i feel like i’m not doing enough. sitting in a classroom is not making use of myself and I don’t know my purpose and i don’t have focus. i do but i don’t, it’s so weird. i want to be important and do something bigger than myself and i am not content w who i am right now. i feel lazy and physically selfish (does that make sense? i have good intentions but my world is about me me me right now and i don’t physically do things for others when i know in my heart i really want to). i’m so consumed with things that don’t matter like papers, a part time job that doesn’t pay enough…it feels like i’m balancing everything i don’t want to be doing. i’m repeating a routine that doesn’t benefit me like i feel stuck and a little lost but i’m headed in the right direction so it’ll be okay.
i want to be a part of something bigger and have a goal and a mission and discover parts of me i never knew existed along the way. this isn’t meant to be fake deep but i hate college and feel like i’m not going anywhere at this rate