are you her boyfriend

You are so lucky if you have someone with a broken heart, untouched for years, loving you.

Keep them safe.

—  excerpt from a book I will never write #81
i don’t know if we can always stay friends forever when i might want more on the way.
—  i’m already wanting more than this.
I am unlovable.
Don’t get too close or you’ll get hurt by my pain.
—  excerpt from a book I will never write #86
I’m never going to stay up all night on the phone with him, and I’m still trying to get used to the fact that the next person he holds won’t be me.
He’s never going to text me, and I’m still trying to train myself to stop wondering if there’s even a slightest chance he would.
—  a.a.
I wonder… m.k.j.

Me: I really want a relationship where we can be really silly but also cute and cheesy at the same time and we go for walks together and cuddle all the time and shdhhsnd.

Also me: Ew tf is a relationship? I am my own independent person i’m never going to date anyone, never getting married, don’t touch me. I am forever alone.