Prompt :Go on then, tell me. Tell me you don’t love me.”
Summary : Dean x reader - After a hard case Dean pushes you away and you leave trying to put your broken heart back together.
You watched as dean took another shot of whisky and down it like it was water. That was his 5th shot tonight and he still hadn’t spoken a word to you or Sam. Sam had finally given up and left him alone.
But you couldn’t leave him like this he was hurting and you wanted to know why .. Dean had been acting very weird ever since your last hunt . Where you guys had Tracked down a couple rouge demons that were killing people..
That case had been kind of rough.. Dean had gotten captured by the demons and it took you and Sam about 24 hours to get him back and every since than he had been acting very strange.
Of course he wouldn’t tell you anything about what happen to him. He just try to act like everything was fine but you knew it wasn’t.
"Dean don’t you think that you had a enough “ you asked walking up to him as he pour himself another shot. He glared at you and you step back surprised by the look. "Dean please tell me what is wrong ?” you asked
He looked away and down the shot . “Go away ” he finally said …his voice cold and hard.. Your frown. " you need to talk.. Something is brothering you “ you said reaching out and touching his shoulder.
He jerked away pushing away from the table.. "Just leave me alone is that to hard for you to understand "he said yelling now.. ” I am worried about you that is all “ you said .. He spun around towards you but stay where he was
” Just don’t ok I don’t need your worry or pity I don’t just don’t need you..“ he said and you felt your heart break into a million pieces. You blinked back the tears. You would saved those for later.
"Well than if that what you really feel .. ” you said .. “then look at me and tell me .. Tell me you don’t love me ” you said . He lifted his head and for a second you saw the raw emotions in his eyes but then it was replaced by ice.
“ I don’t .. Love you ” he said and turned away and walked out of the room. Leaving you broken and numb. You wonder if someone could die from too much pain. You had to get out of here you had to think..
You grab keys to the spare car you guys kept and left not sure where you were going but when you saw the bar you decided this was good as any place and headed inside.
4 HOUR LATER -
You pulled back up to the bunker and sat in the car just thinking .. You had been lucky when you walked into the bar that night looking to get drunk but instead you found an old friend . James was another hunter you had worked with for a while .. Before you met Dean and decided to go with him
The last couple hours were just talking and catching up .. You told James about Dean and what he said.. That when he gave you the offer.. “Come hunt with me for a while.. It sounds like you need a break.. ” he said
You admitted it was tempting knowing Dean didn’t love you anymore you didn’t think you could face him anymore. You still loved him with every breath that you took. And you fear that it would always be like that. That you would never get over him.
“So you told James to give you till tomrrower and you let him know and got his phone number. You climbed out of the car and walked inside .. It was quite and dark it was 2 in the morning and you suppose everyone was asleep .
You walked down the hallway and towards your and Dean’s room. You pushed open the door and found he was stretched out on his side of the bed asleep . There was three or four beer bottles on the table beside him.
You walked over to the bed looking down at the man who held your heart and then broke it . He was laying on his back one hand laying on his stomach the other stretched out where you normally slept ..like he was waiting for you to come back ..
you sigh remembering his words.. He didn’t need you he didn’t love you.. You swallowed the tears and made your decision. You leaned down and kissed him softly.. But he stir but kept on sleeping snoring softly..
You quietly packed your bags and left a note and then you left trying not to cry ..but once back in the car and have driven a couple miles down the road . You pulled over and let the tears come.
2 MONTHS LATER -
"WOW that all I can say "James said as you two walked into the hotel room. Both covered in blood. ” I don’t think I have ever seen someone take down two Vampires like that in just one move “ he said
You shrugged taking off your jacket wincing a little. You may have taken down vampires but that wasn’t before one of them had thrown you against the wall. ” You ok?“ you want me to look at you ” James asked
" no it ok let me take a shower and hit the bed and I will be fine “ you said grabbing your clothes and disappearing into the bathroom. You felt like crying.. You felt like that a lot lately.. 2 months and you still couldn’t stop thinking of Dean.
It still hurt and you wished it would stop.. Sam was texting you every day or so to check on you.. You never asked about Dean .. You couldn’t.. And Sam seem to understand .
But you still wonder how he was doing .. Was he ok.. Did he feel better now you were gone. You thought all of this while you took your time in the shower. The warm water washing away the evidence of the night hunt.
When you finally came out dressed in sweats and plaid button up t-shirt that used to belong to Dean. It helps you sleep it like having him in bed with you . You weren’t paying attention when you walked out throwing your stuff on the floor
” I was wondering where that shirt went ?“ You spun around at voice behind you. You froze to the spot ..Sitting on your bed was Dean ..You heart fell into the pit of your stomach.
"What…what are you doing here ?” you asked ..“ how did you find me ?” you asked trying to figure out why dean was just sitting there looking at you like that.
He stood up and took a step towards you but you back up and you saw the hurt in his eyes .. “ I know I screw up.. I really shouldn’t be surprise really I seemed to do that to everything I love ” he said with a sigh.
You watched as he ran a hand though his hair. “ But I am sorry I know I should have just come out and told you what was brothering me but instead I pushed you away . ” Hurting you is the last thing I want to do “
"Well you did hurt me Dean .. You broke my heart ” you said blinking back the tears. He looked liked he wanted to reach out to you. But despite just wanting to run into his arms . You knew the moment he touched you it would be all over .
" talk to me please “ you said ."Why did you say those things.. I was worried about you ..” you said. He sigh and started pacing the room.
“When those demons had me .. They did something to me ..got into my head” he said . “Normally I can handle stuff they throw at me .. ” but “ he stop and looked at you . "they started showing me all the people I couldn’t save.. Bobby , Ellen , Jo .. Mom, dad.. Sam” he choked on his words
“then they showed you dying and I couldn’t stop ..they kept saying if I couldn’t say the others how do I except to keep you safe and protected. ” he said " I guess they said it enough it started to make sense “ he said
"But Dean I can take care of myself ” you said .. “ you don’t have to worry about me so much ” you replied. He nodded I know but I feel like it my job to keep you safe.. “ I felt that if you weren’t in my life maybe you be safe.. So I push you away with those lies. ” he said.
“ I do love you .. I do need you ” he said step closer to you.. You stay where you were letting him get closer to you .“ I was trying to protect you and I went about it the wrong way ” I am so sorry “
He was close now so close and you had missed him so much .” I missed you “ you said softly .. He reached up and wipe tears off your cheek. He let his hand linger .. You melted in his touch..
” I missed you too sweetheart .. So much “ he said step one more step and he wrap his hand around the back of your neck pulling you into a kiss. It started out slow but neither one of you wanted to rush this.
You wrap your arms around his neck as the kiss slowly deepened . He had you pinned up against the wall . His hands wandering down your body slipping underneath your shirt..
You gasp "Dean.. "What baby ?” he asked as his mouth moved down your neck.. “ where did James go?” you asked you desperately started tugging on his shirt. “ out getting some drinks "he replied as he pulled you off the wall and spun you around backing you up until you hit the bed
Then you were on your back with his body covering yours. . ” I love you " he said softly nipping at your ear. " I need you .. “ he said you looked up at him catching his gaze.. ” you have me “ you said as his mouth found yours again.