are people sick of me yet



Okay starting this little rant off by giving a HUGE shoutout to the soundtrack. The violins in the background were so perfect and fit into every scene and just amazed me with the simple dark mood they set, and the silence that came after. The last song that played in the episode was fucking perfect to end on. The tone was kind of eerie and dark and twisted, but the upbeat gave it almost a sick sense to it. It played into Octavia throwing her blades away and allying with Illian, it played into Bellamy’s scene with Kane, it played into Clarke consoling her mother for the possible murder they might commit, and it played into Emori’s plot twist. SUCH A PERFECT SCORE FOR THE EPISODE. BEST OF THE SEASON IF NOT THE SERIES. (I seriously have never appreciated a score this much)

OKAY now onto the actual plot:
- Clarke finding the comfort in the mansion, and taking five seconds to calm down and bathe and sit was perfect. We never see clarke do anything liek this, and was pivotal to see how much everybody in this show has missed out on. ((This episode was about showing us the reality of the characters lives, how much they had and didn’t have))

-Bellamy is such a hero type, but you could see him crack this episode. He tried his absolute hardest and his true colours shined through this episode. We saw his inner nature to try and save everybody, and we saw how his roots go back to Octavia. From the age of five/six he was forced the responsibility of another human life. He’s always had that burden on him, and we saw how it effects him to his present character. ((This episode was about giving a clear picture of Bellamys character and who he is.))

-Octavia is shaping up to me. I haven’t loved her this season, but she’s warming up to me after this episode. Her scenes with Illian were fantastic. He saw the pain in her and saved her. He gave her what she needed, and I believe she’s starting to heal now. She went from almost killing him in this episode, to saving him but shunning him, to him saving her, to her throwing her blades away and seeking allyship in him. ((This episode was about starting Octavia’s healing process))

-Harper’s storyline was short by sweet. We saw her commit a mistake, something against her morals, and somebody else paid the price. It absolutely crushed her. But that’s reality. Sometimes who you want to be doesn’t always win. ((This episode was about the fight between who we want to be and who we are))

-Abby’s storyline was also short and sweet. We see her conflicted about doing the bone marrow transplant. She has to decide whether she will kill somebody for the chance of survival, or keep her humanity and let them all die. ((This episode was about the fight between humanity and survival))

-Kane was doing pep talks left and right today. With Bellamy, Harper, and Abby. He really is giving his all to help the people around him. He wants to make sure everybody keeps true to themselves and heals correctly. ((This episode was about showing Kane’s fight for everybody’s souls))

-EMORI OMFG okay emori is a strange character, but this episode was pivotal. There’s no doubt after this episode in my theory that emori is gonna die this season. Her trust issues began the day she was born. This was definitely showcased in this episode. She doesn’t trust the sky people at all, and so she sacrifices an innocent man (possibly) to save herself from a threat that we don’t even know would go through. Her survival skills are immoral, and I can see now that she is not innocent. She didn’t trust the sky people enough to know they wouldn’t sacrifice her. She didn’t even trust Murphy enough to know that he would never let them do anything to her (which I think will come up in a later episode). Her character is on a downhill spiral. Her character development is conflicting with everybody else’s development this season, while everyone else is fixing their characters and healing and trying to help save the world, Emori is becoming less and less trustworthy and wants to leave everything and everyone. So this is the main reason I think she’s going to die this season. ((This episode was about showing the true nature to emori’s character))

While the storylines and the score was amazing, I loved the acting. Bob Morley continues to dominate in the acting department this season, he is a phenomenal actor and his scene in the rover was heart stopping. Marie’s acting was fucking fantastic. The fight between Octavia and Illian was fantastic, and she portrayed Octavia amazingly. Truly amazing. Henry’s acting for Kane was perfect. Richard’s acting for Murphy was once again spectacular (I personally think Richard and Bob are the best actors on the show). Eliza showed Clarke’s compassionate nature perfectly, and i gotta give a shoutout to Lindsey. She wasn’t in the episode yet she still ruled.

Okay this episode had fantastic storylines, great developments, top-notch acting, and an amazing score. This is officially ranked my favourite episode of the season. It could possibly be my favourite in the series…

It’s almost 2017 can people please stop treating psychosis as either a joke or a demonizing quality yet?

  • No more “the voices told me to” jokes
  • No more referring to bad people, or people you don’t like as “psychos”
  • No more fucking “mental patient” halloween costumes I swear to god
  • Especially no more “sexy mental patient” halloween costumes that is so gross I am so sick of it
  • I had so many more examples but I am angry and forgetful

It pisses me off so much that countless people are going to see BATB and then returning and going ‘uwu all those hateful angry gays were wrong!! le fou was so great!!’ like

1) even if, magically, le fou was a fantastic character and fantastic rep, it doesn’t change the fact that people ABSOLUTELY can be wary of Disney fucking up yet another thing

and 2) le fou’s gayness was a joke when it was explicit, but he still wasn’t allowed to be truly gay - I went with my straight family and they all missed EVERYTHING. he dances with a transmisogynistic joke guy at the end of the movie for like four seconds - ACCIDENTALLY - his affection/care for gaston is a joke when gaston isn’t manipulating him with it, and the funny gay sidekick desperately in love with a mean straight guy isn’t… good rep at all

finally 3) gay actors being in the movie means shit if they’re playing straights, especially when the gay character is a joke and there’s an awful transmisogynistic joke

all of y'all can shut up

Y’all complaining abt LaFou not being ‘gay enough’

Like honey??? where were you?

- Gaston looked at himself in the mirror and said “I’m not done with you yet” and LaFou followed with ‘me neither’

- Lafou sat and was like 2 inches away from being in Gaston’s lap

- The entire Gaston song was him fucking flirting okay with the arm thing and the smiles and the compliments and then he sat right the fuck down in that same spot but even closer to Gaston

- He tries convincing Gaston to go after other people and turns to the ladies and goes “its never gonna happen” and then struts off with a grin

- He was usually very close in proximity to Gaston and acted as a grounder when Gaston got angry


- He realized Gaston wasn’t right for him but never ONCE acted as if it was bc he realized he was into ladies (not to mention Mrs. Potts knew right off the bat and supported him)

- He was pretty disinterested in the dance before that guy came along and his eyes widened and he just fucking rolled with it

Just because a character doesn’t stand on a table and yell “IM GAY” doesn’t mean they aren’t. LaFou had his subtle moments bc I believe you are all forgetting this movie is set way before being gay was even the slightest bit accepted. Stop calling him bad representation just because you don’t see subtle things and only focus on the big moments

- Signed a transmasculine gay person who is fed up with the cis hets complaining and pretending they know what they’re saying

An Important PSA

IMPORTANT UPDATE: DO NOT, under any circumstances, send hate to the users below. I do not condone hate. I am merely trying to spread awareness and, with luck, get in touch with the users below. Letting them know we do not want our tracks reposted is fine, but please think about how you word it. I do not want people to get death threats or hurtful comments.

You may find the original PSA down below.

Sigh. I really did not want to have to resort to this, but this has been a problem in the fandom overall for far too long. What is this problem? Music theft.

Some of you may know that I have repeatedly asked people NOT to upload my songs to youtube, yet despite this, it is a recurring problem, and I am not alone. My fellow composers LucasPucas, Jimmythebassist, Jamangar, ZacharyChang, among others, repeatedly have their songs taken without consent by Youtubers such as Yeah, TylerNess, Horse Burgers YT, CrazyArtPhoenix, ThatCrazyAU, and more. I will add to this list as needed.

Allow me to make one thing clear: None of us are okay with this. I speak with these composers on a regular basis, both in the IF and Storyshift Discords, and we are all sick of this.

You may think it is harmless. You may even think this is exposure for our work, but here’s the thing: these people are getting traffic and subscribers for content they did not create, and sometimes they don’t even credit.

While potentially well-meaning, in my case, I make it clear that I do not want my stuff reposted, such as on my sound cloud:
“**IMPORTANT**: People have been uploading my songs to their youtube accounts without my permission. Please do not do this. I know a lot of my stuff isn’t up there yet, but I do plan to bring it over in time. If you want to use my songs for any reason, I’d like credit, and asking permission is preferred.“

Never mind all the descriptions where I also reiterate that I do not want reuploads. Because the fact of the matter is, reuploads take traffic away from the original creator, and when people don’t link back or hide the credit under lengthy descriptions, it leads people to believe that the uploader is the composer, when all they did was lazily take someone else’s work and slap it into a video editor.

I will take a moment to note that Umbra Extensions is actually one of the few music channels on Youtube that not only asks permission, but does his best to give credit where due. If more people were like Umbra Extensions, I would not be making this post.

EDIT:  I have spoken with BC Gaming and Azzy Extensions. Oka C has been removed from the list, as it seems most of the offending content has since been removed. TheYazzer has also removed my stolen works. I will leave the original message below just as an example that this is a problem, and with many channels still taking our work, this issue is far from solved. However, we would much rather solve this peacefully, so if you are one of the channels involved, please contact us. We may be unhappy, but I swear we don’t bite.

EDIT 2: I have spoken to Outershift Chara as well, and things seem to be going smoothly. I am grateful for all parties responding politely and with understanding. :D The DVLPR has also contacted me.

EDIT 3: Spoke to Autocats as well! Unfortunately, Herobrine TV refuses to remove his stolen content, claiming we don’t own it. This is not an excuse to send hate. This is merely an update on the situation.

EDIT 4: Herobrine TV has agreed to remove the stolen content. Yay!

Below is an example of a recent theft. It has since been resolved. However, I am keeping it here to outline a very real problem with many of these videos.

And for a while, it seemed like he did… only for him to put it back up behind my back. Others have noticed this, and commented accordingly. Some friends have provided screencaps here and here, in case the uploader decides to “hide the evidence,” as it were. I would link the video itself, but since this chap decided he could make money off of my work, I don’t want to give him more fodder.

I have submitted a copyright claim, and I will continue to do this for any videos that take my content without consent. However, the fact that I even have to go this far represents a huge problem in the Undertale music community. Musicians are not being treated with the respect they deserve.People assume that they can just snatch music, slap it together as a video compilation, and reap the spoils.

This has to stop. I doubt it will, but if spreading this message can make even the slightest difference, then I am sure as hell gonna try. So please, if you enjoy our music, please reblog. It will help us all out tremendously.

Thank you for your time. Your regularly scheduled IF content will return shortly

PS. I am still okay with use of my music in fandubs if credit is given. It is the shameless stealing that I do not allow.

It’s still so weird to think that exo was the most senior group at mama’s this year. Exo. One of the most widely viewed and well known kmusic awards shows had EXO as the most senior group. I just can’t get over that. The group that people treat like rookies who haven’t worked long and hard enough to deserve their fame yet, the group that people call undeserving of their fame, the group that people STILL think is a quick burn group good for only one hit then done, was the senior group at that award ceremony.

People can’t keep acting like exo is still a shiny newbie who doesn’t have their own place and name in the industry yet. They’ve survived more scandals and years then any  other  group there. No one can talk about how well their favs would be doing if it was in exo’s position because they haven’t even gotten there yet.

Was everyone watching the same performance? Did the exo we saw look like it was running on fumes? Did they look like the were finished? Their fanchants dominated the whole building and that platform looked custom built for their transformer stage. Would mnet have done that if exo was a dying group? Would the crowd have been almost entirely a silver ocean if nobody liked exo anymore?

You can’t keep denying the power exo has and will continue to have. If they can own that stage the way they did without practice, rest, or sleep, then image what they could have done if they had the same conditions everyone else’s fav’s got.

Stop saying that exo is at it’s peak or that exo’s done. If you don’t like them that’s fine, everyone’s allowed to like who they choose but you better get used to seeing them because they’re not gonna be done for a long time

To the person getting bent out of shape in my inbox because I haven’t answered your important questions about how to become an editor:

1) it’s literally in my FAQ

2) Google is a thing

3) I am not you career advice counselor, I do not know what school you go to and therefore cannot advise what classes are available to you.

4) I’ve been severely sick for the last six weeks to the point where I’ve dropped 15lbs and just underwent oral surgery this week, so no I don’t have the energy or free time to answer the ten increasingly rude messages you sent me and

5) fuck off. really, saying I don’t care about people like I claim to because I have been too sick to cope with the literal hundreds of messages I get each week is beyond a dick move. I don’t get paid to run this blog, this is my hobby. And yet it takes as much if not more energy, especially emotional, than a full time job to try and keep up with it. I try my god damned hardest to reply to people, I do my utter best to help people who need it. And me not replying to your asks, for which I have provided the information for countless hundreds of times to the point where I wrote an FAQ with the exact info you’re looking for, linked on my ask page , doesn’t mean I don’t care. It means you lack the critical reading skills to parse what has already been laid out in front of you, or the initiative to go do the research yourself, and I can tell you now, you’d make a shit editor .

sinking like sand in your sea

some people believe in love at first sight. some people say it takes a lifetime. for maya hart it takes five years. // or the stages of falling in love with lucas friar

lucaya oneshot. title from send me the moon by sara bareilles

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The following text contains shitty English grammar and may contain spoilers for the forth season of Sherlock. So SPOILER ALERT everyone who has not watched it yet.
Some of these were put in our three sick heads by other people and some of these are our guesses that were build after two days of NON-STOP RAGING CAPSLOCKING.

This post is just to collect everything together, because our heads is so SO messed up right now.

Ok, let’s start with..

1. That video of Moriarty in the end of “Behind the scene” on PBS or wherever. By the way it was noticed after downloading 15 hours later. Come on people, we can do so much better!
It cannot be the creator’s last kiss to the audience, it would be stupidest shit EVER.

2. What’s next? We were promised the television history, the groundbreaking expierence. However, no matter how much I liked it, even I can’t deny there are too many plot holes and questions occurred. And also there are 20 min cut out of every episode (they were promising 100 min/ep) 

3. This wierd show Apple Yard Tree in prime time on BBC ONE, which, by the way, changed it’s synopsis from tomorrow - added details. And this what they also added a couple of hours ago:
Amanda Coe
Louise Doughty
Emily Watson
Ben Chaplin
Mark Bonnar
Susan Lynch
Steven Elder

4. The piece of news with wierdly unprofessional for news language: “THE CONSPIRACY THEORIES ARE HAVING A FIELD DAY” - YOU CAN’T JUST SAY IT ON NATIONAL TELEVISION!!!!!

5. Ok. Also this news piece about leak suspiciously mirrors that unathorized third party… thing (here)

6. Oh yes, about that story: you’ve noticed, it’s called “The Lost Special”. I mean come on.


8. THIS: 

9. AND APPARENTLY YAHOO KNOWS MORE THEN WE DO (look at the Episodes section)

10. This season there always was something leaked some time before the episode premiere. Of course Russia had the worst one. Because who would not trust it - oh that bad bad Russians! I really would not be surprised if it’s Mofftiss who seeded the episode on Piratebay or whatever. 

11. The tricky number 3 (watch the second episode)

OK. It MAY be a great number of coincidence, but come on! Is there any when we are talking about Mofftiss?

The game is still on and as Gatiss said “It’s good to play games on people” 



A/N: This is an anon request where the reader gets mind-blowing oral from Spencer, and the team happens to hear about it, so if smut isn’t your thing, I’d skip this one ;)

P.S. Two one shots in one night! Hope you don’t get sick of me :D


You’d just settled in for the night with your boyfriend of four months. You were wearing an oversized sweatshirt of his with nothing underneath and he was in bed wearing flannel pajama pants. He looked over at you…almost mischievously. It was a little unlike him, at least around other people. But he was different with you. Different - yet still him.

“What are you thinking about? You look like your about to get into trouble,” you said, the sweatshirt slowly climbing up the columns of your legs as you crossed them.

“Nothing…” he said, with a gleam in his eye. “Just wondering if I might be able to conduct some research.”

You cocked your head to the side. He hadn’t talked to you about any research lately. “What kind of research?” you asked inquisitively.

“Well,” he started, sitting next to you and gently placing his hand on your bare leg, “I’ve heard that it takes a woman nearly 20 minutes of sexual stimulation in order to orgasm and I’d like to see if I can make it 10.”

You smiled as your mouth dropped open. “And how do you suppose we do that?”

“Now, if you’re not comfortable with it let me know. I know we haven’t been sleeping together for very long, but I’d like to try out some things.” He concluded, with an almost shy smile upon his face, despite the nature of the subject.

You laid back on the bed, grazing your hand against his arm. “You can conduct all the research you need, Spence.”

He leaned down to take your lips in his before placing gentle kisses upon his own sweatshirt on the way down your body, which was conveniently lacking in undergarments. The light in the room had been dimmed, which was always customary when you got home for the night, but Spencer leaned over to the switch to turn it on all the way.

“I want to look at all of you with nothing in my way,” he stated, looking directly into your eyes as he parted your legs with his right hand. Occasionally, he was very direct in bed - and it was such a turn on. Not that him as whole wasn’t a turn on, but this was unexpected from him, so it felt more taboo you supposed. He placed his first two fingers at your entrance, which was already slick with wanting, which he’d noticed. “I haven’t even done anything yet,” he chuckled, slowly pushing his fingers in to the knuckle.

You gasped, feeling your walls tightening around his nimble fingers. “I guess you just have that effect on me, Spence.” You let your eyes flutter closed as he worked his magic - and magic it was. His sweatshirt had ridden up your frame, leaving your bottom half completely exposed to him. You hadn’t done this yet. You’d only been sleeping together for a few weeks, and that had involved you going down on him and lots and lots of sex all over the apartment. You’d thought about him in this position, but the anticipation of the moment caught you off guard. Your breathing was already picking up pace and he’d barely done anything.

Slowly, he pushed his two fingers deeper, allowing his lips to join them. He started gently at first, performing a concert with his fingers and tongue. It probably wouldn’t be long before he made you sing. You gasped again when he removed his fingers, feeling bereft and wanting.

“Mmmm….” you moaned, lifting slightly off the bed.

“You are so beautiful, Y/N,” he breathed just above your sex. Your fingers entwined themselves in his as you both cradled your legs, allowing him access to the deepest parts of you.

His mouth hovered above you for what felt like hours. It was likely seconds, but the idea of having him so tantalizingly close was torturous and you groaned, “I thought you had a 10-minute timeline?”

He laughed quietly, finally dipping his tongue to your clit. You stiffened against him and he murmured against you, “I don’t think I’m going to have an issue with my timeline.” His tongue began its ministrations, pressing at the parts of you that had you squirming. “Ah…fuck…” you breathed, bucking your groin into his mouth. 

He continued working your center until he had to tighten his hold on your legs to keep them from shaking uncontrollably. You bucked up into him and called out his name, tensing your own grasp on his hands. As you came down from your high, you glanced over at the clock, but before you could see whether he had achieved his goal, he took your lips in his for a passionate kiss. You tasted yourself on him. “That was 7 minutes,” he said proudly, pulling your sweatshirt off completely.

“Well done, babe,” you giggled, wrapping your hands around his head. “Care to test out how many times you can make me cum?”

He laughed into your mouth, “Challenge accepted.”


He’d excelled at the challenge. Four times in the course of an hour. Using just his mouth and fingers. You’d both lost track of time, staying up late, which left you both exhausted for work the next morning.

You walked into the BAU, ready to start the day, when Penelope joined you. “You had sex last night. Good sex from what I can see.”

“Dammit, Pen, how do you do that?” you asked laughing.

“I can see it all over your face,” she smiled. JJ and Emily walked over at the same time.

“You can see what all over her face?” asked JJ, before continuing on without an answer. “That she had great sex last night?”

“Oh yea, totally,” Emily confirmed. “Well, I don’t think any of us want the dirty details, considering it’s Spencer, but I have to know…how many times?” She looked expectantly.

“Four times in the first hour,” you retorted, smiling at the three of them before walking down the hallway to your office. “If you want more details, you’ll have to get me drunk.”


Morgan walked into the common area to Spencer pouring nearly an entire contained of sugar into his coffee. “Late night?” he asked.

“Very,” Spencer smirked.

“My man,” Morgan sing-songed back, clapping his friend on the shoulder. “You and Y/N had a good night last night?”

Spencer blew at the steaming hot coffee, hoping to cool it down enough so he could pump it into his system. “Uh-huh.”


After many hours of monotonous paperwork, you went to ask Spencer if he wanted a sandwich from the deli around the block. You wanted to get out of the office for a bit. Plus, you needed a bit go fresh air to wake you up. As you approached Spencer’s desk, you caught Morgan’s raised eye. “Hey Y/N, have a late night, you look tired?”

“Dammit, Spencer!” you said, looking down at your boyfriend.

“What?” he asked childishly, raising his hands beside his head. “You think women are the only ones that talk to their friends about that type of thing?”

Idk what’s going on with me

I have such a good life and I have so many reasons to be happy yet I feel so sad inside

I have no reason to be sad

I have no reason to be upset

I can’t describe the feeling

Nothing is wrong, nothing happened - I just feel stuck and sad and just hopeless

I have so much guilt for feeling this way because I know I am so fortunate

I’m trying so hard to be positive and just get myself out of this rut but this time of year is so hard for me to feel happy

Idk what to do and I’m so sick of not feeling like myself because when people ask me what’s wrong I don’t even have a good excuse as to what to say


Alright, Melon awards. Those happened. Yet, every time I have to bring something up it’s because of fans. BTS won album of the year, and I’m already seeing EXO fans acting so rudely towards BTS fans. Saying they “shouldn’t have won the award, EXO should have!!” and just being so mean, and there are some BTS fans acting that way back towards EXO fans, I acknowledge that. 


I am so sick of people acting this way in these fandoms. Do not try and say BTS didn’t deserve that award, they’ve been working their asses off for something like this. EXO had great albums this year, but do not downgrade BTS just because EXO didn’t get one award. EXO literally swept up a good amount of awards for their categories they were included in. EXO won multiple huge awards last night, and I can’t believe fans are going at each other because a single award went to BTS. EXO has also won a bunch of awards the past few years, other groups can win, too. 

Why don’t you all actually support each other?

I mean, these groups are here for the same reason. To make music others enjoy. And they’re accomplishing it. Stop going at each other’s throats, say “congratulations on the win” and move on if you can’t handle anymore than that. Say you’re happy they won, and support the rise in both groups. 

Do you think they enjoying seeing us all act this way towards each other? Do you think they’re happy seeing you insult each other and be rude and violent in their name? They want to cheer over their win with all of us, but how do you think they feel when they look at comments or fans reactions where they’re insulting another fandom or another fandom is being so harsh to them? It’s not support if you’re insulting others in the process.

Both of these groups trained for years. They did not debut for you to become fans and trash other people. 

Be the bigger person and stop.

Highlights of one of my jobs

I work in a liquor store and the place is soo fucked I could rant for hours about it. Instead I’ll just give you all some highlights of the wonderful things I deal with from mainly my boss and one coworker.

- I was called unreliable because I missed one day in three/four months due to severe food poisoning. She also stated I was lying about having food poisoning.

- Coworker A goes home “sick” every weekend she’s scheduled, including holidays and has never been reprimanded for it.

- My boss, C, once told me she refuses to fire people so they can’t receive unemployment and “spend all day playing video games.” She instead cuts hours down to force people to quit.

-I just had my hours cut to 10 a week instead of the almost 30 I was getting.

- When I told C I was in the process of getting a second job and wasn’t sure of the hours yet, she told me “why don’t you just work there full time, then.”

And finally:

- C once told me that women “deserve to be harassed and disrespected” based on how they dress.

My Grandfather was a healer. People would come from all around and knock on my Grandparent’s door. Grandmother would answer and tear them a new one. Mocking them and telling them Grandfather was a fake and a phony. All along in fact, it was my Grandmother who was the Master. 

“People are stupid and lazy. They want a magic pill,” she’d say. “Healing is an incomprehensible contradictory journey that will shatter your mind. There is no cure. It’s about seeing truly, you were never sick. The universe is fucking perfect!” Then she’s laugh and offer me her cigar.

Anyway, Grandmother was complete and utter love, yet she would mock these seekers that would come to the door. The real pure ones would see through her words and threats immediately and fall at her feet. She would take them in and it was all very simple. Others would come back or hang around her as much as they could. They didn’t know what was going on but they loved her and needed to be around her. The dipshits and hardheads that persisted in trying to find Grandfather (The Master!) were unable to see her obvious truth because they were lost looking for some perfect god. “They just want god to love them, but not the devil.” So, she’d season them with some ridiculous errand or a series of tasks. Once they proved themselves or she got tired of em she’d send em up the mountain. The mountain was an epic 3-day hike through some of the most beautiful country in the world. It was also quite dangerous. When the poor bastards finally got to the top of the mountain where Grandfather’s cave was, there was a sign that read, “Out to Lunch”. Grandfather, had died long ago in the war.

Awkward moment when you realise a guy hitting on you is a racist a**hole, when you don’t like people of colour you should also stay away from black p*ssy. He posted some stupid sh*t about black men on his facebook timeline and I was just like so you can hate an entire group of people yet think it’s ok to like only one or two, I’m supposed to be flattered or feel superior just because your racist a** want to satisfy some sick fetish?! I won’t say that I regret my relationships with white men because I met 2 wonderful men who made me happy and one is still in my life but it’s moment like this that I think I’ll be better off with a black man. I met way too many white men who made me feel like I should be grateful for their attention, I’m beautiful only because they validate me. I pray to god that sven and I get old together, if we ever break up I’ll date only my own people and if I can’t find a good black man I’ll be alone till the day I die. Everyone think they can sh*t on black women just because we are “unattractive”, well my unattractive a** still won’t date you and let’s see how you’ll feel about being turn down by an ugly woman!

Ch15 Thoughts

Truthfully I was irritated and thrown for a loop by chapter 15. All those fucking disgusting other kids at the school festival (and I call them kids for a reason since they’re selfish and irresponsible) treating Bum like he was nothing. Yes they didn’t know what was going on…how could they when Sangwoo is presenting himself as a suave charmer and not a psychopathic serial killer with mommy issues to the extreme and a dependence on a very sick, deeply tormented young man who he sees as his mother yet lets suck his dick and who knows what else?! Still I’m sure I’m not alone in being horrified by those children.

*breathe self, breathe*

I’m not sure how to look at Bum right now. A;slkjdakldjas;lkdjaslkdjsa fuck. Pretty confident he doesn’t love Woo anymore but with BPD you often say shit you think people want to hear even if you don’t believe in what you’re saying. Trust me I do this all the time for a) protection and b) acceptance. Bum should be aiming for “a.” 

It made me nervous too because Woo kept running his mouth about romance. Or…WAS it romance?! When he said “let’s be together forever” that could have meant any number of things. “Be my mother substitute forever,” “let’s die together,” et cetera. 

I hate to use a classic Tumblr line but I’m shook fam. What are your all’s thoughts?