and Cassian have a dramatic and necessary break up.


To Say the Things I Want to Say to You

There was something about the way that he looked at her. Something in the way that he told her he cared without having to say the words, told her he would always be there and promised her the world if only she would keep looking at him like that.

In the beginning, there had been a racing heart, a warmth in her core, Nesta’s thoughts finding Cassian when she didn’t want them to. His glaring good looks had softened into something more as she grew to know him. If she’d been more like Feyre, she might have tried to paint him. If she’d been more like Elain, she might have given him shy, flirtatious glances. But she was like neither of them, something wholly apart, somehow more and less and never quite what others wanted.

And yet. He had wanted her.

The beginning had been everything she never knew she could want. She found herself seeking him out, looking for his approval, words spilling from her lips before she knew they had left. Others around her talked about marriage and love and which man would be a worthy, fair husband. She had never cared for those things, because the value they might bring seemed unlikely to be worth the trade-off. All Nesta saw in marriage was the potential raise in social station, but love? That was unlikely, and being uninterested in such a thing didn’t help matters.

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Just so y’all know:

@fishnatu is my angst spirit fwiend and fangirl companion; great artist btw

@name-is-katana247 blesses my eyes with her pretty and smooth art everytime she posts something new, talking to her is always so pleasant

@glassesgirl0401 happily accepts all the ship porn I send her and is the only one who I’ve told many some of my nsfw OTP hcs and yet what she knows isn’t close to being half of what is in my mind ;)

@farlanchurch-isthemumfriend never fails to remind me of how much I love Farlan and LeviFar

@phx-y once she starts talking she talks at least as much as me which gives me validation



I love RR so much guys. This straight, white, middle-aged man took the time and dedication to properly represent minorites and LGBTQ+. Proper representation doesn’t usually doesn’t sell well, but Rick said “fuck it, I don’’t care”. Now we have all these amazing books where the characters are brazenly, shamelessly, unabashedly, explicitly non-white and non-straight. None of that vague, colorblind, “at the reader’s interpretation” bullshit so many authors employ to get their books to sell more. Or that dehuminazing representation where characters aren’t treated as seperate people with their own identity and goals, but are treated as caricatures. Rick chooses to make his characters be like actual people, not just members of a certain race/ethnicity/religion/sexuality.

In the Kane Chronicles, Sadie Kane and Carter Kane are biracial siblings, Zia Rashid is Arab, Walt Stone is black, Cleo is Brazilian, Julius and Ruby are an interracial couple, and the Egyptian gods are all described as non-white (with the exception of Thoth, but he was inhabiting a host at the time).

In the Heroes of Olympus, Hazel is black, Frank is Chinese-Canadian, Leo is Hispanic, Piper is Cherokee, Reyna is also Hispanic, and Nico is gay.

I haven’t read the Trials of Apollo or Magnus Chase yet, but I do know that these books have tons of LGBTQ+ and POC characters.

In all these books, none of the characters were ever reduced to just their race/ethnicity/religion/sexuality. They were all treated like actual human beings by Rick, not just some token characters to allow him to claim “diversity”.

And the best part is that his books sell. A middle-finger to all the authors who chose to write straight, white people to “play it safe”.

januarycarnation  asked:

Have you ever watched Hey Arnold? If so what was your opinion on Helga? If not what shows did you watch growing up that made you think seriously about doing animation as an adult? Not that we aren't all blessed that you did (your art is amazing!) but just out of curiosity.

I did know Hey Arnold. I didn’t really like Helga because I was always drawn to the kind characters, and the ones that weren’t secretly obsessed or in love with another person. I was able to watch more episodes in college and got to understand her more though. Arnold is still my favourite.

I never thought of becoming an animator or anything like that as a kid. I wanted to be all sorts of things until settling on a librarian in high school, and everyone would tell me how prepared I was since I went head on into university knowing what I wanted. I year into that, people at work and at school told me to consider animation. Then I watched Ratatouille for the second time and my mind was made up: I would become a board artist.

So yeah. Loved drawing, but never thought of it as a career until I was 19. Wanted to be a writer before that, and I still want to do that lol

anonymous asked:

Sometimes I wonder how you just squeeze yourself into the family. Like, you disrupt them, but they accept you. Rel and PJ and Darkness, even with Fluff. You're always that unnecessary one. They are group of amazing people, and you should be glad that they didn't just kick you out because you aren't.

Welllll, they are amazing. I agree with that. They all are amazing and talented. I don’t even know how I’m friend with them. It’s pretty awesome. Too bad that you can’t join in. :)

Annnnnd, I forgot about to post it yesterday. So, I’m just gonna close my anonymous ask for a while, and if you want to send me anything anonymous, you’re welcome to send it to @deafinatelyfangirling . Thank you so much! 

genuinely! the more confidently you present yourself, the more everyone - including you! - will begin to see the positive aspects of you! keep trying! fake it ‘til you make it! 💕💫

Penny Dreadful has transcended regular television and become a pure art form. The dialogue is almost like ghosts whispering in your dreams and nightmares. The storytelling is this amazingly conceptual form that you can almost feel. Sometimes it is so grotesk but you will still weep because it is so damningly beautiful. Penny Dreadful is not something you just watch, but something you experience.

they didn’t understand…but they do now 😂😘

I have such ideas about all these prompts I just reblogged but especially this one: 

We had sex at the office party but we’re both workaholics so we don’t normally date

Like, Coliver + college!AU:

  • Connor and Oliver both are interns for some huge ass company somewhere.
  • They hit it off at the Welcome New Summer Interns party the company throws (and by ‘hit it off’ I, of course, mean they have super hot sex).
  • The next day, the whole group of new interns meets up for formal orientation. Connor waves at Oliver from across the way. Oliver blushes and rubs the back of his neck before nodding a little, trying to play it cool. 
  • They go off with their respective groups for the rest of training. Connor with the pre-law group and Oliver with the computer engineers. 
  • Checking over his shoulder for his new boss, Connor whips out his phone on the sly to text Oliver. “Drinks tonight?” Oliver texts back an okay with a smiley face and Connor can’t stop grinning the rest of the day. 
  • But then Oliver has to cancel, “Can’t do drinks. Working late.”
  • Connor responds, “Was just going to text you too. I’m here all night too.”
  • They reschedule for the next night but that falls through too. Then it’s the weekend, then the Friday after that. After that, they don’t even bother trying to reschedule.

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Grumbles about cosplay being left out as part of “fan art”

Realizes that gif makers get almost no recognition

Realizes people sing fan songs with no recognition

Realizes people build the damn car from the ground up with no recognition

Carefully hangs plaid shirt back up in closet to fight another day

sillysin1000  asked:

Since I'm sure someone has already asked for Damen and Laurent's First Night, how about Laurent visiting Jokaste to figure out where she fits in the new empire, in exile or to help with some struggling factions in Akeilos who aren't happy about the union. Thank you so much for all your amazing stories!

“How long has he been walking?”

“Barely a week.” Jokaste watched her son reach, with sticky and interested fingers, for the engraved sheath of Lazar’s sword. “Lykos, leave the man alone.”

Lazar turned the tiny boy around and sent him back towards the couch with surprisingly capable hands. Laurent remembered that his sister had young children.

“Lykos,” Laurent said.

The dark eyes turned towards him. The boy’s hair was long, showing a slight tendency to curl. Lykos sucked on the side of his chubby hand with unworried solemnity, wavering a little on his feet, and returned Laurent’s gaze.

“I was actually addressing your mother,” Laurent said to the boy.

“My father’s name,” said Jokaste, coolly.

“I think,” said Laurent, “I like you better for that.”

Jokaste made a pretty, mocking bow. “I’m afraid, your Majesty, that I wasn’t thinking of your opinion when I chose it.”

She might have been thinking of Damen’s, though; thinking, perhaps, of the unfamiliar Damen who had cold-bloodedly threatened her women, who had learned to play a little of the game since he had left her side, and who would have as little patience as Laurent with any tendency to use the child as an emotional pawn.

She might have recited these reasons to herself, at night. But Laurent saw the way her arms lingered on the boy’s shoulders, the mingled pride and exasperation as she watched his determined toddle across the floor.

Jokaste was one of those who would always make a small kingdom of the space available. Laurent recognised the urge, and the reasoning behind it. Walking through the house he had noted the newer furnishings, the fresh flowers, the few impositions of her control on this place that had been allotted to her. During that walk he had not heard the sound of the child’s voice, and the house was not so large that it would be easy to muffle, given the Akielon propensity for marble and open spaces. She had saved the sight of the boy to throw Laurent off balance; to force business to be conducted in his presence. Laurent hadn’t minded. It was what he would have done in her place.

“As enjoyable as these pleasantries have been,” Laurent said, “I will have your answer now.”

“I will need time to consider–”

“No,” said Laurent.

Jokaste clasped her hands. She looked down at them, as though she was annoyed at the slip, and then gave a faint shrug; do with that as you will, the gesture said.

“Why would you trust me with this?” she asked. “Why come all the way here to ask for my help?”

“Because you didn’t suggest it,” said Laurent.

“And because there is limited opportunity for damage, if I turn the negotiations sour out of spite,” she said.

“That too.”

Jokaste turned her elegant chin to an even more elegant angle. “But it’s not much of a test if I know that going in, is it? I could play along, while you let me loose with this wooden sword. Bide my time until you trust me with something that has an actual edge.”

“You could,” Laurent allowed.

The two of them gazed at one another. Laurent moved none of the muscles in his face from their pleasant expression. Jokaste had a smile playing around her mouth.

“Yes,” she said. “I’ll do it. I’ll leave tomorrow.”

“Why, Lady Jokaste,” said Laurent, rising. “Anyone would think you were bored.”


D.Gray-Man | Lavi + Allen 

…for Rowan who’s an amazing person and writer and I wish you the best for your birthday!
I hope you like these two dweebs I drew for you! :D

@the49thname | @bookmanjunior

hello! it’s hyeon here wishing everyone a happy new year filled with smiles and happiness! ♡♡

I decided to make an appreciation post in honor of the amazingly awesome people I have met on Tumblr since I created my blog(s), who are little shining lights in my life cheesy, ik . Thank you all so much for always being there for me, made me laugh, and gave me advice; I truly am grateful for all of you (p.s. i love youououo) even though I don’t usually say it often ;a;

to my followers! thank you for keeping up with my childish self, rants, and my lousy edits - you all deserve a huge huG and I hope you achieve your dreams because you guys are spectacular!!

also, huGE THANK YOU TO @beautyeol bababab for creating this lovely gif!

just a heads up, this blog is only a sideblog so I follow everyone here from vitaemin-s ^^. I consider you as a mutual if you follow me from either there or here (grumpyeols), or both blogs! 

without further rambling, because I’m not good with words orz, let’s get started!

bolded= mutuals; italicized= you’re a special snowflake bab in my book ((;


@0309pm; @1081p@174cents; @aegyol; @babxing@baekhny; @baekwus; @baekyls@banhcanh; @beautyeol; @brbcrawlingtokorea; @byunvitamin; @celery-sehun; @cereayeol; @chan-yeol-o; @chancasso; @chanpups; @chandescent; @chanys; @choimings @cutepout; @cytaoplasm


@darklordkyungsoo@eonjin@exioh; @fan-qins; @flawlesschanyeol; @guccizitao; @hoyeolay; @huggingluhan; @hunmonia; @imgenieforyouxing; @innocore; @istanpcy; @jecnkook; @jin-png; @jin-rii; @jollybaekyeol; @jongdanal; @jonginization


@kaillusive; @kingkriswu; @kingofbluff; @krisinsanity; @kristlehoe; @kyungsoolution; @laylord; @love-me-left; @lue-han; @luhtella; @luhwn; @lullabyun; @lusass@milliyeolnaire; @mylostxings; @ohsolji; @ohxing; @omgfishy; @oppapis; @oshkay


@park-dobii; @parkjxmins; @parknamja; @pcyoung; @porkdo-bi; @prkchnyls; @pstl-pcy; @sehlestial;@sekaisgf; @seluxing; @sexologywithbaekhyun; @sexualityixing; @shineetho; @sirtae; @snehun@snowuyifan; @squishyssoo; @strawberrki@taelestial; @taeskey; @taeyhyungs; @veante


@wooyoung; @wuboxian; @wuyifanxing; @xingkaih; @yehet-stuff@yeolhighness; @yifantastiique; @yixingofficial; @yourbiaslikesitrough; @zhangxingies; @zyxs

So I said I would do this at 500… And now I am at 833, so that didn’t take me too long…..

Honestly I didn’t think this blog would go anywhere, it is a side account for my main blog because I realized I was posting too much hockey and all of my Captain Swan followers probably weren’t digging that too much… So being only in the 4th month of this blog and having over 800 followers still shocks me. It’s been a wild and crazy hockey season for me, going to my first Blackhawks game, meeting basically every player on the team at some point, traveling with people I met at games to Dallas freaking Texas. It really has been a whirlwind. So here i am, ready to present you with my favorite blogs.


These people are my favorites. Some I have met irl. Some I just talk to on here. And some I still can’t believe follow me.

@gerbatron yo girl how did we even start talking? i think you first commented on something I posted on reddit? i don’t even know. but this chick is awesome and from australia so probably has a cool ass accent. we chat about tyler seguin and inappropriate thoughts we have about various players. she is cool.

@tiffanynicole7288 i met you once. you were cool. we should hang out moreeeeee. also i like everything you post.

@72panarin you are cool. haha. literally everyone is gonna get a ‘you are cool’ comment from me. anyway hanging out those few times after games has been fun. yay for stalking players!!!

@captainmeerkat DON’T WORRY YOU GET A STORY BECAUSE I STILL FIND THIS HYSTERICAL. ok guys, my main blog is a fandom blog with a focus on Captain Swan because Once Upon A Time is the shit and I love it more than life (and possibly hockey). But anyway, Meg was always one of my favorite OUAT blogs. And I was always lowkey pissed she didn’t follow me. So one day I am scrolling thru my notifications on this lame little hockey sideblog and who follows me? THAT’S RIGHT, THIS LOSER. So I immediately fangirl and tell her how i have always been kind of in love with her blog and was super excited that she follows me and now we are (i hope) kinda like friends or something??? [[very important: she made the banner for this post]]

@julesjulianne we don’t chat much, but I stalk your blog like a lot a lot. BUT I FEEL LIKE I STALK YOU A LOT SO I HAVE TO INCLUDE YOU IN HERE AND LET’S TALK MORE AND STUFF

now for the long list of blogs i like a whole lot

@1988kazer // @88hurrikane // @admiralserious // @andrewshawsome // @artemipanarin // @artemipanini72 // @aseaofwaste // @bennxgally // @blackhawks-shuffle // @breadsman // @brentseabrookshair // @chelsea-chelsea-i-believe // @chicagosdarlings // @chicagotrash // @coach-qs-stache // @dathockeydoe // @donttoewsme // @freedestinycreation // @girlwithflower // @hatrickane // @hatrickkaner // @hawksquad // @hockeyboystho // @hockeyglee // @holypuckfuck // @imkindahopingtohavethelongesturl // @indie-jesus // @jamiebenntrash // @jimmyjam96 // @kanerily // @kanershuffle // @ketnep // @martini-jones // @onegoal72 // @panarin-toews // @panarinaf // @panarinbread // @pucknugget // @rizzotoews // @segsymyboy // @shake-it-like-toews // @shawz-65 // @shuffling-with-kaner // @taek-swoons // @tempe-toews // @teuvotimetofinnishcold // @the-italiangirl91 // @tinyteuvo // @toewsoff // @waitingforgodonut

i know there are a million more of you amazing people out there, but this is hard to do guys and I am very sad if I missed you. I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!!!

fav people: anniekendrick - dianaagron - dropdeadcute - fuckme-tovalhalla - ladyvonglitz - mypatronusisklaine - nofangirlingjustfanladying - offtojamieland - rainbow-in-my-veinsthehiddentribute

more awesome blogs/people: 324queer21 - ameliasfairytalesannakendrickvevo - badassmorse - becaefinmitchell - becaeffinmitchell - benjaminnwyatt - bettervillains - brittany-snodes - chrisevansz - daanielasm - deadgirlshoes - delphcormier - demimondecannibal - dilaurentisfields - dixiechicksseriouseliseboobman - fitzsimmonsiscanonbiatch - kara-danvers - leslieknopenopenope - outcfthewocds - peggy-cartar - sensiblethingtodo - sherralotz - stilestilinsks - stopthenrewind - stydiasgriffin - switch-sides - thecaptainsemma   thatmitchsentho - treblemakerz - waltzingsince1698 - wannabewyatt

special mention to my wonderful followers!